Letters and Diary Poetry posted May 17, 2017

Chapters:

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free verse

A chapter in the book Selections For Book Project

Perhaps, Holding Me

by michaelcahill

there was a time when holding me seemed of paramount importance perhaps I was imbued with wanderlust and thrusting knees were not to be trusted to eschew danger      did I have a bit of daredevil      hidden in my angelic persona   I prefer to imagine myself a cuddly sort irresistible and scoopable a young gentleman with wiles, still raw and undeveloped but magnetic just the same     I assume I was not above     diaper maladies at least in the early days         I had to be loveable in lieu         of that malodorous consideration   well, it turns out all of that holding was a good thing   it ceased or became twisted upon my kidnapping     if one's mother can kidnap         but that is the story   the insane have a desperate embrace     it squeezes out rather than in     and the effect is not comforting   is escape possible when one is small if one gives all to the pedals     furious churning little legs     can indeed go far         but large people tend to         scrutinize small people it impedes freedom when freedom is warranted     its denial is forever embedded     intent is only a cerebral factor         the heart doesn't contemplate   history repeats itself it becomes grown up so it is supposed I guess it can be quantified     and evaluated         I've no such skills   there are stories, sure   there was a time when holding me seemed of paramount importance           it has always been so