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A Dedication to Carolyn Ann

A chapter in the book "Cup of Smiles"

18 years 3 months and 10 days

by Ricky1024


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"18 years 3 months and 10 Days"
Written on July 12th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

So much time....
Hath now passed...
To just for once have back that grasp?
All those family Holidays, Birthdays, and graduations...
That were meant to be?
...
No more candles on the cake!
No more stockings hung on the mantle place with care?
Nor any sort or sight of Santa coming there!
...
No more Halloween costumes; nor
"Trick or Treat!"
Easter Bunny?
Go kiss my dirty feet!
Tooth Fairy to meet?
Just had oral surgery and even she didn't want to be with me!
...
Yes without a loving relationship?
Might as well ship myself off to sea!
Yes, to see what's in store store for me?
But Gotta first go shopping for a new and better Heart.
The old one it seems has fallen apart?
...
Afterwards?
I'll go to the five and dime to get myself a shoe shine!
Getting kind of old and Dusty.
Need a little more glitter in my step
...
My mind's now getting a little rusty?
Well Maybe then I'll try to take a new step?
Yes, take me a little Ocean Cruise!
God knows my brains getting a little mushy?
Putting on too much weight just look at my fat tussy?
...
Yes!
Now got to go to Sea!
In search of my lost Destiny!
I think it's floundering on the ocean blue?
From after all I've been through!
Then ship back to shore!
Again got to go to the store?
Yes, to find me a new Brain!
After writing this one?
I think I'm going *Insane?




*Insane: adj.
/in.san/
1) in a state of mind which prevents normal perception, behavior or social interactions; socially, mentally ill.
"he had gone insane.
2) informal .us
shocking, outrageous.
"they were making outrageous amounts of money"
...
Note: I had no idea?
(Even though I was going through several forms of severe and chronic depression)
From the recent loss of my son Jason and wife Carolyn.
That my wife Carolyn had been mentally ill before we even married.
After about ten years of marriage.
And, no kiss goodbye at night to go to work?
I never realize something was seriously wrong.
Only many years later; did my youngest daughter Dana Alyse Smrkovsky.
Yes, would tell me that Carolyn would leave everybody behind at night.
And, then go gambling with her two friends in Atlantic City.
(Lenny and Beverly)
Only to return in the morning while the children were still sleeping.
This eventually wiped out my savings and left me close to $100,000 in debt.
...
Since November 23rd 2003?
18 years 3 months and 10 days...
219 months...
954 weeks...
6,676 Days...
160,216 hours ..
9,612,962 minutes ..
576,711, 772 seconds...
...
In loving memory of
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th,1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
Note: My wife had stopped her medications.
(Three months previous before her death purposely)
If you know anybody seriously ill contemplating suicide?
Then please call 9-11.

"Safely Home"
I am home in Heaven. dear ones:
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect Joy and Beauty in this Everlasting Light.
...
All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed:
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
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