Comment from Mrs Happy Poet

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Yes my friend we do worry about our children how ever old they are especially when in your situation I hope he calls soon regards Jill

 Comment Written 23-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 23-Jul-2017

Hi Jill;
thank you so much for the kind review,

~patty~

Comment from Margaret Snowdon

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Oh, this is such a touching, heartfelt poem - pulling at my heartstrings. Although they are fully grown, we never stop
worrying about them, do we?
My middle son is in Athens, Greece, and I miss him terribly, but I know he's happy and well - and that's a comfort.

Hope your son starts ringing you more regularly, Patty.

Margaret

 Comment Written 22-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Margaret; thank you so much for the loving thoughts - I continue to pray and send him love with my thoughts. I text at least once a week - don't want to make him feel hunted. Someday, it will be better,

~patty~

Comment from Asem.inspirations

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Well Patty, you know that this poem touches my heart and I must say it is good to see him again. He looks great in this photo, happy and what a marvelous smile. I'm happy that you still have him. Never give up on hoping for him to get better. I hope one day he just wakes up and decides he has had enough. The addict has to want to get better. He must decide that he does not want to be addicted any more and even then this disease does not give up so easy. He will still have the nightmares, and craving and withdrawal. But we both know there are the success stories.

Since we have become friends in this relation, I am going to share something with you that I have not shared with many at all:


When I was addicted to crack cocaine, I always hated it. I always promised myself that I would kick the addiction. One day I woke up and started praying and begging God to just take all that desire for it away from me for good and just like that - it was gone...no more drugs but the nightmares continued. I knew it was the devil not wanting to let go of his hold on me through drugs. Luckily for me every time I smoked - it was a really bad trip for me. I could even see the smoke form into a demon that chased me around the room, knocking things down, breaking mirrors, roaring, locking doors. It was a horrible experience. Doing drugs for me wa me at my weakest point and this is when the demons attacked me. Drugs for me was a way for them to possess me. I was shocked that I never suffered a heart attack.

But...I knew that I never wanted any of my children to go through what I went through. I knew then that I never wanted them to do any drugs at all.

I guess since I never gave up calling on God to save me and he did - the devil then went after my son and he kept him.

Anyway keep praying my friend...he can still win and you can still win.

much love...

 Comment Written 22-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Tier; thank you for your share. I do know that the devil will come after those that believe. We know that as Christians, we are under attack, and prayer is our only cover. The only saving grace I have is we were all baptized together in the Lewis River back in 1996. Gregory knew more of the Bible than I did, and up until he came out as gay - he was one of the Youth Group leaders and he led many others to Christ. (I even thought he would someday be a Pastor.)

So I pray and worry - much like you did over your son - and I hope. Writing about the pain helps, and I am comforted by the readers here on FanStory who help to lift me and the situation up to God.

~patty~

reply by Asem.inspirations on 22-Jul-2017

Yep... and stay strong my sister. I am here for you...hugs and kisses...

Comment from BOO ghost

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Another tear-jerker. just reviewed a poem about a dead black cat and I got cats. Well, i got a nephew who is hooked on drugs bad and he steals and lies more than any person I ever seen. When I see the commercial about addiction and the face of a boy that says, I stole from my family, it upsets me, he stole many times from our family.Sometimes space is needed. If you free a bird and it comes back it is meant to be. Sorrow you miss him, is a mother's instinct and I bet you are a good mother. thanks for sharing. BOO-terrific!

 Comment Written 22-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Boo; thank you so much for reading and your kind review. Though Gregory didn't steal from us, he did continually try to have us pay his bills or live with us with promises to pay rent. When I cut him off financially, he was forced to learn about life the hard way - but the drugs had already taken hold. So, I pray and hope,

~patty~

reply by BOO ghost on 22-Jul-2017

Drugs have destroyed America. Seems they got to hit rock bottom before they want to change. Key is if they want to change. Like leading a horse to a water hole. you can not force them to drink. Whatever s god's will is god's will. Maybe god would be an answer for him.

Comment from Jacqueline M Franklin

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Hi, Patty

= Boy, do I ever know what you're going through.
= Drugs/alcohol has hold of my youngest son.
= Been years since we've spoke. Not sure where he is.
= You just have to let them go at a certain point.
= Otherwise, you get sucked into a vacuum.
= We set him up countless times with clothes, apartment, etc., but to no avail---always sold and lost everything.
= Hang tough, my friend.

<> A Smile Is A Frown Turned Upside-down (*>*)
<> Cheers <> Jax / Jackie

 Comment Written 22-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Jax; thank you for sharing with me - it sounds like you've gone through the same things. All we can do is pray and hope,

~patty~

Comment from DR DIP

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This is a sad write Patty am I interpreting this correctly has your son's life been destroyed from drug addiction? It must be so hard when your Son or daughter who want to love unconditionally strays like this and you have no control of.
Thanks for sharing your grief Patty I feel for you.
dip

 Comment Written 21-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi dip; you are right in how you saw the words of this poem. I spend a great deal of my time praying and hoping. I think that's part of the reason why I love FanStory - writing and reading allows me to create a different world,

~patty~

Comment from BeasPeas

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A very nicely written poem of love from a mom to a son. We miss them when they are not with us and/or when they are in trouble or we don't hear from them. He will return to you--but not now. Hugs, Marilyn

 Comment Written 21-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Marilyn; thank you so much for your kind words.

~patty~

Comment from lyenochka

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He looks like a great kid, Patty. I like that approach to remember those happy times and I hope he will call soon. But perhaps the silence means he's busy with good things.

 Comment Written 21-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi there; thank you for your thoughts. I usually get a short text on Sunday - so I have that to look forward to,

~patty~

Comment from Jannypan (Jan)

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Patty,
I remember how you shared your son's struggles earlier. You did a great job with the ottava rima. Your story in it is sad. It is one of those dilemmas that those or there or those who have not experienced this situation really can't say 'I know what you mean.' But I do care about you & your family. I will pray for all. Jan

 Comment Written 21-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 22-Jul-2017

Hi Jan; thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers - I appreciate it a great deal;

~patty~

Comment from Teri7

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Patty, This is a very sweet but a very sad poem you have penned about your son. He is a very good looking young man. It is rough when we miss our children. I know as I miss mine too! Blessings, Teri

 Comment Written 21-Jul-2017

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reply by the author on 21-Jul-2017

Hi Teri; thank you for reading and your thoughts,

~patty~