Where Did Susan Go?
Lost inside.37 total reviews
Comment from dejohnsrld (Debbie)
There are times when death feels like the best solution, believe me I have tried it many times, but 11 years ago, I decided I wanted life, whatever it has to offer. Now I go with the attitude I don't suffer from depression, it suffers from me!!!I can't let that monster beat me. I hope you are ok. Pm me anytime-please-I know you are going through rough times, but they truly going to get better. Debbie
reply by the author on 09-Apr-2011
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There are times when death feels like the best solution, believe me I have tried it many times, but 11 years ago, I decided I wanted life, whatever it has to offer. Now I go with the attitude I don't suffer from depression, it suffers from me!!!I can't let that monster beat me. I hope you are ok. Pm me anytime-please-I know you are going through rough times, but they truly going to get better. Debbie
Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 09-Apr-2011
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Hi Deb...gee, I feel awful. I am just having the worst pity party for myself. I wish you were here, I would love to talk with you. I will do my best to snap out of it...but this crap just never seems to end. And I am so tired, I can barely type. You take care of yourself too and thank you for being such a sweet friend...I truly appreciate you Debbie. xoxo, susan
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I wish I was there too. I can identify with those feelings and they are no fun. Do something nice for yourself-take a bubble bath, watch a movie or something that will give you a short break from all the crap. It will still be there, but maybe you will be able to handle it better. That is what usually works for me, although there are times I wallow in self-pity for a day or two. Take care!!! PM me if you need to. Love you, Debbie
Comment from Margaret Snowdon
Oh, Susan, what a
depressing, chilling
write.. life is far
to precious to throw
away, my friend.
I think I must go and get a hug from my Colin.
It was only then[,] that - comma not needed.
Margaret
reply by the author on 10-Apr-2011
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Oh, Susan, what a
depressing, chilling
write.. life is far
to precious to throw
away, my friend.
I think I must go and get a hug from my Colin.
It was only then[,] that - comma not needed.
Margaret
Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 10-Apr-2011
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Hi Margaret! HUGS and a thousand thank you's! I am packing and have to be out of here in a couple of weeks. I do apologize for not keeping up with your new book...it's a wonderful story! I wish you and Colin the best spring ever and look forward to getting back to FS soon! I will miss you...xoxo, susan
Comment from misscookie
When someone tells me not to read something I'm going to do it.
And I paid the price. Just like my poem "Fire Burns."
This is a awful, depression story....
But a good one. Now I'm going to write something or hopefully read something pleasant.
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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When someone tells me not to read something I'm going to do it.
And I paid the price. Just like my poem "Fire Burns."
This is a awful, depression story....
But a good one. Now I'm going to write something or hopefully read something pleasant.
Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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MISS COOKIE! I really did not want to make you feel bad...I was really trying to keep your VERY ONERY AND STUBBORN self, safe from my rant! I love you so, and don't want to depress or cause you stress, but at times I have to be this way! I am sorry, geez. It's just a story, tho I am in a real funk right now...I do believe I have met someone more stubborn than I am!? LOVE! Susan
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You could beright about the stubborness. Hey don't sweat it that's what we writers do we write what ever comes to us, I'm sure there are thing i wrote about surprise opr got to you also...And I'm nopt sorry I wrote it I only tell the reader it wasn't me it was my muse that wrote it.(smil) So kept on writing what ever don'6t worry about my feeling after all you be warn me... And the bottom line thanks to my short term memory in time I will forget it.
Comment from CALLAHANMR
Hi Susan:)
This a sad, but highly descriptive study of a final act of desperation. You give many reasons for Susan to end it all, but most are superficial and no worse than what many people pass through at some stage of life.
The most telling thing is in tis passage:
Clammy mud and the chill of death racked her body, as Susan lightly coughed, almost choking, as her vital organs began to shut down. It was only then, that she saw the beauty that was hope; after it was too late, she knew where she'd gone wrong.
There is always a need to learn to think positive thoughts and dream of a future that can be better. To always seek and expect help. This is a pattern that must be developed before it is too late. Alas it was a lesson of life learned too late to save this girl.
I find it awkward to use your name for this hapless girl. I think for your own mental health, you need to use a different name. In fact it is never good to even use the name of someone you know for such writing.
Love and Irish hugs to protect you, my dear friend.
Roger
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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Hi Susan:)
This a sad, but highly descriptive study of a final act of desperation. You give many reasons for Susan to end it all, but most are superficial and no worse than what many people pass through at some stage of life.
The most telling thing is in tis passage:
Clammy mud and the chill of death racked her body, as Susan lightly coughed, almost choking, as her vital organs began to shut down. It was only then, that she saw the beauty that was hope; after it was too late, she knew where she'd gone wrong.
There is always a need to learn to think positive thoughts and dream of a future that can be better. To always seek and expect help. This is a pattern that must be developed before it is too late. Alas it was a lesson of life learned too late to save this girl.
I find it awkward to use your name for this hapless girl. I think for your own mental health, you need to use a different name. In fact it is never good to even use the name of someone you know for such writing.
Love and Irish hugs to protect you, my dear friend.
Roger
Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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Hi Roger! I am just in a funk, trying to find a place to live with ten animals is impossible...especially in this economy...there are no rentals anymore. I know it's not the end of the world, but I have moved so often I just can't stand it anymore. I surely thank you for this kind and most thoughtful review...it means a lot to me and I really appreciate it my friend. Please don't worry. I will be okay. I just have to get my frustration out sometimes...if you want to read something funny, go to my portfolio and see "Free Gas"? It's a silly one! ") Love to you too!! Susan
Comment from Spiritual Echo
Do you need to be so torn apart before you can reach into the guts of your pain?
This was a brilliant story, filled with tragic consequesnces and shadow fears. Nothing ever looks as bad at sunrise as it does in the coughing hours of yesterday.
Is it coincidence that you used your own name or were you imagining how it might be if you gave up?
And if so, really why would you give anyone the satisfaction of seeing you survive, or for that matter thrive.
My sister used to be called the Gypsy. Crystal ball and all and while she really didn't hail from Czech stock she had a brilliant way of reading people and looking beyonf forlorn sighs and make believe expectations. Perhaps I have inherited some of that and from my imperial throne in very cold Canada, I command you to remain the amuser and motivator of her royal highness.
Susan can die any day....nut not today!
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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Do you need to be so torn apart before you can reach into the guts of your pain?
This was a brilliant story, filled with tragic consequesnces and shadow fears. Nothing ever looks as bad at sunrise as it does in the coughing hours of yesterday.
Is it coincidence that you used your own name or were you imagining how it might be if you gave up?
And if so, really why would you give anyone the satisfaction of seeing you survive, or for that matter thrive.
My sister used to be called the Gypsy. Crystal ball and all and while she really didn't hail from Czech stock she had a brilliant way of reading people and looking beyonf forlorn sighs and make believe expectations. Perhaps I have inherited some of that and from my imperial throne in very cold Canada, I command you to remain the amuser and motivator of her royal highness.
Susan can die any day....nut not today!
Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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HI Ingrid! I bow down to your Highness and apologize for this crass story! It's just that I felt a need to rant and express my inner frustrations {of} this life that I do appreciate, yet hate. I know that's a paradox, but I can't help it at the moment!? I used my name because I didn't want to tarnish? another name on the site...I have much going on that is absolutely unspeakable right now, and cannot write about yet. It's infuriating too. SOMEDAY! I will write about it. Thank you for a fine review Ingrid...you are loved and appreciated too... HUG! S.
Comment from Chris Tee
Wow!! Wow!! What a excellent piece of work!!
The descriptiveness of all her feelings brilliantly expressed.
This story kept me captivated right to the conclusion.
I salute you!!!
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reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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Wow!! Wow!! What a excellent piece of work!!
The descriptiveness of all her feelings brilliantly expressed.
This story kept me captivated right to the conclusion.
I salute you!!!
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Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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I am really honored by this very enthusiastic response! Thank you Chris, I am simply thrilled...I edited and edited so, your review has made me feel better about all the work! ")) Thank you again!! Susan
Comment from sweetwoodjax
this is very well written, susan, i just wish you hadn't used your own name, it was a creepy picture and you did a great job putting a creepy story to it, full of imagery and emotion
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reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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this is very well written, susan, i just wish you hadn't used your own name, it was a creepy picture and you did a great job putting a creepy story to it, full of imagery and emotion
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Comment Written 07-Apr-2011
reply by the author on 07-Apr-2011
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Hi Sweet! I just didn't want to use another name and possibly insult or hurt someone else? I am in such an awful mood. BUT, I did do a funny one in my portfolio called "Free Gas", that you may like! It's blind and won't come to you! HUGs and many thanks my dear friend...susan
