You come back into my life
With all of these apologizes
Of violence in our past
Trying to convince me, you've changed.

My gut had you on hold
I allowed you to think
I had forgiven you but in all actuality
I was waiting for that first
shoe to drop.

That mask you wore
Came off very soon
You couldn't even hold it on
for any amount of time, not even
to fake me out.

You're fakeness showed through
The good deeds and words
You came at me with
At the very first when you returned.

If that weren't the case,
You'd have never been able
to mouth off to me
Not in that way, so petty.

I guess you lied about paying
for the divorce as well,
It's ok I never truly believed you
anyway.
Why you say, because life taught me
to never believe anyone who disgraced me by hurting me with violence.

So although I forgave you once you came back,
I never forgot to put you and keep you
on the back burner as someone
who saw me as naught ...

*Never trust a man who hit you to get your attention or to handle you because he is not a man but a coward! - Melodie Michelle