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Prologue
Prologue for the Book

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Prologue"
Written on March 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

This is a book of Hope as well as Faith.
My thoughts and Inner-Workings.
And, my Souls Feelings.
A mixture of both Life.
And, followed by of course Death.
...
Some of my work here will bring Happiness.
And, some will take away your very last Breath.
As we now must Journey together to the past.
(Seldom ventured)
...
Then and only then, can we begin to Realize?
Why we exist and why each and every day we Survive?
A Path Rare indeed.
And, we will learn together on how hthe Human Race succeeds?

"Your Touch"
(A Dedication)
Written on March 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Witin a Heartbeat of Reality"
Comes Tragedy.
(Theology 54.54)
...
'Touch Me?'
'As much Me?'
'Bring my lonely Soul...
'Work Me?'
'Don't ever jerk Me!'
'Bring my Life?'
'Tis taken such a Horrid of Toll!'
...
'Heal Me?'
'Real Me?'
Bring me Back?'
"Restore?'
'For I am...
'As I always am...
'Just a man...
'And soon?'
'I'll Be?
*Nevermore?"
Approximate Word Count:357.

Author Notes *Nevermore: adverb
At no time thereafter.
Edgar Allen Poe wrote about the Raven.
"Nevermore"
Was the only word the bird had learned.
Supposedly from a master who was very sad.
...
On March 31stz 2003.
My only son.
(Jason Richard)
Who was Eighteen at the time.
Was involved as a passenger in a horrible car accident.
And, only Seventeen 17 hours later?
He was diagnosed Brain dead.
...
To learn more about,'Organ-Tissue, Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn with ever-returning spring..."
Walt Whitman.
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn forever and ever with each and every
"Returning-Spring..."
Richard Edward Smrkovsky
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003
Organ's graciously offered on
April 1st 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'simonka'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Splash"


Chapter 1
Tender Thoughts

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Tender Thoughts"
Written on March 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

The year is 3021 and it is the month of March.
This is a holiday known as Saint Patrick's Day.
Long dead now hundreds of years!
...
Tender are the thoughts of Diamond's Heart.
And Fate has complemented him in many mysterious ways?
He has survived a nuclear Holocaust of severe proportions.
And, now he seeks a better life.
...
First lost his only daughter, followed shortly by his only wife!
Yes!
And,he feels a need for redemption.
But Resurrection?
...
Yes, Compliments his predictions.
Yes, Simple Tis the Tears of Diamond's Broken Heart.
And, thoughts are Damned well as should be!
...
And perhaps this new life will compliment with his needs?
His first thought is clean water followed by foodstuffs.
Fuel will have to wait till later.
...
Fortunately, he has found a location.
And, also a woman who works hard for him sometimes even harder than himself.
But will it be what he seeks?
...
Note: This is a chapter that I quickly through together in the book entitled, "Simple Tis the Tears of Diamond Heart"
I haven't worked on it now in about six years.
Just looking for feedback.
24.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'eileen0204'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Tender Awakening"


Chapter 2
After the Restoration

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"After the Restoration" (A)
Written on March 21st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

The Resurrection of Jesus Christ or
"Anastasis"
Is the Christian belief that God raised Jesus.
(After His Crucification)
As first of the Dead.
...
Starting His Exhaulted Life as Christ and Lord.
Appearing to his disciples for 40 days.
After He ascended to Heaven.
...
In Christian Theology, the Death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ are the two most important events.
A Foundation of Christian Faith.
As Commerated by Easter.
...
Essentially, His Resurrection?
A guarantee that all the "Christian Dead"
Will be resurrected at Christ's, "parousia"
(Second Coming)
...
The Secular and Liberal Christians Scholarship, the post Resurrection appearances of Jesus, are explained as "Visionary Experiences"
This gave an Impetus to the belief in His Exaltation and Resumption.
...
"Valued Choices"(B)
Written on March 21st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Within the Presence of God Almighty, We are all Equal.
We learn and we serve.
"Through the Good, the Sad, The Bad and The Glad."
We are all subjected.
And, we are...
And, we all have a Voice.
And, we all have a Choice.
...
Individually we stand alone but together as a whole?
Yes, we must assemble and as a Core.
We can Glorify not only Jesus Christ but Heavenly Father Above!
...
For with these thoughts and with a Unison?
Our Word or Voice?
Provides us with these many, many, Blessings or....
"Valued Choices"
Approximate Word Count: 393.



Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'seshardi_sreenivasan'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Stigmata"


Chapter 3
Bliss

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"*Bliss"
Written on March 29th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

*Bliss:noun
1: complete happiness
//Enjoying Eternal Bliss in heaven
//Marital bliss
//The sheer Bliss of an afternoon at the spa
//You're very first kiss
2: Paradise, heaven
...
Bliss: The reaction when you realize that you're 18-year-old child has just been destroyed in a car accident.
Bliss: Your feelings as you watch your only son Jason's blood oxygen level in his brain as it approaches zero.
Bliss: The reaction you get when you finally realize that this is a parent's worst nightmare!
Bliss: "The Kiss of Death!'
Bliss: A Brain-Dead Child!
...
Bliss: To Learn more about
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn with
ever-returning spring..."
Walt Whitman
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn
FOR-E-VER and ever with each and every
Returning-Spring...
Richard Edward Smrkovsky
...
Bliss: Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003
...
Bliss: Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st 2003.
Bliss: To save four lives
(April Fools Day)
Approximate Word Count: 197.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Wolfdancer 13'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Peaceful Bliss"


Chapter 4
The Eyes are the Windows

By Ricky1024

"The Eyes are the Windows"
(To the Soul)
Written on March 23rd, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Letter to God)
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
: 'All Rights Reserved'

Within the Presence of a Man's Emotions...
Captured memories...
8x10's aligned in a row...
Miss you now need to know?
...
Haunted Spirits, Vaulted Miseries collect on the Windows pane..
Of my pain!
I remain?
...
Dear Lord God Above,
Is this my ultimate purpose?
And is my job?.
The Fountains within my ruptured Soul are etched with the Marrow drippings of my past.
My Dear Lord God,
How much longer shalleth all of this last?'
'I remain?'
..
As in the past.
My Broken Heart?
Yes, as the Hearts of Tears collects....
And, all these Years...
These tears of Endless Pains!
I remain truly yours..
Ricky
Approximate Word Count: 227.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Arcimboldo"


Chapter 5
Peppermint Twist (A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Peppermint Twist" (A)
Written on March 30th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

I Guess it all started as if a dream suddenly turned Nightmare!
Oh dear Lord God?
Why did you put me in there?
Yes I can now still feel the cold breeze blaring throughout my hurt'n Soul.
And, I can still see that image.
Etched forever in my brain.
I remain truly as could ever be just a "Wisp in the Wind"
Awaiting for my life to again?
...
Some say the past will haunt you and never go away?
Icy and bony fingers grasp my swollen and Broken Heart.
No matter how hard I try?
The feelings of death are right and ready attempting to interrupt my forever cry!
...
Yes, I can feel it at this moment in time!
Intertwined and squeezing my breathing!
Dear Lord God above how much more do I have to take?
Why did you forsake?
...
There's a gentle rain now coming from above as I look out my window of pain.
I can see the dancing images.
They trickle forever forward, liquid...
Liquefied...
Petrified am Eye!
Can't you stop my forever cry?

"Peppermint Twist" (B)
Written on March 31st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Yes, it's cold and windy as I must now await...
Await my impending Doom and Fate.
My blistered skin has long change into a mesh of Molten Mess.
And, I can feel my molten flesh!
...
At best, I always expected this below.
I follow and anticipate.
I knew it would eventually be...
Yes I'm prepared for my cuppenance.
To be continued...
Estimated Word Count: 1,000




Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
This Talented Artist, 'helvi2'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Joys of Christmas"


Chapter 6
Spilled Coffee

By Ricky1024

"Spilled Coffee"
Written on April 2nd, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

I'm not afraid of Ghosts!
I'm not afraid of Ghosts!
"In Life, sometimes we fall and fail, sometimes we succeed but the journey, is the most interesting part"
Doctor Ricky1024
...
To be continued...
Do you believe?


Chapter 7
Easter Day 2021

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Easter Day 2021"
Written on April 4th, 2021
(Easter Day)
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Life is a Dark Chain of Events"
Friedrich Nietzsche
...
As I live in Breathe...
In-and -Out...
Out and In...
I truly admit that in these...
"Latter of Days"
I live a Life of Sin!
Yes, I left Lust and Want!
Yes, I Need and Take!
And, finally yes I forsake!
...
As I Live and Breathe...
In and Out...
Out and In...
I write these words as my Testimony.
...
This is the Age of 'Give it to Me!'
'Send it Now!'
For I am a Lost and Greedy Soul.
Yes, my Life?
Has been Horrid!
And, I hardly give a S**t!
I want it all and I want it all now!
...
On this Easter Sabbath Sunday?
Yes, I will attend my church and pay my wonton respects.
'I have been truly Blessed and I have been truly Cursed!'
I have learned and progressed and appoint on this day.
On this day?
Yes, as I rise.
As I rise Above?
...
Jesus Christ was tortured in an unimaginable way but why?
Just because he had a connection from above?
Because he was spreading His Father's message of Love?'
...
We must all spread His message from above into our Broken of Hearts.
So, as for my church Family?'
Father Bob has been spreading
His Heavenly Fathe's message of Love!
And, we must all learn to again Love and not Cheat!
To Care and not Steal!
Refuse the many Temptations and render our time to those still confused as Well as Abused!
...
As I Live and Breathe...
In and Out...
Out and In...
I have learned about my past wantons needs and Sins.
And, I never can be as Christy as He.
But on this Easter Sabbath day?
I will gladly take His place in a moment!
Yes, without any hesitation of my Waste!
...
For I truly have been...
Cursed as well as Blessed!
And, as that horrible suffering of Christ would begin?
I welcome all of it to wash away my Sins!
Approximate Word Count: 460.




Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'avmurry'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, 'The Reason for Easter"


Chapter 8
Springs Blossoming!

By Ricky1024

"Springs Blossoming!"
Written on April 6th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Sun's Up!
Showers are finally Here!
And, it's time to watch God create!
Why?
Finally Spring Time Is Here?
And, it's God's Beautiful Palette of color I hear!
...
Let me make this perfectly clear.
(And, in the Clinton Way)
That Yes Monica!
The music is So Beautiful!
Can't you hear?
And, those Winter Crocuses too, have long been here!
...
What?
Something also is now Sprouting?
Jump for Joy!
The Daffodils are singing and shouting!
Those Trumpeters do they so dare?
Yellow of course is there Fare!
...
But did you know that Tulips are just so Dutchy!
The Reds, the Yellows, and the Parrot Orange's!
They all like to gather together.
God?
I so Love them all, so very Mutchy!
...
Wow!
Look the little Butter Cup Daisies are driving me crazy as they are now!
Awakening!
Daisies, Wipe away your tears of sleep!
Yes, you little sleepyheads from your eyes!
It's Spring and it's now time to Rise!
...
But what's my big Surprise?
That soon the Iris's and Tiger Lilies will appear!
With those most beautiful hues of Blue!
And let's not forget the Purple large Bloom's?
And let's not take it for granted, as they coat the Earth's Planet with their Beautiful pollen of Dust!
Oh God how I remember that so...
VERY, VERY, MUCH!
...
But now what's this I hear?
It's the Mighty Roar of the Tiger Lilies that I finally appeared!
And yes, they will accompany the Iris's. Do you now see?
Exactly what God's painting for Thee?
...
These Mammoth flowers with so many Beautiful Blooms!
Surely they will take away your Winter of Gloom?
Chocolated, spotted, petals!
And, don't you know that God knows best?
Oh yes!
Because this is His ambition and this is His Quest!
For they need room!

...
Note: There are many biennials, perennials and annuals that we all can grow and personally enjoy.
And yes.
I was quite fascinated when I was a boy.
My father grew snapdragons in his "Garden of Fare!"
And, how I wish I had taken pictures, so very long ago!
...
Yes, to just hear those announcing...
Daffodils Trumpeters Blare!
I so wish God I could go back and be there!

Approximate Word Count: 459.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Dreaming of Spring"


Chapter 9
April's Setting's

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"April's Setting's"
Written on April 18th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024

April's Setting and My Broken Heart Is lamenting.
And as the Blackened Clouds gather forth...
And, tears they are aletting.
Woe tis me?
Yes, for my life is just a pitiful mess.
Yes, no more love?
Just my Misery and Distress.
...
April Setting in My Broken Heart is regretting.
Now come gather all ye Merry Gentlemen?
And, feast on this pitiful mess of miseries and share...
Where no man can compare?
...
April is Now setting and the time of my day is fretting.
Harken Thee?
Follow me ever carefully and carefully?
As I now shall lead the all too...
"My Promised Land?"
Understand?
...
April Setting's my Dear Lord God above?
Text and text your Heart out?
Communicate and relate?
Check in and check out?
Scream and shout?
Because April's Setting's?
Is what this sad month means to me?
Is now what it's all *About?
Approximate Word Count: 168..



Author Notes *About: preposition
/a.bout/
On the subject of concerning
'I was thinking of you'
The first day of April of every month, of every year, since that first April 2003.
And yes, the past 18 years represents April Fool's Day.
"Gathering at the harvest?"
...
Basically represents the fact that my son was donated to save four people on that day of April 1st, 2003.
...
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with,
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn with ever-returning spring...'
Walt Whitman
...
"I Mourn'd and shall continue to Mourn FOR-E-VER and ever...
"With each and every...
"Returning-Spring..."
Richard Edward Smrkovsky
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~March 31st, 2003
Organs Graciously donated on April 1st, 2004.
(April Fool's Day)
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'seshadri_sreenivasan'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,."Assertive Creation"


Chapter 10
Where Am I?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Where Am I ?"
Written on April 19th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ???© Fanstory 2021'
'All Rights Reserved'

Where am I?
But can't you see?
Then you must try your very best?
If you want Me to Be?
...
To Be or not to Be?
That's not the question!
Now you're heading in basically the wrong direction!
Let me make this perfectly clear?
Am I far or am I near?
...
Yes I can..
And, I am...
As I am.
No more or no less than any ordinary young man.
"Just the Wisp in the Wind"
Waiting once again...
For my life...
Which is *About .
To Begin?
Approximate Word Count: 189


Author Notes *About: preposition
/I'm out
on the subject of concerning.
'my life was about to begin.'
...
Yes on March 31st 2003?
My only son Jason's wife was about to begin.
Because on the very next day.
( April Fool's Day)
...
To learn more about the subject of
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800- DONORS-1

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator
This incredible artist, 'helvi2'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "From Earth to Heaven"


Chapter 11
Along the Borders of My Life

By Ricky1024

"Along the Borders of My Life"
Written on April 23rd 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'.
"Tripping the light fantastic?"
100% all deposit all return!
I've learned a hard lesson how to burn!
The fire's Amazing the heats a glazing?
...
Come take a look at what's cooking?
Good looking!
Follow my torch of fire and allow me to inspire?
With desire?
...
Take a quick stop by?
Now now now hold them Tears Don't Cry!
I'll bring tears to your Eyes.
...
Yep!
The fires in my eyes!
And baby?
You got to realize?
...
First lost the only son...
Forget the moon and it's Glow!
Yes the career job?
Also so!
Finally the house followed by the wife!
Yes, because this is....
"Along the Borders of My *Life"

Author Notes *Life:noun
/life/
The quality that distinguishes a vital and functioning being from a dead body.
...
On March 31st 2003 my only son Jason had to go to early route unfortunately.
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Lentamente'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Vertigo"


Chapter 12
Time Reflected in a Billion Tear

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Time Reflected in a Billion Tears"
Written on April 23rd, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Time dissolved in a glass of Glasstien tears?
Pouring down from a bottle of Jack.
Dear Lord God?
I want my life back!
Trying my very best but my world is no longer revolving?
Just kinda too, too, over and dissolving!
...
Keeping time one microsecond at a time.
But don't exactly know where this is going?
Perhaps in more rhyme?
Dear Lord God above!
Yes, it's April but now it's Snowing!
...
Icy Missiled-Miseries are encroaching as Satan's now approaching!
And, it's getting kind of Hot!
Perhaps this time...
I got *one-last-shot?
Approximate Word Count:121.

Author Notes *one-last-shot: metaphor.
It's basically means I've cheated death 13 times.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Splash"


Chapter 13
Create!

By Ricky1024

"Create!"
Written on May 2nd, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

The first book of the Holy Bible.
(in Genesis)
States that the Earth was created in six days.
And, Heavenly Father rested on the
seventh.
...
Create!
Within with all your Heart!
Give Completely!
And, never fault her from the Start!
Tell and share your precious Word Within...
And, fight the Evil but forgive the Sin!
...
Feel, His thoughts and Demonstrate!
Be alert, be aware, respective, and Relate!
Then take all that you have learned and Done?
For now you are like He!
And when it comes your time no longer will you have to Wait!
"Create!"
Approximate Word Count:198


Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Creation of Life"


Chapter 14
Reality Captured in a SingleTear

By Ricky1024

"Reality Captured in a Single Tear"
Written on May 4th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Life transmitted...
A force perhaps?
Transmissions from above?
A place...
A place of Existence...
But known to few...
Whom finally had found Love?
...
Crystalline Dreams grasped...
Wishes found from many, many, stars above?
Perhaps on an Unattainable Level?
Even and ever so afar?
..
Temperate Beings peeking through many hued Clouds?
Grasped from the past?
Coupled Long-agos?
That seem to never last?
...
The Best of Times...
The Worst of Times?
Of what used to be?
My Dear Lord God above?
Why can't me?
...
For I am as I always am...
No more no less...
Yes, than just an ordinary man?
Waiting patiently again?
Yes, waiting for my life to begin?
Trapped FOR-E-VER in Sin?
For I am as I am just...
"The Wisp in the Wind"
...
So patiently as I Cry...
So patiently as I Die...
And pray FOR-E-VER...
Eye...
Yet not There?
Nor, yet not Here?
"Reality Captured in a Single *Tear"
Approximate Word Count: 244.

Author Notes *Tear: noun ir
1) (A) a drop of clear saline fluid secreted by the lacrimal gland and diffused between the eye and eyelids to moisten the parts and facilitate their motions.
...
1) (B)tears: plural
A secretion of profuse tears that overflow the eyelids.
...
Note: The ability to emote or cry is an emotion...
Yes, and a necessary emotion both in women and men.
On March 31st 2003 over 18 years ago I had to use these emotions.
I had to go through an experience that most parents would deem as a parent's worst nightmare.
...
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life'
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Artistic Chick'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Green-eyed Monster"


Chapter 15
Love Tis in the Air?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Love Tis in the Air?"
(Do You Care?)
Written on May 4th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Beauty Tis in the Eye of the Holder?
But are the Eyes to Windows to the Soul?
Let's explore together?
...
Beauty tips only skin deep...
And deep is as Beauty does?
But Tis Beauty Ever fleeting?
Just a chance affair?
Ever and ever again?
Meeting?
...
As Beautiful as a butterfly in the month of May?
And, if is so May?
Tis Beauty meant to be?
Leave it go and it shall return?
Some fine day?
...
But, Tis Love truly in the Air?
And if so?
Should we let it go it or should we dare?
Should we again take that chance?
Reach out for Romance?
...
Romeo and Juliet?
Samson and Delilah?
Adam and Eve?
If we all could only again *Believe?
Approximate Word Count: 155.


Author Notes *Believe: verb /belev/
1) except (something) as true feel sure of the truth of it.
On March 31st, 2003.
My four daughters, my wife, and me.
Had to accept the fact and believe that our my son Jason and their sibling.
Would no longer be walking this planet of Earth?
The place of all humankind's birth?
...
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'Organ-Tissue Donations'
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1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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'Cindy Sue Truman'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"The eye. A window to the Soul"


Chapter 16
The Beat Goes On?*

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Beat Goes On?"
Written on May 5th 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

It's been $217 months it's been $944 weeks it's been $6,66 days it's been 158,624 hours it's been 9,517,460 months it's been 571 million 47,643 seconds but The Beat Goes On?
...
Born in the cold and beginning of winter is regret but my only son Jason was more than just a sure bet!
He came to me not in a dream or even on TV!
He came to be bought in a movie on a movie screen and Pitman New Jersey a very long long time ago?
...
Jason and the Argonauts"
Was it 1963 USA made movie.
Based on the story by
"Apollonius of Rhodes" (296~260BC.)
A Greek fictional hero Of course named Jason who was forced by a murderer to begin his quest!
...
Yes, an Incredible Quest for the "Golden Fleece!"
Not to say the least?
Because my Only Son *Jason
Yes, was actually that!
...
"The Argonautica of Calis"
By Valerius Flaxcus Setinus
'I sing the Mighty Heroes who of old; to Grace the boundaries been; first made bold.'
'And the prolific bark never such a feat foretold; to Seythaium Phasis there they way to force.'
'I missed the clashing rocks that barred it's course; chill on Olympus story peak it haulted; and to a constellation was exalted.'
H.C.B.

Author Notes *Jason: noun
By the time November 31st, 2003 was done and over.
Now we went into April Fool's Day.
But it was no joke 18 years ago this past April Fool's Day.
For my only son Jason was diagnosed Brain Dead.
And, as a result?
...
To Learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?:
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer,
'Wolf Dancer 13'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Awakening Talent's Tempo"


Chapter 17
Mother's Day by Jay

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Mother's Day by Jay,"
(A Dedication)
Written on May 9th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jay
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Bleeding Rose of Hope"
'Cry not for me!
'For, I am not to Be.
'Love me and cry but not for me...
...
'Yes, I truly Loved Thee...
'Yes, I truly miss Thee...
'Yes, I shall always and
"FOR-E-VER and Ever"
'Cherish Thee...
...
'And, with these Words...
'On this Mother's Day...
'I do pray to Thee...
...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's Graciously donated on
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
"Together FOR-E-VER and Ever."

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented
Artist and Amazing Writer,
Doctor Ricky 1024
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"My Jay Taken Away?"


Chapter 18
Once again The Beat Goes On?

By Ricky1024

"Once Again The Beat Goes On?"
Written on May 7th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Note: A conversation above below'

'Dad?'
'Now listen?'
'I know you can hear me below.'
'And, dad it's okay up here.'
'You know?'
'Dad, its true, that sometimes...
"My Mortal Life'
'I miss it so but you know?'
'Immortality?'
'Hath got a nice ring to it?'
'And, musically speaking...
...
'They accepted me...
'Yes,in the Celestial Band!'
'Yup second man!'
'Understand?'
'Backup to Michael!'
'Cool huh?'
...
'The first gig is Saturday night and understand the place will be packed!'
'Yes with Hot Angels!'
'But I miss my Angel below you know.'
'And, I hope after We Eighteen years?'
'That she found somebody else or another?'
'Well my dad and I'll say hello to mother!'
Jay...
Approximate Word Count: 209.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan art review, this Talented Artist to
'Wolfdancer 13'
And hid Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Awakening Talent's Tempo"


Chapter 19
Allowing God

By Ricky1024

"Allowing God"
(Let God Prevail)
Written on May 16th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Allowing God Within...
With each release of Our Sin...
Breathe in...
Breathe out ..
...
Collect All of What Your All About...
Reverse Thy Weakness's...
Into, "Abounding Strengths!"
Never stop Realizing...
Never Stop Realizing...
What God is all About...
...
And, when Ye So Be?
And, give All to He?
Your Finally doing your Job...
"Allowing God"
Approximate Word Count: 181.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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"The Restoration"


Chapter 20
The Blood of Thy Son

By Ricky1024

"The Blood of Thy Son"
Written on May 16th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

I confess these words now from above...
Yes, written with the Blood of Christ!
Coming forth now upon my hungry tongue!
...
Yes, dripping with His testimony.
That He is ever present...
That He tis always watching...
And, He is our Redeemer!
That He is out Savior!
Always...
FOR-E-VER and ever...
Ever caring...
Always sharing!
...
Note: Each and every Sabbath Sunday it is our time.
Yes, to be...
Yes, to do...
The sharing!
As we realize the Crucification of Christ!
Yes, for you and me!
Each and every Sabbath Sunday.
Approximate Word Count: 179.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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"The Coming of Jesus Christ"


Chapter 21
Nightmare Lullaby

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Nightmare Lullaby"
Written on May 26th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Now I lay me down to sleep...
Yes, and pray the Lord Satan.
Yes, my no good and lousy Soul to reap!
And, if I should live before I awake?
I pray my living Soul the Lord to take!
...
Yes, to take all that He so shall need!
Yes, for this is my quest...
My request to take the best?
And, the worst of Me!
...
For I am truly, truly, Blessed?
Yes, lost the Only Son!
Yes, then the Only Wife!
For I am Truly, Truly, Blessed!
And, all of the *Rest?
Approximate Word Count:170.

Author Notes *Rest: noun
/rest/
REPOSE/£ SLEEP
1) freedom from activity or labor.
...
On March 31st, 2003.
And, leading into April Fool's Day 2003.
I lost my only son Jason.
And, he shall not rest for he still does exist forever within the three.
...
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"Good Old Me"


Chapter 22
Dancing Raindrops

By Ricky1024

"Dancing Raindrops"
Written on May 30th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

They come and they go.
Yes, sometimes fast but mostly slow? As they dance in this Musical Verse.
As if rehearsed clearly for me!
Yes!
As if a Silent Reflection of a Beautiful Melody!
...
Sometimes they stutter?
But other times they pitter and they patter?
God knows how much it all shall matter!
Yes, to soothe my Sorrow and Misery. And, I can feel this in my Broken Heart. And, I know and I've learned that it will never part.
But that's okay.
These Dancing Raindrops that have come to *Pray.
Approximate Word Count: 115.

Author Notes *Pray: verb.
/pra/
1) address a solemn request or expression of thoughts to a deity or other object of worship.
...
On March 31st, 2003.
Followed by 17 hours leading into April 1st 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
My son Jason was diagnosed green dead after the passenger in the horrible car accident.
...
As a result we decided to donate his organs and say four people.
The following three months of April May and June it rained almost continuously.
It rained so much my deck in the back turned green.
And it was the tears of the angels from above.
But it was not tears of sadness.
But tears of gladness.
Because their brother had finally come home.
...
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...
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"Reflections and Refraction"


Chapter 23
Divine Interventions?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Devine Interventions?"
(A True Event Story)
Written on June 16th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

The Night of March 31st, 2003 was clearly unclear!
Yes, and definitely based on Fear?
Oh Dear Lord God?
How I wish it was never here!
But the Rain in Spain?
Became the Rain of Pain?
And, gently proceeded me as I tried my best.
...
Yes, in my dream house.
But the Grim Reaper of Death.
Had come to Ricky Town.
And, as I tried my very best on my quest?
Yes, with a good game of chess.à
But there would be no fooling around on the up and coming April Fool's Day!
Yes, as a Grim Reaper had come to Ricky Town to play!
...
Yes, it was lightly raining!
And, yes the first noise was fearful but the second?
"Too Fuc**** Nearful!"
And entertaining?
So the call came in and it was time to begin?
"Divine Interventions?"

****

As for my Up-and-Coming Pain?
Way too much too Maintain!
To see the results?
To see the results of foolishness?
Yes, my Quest to express?
Express something so incredibly Mad?
Express something so Incredibly Bad?
But that night Fate took over?
...
It begin and became clear that my only son would appear.
Yes, and appear as a passenger in a car wreck!
(What the heck!)
At over 100 miles per hour straight into a telephone pole?
Was an Old King Cole?
He seems just asleep my little Angel boy!
And, he'll be all right I thought that horrible night!
...
Carelessness yes and quite disturbing!
Disturbing and Disruptive!
Absolutely soon to be corruptive!
For he failed at his quest for suicide.
This Brian Cole but as for my Son?
My only son Jason Richard?
...
The Grim Reaper was here and it became quite clear.
No sense anymore in hiding or crying!
As, Fate would take my little boy Jay Away.
And, as for the Grim Reaper of Death?
Well that wouldn't be my son's last breath?
And, what more can I say?
...
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'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
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"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800- DONORS-1
Note: As of this past April Fool's Day 2021?
Yes, as for my Eighteen-year-old son Jason?
It has been Eighteen, Long, years that three out of four people still appear!

Approximate Word Count:491.

...

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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"The Nightmare on Nautilus!"


Chapter 24
My Deepest Condolences

By Ricky1024

"My Deepest Condolences"
Written on June 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©? Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

With all My Now Broken of Heart...
With all my Thoughts, Hopes, and Dreams...
With all that I could ever be...
Or give to Thee...
"My Deepest Condolences"
..
If I could turn Back the...
"Hands of Time?"
If I could ever be exactly like thee...
"So Divine!"
If I could take this place...
"This Time"
"My Deepest Condolences"
..
And, as I Love and as I Breathe....
In and out...
Out and in...
If I could somehow replace this...
"Unending Sin?"
With each and every beat of my now... "Broken of Heart"
Before it was Time...
Yes, for your only son Jay?
"To Depart"
With each and every...
"Gift, Blessing, and last Chances"
"My Deepest *Condolences"

Author Notes *Condolences: plural noun
/kan.dolans/
1) An expression of sympathy especially on the occasion of a death.
"we offer the deepest of condolences to the widow"
...
On March 31st, 2003.
Within a brief only 17 hours of watching a blood oxygen monitor retreat backwards.
An indication of an eventual brain death.
A decision had to be made by me, my wife, and four daughters of what to do next?
...
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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'avmurray'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Heavenly Flower"


Chapter 25
Broken Glass Panes

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Broken Glass Panes"
Written on June 18th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Reflections on a Plate-Glass Window.
Sill...
Moment's cast but long past and Ill.
Memories?
They blossomed but have now been taken away?
Dear Lord God?
What more can I say?
...
Moral Fiber stretched to the Limits?
Commitments?
Committee laid in papers burning away in my grave!
My resume!
Dear Lord God?
...
Endless seconds long gone buy?
How much does it cost to die?
When All That remains?
Is Pain!
Will my life ever again be sane?
...
Yes 8x10s captured by Kodak.
And, I love you's on Fuji film of dew?
That end but remain?
Yes, with Rusty frames of me and you.
Tears of Candle-Lit Years snuffed out!
Dear Lord God?
Yes, is that what Life's all about?
...
Because for me?
It all seems to have gone up in flames?
And, All That remains?
"Broken-Glass Panes"

Note: This was written in 3 minutes and categorized as a slammed poem.
It's meant to memorize a parent's worst nightmare.
Yes, loss of a child.
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's Graciously donated on
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Cobwebs"


Chapter 26
Heart of Mine 2003

By Ricky1024

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"Heart of Mine 2003"
Written on June 19th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ???© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Within the Dark Corners of the Human Mind a Portal of Evil can Bloom" (Theology 48:09)
...
And, it's been so many years since the accident that took my son away.
He would actually have doubled in age.
(From Eighteen to Thirty Six)
To his November 5th I say.
...
'It's been hard son.'
'Yes, so very hard.'
I complain.
'Yes Dad I know and I so wish I could be with you below but...
...
Sprinkled Investments of Pain.
Ran down and entangled within my Brain.
There's not much ..
Not much more I can say?
...
'Dad are you here with Me?'
'I just need to know why did I have to die?'
Asks Jay.
'Well to tell you the truth my Son.'
'I'm confounded with that kid.'
'Yes, the kid?'
'That nasty kid Brian Cole?'
'Something went wrong with that kid Jay.'
'I found out after the accident.'
'That he was heavily dozed off antidepressant called Effexor.'
...
Yes, that day I ponder
The silence so passes and again I get a chance to converse with my son Jason.
...
It's now only been a few days since the original accident on March 31st, 2003.
It's April 4th 2003.
( 8:00 p.m)
Yes, and it's almost exactly the same moment again?
You see that Vision of my son Jay appears.
...
'Dad?'
"Dad, I need you!'
He sounds frightened.'
I thought.
What is it son?:
'Dad it's dark, so very dark.'
It's okay soon you will see...
I reply.
Three hours later...
...
11:08 PM.
Again he appears but no more in tears?
"It's okay now dad.'
'He speaks to me!'
'Who Jay?'
I ask.
'God dad!'
'He told me not to cry anymore and he said just take my hand.'
'So I did and I feel like this feeling of delight!'
...
'I looked down and I saw me?'
'And, He said that was normal.'
'And, it's called Resurrection.'
'And, then He carefully lifted Me!:
'And, God told me, Dad that this is a gift!'
...
'Well I have to go Dad.:
'And, I'll see you soon.'
'And, I know where I'm going.'
'But I hope they got a drum set?'
...
Seven months passed without even a word?
I forgot that it's over.
Yes, and he probably doesn't need me anymore.
But then my youngest daughter Dana's birthday comes and she is turning Eighteen.
And, Dana now is the same age as Jason when he left.
But wishes for only one thing
Yes, only wish.
She wishes for mommy to be happy again.
...
Note: Carolyn was so filled with hate and grief that she wore what I called a "Mask of Death?"
Yes, she was so filled with hate.
She would stay in Jason's room on his Dell computer all day long.
Just listening to the same Sad Cher CD and playing bingo.
And, she told me that she wishes that the driver was dead!
...
But instead?
Yes a miracle happened!
Instead of watching her slowly dissipate and extreme misery and hate.
And, it was only Eight months later after Jason passed away.
Carolyn purposely, so stopped her medications for her heart.
And, she too passed away on November 23rd 2003.
...
I guess you could say it was from a Broken Heart but it was actually a blood clot from the leg to the heart.
D.V.T or Deep Vernacular Thrombosis.
...
I didn't understand it at first but now I do.
And, it's a mother's love for her child.
And, all she wanted was to be with her son and her dreams came true.
So, I think back and wonder why?
She had so much to possibly look forward to.
Our four daughters and one granddaughter.
And, three other grandchildren on the way.
But I know that she felt guilty and if she was here today?
Yes, this is what she would say...

"Heart of Mine"
By Carolyn Ann Richmond
Harbach Smrkovsky

'This Heart of mine has been through so much...
'So much pain and so much grief...
'But now my time has come for relief.'
...
'And, I have decided that it's much better this way.'
'Yes, to go and take care of my baby boy Jay...
'And, I leave you with these words.'
'So Divine...
'Because now finally the love that I lost?'
'And, now again feel?'
'Deep inside...
'My Broken Heart, Soul and Mind...
'Is finally within this...
"Heart of Mine"
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
Rest in Peace Baby....

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
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Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
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Chapter 27
Within the Whisper of a Child

By Ricky1024

"Within the Whisper of a Child"
(Dedicated to all the fathers
who have lost a child)
Written on June 20th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

'Mercy tis cast as Faith awaits...
'Hope is nearby on a Hope and a Prayer.'
'While, Charity Kisses Thee...
'Love is awaiting as Patience smiles into Thee..
And, it's time again to live it last...
"Thee Eyes of a Child"

"Establishing Reverence"
'Dear God I ask of Thee to Forgive these Sins.'
'For I am not perfect.'
Unknown Poet
(Theology 54.79)
...
'From to he Point of Human Conception.'
'We all have our own...
"Personal Directions?"
'With objection or protection from above...
'We must all follow in the Footsteps of Jesus Christ.'
'From the naughty to the not so...
Naughty but Nice?'
'The Cake is frosted with plenty.'
...
'For Thee are so Loved and always will!
These are My Words So Pure!'
'And, before we each must depart and die...
'Let Christ be your Guide...
'And, come with Me and leave yesterday behind!'
"Within the Whisper of a Child"

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Wolfdancer 13'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Peaceful Bliss"


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