Emotional storms overwhelm me,
Anxiety rips holes in ambition.
Depression stalks me fiercely,
I wallow in my condition.

Dismay and sadness grip me,
As age creeps slowly on.
The windows of opportunity
Seem smaller; some are gone.

A confluence of circumstances
Drops me to my knees.
In roiling desperation,
I bring to God my pleas.

My motivation seems fleeting,
Yesterday's energy's gone away;
One hour of that get-up-and-go,
Would get me through today.

What on earth is wrong with me?
The shame, it covers my head.
My deepest, surest comfort
Are the words my Savior said:

"As the Father loved Me,
I also have loved you;" *
Oh Lord, please know right now,
That I am trusting You!

I must move forward, relentlessly
Slogging through this mess.
Continually, mindfully, purposefully;
And my burdens and love confess.

I must stay close to You, Lord,
Never stray away!
You alone can bring me through
This blackest night, to brighter day.


*John 15:9 NKJV