General Poetry posted January 15, 2015 Chapters:  ...4 5 -6- 


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Sober, after the bender, I begin to reflect.
A chapter in the book The Weight We Measure

Daltonism

by Dopeless Hopefiend


There was a moment, a minute, where I thought this could be right.
If I dig too deep inside, I feel I may just lose my mind.
Mostly, it's never what I am looking for that I happen to find.
If I could paint you a picture, it would be in black and white.

There would be no color other than the green of trees.
Perhaps the lightest of blue shading that is accenting the breeze.
A pencil penned a bench, and a street lamp is neutral grey,
And where a sun should be above, there is the moon, and it's midday.

The clouds are but an outline, and there are stars scattered about...
Some birds are flying overhead; they represent my doubt.
I'd draw myself in on the ground, bending backwards, acrobatic.
Looking at the world so upside down, and I, as well, am achromatic.

And the animals around me stand attentive, stare in awe.
My hips are pulling toward the sky, and my back is off the floor.
They are staring where I'm staring; are they seeing what I saw?
Or does what they're seeing have some meaning? For all I see is flaw.

There was a moment, for a minute, where I thought this could be right.
Yet, I would dig too deep inside and, evidently, lose my mind.
This time it's only what I was looking for that I happened to find
Think something's wrong for long enough, and it stops feeling right.

Close your eyes for long enough, and there will be nothing left in sight.



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This is an actual excerpt from my journal at the time the events in the previous chapter were taking place. It describes my view of the world, from my eyes; a seasoned addict coming off of a long bender, identifying his sober perception of the world. It has been a while since I posted anything, so I urge all readers to take a gander at past chapters and acquaint yourself with the atmosphere, and state of mind. Most of the chapters in this book are pretty intense, so this is sort of a break. A short look into my mind during one of the few times during the time period I was actually sober.
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