"Written Within All of the Boundaries of My Heart" (A)
Written on June 13th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"As I reflect on my past Life."
"I must realize now...
"That time has Healed...
...
"Healed the Pains...
"Healed the Depressions...
"Healed the many Miseries...
"And, the many Woes...
"But one thing that Time hath not or can ever heal..."'Is, my 'Miss You So's.'
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"My Heart still beats and my Body is now Strong...
"But when I think of You my *Only Son...
"The Missing has been too, too, long."
...
"Holidays, Birthdays, and all The Special Occasions have blended into...
'A Swirl of Make-up Believe?'
'A Mixtured Tonic' of 'Never-Agains' and 'Tangled Weaves?'
...
"I do try my best...
(The best that I can)
"As I journal with this pen but the ink bleeds Red and those Horrible **Visions...
"Get stuck in my head?"
...
"Perhaps something has happened inside of my head?"
"Perhaps I also died with Jay and I truly am Dead?"
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"They say Time Heals, which is true, but the Scar is always visable and there to me...
"God, Can't You see?"
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"So, the best thing that I can do is to try and pretend...
"Live and hide in 'My Silent Place and continue to write with this Bloody Pen?"
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"And, then and only then...
"I can finally get past the Boundaries that seem to never Part...
"Written Within the Boundaries of My Heart."
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"Written Within the Emptiness of My Mind" (B)
(Life is But a Breath Away)
"As my Buldging Supply of Memories manipulate their way forth...
"I shall write again my friend for Thee...
...
"As Happy as a Bumble bee in flight...
"Now, hold on tight!"
"For Jay's Death...
"Is only...
"Just...
"A Breath away?"
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"Cold and Clammy...
"Boney and Damny...
"Death's Wheel Spins...
"Round and around...
"As it takes me down...
"To the Pit of Hell!"
...
"Ready to spend an Eternity?"
"Down here with Me?"
"Damned is His Son and Suicide is His Gsme!"
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"Horrd is the heat and unbearable is the Mental Pain...
"Pardon me if I try to get a moment of relief?"
"This all started with just a trickle down Memory Lane...
"And, I swear that I would dive into a volcano of molten Flame...
"If for just a moment I could be there with Him and call out His name...
...
"Hitting a Telephone Pole at close to 100 MPH will do that to you!"
"Even from a couple of blocks away, I can still feel that Jar!"
"That sad Oh so sad of Day...
"For this we can now Pray...
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"Dear Lord and God,
"I know you work hard each and every day but to You I know must Pray...
"Pray that You can take This Never-ending and Mind Boggling Pain...
"Away?"
"But why take away my only Son Jay?"
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"Lord Oh Dear Lord!"
"Am I not a servant to You?"
"Do I not Do...
"What You want of me...
"To do?"
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"My Son, My Son...
"Your Son's job below...
"Is almost done!"
"Four People...
"Suffering in Doom and Gloom...
"Suffer no more and all got a second Chance at...
'The Great Dance!'
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"No more dyalasis...
"No more pain of Heart...
"No more Liver that functions no more...
"Their Lives were restored, more Pure than before!"
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"And, I say to you on this day...
"Always remember this...
"Life is but a Breath Away."
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