I've had a problem the past few years
Instead of Christmas joy, I have Christmas tears.
It is most upsetting and I know not why,
That nowadays, this time of year makes me want to cry.
I've always loved this season, the decorations, colored lights,
But now, to stay on an even keel is a daily fight.
I still love the Christmas Story and believe it with all my heart,
And I try every year to figure out what made this start.
This sadness and depression that I feel this time of year,
When, a few years ago, it brought such cheer.
I would decorate my house from bottom to top,
It was two weeks of working on it non-stop.
My home was a showplace, the parties would be here,
But things are very different now I fear.
This year just a few decorations and a tree,
And of course I'll display my nativities.
I've packed up most of my decorations,
Called the Veterans and they do a run.
They take my precious things to sell in their thrift shop,
I've come to be one of their favorite stops.
My cookie jars, dinnerware, snowmen, like new,
But I'm happy to raise money for Vets. Its a good thing to do.
I hope and I pray,
And look forward to the day,
When I will love Christmas again, the music and sights.
I don't expect that to happen, but then again it just might.
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Author Notes
I've been doing very little reviewing this month and wanted to apologize to all my wonderful writers. I still love your stories and poem, but starting the first week of Nov, I start getting depressed. Some days are good, but others are overwhelming and the worst of it is I don't know why I feel this way. It started about 4yrs ago.
Anyway, I hate it. I've always loved Christmas especially the music, but don't want to hear it. It is a huge bummer.
I decorated using cooking jars,had a huge Christmas cookie Jar collection, around 60, and tons of dinnerware, but have given most of it to the Vets or friends and co-workers, it was hard. I have kept my favorites. Will get rid of more this year. I just can't decorate like that anymore. ={ Poo.
I got all my decorting done today, so glad, had to make myself do it.
Even though it has become a difficult time of year, I know the reason for the season and rejoice that the Savior was born to take away the sins of the world. I'm so blessed that He took away mine and loves weird little me. =}
Anyway, if I don't get on much this next month, I do hope you all have a wonderful Christmas. Much love, Rox
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