| General Poetry
posted June 28, 2019 |
A true story
Been To Hell & I've Come Back
That morning I started thinking by lunchtime I'd switched to drinking
Come nightfall I was smashed out of my addled brain
I don't recall what I did next maybe sent some abusive text
Then I found solace in some pills called novocaine
My mind clouded over I woke naked in a field of clover
Loud music roused me angry from a restless sleep
Guess it was sometime 'round midnight dense clouds blacking out the moonlight
Rain falling heavy 'twas circled by squawking sheep
Like a mist the fog was easing my entire body was freezing
Memories of last night were somewhere lost from sight
My head was in no condition, and my eyes sought recognition
I just prayed to God; 'Help me make it through the night.'
"I promise it won't cause no harm," that's what you said at Gregor's Farm
A weekend where we started out smoking Mary J
Then you brought out real heavy stuff, called it cocaine but it was rough
And some mean bastard spiked my drink along the way
No mem'ries at all after that found near dead in a granny flat
I'd been to hell and back but somehow I survived
Now I've been clean for half a year those fears I knew will never clear
Though I know I'll never beat it, hope has arrived
I try and talk to God each day and in every word I say
I seek forgiveness for the stupid things I've done
My thirst for coke don't go 'way but I get stronger everyday
And I draw comfort from a very special nun
My offering to ev'ryone what I did wasn't easy done
I know I'm asking more than I can justify
All those years I denied Your name I'm back now and I take all blame
Pleading for answers, God can you please tell me why?
I was weak when I needed strong I tried most things just to belong
I was so desperate to fit in with the crowd
Somewhere I changed along the way the good Lord stood with me each day
Now I hold my head up I'm bent but not unbowed
I sold my soul for a hit of smack been to Hell and I've come back
But I know now you rode with me the entire way
When I'd slunk to my lowest low and I had nowhere else to go
Felt less than worthless. Your words got me through each day
Don't know where I'd be without your aid you said you were God's hand maid
You saved my life that day you sat and talked with me
I'd never known no Nun before, you didn't judge me when I swore
You just held my hand and smiled so kind and friendly
Told me your name, Sister Percy, provided me with real mercy
Said your role was to care for those who were unwell
You didn't try to lecture me you just sang that song 'Let it Be'
'You whispered words of wisdom,' freed me from my hell
You walked with me through my withdrawal never lost patience when I'd fall
'Before you walk,' you would yell, 'First, you have to crawl.'
When you're in doubt, 'just kneel and pray,' it was another thing she'd say
'And remember my dear, God's in for the long haul.'
Now when I look back I still see God's angel was Sister Percy
Today she's still with me though she has passed away
She stood with me when I gave birth, provided belief of my true worth
Most important of all she taught me how to pray
I thank God every day for giving me strength to find the way
And his angel Perce kept me from going astray
She was my life's best teacher. I wish some days I could still reach 'er
To thank her but I doubt I'd find the words to say
I've been to Hell and I've come back it's been a long and lonely track
Memories of Sister Perce guiding what I'd say
She helped me rebuild my shattered life got me through those times of strife
I still hear her saying, 'God put me there that day.'
God helped me to rebuild my life I met a guy now I'm his wife
He knows my full story he walks with me with pride
I know he was my second chance an Angel inspired circumstance
Percy's heavenly gift before she left my side
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This is a factual story, true but tragic. It was told to me by the person involved and I converted it to verse. I hope my poem does justice to her efforts to overcome her addiction. To her credit she is still drug free.
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