Depression



The sun has lost its way
Where are my tomorrows


Deep down the depths unknown
I linger in anguish
I languish alone

And I am sad for myself

Tired by depression
My mind numbs destiny
And I succumb
So softly to sadness

And I have no energy
To fight the grasp of the beast
Entombed in my heart
The I that I was
Is no longer the me that I am
Nor the me that I am will be

Depression morphs dimension
It purges time
While forgetting fate
Recognition fades
Voiding tomorrow
And the image
We seek
As Godly souls
Disappears to remorse

Youth of forever
Growing in years
Where have you fallen
Down idealic alleys
Down streets of forebode
You vanish
Like raindrops
In measures
Pretold

Friends
So quickly made
Disappear
To the clock
And the thoughts of death
Go from brick to rock

Quick witted jokes
Matted upside inside

Where are you now
Were you painted
Like the face of the morning sun
Or does your mask of beauty hide itself
Beneath a faceless shadow
That no one sees
And no one finds

Where are you now

People smiling
Eyes having fun
Loud gushed laughter
Life
In the sun

Was I really funny
In those golden days
Or was the gushing laughter
That soared from the bellies
Of passers bye
Something I imagined
For surely
Now
I see no humor in what is

Flirtatious girls
With fancy blushed lips
Boosoms bursting towards life
Ripe
With fertility
Awaiting me
Quivering in want
Awaiting me
Yet I am numb
To their touch

Is there no solace
For this barren heart
Oh how I stirred for passion
Oh how I stirred for reason
Oh...
How I gazed blindingly into the future
And imagined
Evenings of tenderness
Where desire and arousal were
The keys to an unlocked
And unexplored universe

That laughter
Her smile
Gone into hiding
Where is she now
Where is the smile
Where is the tease
Where is the promise
Of golden dreams

Visions of hope
Left to blackness
Gone
Like memories
Never to surface

And I am blank
And I am tired
And I am sick