Comment from Connie P

Exceptional

Thank you for taking time to give us an update. You are in my thoughts daily and I believe that is due to God laying your situation on many hearts for prayer and support. I don't think failure is in the nature of your vocabulary, so when the going gets tough, realize that the required rest and alteration of your schedule is just part of the treatment. I'm sure your family would like to see you rest as much as possible.
I have no idea if these hot flashes are like menopausal hot flashes or not, if so, the only thing I found that helped was cooling off my feet. It sounds crazy, but sticking my feet in a basin of cool water helped me when I thought I might smother.
I can tell you've sought out the best remedies you can find for each of the side-effects you're dealing with, so one day at a time is the only other advice I can offer and I'm sure you've head that one until you're sick of it.
Take care and have a wonderful Christmas!
Attitude is a huge part of the battle and yours seems to be great!
Love,
Connie

 Comment Written 22-Dec-2010

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reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

Thank you Connie, for your kindness and friendship. I think stripping off my shoes may be better than disrobing. (LOL) I will try it.

Comment from adewpearl

Excellent

Oh, I'm having this delightful vision of you standing before the school board trying to explain why you disrobed in front of all the little ones. LOL
Loss of fertility - awwww shucks. LOL
Barbara, your poem is lovely, my favorite romance writer :-)
This is a most informative essay, and I love the little of touches of humor. Being morose is just not your style, one of the reasons I love you. It all sounds totally disgusting, truth be told, and I'm in awe that you are coping so philosophically and still keeping your sense of humor. Have the best Christmas, my dear friend :-) Brooke

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 Comment Written 22-Dec-2010

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reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

I will let you know how disrobing worked for me. Having a you say my poem is decent, coming from the Queen of Poetry is an honor. Thank you, but by reading your review, I realized I have spelling error in the title; must fix!!! Merry Christmas.

reply by adewpearl on 22-Dec-2010

That's so funny - I just finished PM'ing you about the misspelling. LOL

reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

To be honest last Thursday I had a melt down, the tears and all. I honestly felt I could not go on. I had to go in to the hospital for and EKG and an ECHO to make sure Phase One had don't any damage to my heart before I started Phase Two. After those tests, I had a meeting with my chemo Dr's nurse. I totally lost it. She was wonderful. Anyway, the next day, my body said no more. I was totally exhausted. Maybe the reason for the tears. In the 26 years of marriage this was the first time my husband had seen me lose it. He didn't know what to do, I usually am the strong one in the family. I scared the poor man to death.

reply by adewpearl on 22-Dec-2010

Hey, the man was in the military - he can take it! :-) That amazes me that in 26 years this is the first time you've broken down in front of him. You need to cry, just cry. YOu need to punch a pillow, punch! You need to scream, let loose!

reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

I always felt I need to be strong. My mother-in-law used to say she never met a stronger woman and I wore that strength with pride, but now I am required to fight a battle I am struggling with because much of the outcome is not up to me but to God.

reply by adewpearl on 22-Dec-2010

I love strong women, but there is just not one little thing wrong with a wee bit of human frailty, my lovely friend :-)

reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

I am discovering that.
It was my strength that go me through raising 4 boys with my husband active duty and moving all the time. Now it will not help me. I need to rely on others for that strength.

Comment from gramalot8

Exceptional

You deserve a six just because of what you are going through. Good luck and in spite of it all, I hope you are able to enjoy the holidays. Merry Christmas to you and yours!

 Comment Written 22-Dec-2010

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reply by the author on 22-Dec-2010

Thank you for your kind review and even kinder stars.