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How the whole environmentt was humbled
A chapter in the book Lamentations of a Lost Laddy
Fumbler, Rumbler Humbler
by Badger_29
"Practice radical humility. Take no credit for your talents, intellectual abilities, aptitudes, or proficiencies. Be in a state of awe and bewilderment. Wayne Dyer
| Background First two chapters are about my childhood next, chapters recovery Sacramento, philosophy cspiritual insight |
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The Lamentations of a little lost laddy, chapter 17
My life in the heights.
Coming to Sacramento for recovery in December of 2016, was a whirlwind. you can't decide where you're going to live or who you are going to live with and it is usually a bunch of relapsing idiots. However I have to accentuate the positive here and say that every place that I've been has had a great influence on me and every place that I've been I've had a great influence on it.
When I came to Sacramento I had just had a hernia operation so I went to Mercy hospital originally on December 18th of 2016. They took great care of me, and from there I went to heritage oaks psychiatric hospital, a place I've been to a couple of times before.
While there, I started three poems and I thought to myself I can't get out until I finish them!
Well, they all turned out to twine together and become the poem,
"To Measure the Rhyme of Frozen Time, whose title originally to measure the weight and rhyme of the Frozen grains of time. But it wouldn't fit. Another one I wrote there, is "Newly Olden" which is in my first book.
I got out of Heritage oaks on February 3rd and moved into midtown independent living, downtown Sacramento. it was okay, I had a room of my own but the problem was due to my addiction I had lost everything, my wallet my ID. So, I had to go back to Marysville California to get the rent money. Well, I had connections there and first thing I did was relapse (my inner child rationalizing, a couple hits. 3 days later . . .)
So when I got back I was kindly told to leave midtown Independent living. From there, I went to Thomas Street in North Highlands. I got there late at night, around 8:30 and who should meet me at the door. Pedro, friend from heritage oaks got money on his books every Wednesday and bought eight ball! Great there want recovery!
From there I went to L to L sober living, but having personality conflict with the guy who ran it so he asked me to leave. The next place, Northside recovery turned out to be the hit I was looking for. You can find the story of my Life at Northside recovery in my first book.
I got clean time, a job, money, and published a book.
While at Northside, they sold the property so I had to move out to Diane's house. I rented a room from her, and it was nice in del Paso heights next to a cemetery, Anyway, the sale didn't go through for Northside so as a result I was asked to move back North side. Bill and Patty breen own an acre with Plaza Street on the front and Bowles Street in the back. My first stay there was in the front house, where at one point in time I ran the NA meeting. When I moved back, I went to 875 Bowles Street,
We're Bill and Patty had built five cottages each with two bedrooms, a kitchenette, and a small living room area and it was great to live in the cottage. The only problem was, my roommate Kurt, and my other roommate Mike L like to do fat lines so I started to lose my recovery again at Northside. Then, Mike L left and Kurt, who was my little brother. He lost his right eye from smarting off and was building a fire to stay warm so he's a lifetime arsonist registered it is finally give up on him. You went into schmick and I was the only one who visited in there. You can find more about story and previous chapters. anyway I I took her coffee from McDonald's and he was so happy he gave me a big hug. Before all this, I was living with Kurt and we're not he was Life of the party! He was drunk but he was happy drunk the next day he went full-blown schizophrenic because he had bought or somebody had slipped him some ecstasy so it was with this sad State of affairs that had to leave all that behind and move out here to Los Robles Street. One community health, my doctor's office paid the rent for the end of May two years ago and I moved into the place. I came to look at it as the property manager was anxious to get me in because the rent has already been paid but I was having a hard time finding anybody to help me move my stuff so allow me to digress of it the people who helped me move for Michael Perrault and his brother Anthony and they were the kindest Christian connection I could have hoped for. Then I only helped me move, we fell asleep together and I'll have very strong beliefs in the Bible. Will Michael went to southern California. Covid-19 and passed away a month ago Anthony's carrying on in the tradition of the knights Templar, an ancient order where in convicts are people convicted could either face their sentence in jail or become a knights Templar which are similar to The clampers and their ability to want to help people out. Anthony is the saint. So they help me move on when I came to look at the room I met my roommate Perry who wanted to know if I had a cigarette.
Perry and I have had our conflicts , we have also become very close and come to a mutually beneficial understanding about our circumstances in our lives.
Shortly after I first moved in he confided in me that he was having problems and doing with his wife and that he couldn't take it anymore so he said I'm sorry Darren but I won't be here tomorrow I just took 90 mg morphine + 16 heart pills.
Can you imagine how this made me feel! should I call the cops should I try to pump his stomach should I tell him not to do it but I was nudged by
The Holy Spirit who said relax He's not going to die. But you didn't but he turns grey for about a week and hated life so began my understanding that run my roommate had a split personality. 1 personality was glad that I was there and the other personality was kind of jealous of my get down I'm being somewhat of a bit of a two-bit hustler in the past procedure to try to hustle me a couple of times.
The first time he claimed that his dogged ate a gabapentin of mine and two days later sent me a text at work saying that they had to take the dog to the vet and now they move that bill and a bill for transportation. However, the people that manage the property have closed circuit TV and take pictures of everything and with the evidence that they provided me which was that nobody had come and gone that day and became clear to me that because I had money and you get this scenario.
The next evidence of the split personality was when he came home one day and told me that he'd been jumped by Mexicans and they tried to Rob him and that he was being charged with attempted murder. I sensed one of those sensational claims and ask them why they didn't arrest him right there he said because they didn't have enough evidence. He got up the next morning left and came back and told me it had been thrown out of court for lack of evidence.
The next faux pas was when because they were running the AC so often in the room, mister Eddie, who owns the property, told Perry that he had to get that PG&e bill put in his name. So he did, and I told him that I'd gladly pay a third of it I don't know why later he tallied up the bill and I came just like 65 $66 message okay I'll pay $70. We cultivated this slowly and carefully overtime saying that he was going to buy money orders for a paper trail and everything. but when the day came for the building to do I said sure here's the money but I'd like to see the bill well he exploded his room. Both been high and he wasn't prepared for the fact that this might not all go through after all the careful planning. However, as time has gone on I believe of blot brought light and reality to this situation.
Once when we were sitting outside enjoying our evening cannabis Perry explained that he didn't feel like they were deserving of all of the things that I do for them. I know the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak part of me gets angry over the imbalance in power but the other part thrives and knowing that I'm playing a vital part in the wonderful play that God had planned for me. He told me that if I follow his plan for my life maybe we'll grab me a peace that surpasses all understanding. I clean that piece I claimed that abundance Jesus said I come not to condemn the world but to give you a life. And that more abundantly! I'm living that abundance so when he told me that he didn't feel like he deserved the things I did for them, I told him it wasn't me I move to Sacramento for recovery got a job published the book and what I'm thankful and grateful even though I'm not using all of the money for the best reasons or purposes, he gives me more and I bought more and then he gives me more and then thankful and then he gives me more and then I boil it more and then he gives me more. Oh wretched Man that I am!
What is it all in well I tell you it all ended on August 2nd I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and on my own terms because I couldn't find any place that would accept me for detox things being the way that they are right now it's covid-19 I just had two hits my pants up grow up and quit using again. I said Perry look at me I don't feel like I deserve everything that I'm getting, but I realize that I've been working hard, I have a great deal of accomplishments and a great more to come, and God has so much faith in me and he's giving me a chance after chance after chance after chance knowing that if I can see the greatness that I will be that will finally be thankful for that gift and prove my thankfulness to him by following his will. This is simple as that
So, I'm working at research America and I get unemployment and activate my card and there's already $3,000 in my account then I get like six weeks of benefits to the tune of like $3,200 a month run through those and they automatically extended for the cures act. what a great time to quit! When I have all these resources available to me I have not only a nesting enough money to publish my next book in style but I also have a very nice flower garden which I've written about extensively through my poetry my acrostics and a previous dissertation on philosophy titled leave me be.
information, I would like to say that this has been a huge learning experience for not only me but everybody that comes into my environment. I give the highest praise to Rodney and Minnie run the property the great folks will help you out anytime with anything that you need to the best of their ability but they are a bit hampered by the owner mr. Eddie who also turns out to be not such a bad guy after reading my book he told me you can't judge a book by its cover.
one of the reasons that Perry and I gets along so well is because we both have a love of our family and a fond memories. A lot of our great pastime is sitting and telling stories about each other's childhood about our fathers about our interaction and about the special connection and bond that we both have with our fathers. He's a very sharp where did follow and is one of the few people that can keep up with me with my sophisticated multi-layer multi shell humor.
One day I said he said you're dizzy and I said you're dizzier and he said I'm dizzy yet. You get the idea.
His wife Christina had a box with about 12 different mineral hearts. I took the rose quartz one and made a necklace for mini it matched her complexion well. I also used to get roses on the way home from work and give roses abundantly in my household and around the neighborhood. I took the soda light one which was blue and white and made a necklace for Christina and then I made a matching bracelet and further on down the line made matching earrings for it.
I would like to say that this whole thing has been a living and learning experience which I would not trade for any price because this is what life is all about making the best with what you have available and enjoying the company of friends who become your family. I am of course referring to another piece I wrote titled friends to family.
So begins a brand new chapter of my life it's going to be filled with the productivity I crave so much I need attention any encouragement from my peers which also happens here which is why I hold you dear in my thoughts that are now more clear.
Blessings,
Brother Badger Cull
Darren
My life in the heights.
Coming to Sacramento for recovery in December of 2016, was a whirlwind. you can't decide where you're going to live or who you are going to live with and it is usually a bunch of relapsing idiots. However I have to accentuate the positive here and say that every place that I've been has had a great influence on me and every place that I've been I've had a great influence on it.
When I came to Sacramento I had just had a hernia operation so I went to Mercy hospital originally on December 18th of 2016. They took great care of me, and from there I went to heritage oaks psychiatric hospital, a place I've been to a couple of times before.
While there, I started three poems and I thought to myself I can't get out until I finish them!
Well, they all turned out to twine together and become the poem,
"To Measure the Rhyme of Frozen Time, whose title originally to measure the weight and rhyme of the Frozen grains of time. But it wouldn't fit. Another one I wrote there, is "Newly Olden" which is in my first book.
I got out of Heritage oaks on February 3rd and moved into midtown independent living, downtown Sacramento. it was okay, I had a room of my own but the problem was due to my addiction I had lost everything, my wallet my ID. So, I had to go back to Marysville California to get the rent money. Well, I had connections there and first thing I did was relapse (my inner child rationalizing, a couple hits. 3 days later . . .)
So when I got back I was kindly told to leave midtown Independent living. From there, I went to Thomas Street in North Highlands. I got there late at night, around 8:30 and who should meet me at the door. Pedro, friend from heritage oaks got money on his books every Wednesday and bought eight ball! Great there want recovery!
From there I went to L to L sober living, but having personality conflict with the guy who ran it so he asked me to leave. The next place, Northside recovery turned out to be the hit I was looking for. You can find the story of my Life at Northside recovery in my first book.
I got clean time, a job, money, and published a book.
While at Northside, they sold the property so I had to move out to Diane's house. I rented a room from her, and it was nice in del Paso heights next to a cemetery, Anyway, the sale didn't go through for Northside so as a result I was asked to move back North side. Bill and Patty breen own an acre with Plaza Street on the front and Bowles Street in the back. My first stay there was in the front house, where at one point in time I ran the NA meeting. When I moved back, I went to 875 Bowles Street,
We're Bill and Patty had built five cottages each with two bedrooms, a kitchenette, and a small living room area and it was great to live in the cottage. The only problem was, my roommate Kurt, and my other roommate Mike L like to do fat lines so I started to lose my recovery again at Northside. Then, Mike L left and Kurt, who was my little brother. He lost his right eye from smarting off and was building a fire to stay warm so he's a lifetime arsonist registered it is finally give up on him. You went into schmick and I was the only one who visited in there. You can find more about story and previous chapters. anyway I I took her coffee from McDonald's and he was so happy he gave me a big hug. Before all this, I was living with Kurt and we're not he was Life of the party! He was drunk but he was happy drunk the next day he went full-blown schizophrenic because he had bought or somebody had slipped him some ecstasy so it was with this sad State of affairs that had to leave all that behind and move out here to Los Robles Street. One community health, my doctor's office paid the rent for the end of May two years ago and I moved into the place. I came to look at it as the property manager was anxious to get me in because the rent has already been paid but I was having a hard time finding anybody to help me move my stuff so allow me to digress of it the people who helped me move for Michael Perrault and his brother Anthony and they were the kindest Christian connection I could have hoped for. Then I only helped me move, we fell asleep together and I'll have very strong beliefs in the Bible. Will Michael went to southern California. Covid-19 and passed away a month ago Anthony's carrying on in the tradition of the knights Templar, an ancient order where in convicts are people convicted could either face their sentence in jail or become a knights Templar which are similar to The clampers and their ability to want to help people out. Anthony is the saint. So they help me move on when I came to look at the room I met my roommate Perry who wanted to know if I had a cigarette.
Perry and I have had our conflicts , we have also become very close and come to a mutually beneficial understanding about our circumstances in our lives.
Shortly after I first moved in he confided in me that he was having problems and doing with his wife and that he couldn't take it anymore so he said I'm sorry Darren but I won't be here tomorrow I just took 90 mg morphine + 16 heart pills.
Can you imagine how this made me feel! should I call the cops should I try to pump his stomach should I tell him not to do it but I was nudged by
The Holy Spirit who said relax He's not going to die. But you didn't but he turns grey for about a week and hated life so began my understanding that run my roommate had a split personality. 1 personality was glad that I was there and the other personality was kind of jealous of my get down I'm being somewhat of a bit of a two-bit hustler in the past procedure to try to hustle me a couple of times.
The first time he claimed that his dogged ate a gabapentin of mine and two days later sent me a text at work saying that they had to take the dog to the vet and now they move that bill and a bill for transportation. However, the people that manage the property have closed circuit TV and take pictures of everything and with the evidence that they provided me which was that nobody had come and gone that day and became clear to me that because I had money and you get this scenario.
The next evidence of the split personality was when he came home one day and told me that he'd been jumped by Mexicans and they tried to Rob him and that he was being charged with attempted murder. I sensed one of those sensational claims and ask them why they didn't arrest him right there he said because they didn't have enough evidence. He got up the next morning left and came back and told me it had been thrown out of court for lack of evidence.
The next faux pas was when because they were running the AC so often in the room, mister Eddie, who owns the property, told Perry that he had to get that PG&e bill put in his name. So he did, and I told him that I'd gladly pay a third of it I don't know why later he tallied up the bill and I came just like 65 $66 message okay I'll pay $70. We cultivated this slowly and carefully overtime saying that he was going to buy money orders for a paper trail and everything. but when the day came for the building to do I said sure here's the money but I'd like to see the bill well he exploded his room. Both been high and he wasn't prepared for the fact that this might not all go through after all the careful planning. However, as time has gone on I believe of blot brought light and reality to this situation.
Once when we were sitting outside enjoying our evening cannabis Perry explained that he didn't feel like they were deserving of all of the things that I do for them. I know the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak part of me gets angry over the imbalance in power but the other part thrives and knowing that I'm playing a vital part in the wonderful play that God had planned for me. He told me that if I follow his plan for my life maybe we'll grab me a peace that surpasses all understanding. I clean that piece I claimed that abundance Jesus said I come not to condemn the world but to give you a life. And that more abundantly! I'm living that abundance so when he told me that he didn't feel like he deserved the things I did for them, I told him it wasn't me I move to Sacramento for recovery got a job published the book and what I'm thankful and grateful even though I'm not using all of the money for the best reasons or purposes, he gives me more and I bought more and then he gives me more and then thankful and then he gives me more and then I boil it more and then he gives me more. Oh wretched Man that I am!
What is it all in well I tell you it all ended on August 2nd I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and on my own terms because I couldn't find any place that would accept me for detox things being the way that they are right now it's covid-19 I just had two hits my pants up grow up and quit using again. I said Perry look at me I don't feel like I deserve everything that I'm getting, but I realize that I've been working hard, I have a great deal of accomplishments and a great more to come, and God has so much faith in me and he's giving me a chance after chance after chance after chance knowing that if I can see the greatness that I will be that will finally be thankful for that gift and prove my thankfulness to him by following his will. This is simple as that
So, I'm working at research America and I get unemployment and activate my card and there's already $3,000 in my account then I get like six weeks of benefits to the tune of like $3,200 a month run through those and they automatically extended for the cures act. what a great time to quit! When I have all these resources available to me I have not only a nesting enough money to publish my next book in style but I also have a very nice flower garden which I've written about extensively through my poetry my acrostics and a previous dissertation on philosophy titled leave me be.
information, I would like to say that this has been a huge learning experience for not only me but everybody that comes into my environment. I give the highest praise to Rodney and Minnie run the property the great folks will help you out anytime with anything that you need to the best of their ability but they are a bit hampered by the owner mr. Eddie who also turns out to be not such a bad guy after reading my book he told me you can't judge a book by its cover.
one of the reasons that Perry and I gets along so well is because we both have a love of our family and a fond memories. A lot of our great pastime is sitting and telling stories about each other's childhood about our fathers about our interaction and about the special connection and bond that we both have with our fathers. He's a very sharp where did follow and is one of the few people that can keep up with me with my sophisticated multi-layer multi shell humor.
One day I said he said you're dizzy and I said you're dizzier and he said I'm dizzy yet. You get the idea.
His wife Christina had a box with about 12 different mineral hearts. I took the rose quartz one and made a necklace for mini it matched her complexion well. I also used to get roses on the way home from work and give roses abundantly in my household and around the neighborhood. I took the soda light one which was blue and white and made a necklace for Christina and then I made a matching bracelet and further on down the line made matching earrings for it.
I would like to say that this whole thing has been a living and learning experience which I would not trade for any price because this is what life is all about making the best with what you have available and enjoying the company of friends who become your family. I am of course referring to another piece I wrote titled friends to family.
So begins a brand new chapter of my life it's going to be filled with the productivity I crave so much I need attention any encouragement from my peers which also happens here which is why I hold you dear in my thoughts that are now more clear.
Blessings,
Brother Badger Cull
Darren
of a little lost laddy, chapter 17
together and I'll have very str noong beliefs in the Bible. Will Michael went to southern California. Covid-19 and passed away a month ago Anthony's carrying on in the tradition of the knights Templar, an ancient order where in convicts are people convicted could either face their sentence in jail or become a knights Templar which are similar to The clampers and their ability to want to help people out. Anthony is the saint. So they help me move on when I came to look at the room I met my roommate Perry who wanted to know if I had a cigarette.
Perry and I hae had our conflicts , we have also become very close and come to a mutually beneficial understanding about our circumstances in our lives.
Shortly after I first moved in he confided in me that he was having problems and doing with his wife and that he couldn't take it anymore so he said I'm sorry Darren but I won't be here tomorrow I just took 90 mg morphine + 16 heart pills.
Can you imagine how this made me feel! should I call the cops?should I try to pump his stomach? should I tell him not to do it?
but I was nudged by
The Holy Spirit who said relax He's not going to die. But hedidn't but he did turn grey for about a week and hated life so began my understanding that my roommate had a split personality. 1 personality was glad that I was there and the other personality was kind of jealous of my get down I'm being somewhat of a bit of a two-bit hustler in the past procedure to try to hustle me a couple of times.
The first time he claimed that his dogged ate a gabapentin of mine and two days later sent me a text at work saying that they had to take the dog to the vet and now they move that bill and a bill for transportation. However, the people that manage the property have closed circuit TV and take pictures of everything and with the evidence that they provided me which was that nobody had come and gone that day and became clear to me that because I had money and you get this scenario.
The next evidence of the split personality was when he came home one day and told me that he'd been jumped by Mexicans and they tried to Rob him and that he was being charged with attempted murder. I sensed one of those sensational claims and ask them why they didn't arrest him right there he said because they didn't have enough evidence. He got up the next morning left and came back and told me it had been thrown out of court for lack of evidence.
The next descendants game when because they were running the AC so often in the room, mister Eddie who owns the property told Perry that he had to get that PG&e bill put in his name. So he did, and I told him that I'd gladly pay a third of it I don't know why later he tallied up the bill and I came just like 65 $66 message okay I'll pay $70. We cultivated this slowly and carefully overtime saying that he was going to buy money orders for a paper trail and everything. but when the day came for the building to do I said sure here's the money but I'd like to see the bill well he exploded his room. Both been high and he wasn't prepared for the fact that this might not all go through after all the careful planning. However, as time has gone on I believe of blot brought light and reality to this situation.
once when we were sitting outside enjoying our evening cannabis Perry explained that he didn't feel like they were deserving of all of the things that I do for them. I know the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak part of me gets angry over the imbalance in power but the other part thrives and knowing that I'm playing a vital part in the wonderful play that God had planned for me. He told me that if I follow his plan for my life maybe we'll grab me a peace that surpasses all understanding. I clean that piece I claimed that abundance Jesus said I come not to condemn the world but to give you a life. And that more abundantly! I'm living that abundance so when he told me that he didn't feel like he deserved the things I did for them, I told him it wasn't me I move to Sacramento for recovery got a job published the book and what I'm thankful and grateful even though I'm not using all of the money for the best reasons or purposes, he gives me more and I bought more and then he gives me more and then thankful and then he gives me more and then I boil it more and then he gives me more. Oh wretched Man that I am! What is it all in well I tell you it all ended on August 2nd I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and on my own terms because I couldn't find any place that would accept me for detox things being the way that they are right now it's covid-19 I just had two hits my pants up grow up and quit using again. I said Perry look at me I don't feel like I deserve everything that I'm getting, but I realize that I've been working hard, I have a great deal of accomplishments and a great more to come, and God has so much faith in me and he's giving me a chance after chance after chance after chance knowing that if I can see the greatness that I will be that will finally be thankful for that gift and prove my thankfulness to him by following his will. This is simple as that
So, I'm working at research America and I get unemployment and activate my card and there's already $3,000 in my account then I get like six weeks of benefits to the tune of like $3,200 a month run through those and they automatically extended for the cures act. what a great time to quit! When I have all these resources available to me I have not only a nesting enough money to publish my next book in style but I also have a very nice flower garden which I've written about extensively through my poetry my acrostics and a previous dissertation on philosophy titled leave me be.
information, I would like to say that this has been a huge learning experience for not only me but everybody that comes into my environment. I give the highest praise to Rodney and Minnie run the property the great folks will help you out anytime with anything that you need to the best of their ability but they are a bit hampered by the owner mr. Eddie who also turns out to be not such a bad guy after reading my book he told me you can't judge a book by its cover.
one of the reasons that Perry and I gets along so well is because we both have a love of our family and a fond memories. A lot of our great pastime is sitting and telling stories about each other's childhood about our fathers about our interaction and about the special connection and bond that we both have with our fathers. He's a very sharp where did follow and is one of the few people that can keep up with me with my sophisticated multi-layer multi shell humor.
One day I said he said you're dizzy and I said you're dizzier and he said I'm dizzy yet. You get the idea.
His wife Christina had a box with about 12 different mineral hearts. I took the rose quartz one and made a necklace for mini it matched her complexion well. I also used to get roses on the way home from work and give roses abundantly in my household and around the neighborhood. I took the soda light one which was blue and white and made a necklace for Christina and then I made a matching bracelet and further on down the line made matching earrings for it.
I would like to say that this whole thing has been a living and learning experience which I would not trade for any price because this is what life is all about making the best with what you have available and enjoying the company of friends who become your family. I am of course referring to another piece I wrote titled friends to family.
So begins a brand new chapter of my life it's going to be filled with the productivity I crave so much I need attention any encouragement from my peers which also happens here which is why I hold you dear in my thoughts that are now more clear.
Blessings,
Brother Badger Cull
Darren
Perry and I hae had our conflicts , we have also become very close and come to a mutually beneficial understanding about our circumstances in our lives.
Shortly after I first moved in he confided in me that he was having problems and doing with his wife and that he couldn't take it anymore so he said I'm sorry Darren but I won't be here tomorrow I just took 90 mg morphine + 16 heart pills.
Can you imagine how this made me feel! should I call the cops?should I try to pump his stomach? should I tell him not to do it?
but I was nudged by
The Holy Spirit who said relax He's not going to die. But hedidn't but he did turn grey for about a week and hated life so began my understanding that my roommate had a split personality. 1 personality was glad that I was there and the other personality was kind of jealous of my get down I'm being somewhat of a bit of a two-bit hustler in the past procedure to try to hustle me a couple of times.
The first time he claimed that his dogged ate a gabapentin of mine and two days later sent me a text at work saying that they had to take the dog to the vet and now they move that bill and a bill for transportation. However, the people that manage the property have closed circuit TV and take pictures of everything and with the evidence that they provided me which was that nobody had come and gone that day and became clear to me that because I had money and you get this scenario.
The next evidence of the split personality was when he came home one day and told me that he'd been jumped by Mexicans and they tried to Rob him and that he was being charged with attempted murder. I sensed one of those sensational claims and ask them why they didn't arrest him right there he said because they didn't have enough evidence. He got up the next morning left and came back and told me it had been thrown out of court for lack of evidence.
The next descendants game when because they were running the AC so often in the room, mister Eddie who owns the property told Perry that he had to get that PG&e bill put in his name. So he did, and I told him that I'd gladly pay a third of it I don't know why later he tallied up the bill and I came just like 65 $66 message okay I'll pay $70. We cultivated this slowly and carefully overtime saying that he was going to buy money orders for a paper trail and everything. but when the day came for the building to do I said sure here's the money but I'd like to see the bill well he exploded his room. Both been high and he wasn't prepared for the fact that this might not all go through after all the careful planning. However, as time has gone on I believe of blot brought light and reality to this situation.
once when we were sitting outside enjoying our evening cannabis Perry explained that he didn't feel like they were deserving of all of the things that I do for them. I know the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak part of me gets angry over the imbalance in power but the other part thrives and knowing that I'm playing a vital part in the wonderful play that God had planned for me. He told me that if I follow his plan for my life maybe we'll grab me a peace that surpasses all understanding. I clean that piece I claimed that abundance Jesus said I come not to condemn the world but to give you a life. And that more abundantly! I'm living that abundance so when he told me that he didn't feel like he deserved the things I did for them, I told him it wasn't me I move to Sacramento for recovery got a job published the book and what I'm thankful and grateful even though I'm not using all of the money for the best reasons or purposes, he gives me more and I bought more and then he gives me more and then thankful and then he gives me more and then I boil it more and then he gives me more. Oh wretched Man that I am! What is it all in well I tell you it all ended on August 2nd I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and on my own terms because I couldn't find any place that would accept me for detox things being the way that they are right now it's covid-19 I just had two hits my pants up grow up and quit using again. I said Perry look at me I don't feel like I deserve everything that I'm getting, but I realize that I've been working hard, I have a great deal of accomplishments and a great more to come, and God has so much faith in me and he's giving me a chance after chance after chance after chance knowing that if I can see the greatness that I will be that will finally be thankful for that gift and prove my thankfulness to him by following his will. This is simple as that
So, I'm working at research America and I get unemployment and activate my card and there's already $3,000 in my account then I get like six weeks of benefits to the tune of like $3,200 a month run through those and they automatically extended for the cures act. what a great time to quit! When I have all these resources available to me I have not only a nesting enough money to publish my next book in style but I also have a very nice flower garden which I've written about extensively through my poetry my acrostics and a previous dissertation on philosophy titled leave me be.
information, I would like to say that this has been a huge learning experience for not only me but everybody that comes into my environment. I give the highest praise to Rodney and Minnie run the property the great folks will help you out anytime with anything that you need to the best of their ability but they are a bit hampered by the owner mr. Eddie who also turns out to be not such a bad guy after reading my book he told me you can't judge a book by its cover.
one of the reasons that Perry and I gets along so well is because we both have a love of our family and a fond memories. A lot of our great pastime is sitting and telling stories about each other's childhood about our fathers about our interaction and about the special connection and bond that we both have with our fathers. He's a very sharp where did follow and is one of the few people that can keep up with me with my sophisticated multi-layer multi shell humor.
One day I said he said you're dizzy and I said you're dizzier and he said I'm dizzy yet. You get the idea.
His wife Christina had a box with about 12 different mineral hearts. I took the rose quartz one and made a necklace for mini it matched her complexion well. I also used to get roses on the way home from work and give roses abundantly in my household and around the neighborhood. I took the soda light one which was blue and white and made a necklace for Christina and then I made a matching bracelet and further on down the line made matching earrings for it.
I would like to say that this whole thing has been a living and learning experience which I would not trade for any price because this is what life is all about making the best with what you have available and enjoying the company of friends who become your family. I am of course referring to another piece I wrote titled friends to family.
So begins a brand new chapter of my life it's going to be filled with the productivity I crave so much I need attention any encouragement from my peers which also happens here which is why I hold you dear in my thoughts that are now more clear.
Blessings,
Brother Badger Cull
Darren
My life in the heights.
Coming to Sacramento for recovery in December of 2016, was a whirlwind. you can't decide where you're going to live or who you are going to live with and it is usually a bunch of relapsing idiots. However I have to accentuate the positive here and say that every place that I've been has had a great influence on me and every place that I've been I've had a great influence on it.
When I came to Sacramento I had just had a hernia operation so I went to Mercy hospital originally on December 18th of 2016. They took great care of me, and from there I went to heritage oaks psychiatric hospital, a place I've been to a couple of times before.
While there, I started three poems and I thought to myself I can't get out until I finish them!
Well, they all turned out to twine together and become the poem,
"To Measure the Rhyme of Frozen Time, whose title originally to measure the weight and rhyme of the Frozen grains of time. But it wouldn't fit. Another one I wrote there, is "Newly Olden" which is in my first book.
I got out of Heritage oaks on February 3rd and moved into midtown independent living, downtown Sacramento. it was okay, I had a room of my own but the problem was due to my addiction I had lost everything, my wallet my ID. So, I had to go back to Marysville California to get the rent money. Well, I had connections there and first thing I did was relapse (my inner child rationalizing, a couple hits. 3 days later . . .)
So when I got back I was kindly told to leave midtown Independent living. From there, I went to Thomas Street in North Highlands. I got there late at night, around 8:30 and who should meet me at the door. Pedro, friend from heritage oaks got money on his books every Wednesday and bought eight ball! Great there want recovery!
From there I went to L to L sober living, but having personality conflict with the guy who ran it so he asked me to leave. The next place, Northside recovery turned out to be the hit I was looking for. You can find the story of my Life at Northside recovery in my first book.
I got clean time, a job, money, and published a book.
While at Northside, they sold the property so I had to move out to Diane's house. I rented a room from her, and it was nice in del Paso heights next to a cemetery, Anyway, the sale didn't go through for Northside so as a result I was asked to move back North side. Bill and Patty breen own an acre with Plaza Street on the front and Bowles Street in the back. My first stay there was in the front house, where at one point in time I ran the NA meeting. When I moved back, I went to 875 Bowles Street,
We're Bill and Patty had built five cottages each with two bedrooms, a kitchenette, and a small living room area and it was great to live in the cottage. The only problem was, my roommate Kurt, and my other roommate Mike L like to do fat lines so I started to lose my recovery again at Northside. Then, Mike L left and Kurt, who was my little brother. He lost his right eye from smarting off and was building a fire to stay warm so he's a lifetime arsonist registered it is finally give up on him. You went into schmick and I was the only one who visited in there. You can find more about story and previous chapters. anyway I I took her coffee from McDonald's and he was so happy he gave me a big hug. Before all this, I was living with Kurt and we're not he was Life of the party! He was drunk but he was happy drunk the next day he went full-blown schizophrenic because he had bought or somebody had slipped him some ecstasy so it was with this sad State of affairs that had to leave all that behind and move out here to Los Robles Street. One community health, my doctor's office paid the rent for the end of May two years ago and I moved into the place. I came to look at it as the property manager was anxious to get me in because the rent has already been paid but I was having a hard time finding anybody to help me move my stuff so allow mh
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