"Realizing the Benefits of Me?"
Written on April 1st, 2003
By Jason in Heaven
Sorry Mom, Sorry Dad.
Sorry My Sisters...
Cory, Dana, Nikki, and Kyle.
But there is something I think you to should know.
...
Firstly, I want to express...
(At best this Quest).
That I no longer exist in My fractured body.
And, since there is no sense crying over...
'Spilled and Soured Milk.'
The necessary and needed changes have been cast.
You see, for Me, it was My...
'Fate and My Destiny.'
...
Dad, Cory, Dana, Mom, Nikki, and Kyle...
Please don't be mad."
I think Mom and Dad that you'll understand that this was the way for me."
And yes!"
The pureness of price runs cheap and deep because of that stupid kid Brian Cole."
And, what he did to Me in *2003."
...
And, because of he...
There's really not much more here for **Me."
As I'm trying to realize the benefits in Me."
But it's hard...
So very hard...
You see?
...
Yes, I messed up and I did as he did.
I'm so, so, sorry Nikki and Kyle.
And, You are not just My step sisters.
You are My sisters.
And, Nikki.
You probably are extremely upset and Kyle?
Even though there were some rocky times...
Sometimes the past is now last and the future is best but for you?
"It's now your time and time will tell."
"You will have more children in the immediate future."
"I never will."
"And Nikki?"
"Unfortunately for you?"
"You never wil�?�¨l have a child but you'll finally...
(One day)
"If you ask...
"The Lord and pray.
You will get your wish someday.
But for you Corey.
No way too.
Your life is so complicated and intense right now!
And,, once you finish four more years at Rutgers.
You will be extremely successful.
...
And Dana.
We were so close only ten months apart!
And one, fine and Blessed Day.
You will have a Son...
A beautiful Son!
My gift from above because remember way back in 2003?
When I told you?
When you were told to ride in the car with you sister Kyle?
ot with Me the driver Brian Cole.:
Yes, not to ride with us.
Because for Me?
Because it would soon be...
'Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust.'
...
Yes, I knew My Fate and My Destiny.
Just as Christ had died on the Cross for the sins of Future Mankind...
I too would die in that 'Death Car' by a Mentally-Ill Maniac!
Dead set on Suicide!
...
But as a result?
I give life to four, lucky, people.
And, I had a feeling that it would come.
...
Be happy Dad and stop crying.
Mom is here now with Me and she's happier now above then below.:
And Yes, I knew I would come back to My Heavenly Father cuz He told me so.
I knew it at a very, extremely, young age.
As I now must turn the page."
That this was the way it was going to be.
My Future and My Destiny.
...
Yes, I was only eighteen years old but I found My purpose in my dream."
For, I died not once but twice."
As I offered to this World." 'My Gift of Life!'
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