Why do I toss and turn
why does my body burn
why does anxiety possess
and why me does it obsess

Why do I wake up in a sweat
why do I have feelings of regret
why do I always self reflect
what atrocities do I detect

Why hide my truths on a shelf
questioning everything in depth
even when feeling as if I'm sure
It's quite painful to be insecure

Why do I passively self sabotage
I'm the adversary in camouflage
Why am I my own worst enemy
my life is a book of complexity

Even at this stage of the game
I'm as sure as I know my name
yet I'm full of indecisiveness
I'm not confident to impress

Maybe its because I've been rejected
that is why I'm so negatively affected
when did these feelings originate
and in my psyche they permeate

Somewhere the answers exist
so in this journey I must persist
to find all the answers to the why
somewhere unconsciously they lie