"Forever Gone?" (A)
(A Re-Write)
Dedication
Written on March 9th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright C.FanStory 2019
"All Rights Reserved"

Note:
"WARNING!"
"GRAPHIC THOUGHTS!"
"There will be one of these which are Dedicated Posts for my only Son Jason each day until April First when His Organs were extracted to save four lives...


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"As the Darkness now sets in and I am now walking through Shadows...
"Shadows of the Valley of Death!"
"I shall fear no Evil...
"Surely Grace and Faith shall comfort me."
(Theology 37.81)
...
"God, my memory seems shot and I have not a clue?"
"And, it is so Damn Dark!"
"Dark as if the Devil itself?"
"And, it seems as if my time is now due?"
...
"But Lord, how can that be?"
"Dear Lord, why is this now happening to me?"
"Was I not..
'The Good Man?'
"My Fathers Son?"
"Did I not work?"
"Til Your Work...
"Was Done?"
...
"I do not understand what went wrong with me?"
"And, the last thing I can remember...
"Oh yes!"
"Yes the party!"
Note:
"The Party was for my oldest step-daughter Nicole Megan Harbach."
"Even though it was on March 31st, 2003, her birthday was on March 27th, 2003."
...
"It was a party for my oldest sister Nikki!"
"Now it's coming back!"
"Nikki's party!"
"And, she's having a W.W.F. Wrestling party!"
"But why God is this is so damned hard to remember?"
...
Note:
"At this moment in time...
Jason is in a deep coma...
"Approaching Brain Death...
"They smashed the glass and covered Him...
"Brian Cole the driver is extracted with...
"The Jaws of Life!"
"Jason and Brian will be rushed by Helicopter to Atlantic City Trauma...
"Jason will have a Heart Attack...
"They will bring him back...
...
"Yes, now it's coming back."
"I was with the kid Brian...
"Brian Cole and we left early."
"I remember he said he wasn't feeling well."
"And, there's something really wrong with him that day?"
...
"That day, as if he was going crazy or insane!"
"And, as I call out his name to watch out?"

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Note:
"Brian was depressed, severely depressed on a drug called 'Effexor.'
"He was dared to do this. "
"And, he crashed the Ford Mustang Convertible purposely into a telephone pole at over 100 MPH. "
"HE WOULD LIVE!"
...
"There are these strange and Scary lights?"
"As I remember now walking...
"Walking what seemed forever and that voice!"
"Creepy at first...
"Yes, it was kind of creepy but seemingly comforting?"
"And, it said...
"Come, forth...
"Keep coming...
"And, follow the Light...
....
"And, it kept telling me that even though it was so very, very, dark?"
"And, even though that I don't right now understand...
"Just follow the Voice and the Light!"
...
"What's this?"
"Wow!"
"I can now suddenly see?"
"But, what, where, and why is this happening to me?"
"And I alive now or dead?"
"Damn!"
"How I so wish I could get all that Fog out of My head!"
...
""But Lord, I'm not dead?"
"And, Yes, as if I was meant to be?"
"To be there!"
"And, as I look around?"
"Lord, there is nothing but Beauty?"
"Surely Thee now comfort me!"
"I fear not and I am not!"
"Bit belong like a Sweet, Sweet, Song!"
"Now, to Thee...
...
"And, there's faces!"
"Smiling and happy faces!"
"As if they're all my friends and family?"
"But Lord, why are they coaxing me to...
"To go forth?"
"And, yes I remember now!"
...
"Oh now I know!"
"The Pearly Gates!"
"I heard but never knew?"
"And, those Gates!"
"The Pearly Golden Gates!"
"They seemingly stretch so high into the Blue and beautiful sky!"
"And music!"
"Beautiful music with thousands of voices all singing in harmony!"
"And, there are Angels!"
...
"I may be lost...
"I may not now totally understand...
"My Life seem to be so forlorn...
"And, my Body may now be done but My Soul is so Strong...
"And, even though I am not home where I used to be."
"Even though I am not...
"Lord, I finally feel like I belong...
"Perhaps I am not...
"Forever Gone?"
Approximate Word Count: 723.

"Forever Now Found" (B)
Written on March 15th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"Thank you Lord I so much!"
"And, I appreciate this."
"I went from the 'Edge of Pain.'
"To Eternal and Unknowing but this Beautiful Bliss."
"As if a Gift from an Angels Kiss?"
...
"Yes, Lord it's different here, I'll admit and Your Heaven above?"
"I can feel You Are Forever and Your Ever Love."
"And, even though I see you not, I feel as if You are now watching me?"
"And, I wonder what's coming next for me?"
"After all I so miss below my family."
...
"Suddenly, I can feel something happening to me?"
"What's this?"
"Its not another Angel's Sweet, Kiss?"
"It feels more like this?"
"It feels like an itching or scratching sensation, maybe I need some Calamine Lotion Medication?"
"But also a burning under my left shoulder blade?"
"Maybe...
"Let me take my shirt off?"
"Silly me!,
"I have no clothes!"
"Well, after all this ain't Hell!"
...
"Now, let me feel this scratch?"."Like something that...
"Hatched!"
"This, this something is protruding?"
"Extending as an Extension...
"To much to mention!"
...
"And Lord, I feel that now... "As I'm touching it...
"It's growing?"
"Holy Cow!"
...
Note:
"All new and Worthy Human Beings who are brought into Heaven...
"Become Angels almost instantly!"
...
"And yes!"
"Its as if...
"And, it's growing so fast like a forest fire!"
"Because it burning more and more?"
"Suddenly, under the right shoulder blade...
"A Wing finally extrudes and within less than Fifthteen seconds?"
"The same exact thing happened under the left side!"
...
"Startled, I yelled out...
"Wow!,
"I cannot believe I have a pair of wings?"
"And, now what's all that music I hear people now sing?"
"Glory to the Newborn King?"
"No, now its...
"God Loves His Little Angels!"
"But its deafening?"
...
"Let me ask one of those people over there what is going on."
...
"Hi, my name is Jason and I just arrived here."
"What's your name?"
I Ask.
"Well Jason just arrived here, my name is Ted "
He Said.
"And, I've been here for a while of course that's because I'm dead!"
"But don't worry your silly head we all are."
"But just because you're dead doesn't mean 'He' is here also?"
I Question.
"No Bro that's below!"
"And, I guess you're starting to understand that my friend."
...
"Do you have a question for me today or yesterday?"
"Ahh...
"I don't understand why I now suddenly have a pair of wings and where's your pair?"
"Or why we're in Heaven and not He'll because to tell you the truth...
"Let me interupt you a second Jay."
States Ted.
"We keep them hidden but when were called on a mission to go below?"
"We are able to and allowed by the Father to released them."
"Only this way can we travel but people also know who we are and that we're here to help them."
...
"Well, thanks I think, Ted."
"Now where do I get my gear because it's kind of a little bit creepy running around...
"The only naked person?"
"Oh yeah Bro, I felt the same way too."
"When I passed through... 'The Veil of Forgetfulness.'
...
"When I first arrived, they said...
"Just follow the light but you need to follow that path over there."
"And, that'll take you to the one of our blessed buildings."
"And inside?"
"You should be able to find something suitable."
..
"As I left and thanked Ted, I went into the building...
"And inside?"
"There were many, many, beautiful things that would be suitable."
"And, even a lot of the designs which matched Earth's!,
...
"There was a beautiful, purple, shirt that said 'BOSS.'
"So, I grabbed that and I also put on a very nice pair of jeans and I know they're very expensive Below."
'Aremani' I think?"
"On Earth, my Mom and Dad could never afford something like that but there wasn't any shoes or boots?"
"Or anything but...
"Yes, there was a lot of sandals and there was this funny kind of strapping?"
...
"Thank you Lord I so much appreciate this."
"For I went from ' The Edge of Eternal Death.'
"And, 'Unending Pain.'
"To this Beautiful and Blessed Place."
...
"Yes, it's a little different here I'll admit.,
"And, you're having an eerie feeling above...
"But Lord, I can feel your forever Love!,
"And, even though I see YOU NOT...
"I feel You...
"Now you're watching over me and I feel safe and secure...
"But Lord, I wonder what's coming next for me?"
"I so miss below my family."
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"Suddenly again, I can feel something happening to me?"
"Again, it feels like an itching sensation but more?"
"Shut the Door!"
"Again Lord God?"
...
"Yes, a scratching but also a burning under my left and now right shoulder blads?"
...
"Lee let me take my 'BOSS' purple, shirt off!"
"My God!,
"A Second pair of wings?"
"Larger and more Fluffy?"
"Can I actually fly?"
...
"Well that's another Story?"
"As for now?"
"Gotta do something about this irritating music?"
"How many times do you need to listen to...
"God Loves the Little Children?"
Approximate Word Count:1600.