@@@%%%%$$$^^^^ "Say You'll Remember Me?"^^^^$$$%%%% By Ricky 1024
{Written on November 14th, 2015}

{Written November 11th, 2015 only nine days after Jason's 31st Birthday}"
"Say you'll remember me, even if it's just pretend trying hard to live again...
"Say Jay...
"You'll never forget all of those times, River's of Rhyme...
"One at a time...
"Say you'll remember and never forget...
"Your Basketball games, you concerts I attained...
"All of our Hopes and Dreams...
"So, so, long ago...
"It now seems...
"God in the least?"
...
"Jay...
"And I now can say...
"You'll remember way, way, a time...
"Long ago when You were so happy and I was so...
"So glad now so sad...
...
"So happy then and so glad...
"That God had given me this 'Truly Sacred Gift of Love."
"From that place, God...
"Where He now lives forever...
"Above..
...
"And say, my jay, My Heart, My Soul, and then...
"My Life...
"That when I cried for you...
"I would have rather ed...
"Died for *you...


<><><><><><>*************"My Bleeding Heart-Ache"*************<><><><><><>
By Ricky 1024
<><><><><><><>Written on November 13th, 2015<><><><><><><>
{Poem #2}
"Heat encapsulated...
'Encapsulated and insulated...
"Heart?"
'{Stuck inside}
"Tears...
"Just want to cry...
"Tears?"
"Just want to run and hide...
'Tears?"
"Just need to die...
...
"Clogged arteries...
"Pulsating but slow...
"Heart clogged...
"But I can't and won't...
"Let go...
...
"Have you no pity?"
"Have you no idea?"
'No clue?"
"Why God was it due?"
"I have no idea or clue...
"Why you took away...
'My only Son...
'Jay?"
...
"Why you left me behind?"
"And now I just cry...
"Die...
ing...
"Inside...
...
"Happy endings?"
"For me?"
"Are more or less...
"Lost in an eternity...
'Infinity...
"Life?"
"God?"
"Falling sateen tears of mine...
"Collide with the grief and the pain...
"Trapped forever...
"Memories...
"Trapped...
''In Part...
...
"Time...
"Again...
"Diseased...
"So, so, pure...
"No Cure..
...
"Time...
"Again as I continue with pen...
"Can't eat...
'Can't sleep....
'Just thoughts of you...
"'Broken Heart in to...
...
"A moment...
"Can't breathe...
"God, Why to thee must this be?"
"Why tis thee not interested in me?'
"Why to thee this is my quest!"
'Write to thee...
'Hath you not granted my death?
"...
"It'd so Hard...
'Tried three times to die...
'Suicidal Intentions...
"My disease...
"Please forgive me...
"I just want to be...
'With my Love...
'Now forever **encapsulated...
"Above...

<><>!!!@@@###$$$%%%"Reflections of Long, Lost Memories"%%%$$$###@@@!!!<><>
By Ricky 1024
Written on November 13th, 2015
{Poem #3}
"Reflections...
"Mirrored of my life...
"Long lost...
"The only son...
"Then the wife...
"And unfortunately....
'My life...
"Because...
"Grief cuts and carves like that **steak knife...
"Breaks you down to insanity...
'The only remedy...
'Is to take a ride with...
'Suicide...
...
"Reflections...
"Objections...
"Conceptions...
*"Resurrections...
"Too, too, much...
"Too, too, soon...
'Not enough of me left...
'To handle all of this gloom and doom...
...
"Reflections....
'Mirrored images of he and she...
'"And now there is no Soul....
'Left in me...
...
"Reflections of My Heart...
"Entangled arteries...
"Clogged ...
'No blood to the Heart...
...
"Reflections of Long Lostness...
'Yes I have had a few....
"No mirror, mirror on any WALL..
"No Happy of SMILES...
"No body CARES...
"Dear God...
"Can't You Bring me there?"

!!@@@@####$$$$%%%%^^^^&&&&"My Brokened Down Heart!"^^^%%%%$$$$####@@@@!!
{Un-usual and Incredible Flow}
Written on November13th, 2015
{Poem #4}
"I died yes...
'A ZILLION of times...
"Kissed the Cross...
'No relief doth I find....
'No God to listen to...
'My heart as it beats in a rhythm of few...
...
"Every word this pen writes...
'Blood of me on this skin...
''Holds me tight!'
"Encrypted words inside...
'Crying my heart out...
'Because I ****DIED!"
"I just don't want to live like this...
"Anymore god...
'Lost the son, the wife and the job...
"Lost myself and almost my house...
'So God, now I write to you....
"As a whimpered and beaten down...
'As mouse...
...
"From 'The Other side'
"At least I can Say God...
'I tried...
'Tried to live for thee...
'For Jay and all that he means to me...
'Taken apart...
'Broken tis The angel heart...
"I now reflect...
...
"Time...
"Again...
"Passes me by...
"Over and over....
"Again....
"Every waking hour...
"Can't eat right or ever sleep ...
'Peacefully through...
'The night...
...
"A moment!"
"Can't even breathe...
"Do I deserve this God?"
"Now when should I believe?'
...
"Believe that there can be...
"Seemingly simple, of life again God...
"For me?"
"Then God, why am I so interested...
'In death?"
"Blow these 'Silvered Kisses.'
"A DAGGER in my breast!!!
...
"It's so hard God...
'Lost even my 36 year carrier...
'Job...
"Tried three times to go back...
"After three nervous breakdowns....
"That no longer tis my Quest...
...
"So, I write to thee God...
'From thee to humanity...
"These beautiful and never ending thoughts aglow...
''In My Unusual but *******Incredible...
'Flow...