"Gripping the Edge of the Precipite? (A)
Written on August 15th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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'All Rights Reserved'

I'm surrounded in confounded?
Abound in compounded Within the endless Grief!
God, is there ever going to be any relief for this Latter Day Saint Priest?
Being now over Sixteen years of Countless Miseries and Never-Ending Tears?
...
Why dear Lord, can I just die?
Instead dear Lord, I just cry!
No matter the reason, no matter the amends?
No matter Lord, how much I try to understand?
...
Am I living in a...
"Let's Make a Deal or Let's Pretend World?"
On Earth?
This place of my birth?
Where I lost my worth?
...
Should' I ponder the yonder and reason each and every season but it's always just the *Same?

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"Always Just thr Same? (B)
Written on August 15th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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'All Rights Reserved'

Yes Lord, let's now play a new game?
"Of, "Let's Not Pretend!"
Tired of Hating and Cursing as Pain and Anger flows forth in my Giddy Veins!
Rip and grip and Tear...
I swear!
...
"Within Times of Great and Endless Sadness?"
Eventually becomes pure and Adulterated...
Fucking Madness!
...
April Fools Day 2003?
Now, it's December 1st, 2006!
Yes, over two and a half years of Cursing Life Lord!
How much I cursed You each and every moment I awoke!
I told You I want to be...
Wake my little boy!
Can't You see?

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"Triple Suicide Dance!" (C)
Written on August 15th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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'All Rights Reserved'

"Presence of Mind exists only in the Natural World'
(Theology 46.44)
...
Slowly inow Bask in thr sunlight and even though I now journey...
"Through the Valley of Death!"
I shall feel no Evil!
Surely, the Seven-Inch and Serrated Steak Knife?
(Will now comfort me?)
...
Warning!
Graphic!
Not for the Feeble-Minded!
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Yes, I did sleep with a friend?
A warm and shiny metal?
And, as sharp as can be?
And, I called her simply...
"Miss Butcher!"
...
Yes, she tempts me and I love her toFucking Death!
"And, I so much dreams are taking away my very last breath!"
...
So, I now at 7:30 AM. on the month of November 1st, 2006.
And, just..
Five days short of my Dead wife Carolyn's 54th Birthday...
I came into my Master Plan!
Yes, I have been through the many, many, ways...
To dance...
"In the Ungodly Satanic Parade!"
But?
...
"What would you do if you suddenly lost you only Son Jay and your only wife Carolyn?"
All within days?
...
"Could you suck it all up and spit it off out like some nasty Vacuum of Doom?"
Or would you now do what I must do?
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"Come to me my little sister of Miss Butcher and serrate!"
"And, do not be late!"
"As I plunge this knife not once but twice hitting the Heart Valve!"
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"Crimson red Blood now coats my Guinea tee!"
"Lord is this the way you wanted to be?"
"To be or not to be?"
"And now?"
"That is now the question as I'm hopefully heading now in the proper direction?"
...
"After going in, lying down my tired to be little head, in my wannabe Deathbed...
"I'm not after twenty minutes?"
"Dead!"
...
"So now?"
"And, instead?"
"I retrieve 'Sister Serrated' and plunge it in deeply into the right side of my neck."
"And, what the Fucking Heck?"
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"As new and fresh Crimson Red...
"From my Mentally-ill Head!"
"And, not once or twice but Thrice!"
"And, carve and slice as if a Halloween Pumpkin Pie?"
"Lord God?
"Why can't I die?"
...
"Now Lord help me?"
"As If lose?"
"So, I decide after again lying in my sleepy deathbed and not dying?
"To now take my bottle of Depakote and perhaps that will do the **Trick?"
Approximate Word Count: 690.