"Bittersweet Memories of You"
(Until the End of Time?)
Written on April 7th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Bittersweet memories are defined as past thoughts that no longer exist except in your mind."
(Theology 45.09)
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"I crave Thee...
"I crave and Need Thee...
"I crave, Need, and Miss Thee...
"But You no longer exist....
"Exist but within the perimeters of my Mind...
...
"My Life now is defined as...
'A Left-Over Piece of Moldy and Mildew Bread.'
"That is no longer wanted or needed?"
"No Sugar Plum Fairies dancing here in my Head...
"Just past wanton needs of wanting to be Dead...
...
"Perhaps yes, I'm better off Dead but I tried that and failed miserably way back in *2003!"
"And, my blood still flows and Exists...
"Unfortunately still exists in me."
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"Dear Lord, haven't I been good?"
"And, did as You instructed...
And, did as I should?"
"Was I Knotty Baddy as a Flower that needed to bloom?"
"A little and scared mouse that would never leave it's little and scared mouse room?"
"Why do I just want to give up and die?"
...
"Is it those...
'Bittersweet Memories' all trapped and tangled up inside?"
"Caressing off the Cornered Spectrums of my mind...
"Ricocheting off the 'Outer Edges' of my Twilght Zone?"
"Lost with theres no...
"There's No Place Like Home?"
...
"Is it that they still Haunt and Taunt me?"
"Never leave me alone and displeased me?"
"They rapture and Capture me and still make me cry?"
"Oh me Lord, Oh My?"
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"The Beach when He was only three?"
"The Basketball Games when He finally won...
"I went Insane?"
"The many School Concerts...
"Our drives back and forth to Work...
"His hopes and my Dreams all just seem...
"Like lost memories trapped in 8 by 10s?"
"Can't You Lord see what is still happening to me?"
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"I cried myself to sleep...
"Last night."
"Like almost each and every Night and Time...
"Lord, is it supposed to be like this...
"Like this...
"Until the End of Time?"
Approximate Word Count: 349.
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Author Notes
*2003:
"On March 31st, 2003 my Spn Jason made a mistake and road on a car with a mentall- ill child named Brian Cole."
"Jason was seriously Brain Damaged and we had no choice but...
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"And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations."
"Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life."
Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1."
"And, thanks from the bottom of my brpken Heart and my son Jason's donated Heart."
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist...
'cleo85,' and her incredible picture...
"Dream"
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