windbeneathmywings: The past couple of years has been harder than anything that I ever thought I ciuld ever handle! I've been through alot in my life more than any one person should ever have to endure. But in 2009, I lost my daughter. She was only 22 years old.In 2010 I lost the person who saved me in more ways than I could ever count, my best friend, my lover, the man who could see the real me, and always saw the good in me. He was my husband Jim, we married April,10 1999. He was truly the love of my life.He had been sick and fighting for a long time and he did fight to hold on to life. He never gave up not ever, he always made me feel beautiful, and we were never apart. And I mean we were never apart the last few years, he even had started going to the place I was working.So I had to give up working which was ok, I'd give up anything to help or make his life better. I don't know how to live life without him. I feel like half of me is gone,the part that made me laugh,and want to enjoy everyday things it's hard to explain when you lose a child suddenly and then a spouse the world just doesn't make sense anymore. I know God has his plan but why take so much from some and take so little from others? I've had so much taken all my life that I've learned just not to want , that way it can't be taken away if you don't have anyone. Being alone is different than being lonely. |
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