mruss1

mruss1: I thought being a day of reflection that I would just write a little:)I spent most of my life on the wrong side. I was a heroin addict for 18years and the consequence was HIV. At the time it was like a death sentence everyone was dying.I survived and have learned the value of every day of life. one more chance to maybe get it right? Over the last decade I've lost four family members and I had congestive heart failure resulting in open heart surgery.They gave me a ten percent chance I obviously made it. They told me I wouldn't be able to work or do any of the things I loved. I got really depressed it was like sitting and waiting for death to arrive. I have to thank my ex Lisa she saved me and then had to save herself. Two weeks ago I climbed a mountain and I work six days a week too. I guess that you have to take back your life but first you must want it. I should thank the people here too:) They are like the lighthouse in a troubled life. A beacon of light that guides me to the safety of the bay instead of crashing on the rocks. I've been clean for seventeen years in September and poetry became my way out it was an extension of my journal. I look at what I've written a bit scary but it speaks volumes of the human spirit and the will to survive. Mark