Nefretiri: It is over. I finally finished watching all the sailor moon episodes there are anime wise. It took me a good couple of years but I completed it. Strangely I found myself not only nostalgic but also really lonely. I live in a house full of people and yet I find myself still part of the back round and it makes me sad. I remember when my life had many people in it. Then my little love was born and then the division started. Not only from my friends but also from my family. Watching the anime reminded me that I was always a little different from the rest. Just decorating the back round unless noticed. People that I thought would be in my life for a lot longer then they were dropped me quicker then I could say bye to them. I think I need to get out a little without the baby. I guess I am thinking too much. Wish me luck I have an interview tomorrow. |
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Nefretiri: I had many pets in my house when I was a child. This lead me to believe that allowing my son to replace his loneliness with a dog and my small emptiness with a new cat that this would be fun. Obviously I didn't recall it was my mother who was doing all the training and me doing all the benefit reaping lol. This day was a bit hard juggling a the 2yro, almost 3yro dog, and 1yro cat. When I was a kid I said I didn't want children that all they do is fight and cry. Then as a happy pregnant mommy I said maybe another one then that's it. This changed after I was in my second trimester and saw no one wanted to really help me and it was hard to take care of just me, so I said NO MORE. Now some how I have 3... 3 big babies all hyper active and not all the snacks in the world to shut them up lmao. But Im still smiling... how I really don't know but I must be doing something right since neither one of them have killed the other. |
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Nefretiri: Frustrating day today but I got a poem done and the next chapter to Black Ball in and safe. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, for now I must complete this resume for my friend and his brother before he gets here tomorrow. On a lighter note today was routine check up day on my calendar. So I went to the doctor did my physical and was brought to almost every women enemy. The dreaded scale. The evil device that looks at you from its numbery window and laughs as it watches your face changes in to horror and denial lol. However today I had the last laugh. I lost 2lbs and I am proud of it lol. This walking the dog thing and actually having a breakfast is working out after all. |
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Nefretiri: To think that the little dog gets here and the dog is more excited to see someone to play with then my son is.... This kid really makes me wonder about my own thought process sometimes. |
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Nefretiri: I hate having a untidy house when company is coming. My son is going to have a new playmate soon. I am happy that we are getting the little puppy so my son will not notice that I am not willing to give him another little brother or sister lol. But I do feel for the lady who is making the decision to give him to us. Times are real hard when you cant take the friend who was there comforting you for your sad times. The friend who was playing with your kids for the last 3years because someone wants to up the rent and force you to move. Continuing with my clean up mission with pee pee boy behind me.... darn I am going to have to clean that up lol. |
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Nefretiri: Gasp!!! "I lost a whole duck!" lol. I love watching cartoons with my son. The Stuck Duck episode from Peep and The Big Wide World always makes my son laugh like he is being tickled by a feather :). |
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Nefretiri: I read this wonderfully captivating poem by a Lena Borghi a few weeks ago and it inspired me to move past my art block. I finally scanned in my progress sketches. Hopefully when all is said and done I accomplish doing her poem justice with my imagination 0n paper. |
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Nefretiri: Today was a good day. In this horrid small heat wave I and my son managed to have a good day. Today was my cousin in laws birthday. So me and my boy helped set up and do some running around. Afterwards my other cousin came with his brain dead teeny boppin girlfriend and her kids. (Yes god only blessed me with cousins) We ran about tossing my sons over sized ball around. Needless to say it was a really good day. Still have to give the birthday girl her gift BUT I got my son to go to bed on time. Progress is great lol. |
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Nefretiri: I have been wondering if things will ever get any better. I still have yet to find a job and my sons act ups are getting worse. Of course with a 2year old it is to be expected but I still wonder if it will end with him always getting me to play "Munchy" before bed then passing out with him from exhaustion or me finding him asleep on his own and me able to do something other than the mommy routine. God I miss having some kind of time for myself. Silent time for myself anyhow. Even when his father comes to see him when he can its really not time for me. I need new friends. |
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Nefretiri: I remember going to the Puerto Rican day parade when I was a kid then a cops horse tried to eat my aunts funny colored hair and our tradition changed from the parade to the Weschester county fair lol. How I wish they were still open, I would have taken my son there today. But I still have time to find something fun for us to do before I have to start worrying about it :). |
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Nefretiri: Yes I have been very busy lately. Looking for work is starting to get a little downing. However I heard a old song today that left me a little inspired so I will be posting it in the morning. |
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