I've been waiting for rain
The forecast the last few days 
has been overwhelming
with 50 60 100 percent chance for rain
It came all around us
But not at my house
There was sunshine everywhere
but i stayed inside 
sure that the rain would come
and I was safe inside these walls

Last night, I stopped waiting 
I have been waiting for the answer to a question 
One I have been waiting for all month
In someways, the waiting has crippled me
unable to make plans 
or move forward
expecting some outward 
other world to make decisions for me

so I made plans for today 
To run outside
play in the creek 
shop for no reason
buy a new color for my wardrobe
or try one more time to make an omelette
without burning it

I decided to quit waiting 
for something 
that might not happen

and

I woke up to thunder
and pouring rain