| Letters and Diary Poetry
posted July 28, 2016
To Spend With My Grandpa
I can't guarantee I can stop crying long enough to tell my story of my Grandpa. I will try with all my heart to do him justice. My keyboard is soaked with my tears, but I don't care, I loved my Grandpa so. I am sure you would be crying too if your Grandpa was as wise as mine was.
I feel like I am a long lost child crying with unstoppable tears running down my cheeks. No, I am not embarrassed by my crying it is the loss I feel within myself. I miss my Grandpa and there isn't a day goes by without my sharing some little thing he has taught me along the way. My life is a lot richer for him coming into my life at a young age.
I remember when my mom used to take me out to Grandpa and Grandma's ranch. For some unknown reason, my mom never took a liking to living in the country. She was always a city girl and that I for the life of me was a mystery in itself. Oh! Well, it was her loss, no disrespect intended Grandma and Grandpa.
You have me crying again, thinking of all the good times we had together. You always had a story to tell me and my friends when we spent time with you. You would have us sitting at your feet spellbound waiting for the final chapter of your tale to end. We were always on pins and needles. I loved and cherished those special times me and my friends had with you over the years growing up.
You taught me never settle for second best if you knew I was capable of being in the running for first place. He'd say you never know what you can do until you push yourself. You have been with me every step of my life through thick and thin.
My journals are full of the stories you have read to me, also the times we've cried over the things that meant the most to me in life. It is full of the lessons I have learned from you and the road I have gone down, facing the challenges along the way, the stumbles and bumps I had to overcome along the way.
You were a big influence in my life, you taught me to follow my dreams and never look back. He once told me struggles in life will come and go it is how you handle them that is important. He said once you dig down really deep, you will find a way to work through it.
Little did I know my dear Grandpa was talking about himself. He was dying and he didn't want to disappoint me. He said you just might surprise oneself by what you can overcome if you have to. When your world comes crashing down around you, it means you just have to fight just that much harder, You just don't give up the fight, he said it is your dream and your life so be up for the challenge that is ahead of you.
I would give my life to just be able to spend one more day with you. I would love to tell you how much I love you. You have been in my thoughts, and with me every day of my journeys and your words of wisdom have comforted me and many alike.
Why didn't you tell me you had cancer? You were there with me at the rodeo on the sickest times of your life, but you never once let on. A smile never left your face even when you were in so much pain the last few days on the road.
You said you had a case of the flu and needed to go in to see the doctor. You claimed you needed bed rest and laid down that night and were gone the next day. You knew you wouldn't be getting up and didn't want me to see you suffer.
"Oh! Why Grandpa?"
I would have given up everything, rodeo, traveling from town to town just to spend one more day with you. The ribbons and awards and money were great, but not as great as my wonderful Grandpa. Money can never replace the bond we have had.
I can't finish this I am just crying my heart out it calls out to you to comeback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ` Love and Kisses `
It is true, we don't cry for the person because they are at rest and in no pain ever again. It is the sudden loss we feel. If you love someone, show them just how much you do while they are alive. Don't be estranged from them all these years, then show up one day when they die with regrets.
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