"Pray for this Day" (A)
Written on December 30th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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God I Prayed for this very day.
Yes when my disease finally goes away.
Away in the manger no crib but now replaced with danger?
And my God, without any needs and concerns.
Needs or concerns as the mucus now within my lungs?
F****** just Burns?
...
Yes, as now yearn.
Yearn to again breathe.
And, I'm trying my very best to refill.
This request but God's it's now more than just a medication or pill.
Yes, for that's the way it's now got to be?
Be for me?
...
To Be or Not to Be?
God, that's never been the question. Yes, as my body now craves.
Depraved and more defined.
God, mercy me as a new and more mercible redirection.
...
And as for me?
God now I'm finally again smiling.
Yes, smiling into the Darkness.
With anticipation!
Yes, anticipating this demon with the Gleaming, Yellowed, Death-Like eyes!
...
God, it's no surprise.
Its UnEnding and Dark saucers.
With what was is now just a
"Grim Grin."
Yes, a Brother's Grim Fairytale that's as Unsecured as Sin.
...
God, how should i begin?
Yes, ever Fearless.
God, and can...
Can this finally?
Finally now be?
Be with this very lasting breath.
"Welcoming Death"

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"Welcoming My Death" (B)
Written on December 30th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024

I see Skies of Blue.
Clouds so shining White.
Yes, with these words that I am now forced and must write.
As now my Soul's release into this Evenings night.
...
Yes Gods, "Welcoming Light."
As it's been way too long.
Way to long living where I no longer belong.
Tried my very best to be strong.
Struggling first and living with the RSV Virus.
Yes, to now the COVID-19's.
Variant-2 Panemdemic Virus.
...
Weezing and Coughing all over again.
Spittle fragments of blood.
Blood-Red that I'm trying not to spread.
...
Better off now Dead.
RSV, sadly then that merciless Gem?
And Germ again my friend.
Yes God, as COVID-19's was gone but now suddenly back Again!
...
And, God my lungs have been severely seared by this Unwelcoming Savage!
Ravaged as I scream out but my mind?
My mind is now just a head!
Yes, a mere head of Dead cabbage?
...
Brain fog has kicked in as my knees are buckling!
And my Heart is discreet listening to COVID-19's beat?
...
And God, my needs are now pending?
Lungs that are never mending but constantly pretending!
Breathing like a Weezer?
Asthmatic Lungs teaser?
Pretending to teach but enscapable this Covid-19's reach!
...
So, Dear God, Death meets and greets me.
Yes, with Vermiculous pain!
Detaining and sustainability of Unending and Universal Pain!
Pain ravaging me as if dragging me down?
Down the dome and along the edge of an Unearthly drain?
...
My body has lost weight!
Great and there is no more Hope
Nor Faith!
My eyes are vacant flying saucers that stare out!
Voiceless God, as I try but scream out?
...
Yes, for I am no longer there.
Never now a thought or care.
Blurred visionary as I now must navigate.
Navigate with my very, lasting, breath.
"Welcoming My Death"
Note: This was written eith thoughts of this Never and Seeming never Ending Disease and Virus.
Thoughts ftom those I know now long Dead.
Reviewers here that have too shared.
Baring their Souls as if their bodies were out of control.
Approximate Word and Virus Count:715.