A Mother's Tears
A mother's lament and victory.29 total reviews
Comment from MelB
This is so heart-wrenching and deeply moving, Rhonda. I could feel the pain and anguish over the problems with your son. Keep praying and lifting him up to God. Praise God he has a job and what a wonderful surprise to show up in church with you.
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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This is so heart-wrenching and deeply moving, Rhonda. I could feel the pain and anguish over the problems with your son. Keep praying and lifting him up to God. Praise God he has a job and what a wonderful surprise to show up in church with you.
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you so much! It's been a roller-coaster since before he was born, but has gotten worse the last year when he made the decision to stop taking his medication. You hear so many bad stories about people who've done that, but there was nothing left I could do to help him. I had to give him to God, and it hurt me as badly as it did him. I've often been the only person he would ever listen to, but he even quit listening to me. I cried all the way through church, and then just took him home. All he wanted was to see me and let me know he had a job and a place to live.
Thank you for your concern!
Rhonda
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I'm so terribly sorry for what you have been through. It sounds as if God is working on him. It is so hard to let go, but God has him in His hands.
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Thank you, that's what I have to keep in my mind!
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Thank you, that's what I have to keep in my mind!
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Some days are easier than others:)
Comment from Barb Hensongispsaca
Absolutely the best.
I could feel the pain and anguish you do delicately wrote.
Nicely done.
I am a grandmother with a lost grandson and you wrote it expertly.
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Absolutely the best.
I could feel the pain and anguish you do delicately wrote.
Nicely done.
I am a grandmother with a lost grandson and you wrote it expertly.
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you, Barb. It is awfully hard to to watch someone you love destroy himself, and the "up" days are so much to look forward to, and so much nothing to rest your heart on. It all comes and goes, but he made me proud yesterday, however that feeling lasts!
Rhonda
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When they try, even if it is fleeting, means they can still think
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Wow, that is an incredibly good point! Thank you.
Comment from OnyxSapphire78
You poured your heart into this poem! It is full of despair and heartache. I am so glad that you are getting a happy ending to painful time. I wish you the best. Being a parent is the hardest job on the planet! The agonizing worry that comes with it when something terrible happens to your child. This is beautifully expressive and I loved it very much!
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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You poured your heart into this poem! It is full of despair and heartache. I am so glad that you are getting a happy ending to painful time. I wish you the best. Being a parent is the hardest job on the planet! The agonizing worry that comes with it when something terrible happens to your child. This is beautifully expressive and I loved it very much!
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you so much for taking the time to review! You are so right, being a parent is the hardest job on Earth, and kids these days are so quick to have babies just because that's what they want at the time, and what they don't realize is that it's a lifetime journey. Thanks again,
Rhonda
Comment from w.j.debi
Oh, how the heart strings have been pulled right from r start in this story. Here's hoping that your son will have many good years ahead of him and make your proud of him.
A very effective line which you use as both a great hook line in the beginning and a wonderful ending to bring the thoughts full circle.
Which shed more across the years,
Noah's flood, or a mother's tears?
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Oh, how the heart strings have been pulled right from r start in this story. Here's hoping that your son will have many good years ahead of him and make your proud of him.
A very effective line which you use as both a great hook line in the beginning and a wonderful ending to bring the thoughts full circle.
Which shed more across the years,
Noah's flood, or a mother's tears?
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you so much, my friend. I cried like a baby when I saw him slip in and tug on my sleeve as he did as a child! It was a bittersweet moment. I wanted to hold him tight and take him to my home, but my home can no longer help him. He has to find his own way now. Thanks so much for your compassion,
Rhonda
Comment from alexisleech
How wonderful! Your beautiful poem expressed your pain, then your joy so well. Our children pull us through so many hoops and, as you say, 'Those that don't, fall on your knees and thank God.' I am close to tears knowing that your son has come back to you, and I'm sure your poem will give hope to those parents who pray for the same.
Alexis xxx
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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How wonderful! Your beautiful poem expressed your pain, then your joy so well. Our children pull us through so many hoops and, as you say, 'Those that don't, fall on your knees and thank God.' I am close to tears knowing that your son has come back to you, and I'm sure your poem will give hope to those parents who pray for the same.
Alexis xxx
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you, Alexis. You are very sweet! Kids do put us through heartache and sorrow, but joy as well! Last Friday my daughter had a baby girl. Roller coaster children!!!
Thanks so much, your review means a lot,
Rhonda
Comment from Chrissy710
Hi Rhonda Wow what a breakthrough and it must have been such a great moment fro you to see him in Church. You wrote this with such expression and passion and love, so nicely done a good read Cheers Christine ( and all the best for a brighter future for your son)ð???
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Hi Rhonda Wow what a breakthrough and it must have been such a great moment fro you to see him in Church. You wrote this with such expression and passion and love, so nicely done a good read Cheers Christine ( and all the best for a brighter future for your son)ð???
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you, Christine, for the compassionate review. It was a wonderful breakthrough, no matter how long it lasts. Joseph has been close to my heart his whole life, but he's struck out on his own, and I've had to worry about him and where he's sleeping and what he's eating for months now. He looked so good, and he came to church. I don't know many people who will walk 18-29 miles to go to church. Thanks so much,
Rhonda
Comment from Nosha17
I am so glad he came to you, Rhonda, I can imagine how you cried. We never stop being mothers all our lives. I lived with someone with mental illness for 20 years, I fully understand it. I often think the people close to mental patients suffer equally. Excellent rhyming and message Faye
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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I am so glad he came to you, Rhonda, I can imagine how you cried. We never stop being mothers all our lives. I lived with someone with mental illness for 20 years, I fully understand it. I often think the people close to mental patients suffer equally. Excellent rhyming and message Faye
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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I agree with you, Faye! Mentally ill people are hard to live with especially when they stop trying to help themselves. He's always been difficult, but this last years has been horrible as I've watched him deteriorate. But yesterday was priceless, and he did it on his own!
Thanks again,
Rhonda
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I am so glad for you, Rhonda, I too have had moments of joy. Luckily, the person I know is nearly 80% better without medication and he is married with a wife and child and has accomplished so much. You're so welcome. faye
Comment from Mike Stevens
A powerful poem, Rhonda--I'm sorry are having to deal with this--it must be heartbreaking and tough to deal with. I wish you luck going forward.
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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A powerful poem, Rhonda--I'm sorry are having to deal with this--it must be heartbreaking and tough to deal with. I wish you luck going forward.
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Mike, your review means a lot to me, my friend. You are a wonderful poet, and a true Renaissance Man! Thanks for the 6 stars, You only give them when you mean it!
Take care,
Rhonda
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You're more than welcome, it more than deserves it. I probably should give out more, as there's some great writing on here.
Comment from MacMhuirich
This my friend is a real heart breaking tale, I can empathise as my own son has gone through much the same, but what a moment for you in church, prayers answered, the first step along a new path. Praise the Lord, long may it continue. Thank you for sharing
Bless you
John
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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This my friend is a real heart breaking tale, I can empathise as my own son has gone through much the same, but what a moment for you in church, prayers answered, the first step along a new path. Praise the Lord, long may it continue. Thank you for sharing
Bless you
John
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you, John, for sharing your own story. There are so many stories from other Fanstorians. It's amazing how many people have gone through similar situations. When you are going through it, you feel like you are alone, and now I see I'm not. Thank you for the review and the camaraderie.
Rhonda
Comment from Domino 2
This is an excellent story in a poem of how drugs and mental illness cause heartache and suffering to both the sufferer and the loved ones.
Thank goodness your personal story ended happily, and I hope the progress and togetherness continues.
Best wishes, Ray
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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This is an excellent story in a poem of how drugs and mental illness cause heartache and suffering to both the sufferer and the loved ones.
Thank goodness your personal story ended happily, and I hope the progress and togetherness continues.
Best wishes, Ray
Comment Written 19-Oct-2015
reply by the author on 19-Oct-2015
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Thank you, Ray, I do, too! It's been a long year (28 actually), but the last one was the worst.
Rhonda
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All you can do is offer love, time, support and understanding, Rhonda, and hope he respunds.
Of course, as I'm sure you know, lecturing on a better or more Godly (for all its moral advantages) lifestyle is often the worst thing to do if he wants to follow a more independent and open-minded mind-set. I sure don't mean to lecture or sound in any way wise, as I sure don't know all the answers.
The proof of that is I've have suffered what seems a permanent family rift with my only child - a daughter aged 35, happily married with two young kids (my grandchildren), so I know what heartache is...but enough said on that.
I sincerely wish you all the best.
Ray xx
