Comment from Iza Deleanu

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Wow, you are so strong, you didn't crumble in piece and you never screamed why God? You grief and you move on hoping for a better tomorrow, and God have rewarded your faith with a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing and good luck with your writings.

 Comment Written 04-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 04-Nov-2021

I was so thankful that did have faith in God, because i felt He managed to get me through it with no permanent damage.
Beth

Comment from Elizabeth Emerald

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Devastating. I braced myself, having known this was coming--your agony was made excruciatingly manifest and the description of the grieving process was stunning.

 Comment Written 04-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 04-Nov-2021

Thank you Elizabeth. I could find any wry humor for this chapter but life goes on to better things.
Beth

Comment from lyenochka

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Thank you for sharing. From your other post about the class action suit against the vaccine makers, so many others had been through the same horrible loss. I totally understand the deep grief that didn't come out in tears in public. It's not about the external show of pain - especially when the sorrow goes that deep.

 Comment Written 03-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 04-Nov-2021

Thank you so much Helen. We are all made differently and grief is something best done private for me. Sometimes people judge us for not showing it in public. My mom worried that I wouldn't cry at her funeral. I loved her dearly, but she was right, I didn't. I always wondered about strangers hired to cry at funeral in Bible times. How could real feelings be involved. Was it just a show of respect?
Beth

reply by lyenochka on 04-Nov-2021

Good question. I think even in Korea, there were hired mourners - I think the idea is that it would add to the sad ambiance. I agree with you that we all grieve differently and we should never judge another person's feelings by their external show of feelings.

Comment from zanya

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A very good job done here recalling this difficult moment for two young marrieds- life certainly does deal hard blows - but hope is already beginning to take root by the end of the article

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you Zanya. it is true that we realized that we wanted to be parents and we wasted no time starting again. It is a good thing we were young and supportive of each other.
Beth

Comment from royowen

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I was wondering why I never remembered hearing about Susan, I think you did mention her, but more in passing than in your biographical narrative. That would've been devastating, I adore my elder child, she is such a godly gift. But then, I adore the younger one one, they all bring their own essence to the table, blessings Roy

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you so much for the review. We love all our children but they are all different and having another after one dies doesn't replace the lost but it makes dealing with it easier. One day, I hope to see Susan again.
Beth

reply by royowen on 04-Nov-2021

That?s so true Beth

Comment from damommy

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Having just a lot a son, this hit a chord. It doesn't matter what age we lose them, they are still our babies. I'm so sorry you went through this. They say time heals the wound, but I don't find that to be true.

 Comment Written 03-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you for the review. I sorry about your son. It has to be much harder to lose an older child. My son almost died of heart problems in 2017 when my husband was dying of cancer. Death is something we know we have to face at some point but it is hard.
Beth

Comment from barbara.wilkey

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Thank you for re-posting. Once again, I missed reading this post. I hate that I did that. I do remember reading other posts about the death of your child. I know how hard that is.

 Comment Written 03-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Yes, did write about in again recently when I started a different book encluding my deceased husband. I also wrote a separate story about thirty-five years later when the vacine company agreed to try to compensate those who lost children due to the vacine.

Comment from Jannypan (Jan)

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You did a great job, Beth, with your poignant recollection of Baby Susan. I remember you wrote of her in another post. You gave pertinent details. Though your story is heart wrenching, I could see it as it unfolded. I like the way you ended it.
Respectfully, Jan

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you so much Jan. I'm glad we were young and supportive of each other. Having another child right away was the best thing we could have done. I'm counting on seeing Susan again some day.
Beth

Comment from Ben Colder

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I know this to be true. You, like many who thought doctors had the answers but learned a lesson well. Take a perfectly healthy child into its death so quickly, all because of faith in something who knows nothing about the real Physiacen. We have experienced these things as well, and I am so sorry for your loss. Beth, you and my family have learned, so I refuse to take the Biden shot and later hear the apology from science, saying we just never knew. I am out of six.
My blessing to you.

 Comment Written 03-Nov-2021

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you for the review. I guess with any vaccine, a few people will have a unfortunate reaction. In the case of this one, I'm sure there were hundreds of cases that were never reported because the doctors all claimed the vaccine had nothing to do with it. In a city like Jackson, I personally knew two other families who lost their child right after getting the shot, the same day and the doctor diagnosed it as crib death. Because they did an autopsy on Susan I had proof and in 1996, thirty-six years later the company who made the shot had to pay the parents of children who could prove their child contacted meningiatus.

reply by Ben Colder on 03-Nov-2021

Good for you. Though it can never heal what you and the others went through at times, perhaps it saved others from enduring the hardships you and Evan went through.

Comment from Judy Lawless

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Beth I can feel your heart ache. I don't know how one gets past the loss of a child, but you figure it out I guess. I'm like you when it comes to being stoic and holding the sorrow all in until I'm alone. I'm happy you went on to have more babies. Thanks for sharing. Hugs.

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reply by the author on 03-Nov-2021

Thank you Judy. I appreciate the kind comments. Time does heal and we had the advantage of being young enough to have more children. I still think of Susan and wonder how she might have turned out.
Beth