Self Improvement Poetry posted January 4, 2016

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Fighting my inner demons.


by brenda bickers

There are feelings buried in me that I never want to feel,
They stir up my emotions and sometimes make me ill.
So I hide them in a little box, I keep them far away,
and hope that they remain there forever and a day.

They creep into my daily life; I try to keep them out,
they make me very nervous; they make me scream and shout.
I've tried so many remedies to keep them all at- bay,
but they spring up to the surface, snatching happiness away.

They've been coming for so long now, I guess they're here to stay,
as sometimes they become me in all I do and say.
I will not let them fool me; I will not play their game,
they can have all thoughts rejected, but they will not take my name.

Often there are moments when I'm living in despair,
it makes me stop believing; it makes like I don't care.
Dark depressive moments when they lurk inside my head,
make me feel like giving up by wishing I was dead.

Some days I brush them off without a second thought,
sometimes they take over, and I know that I've been caught.
These are the days I know when I have to bide my time,
to regain my inner spirit and make my body mine.


I have suffered from depression and anxiety for over thirty years now.
It has had a huge impact on my life, preventing me from living a normal existence and moving on in the way that is expected in life's progress.
I will not be beaten, I will survive. This was written when I was having good positive day. It's written with belief and determination.
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