"Capturing UnReality?'
Written on January 15th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright Fanstory C. 2019"All Rights Reserved"

"As I try to very best that I ever can...
"To write these words with a broken wrist on my left of hand...
"Try to Understand?"
...
"Won't you join me in my Journey of Eternal Misery?'
"The thoughts appear but the injury is so painfully...
"Painfully Sureal...
...
"Yes, I can divide and conquer and I can most certainly Push...
"This pen...
"But Dear Lord God...
"This pain?"
"But as I try to do what You want me to do?'
"And, try tovmove it ever forward?"
"The Eternal Misery painfully Remains?"
"Susstains...
"And, Contains...
...
"Yes, perhaps it's better this way?"
"Maybe the rest of my worthless Life is meant to be?"
"To Be or not to Be?"
"But Ashes to Ashes...
"Did that Eye Must?"
"Living over and over Again?"
"in my Misery!"
"For Lord, this You should now Know...
...
"There is no more Moon of Glow...
"There is no more Sun Above...
"There is no more Stars tat Night that Shine...
"Because for me...
?...?...?...?...?...?...?...?...?...?...?
"Disturbance of All Fears!"(N)
Written on January 21, 2019
"As Time evaporates slowly... "Yes, ever so slowly...
"Evaporates Time."
(Theology 45.17)
...
"My life is now closing for me."
"Been alone for almost fifteen years."
"One relationship which was as total failure, as my almost Twenty, year, past, marriage."
...
"So what?"
'Ricky?'
'Yes God?
'Re-evaluate!'
'Okay God.'
'Hmm...
'Let me see?'
...
'I'm single but still alone?'
'Intelligent but a Sucker for Love?'
'Religious but attracts only Evil people?'
'Retired but overworked?' 'Ready and willing but taken advantage of easily?'
...
'Okay God!'
'That's me in capsulated in an Oyster Shell field without pearls.'
'And, floating in a Sea of Utter Tranquility!'
'Which was lost at sea!'
...
'I'm like a Black Cloud whom forgot how to Rain?'
'Unending Pain with no Misery?'
'Like a liner with no Silver left in it?'
'A Rainbow with no color?'
'Romeo with no Lover?'
'A Sailboat with no wind?' 'A Book of Bible but filled with Sin?'
'A Scratched Lottery Ticket that can never Win?'
...
'Okay then Ricky.'
'What you need to do?'
'Is reinvent yourself!'
'Your knowledge is immense but dispensed!'
...
'Hmm...
'Searching...
'Ricky?'
'Yes, God?'
'My advice?'
'Dust yourself off...
'Pick yourself up...
'And, today?'
'Stop trying and searching so hard!'
'I told you Ricky, that I would send you an Angel, way back in 2003.'
'Yes God?'
'But even up there Ricky, Angels serm so hard to come by?'
"Why don't you send me one from below this you should know'
'I'm sending for you Ricky... 'Yes God?'
'I know but you sent her too far below!'..
'Only demons seem to be there for me!'
'Like sticky and gooey...
'Soured Honey!'
'All they ever want?'
'Is not my body but my money!'
To be continued...
February 1st.
24.