By Sylcastillo14
Prologue
Noel (age 16)
Looking out the airplane window, I think to myself how weird the last few weeks it has been at home. I go to my Mama's house in California for two weeks at the beginning of summer and two weeks before school starts. I see her throughout the school year, but sometimes I want to stay in Texas because all my friends are here. Don't get me wrong; I miss my Mama when I'm not there, but I'm a crazy teenager who loves skateboarding and smoking weed. My friends are my whole life. My parents co-parent the best they can, but my papa's wife Esther is crazy jealous of Mama, and it's crazy to me because my parents haven't been in a relationship since I was two.
This week has been weird because my papa had been absent for the last few days. I was at my Abuela's for a week since school let out. I usually do this closer to school coming back in session. He said he had to push it up because she was going to Mexico. When I asked Abuela about going to Mexico, she told me my dad was loco and that she was never going to Mexico. Maybe he was mistaken. The weirdest thing and made me the most upset is that he had a partner from his law firm Natalia drop me off at the airport. She picked me up at Abuela's with another suitcase packed for me. What the fuck is that all about? He didn't even say goodbye properly. He texted me, "have a safe trip Hijo." No goodbye, no, I love you.
My Mama is giving a seminar at the school where she teaches, so my stepfather Chuy is picking me up at the airport when I land. He has been in my life since I was four years old. He's my dad, not just my stepdad, and treats me like I'm his biological son. Unlike Esther, she treats me like a second-class citizen. Her daughter Destiny is treated like a princess by my dad. Destiny is one weird bitch. She is fifteen and goes to an all-girls Catholic School that costs a lot of money and is flunking out. I go to public school, and I'm on the honor roll, president of MECHA, play baseball and football. I do all of this with a learning disability, ADHD. That goes unnoticed because Esther and Destiny seem to gang up on me and tell my dad everything they think will get me into trouble. I get mad just thinking about it.
"Noel, get your ass in my office right now," I remember dad saying one day.
"Okay, let me just finish this assignment," I say.
"No, Ahora! NOW!" he yells at me. I put my pen down and follow him to his office.
"What did I do now?" I ask. My dad is an intimidating man. He is a lawyer, and he gets drug lords out of trouble all the time. You are the company you keep and all that shit.
"Destiny told me that you had sex with Pastor Manuel's daughter Lily and you gave Lily Marijuana."
"What the fuck? Okay, I'll admit that I did have sex with Lily. She was my girlfriend, Pa! As for the weed, you already know I smoke it to help me sleep at night because of my ADHD. Lily smokes weed on her own. We've never smoke together, I swear."
"Hijo, this will be bad if Pastor finds out that she's having sex and smoking weed. They will blame you! If they blame you, then we will have to leave the church, and Esther loves it there."
"For one, Lily isn't innocent! I'm not the first or last person she's fucked, and she has more than smoked weed Pa! She's experimented with all kinds of shit. For two, it always comes to what Esther and Destiny want. I'll admit that I do crazy shit, but I've never done anything to them, and they seem to always come for me."
I walked out of his office. I look and see Esther and Destiny scurry off down the hallway. The bitches were at the door listening. When Destiny goes into her bedroom, she turns to looks at me and smirks the fucking idiot.
I'm shaken from my thoughts when the guy sitting next to me talks to me.
"You seem too young to have that scowl on your face." He says with a kind smile, and I laugh.
"I'm just trying to figure out life. It's confusing as fuck." I say and almost regret my foul mouth. "Sorry, I have the worst mouth."
"Don't worry about it, kiddo. I'm Julian. Nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you. I'm Noel." I say, shaking his hand.
"You visiting someone in California? Or are you heading home?"
"My mom and her husband live there, so I go there to visit. I'll head back to Ozona in few weeks. She has a Ph.D. in Latino studies. She teaches a class at Berkeley about Chicana Lit."
"Ahhh, she's a chingona, right?" he smiles.
"Yeah, she is a badass for sure!" I smile.
We chat the rest of the flight. Julian and his partner are artists. They will be relocating to San Francisco from Houston. He tells me to behave while in the Bay Area, and I laugh.
We exchange social media platforms to follow their art, which is badass graffiti-style murals with social justice themes. Once the plane lands, I feel how tired I am, but I can't wait to see Dad and my baby brothers, four-year-old Tenoch and Moctezuma, who is two years old. We call him Zuma for short. My mom was really into indigenous names a few years ago. Poor babies, they have names that people will never know how to pronounce. Hell, people say my name wrong all the fucking time too. I get Nol all the time, and I tell them my name is pronounced like this Nooooooooo…el in the Spanish pronunciation.
I walk out into the windy San Francisco air, which is such a break from the Texas heat. I welcome it.
My family lives about forty minutes from the airport in a town called Union City. They own a home on the same block as my grandparents, which is nice. I grab my luggage and head to the front of the airport, and I hear them before I see them.
"Noel! Noel!" Tenoch screeches as he runs toward me. I bend down and pick him up and kiss his chubby cheeks. "Daddy, mira Noel llego!"
"Yes, I see that Noel is here. Hola Hijo. How was your flight? Are you hungry?" he hugs me as tight as he can because he is holding a sleeping Zuma in his arms. I ruffle Zuma's hair and kiss his tiny forehead.
"Hi, dad! It was good. Yeah, I'm hungry, but I want to drop off my shit….sorry I mean stuff at home. Can we go to Baldies?"
"Anything you want." He smiles.
We get to the car, and once everyone is strapped in, we head to the freeway. The traffic here is insane. I don't like driving in traffic. I left my skateboard at home, and I love skating at the local skatepark near my mom's place. This will suck because this is how I usually spend my time here. It's going to be boring without it.
"Noel, guess what?" Tenoch yells from the back.
"What, Tenny?"
"Your bed came."
"What?" I ask, confused. Just as Tenoch begins to speak, Zuma wakes up, crying. He stops when he notices me. "Hi, Zuma."
"Nowelllll!!! He yells and claps his hands.
It makes me happy to see them so happy. We finally make it to the house. Thank god I have to pee, and I'm starving. I grab my things and go into the house. I usually camp out with one of the boys, but I notice that they had work done to the house. I go into the bathroom and finish up. When I come out, the boys are sitting on the floor in front of the door.
"Can I show him, daddy?" Tenoch asks, Before dad has a chance to answer him, he grabs my hand and takes me to the house's new area, a room. "This is your room, Noelito."
"My room?" I say, opening the door to my room. My heart falls to my stomach.
I see my skateboard, my bed, and all my clothes. Everything that I owned is in front of my eyes. My whole bedroom is here!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
I feel the rage boiling inside of me. I look at my dad; he takes a step toward me. I take a step away. I grab my skateboard and push past my dad. He tries to grab my arm, and I jerk it away from him. I feel bad because the boys look scared, so I stop and bend down to their levels.
“Don’t you like your room?” Tenoch says with big tears in his eyes. It makes me feel like shit.
“Did you help decorate it?” I ask him, trying not to cry myself. He nods, looking down at his feet. “Then, I love it.”
“Are you coming back? Tenoch asks.
“I’ll be back. I need some time alone.”
“Okay,” he smiles, and he runs off to play.
“Noelito.” My dad begins to say. I look at him and shake my head.
I take my board and hit the street. I have so much going on in my mind. I want to punch something or someone over and over again. What the fuck did I do to make Papa send me away for good? I see a fast food place I order food and sit on the benches outside. I take out my phone from my pocket and look at it.
Mama: Noel, please call me.
Apa: Call me. Did you land? Are you okay?
I ignore both texts from my parents and continue scrolling. They each called me ten times, but they all went to voicemail. I need to cool down before I talk to them. My phone rings, it’s my best friend, Lino.
“Hello?” I answer.
“Bro! What the actual fuck? I went to your pops house, and Destiny told me you moved!”
“Yup, but they forgot to tell me. When I got here, all my shit was here. I have no fucking idea why that happened.
“You haven’t talked to your Pa?”
“Naw, dude, he didn’t even say goodbye. He sent his assistant to take me to the airport.”
“Damn, that fucking sucks! What about school?”
“I have no idea until I talk to my mom.”
“Dude, Destiny invited me into the house.”
“Don’t tell me you went in?”
“I did.” He says, “She got mad at me, though.”
“Why?”
“Are you sure you want to know?”
“Eww, no, I’m cool! I better go. I’m going to the skate park for a bit. Later.”
“Later!”
I get on my board and skate up the block to a library. The skate park is in the same parking lot. There a lot of cars, but the skate park is almost empty, only a few kids there. I get there, and I get in my zone and skate until I’m drenched in sweat. I go over to the water fountain and take a long drink, cool drink.
“Damn, don’t drink all the fucking water, man.” A girl’s voice says.
“I didn’t know you owned the water,” I say without looking at her. She grabs my arm, and I jerk away from her. “Don’t ever touch me!”
The next thing I know, there are two guys. One is tall and skinny, the other short and blonde flanking her side. They try to look hard but fail. It makes me laugh.
“What the fuck you laughing at, pendejo.” The guy with the blonde hair says.
“I’m laughing at y’all.” I laugh.
“Y’all? You A fucking hillbilly hick or what?”
“What did you call me?” I say, getting closer to the taller guy.
“Yo, let’s cut out, “the girl says. “I can’t get in trouble before summer school.”
She flips me off and smiles, which confuses the fuck out of me. She seems like a tough as nails girl even though she is a tiny thing. The guys are still mean mugging me, and I shake my head. They skate out of sight. I sit on the edge of the drop with my feet dangling down.
“Noel,” I hear someone shout my name. I look over and see my God Mother, Marisol. “I knew I’d find you here. Are you okay, my love?”
Hi, Nina Sol. I’m not okay, but I will be.” I’m surprised that I was open with my response.
“Oh, Noel.” She hugs me tightly. What I do next shocks me. I cry like a baby.
“Am I that bad that my Papa wants me out?”
“I have no idea why this happened. Talk to mommy and see what she says.”
“Nina, everything I worked so hard for in Texas wasn’t worth shit! I won MECHA president, and now that is out the fucking window.”
“I heard that you won. I’m so proud of you, baby boy.”
“Yeah, well, it means jack shit now.”
“Don’t be so sure, Noel. The MECHA summer program starts tomorrow. You should come. I hear the advisor is cool.”
“That’s okay, I’m good. I don’t need to go.”
“Too bad you’re going. I paid the fees for you already.”
“Fine,” I say.
“Call your mama.” She says, standing up. “Your mom has information about the workshop.”
“Okay, Nina, I love you.” I hug her, and she leaves. I take out my phone and place a call. “Hi, mama.”
“Mijo, are you okay?” she sounds worried, and it makes me feel bad.
“I’m okay, just hurt that no one thought to ask me if I wanted to move here.”
“Baby, I had fights with your Papa. I told him that it was a bad idea. He hasn’t talked to me for weeks.”
“Why did he do this?”
“He wouldn’t give me a straight answer. I told him if this has to do with Esther, I would go and beat her ass.” She says, which makes me laugh. “Are you coming home? The boys are crying because they were promised Baldies.”
“I’m going to call Papa first, and I will be on my way.”
“Don’t yell, Noelito. Please.”
“I’m not promising anything, but I will try, Mama. I love you.”
“Love you, baby boy.”
I find a bench and pluck up the nerve to call my Papa. The phone rings and rings until he finally picks up.
“What the fuck took you so long to call me?” he yells.
“Don’t yell at me. You didn’t even bother to say goodbye to me. You sent me away without telling me why. That fucking hurts so bad. I’m not a fucking piece of garbage that you don’t want anymore and toss me out! I want to know why? Why am I not good enough for you?”
“Noel, this will be good for you for us.” He says. I get angrier because he is not answering the question.
“Just answer the fucking question!” I scream.
“Noel, my marriage was in jeopardy. I need to save my marriage, and I’d do anything to save it. You understand me?”
“Loud and clear,” I say, shocked at what he just said to me. “You did what you had to do for you and just realize that you ruined our relationship.”
As I disconnect the call, I hear him yell my name. My heart is in pieces and broken beyond repair.
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
I walk into the house and see my brothers watching Tv. Once they lay eyes on me, they dart over to me. I pick them both up and squeeze the hell out of them. I never want them to feel what I'm feeling right now. It's my job to protect them. I sit on the couch with them and look at the Tv; they are watching Franklin. I used to love watching this cartoon when I was little.
"Where is Mama?" I ask.
"She went to Nana's," Tenoch says without taking his eyes off the screen.
"Where is daddy?"
"In the kitchen."
"Okay," I say. I go into the kitchen, where Dad is putting away the dishes. "Dad, I'm sorry about earlier. I appreciate you loving me regardless of not sharing the same blood with me." I try to fight back the tears, but I'm not successful.
"Aye, Hijo, come here," he says, hugging me. "I Love you. Do you want to talk about it?" I shake my head. "When you're ready, I'm here."
"Thanks, Dad. I'm going to take a shower."
"Leave the door unlocked in case Tenoch has to use the bathroom."
I get in the shower and let myself let go of everything slide down to the bottom of the shower floor and cry. I can't believe that my Papa said he would do anything to save his marriage, including getting rid of his only son. I'm not a fucking animal that you get rid of when you don't want it anymore. I'm a human being. I hear the door open and scramble to my feet.
"Tenoch, you have to go pee-pee," I ask.
"It's mama." My mom says.
"Maaaaaaa!" I yell. "I'm naked." She laughs.
"I gave birth to you, Noel. I know what you look like naked."
"It's not the same thing!"
"Fine, I'm going to call that son of bitch father of yours." She says. It goes dark in the bathroom.
"Maaaaaa!"
"What?" she comes back in, realizing that she turned off the light on me. She begins to laugh hysterically. Making me laugh. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry, Mijo. See what your Papa does to my mind."
We go to dinner, and I have a good time with my family. My mom screamed at my Papa, and then she let Esther have it. She is a lioness when it comes to her cubs. I love her for it. Mama is a tiny spitfire, and damn the man that crosses her. She threatened to go to Texas to beat Papa's ass. It made me laugh; she gave me a death stare, and I stop laughing. I go into my room to get ready for bed. I find Tenoch and Zuma in my bed. They fight about who is going to sleep next to me, so I get the middle. Damn, this bed is fucking small, but I wouldn't change it.
My alarm goes off at seven-thirty to a tiny foot in my face, and I groan. I get up slowly, so I don't wake the boys. I get ready to leave for the MECHA workshop that Nina Sol signed me up for. These workshops are mainly for the leadership of the group. They teach team building games that are taken back to the larger group. Not sure why I'm going to this workshop I'm not leadership here. She did say the advisor was really cool, so I'm excited to meet this advisor.
The high school where the workshop is going to be held is huge. I think this is the school that I will be going to this year. It doesn't look like a high school; it seems like a college. My old school was small, and I think it will take time to adjust to this place. Nina said she would meet me at the front of the school. I skateboard to the school, and once I see Nina, I slow down and stop in front of her.
"Yay, you made it!" she says in a cheerful voice.
"Did I have a choice?"
"Nope!" She laughs. "Ready?"
"Sure, why not. What is the advisor's name?" I ask.
"The Advisor's name is Marisol Morales?"
"Wait, you're the advisor?"
"Guilty as charged!"
"That's cool."
"I have four kids that are rock stars in there. I told them about you. They don't have a president right now because the kid that won got into a fight and was expelled from school. They're down to give you a chance to show what you can do."
"Won't they think that I got the position because of you and not what I can do?"
"That's why you will prove to them what a chingon you are!" She says, giving me a huge hug. We walk to a door and begins to open the door. "Wait here so I can let them know you're here." She walks in, and I can hear her. "Quiet down. He's outside. Let's show him some respect." The door opens, and she waves me into the room. "Everyone, this is Noel."
I look at the kids sitting at the tables and fuck me! It's the kids from the skate park.
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
Great, they already hate my ass; this should loads of fun. Not! I look at the floor at my chuck Taylors and look up again. When our eyes meet, the three of the kids I met yesterday begin to laugh. It confuses the fuck out of me. Are they laughing at me? The girl stands up, and with her hand outstretched, I shake the hand she offers me.
“Sorry about yesterday. I’m Cecilia, but you can call me Cecy.” She says with a smile. The boys join and shake my hand too.
“I’m Felipe,” The tall boy says.
“We call him Narizón,” Cecy says.
“I’m Octavio, but everyone calls me Guerro.” The smaller blond boy says. A girl that was sitting towards the back of the room comes up.
“I’m Luci,” the girl says. Damn, she is super cute. I smile at her, and I notice the lovely blush of color that hits her face.
“Why don’t you introduce yourself,” Nina says.
“My name is Noel Fernandez, and I just moved from Texas to live with my mom. I will be a senior this year and look forward to getting to know you all.”
“You have an accent,” Luci says with a smile.
“No, I don’t.” I laugh.
“Yes, you do,” Nina says with a laugh. “Anyone have any questions for Noel?”
“You always lived in Texas?” Guerro asks.
“No, I was born not too far from here, and I moved to Texas when I was a baby when my Mom and Papa got married. They got divorced when I was two, but she was accepted to UC Berkeley to get her Masters and then she got her Ph.D. I stayed in Texas so she could study. I would come here during the summers.”
“His mama is Mrs. Felix,” Nina says.
“Shut up! Are you serious?” Cecy screams, excited!
“Yup, that’s my mama,” I say proudly.
“She’s a badass! I want to be like her when I get older.” Cecy says.
“Any more questions?”
“Yes, I have a question,” Luci says. I nod at her. “Do you have a girlfriend?”
“Did you seriously ask him that?” Narizón asks.
“Mind your business Narizón!” she yells at him.
“Hey, stop, guys,” Nina tells them, and they stop bickering. “Noel, you don’t have to answer that.”
“It’s okay. No, I don’t have a girlfriend.” I answer.
“Are you gay?” Luci asks, gaining groans from all the kids in the room.
“Luci! That is not appropriate.” Nina says.
“It’s all good, Nina. No, Luci, I’m not gay. Not even close.” I smile at her.
“Good to know.” She says, biting her lip.
“Stop flirting already!” Cecy laughs. “We got shit we need to take care of.”
“What’s the verdict, guys?” Nina asks them. They all look at me. What the hell is going on.
“Yes,” they all say at the same time. Yes, to what?”
“What’s going on?” I ask.
“We just decided on a huge matter for our MECHA group,” Nina says. “Cecy, tell him what you all decided.”
“We decided who our new president will be,” she says with a smile.
“Oh, yeah, who?” I ask
“You!” they all yell out.
“Me?”
“Yes, you,” Cecy says. “You come with great recommendations. I trust Mrs. Morales and her judgment. So can you please stop flirting with Luci and bring this meeting to order.
“Let’s do it!” I say.
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
The meeting is fun, and I learn cool team building games that will come in handy later. My Nina has us break-off in teams of two, and she pairs me with Luci to come up with activities we can come up with over the school year. We have two weeks to come up with ideas. We need to do this outside of school. Luci is not allowed to have anyone at her house, so we decide that we’ll meet up and my house or the library. She seems like she will get me into some trouble, but I mean the best kind of trouble.
“She’s gonna try to get her claws into you. Watch out for that one.” Guerro says, laughing.
“it might be fun.” I laugh. “I'm trying to be cool, though. I need to watch myself. I just moved here, and I don't want to rock the boat." I noticed Luci watching from the back of the room. She begins to walk up to us with a sexy sway of her hips.
"Noel, I have to go help at my family's restaurant today. Can we meet up tomorrow?" Luci asks.
"Sure, give me your cellphone. I will put in my number." I say. She smiles, handing me over her phone. I put in my number. "Text me so I can save yours.". She nods and walks out of the class, looking back at me, biting her lip. My phone buzzes. It is a selfie of Luci, and fuck me. She's sexy.
"Boy, you're in trouble," Cecy says, laughing.
"Naw, I'm okay."
"Keep telling yourself and your friend that." She says, pointing to my crouch.
"Shut the fuck up!" I laugh. She bumps her shoulder into my arm and laughs herself.
"I can use some help at the health center," Nina says.
"Health Center?" I ask.
"Yes, on campus, there is a Health Center. It's cool. They help students with birth control and STDs. The best part is they help them with mental health issues. "Cecy says, full of pride. "It's an amazing thing they're doing."
"That sounds cool! We needed one of those at my old school. What do you need us to do, Nina?"
"I need help to clean the demonstrators." She says, walking out of the room, and we follow.
"What are demonstrators?" I ask.
"Oh, you'll see," Cecy says.
We walk into the health center, and wow, this place is a real doctor's office, only a small one. Nina leads us into a room with a huge sink, and inside the sink are a shit ton of dildos. Everyone laughs at my surprised expression. Cecy turns on the water and squeezes some soap into the large sink,
"I'll wash, Noel, you'll rinse, Guerro you dry them and Narizón you put on the lube thing."
"Lube thing?" I laugh.
"It prevents them from cracking," Cecy says. "Let's wash these dicks."
"Okay, boss!" Narizón laughs.
Cecy grabs the first one and lathers it up, and she takes a moment to examine it. We look at her with amusement. She looks over and us and laughs at us watching her.
"Hurry up, Cecy," Guerro says.
"Shut up. I got to make sure I wash the gooch part."
"The what part?" I say, trying not to laugh.
"You know the gooch." She says with a completely straight face.
"The Gooch? What the fuck is that? Guerro laughs.
"This part." She says, pointing at the bottom of the dildo. "This is the gooch." We roar with laughter and fall on the floor, cackling. She splashes all of us with water over and over again. She’s laughing so hard that she snorts, making us laugh harder. "What’s it called?"
"It's called the perineum." I laugh.
"I like gooch better." She laughs. The guys and I look at each other. It's like we share a brain at that moment. We nod at each other.
"Well, since you like that name so much, Cecy. You will now and forever be known as The Gooch." Guerro says with a chuckle.
"No, I won’t be." She laughs.
"Oh, and I can be called Narizón?" Narizón laughs. "Too bad that's your name for now and always."
Standing there in the utility room, we laugh and joke with each other. The Gooch can read a dude to filth, and she is fantastic. Little did I know that I met the most important people I would ever have in my life.
I go home, and the house is empty because Mama and Dad are at work. The boys are in preschool, and my Abuelo picks them up. I take off my shirt and pants because it's so hot in the house. I make two sandwiches, one for me and one for dad. He comes home for lunch every day. Just as I get my second sandwich made, I hear his car pull into the driveway.
"I made you a sandwich," I call out from the kitchen. He walks through the house, but I hear the second set of footsteps.
"Thanks, Mijo," he calls out. "Someone is here to see you." He steps into the kitchen and notices that I'm in my underwear. "Oops." I look up and see him and Luci in the kitchen.
"Shit, let me get some clothes on," I say. "I’ll be right back.”
“Okay, I brought some snacks from my family's restaurant,” Luci says.
I run to my room and throw on a pair of basketball shorts and a tank top. I grab my notebook and run back into the kitchen. Dad is eating a buñuelo that Luci brought, and it makes me smile. He is enjoying his food. Dad looks over at me and smiles. He grabs his keys and heads to the front door, but he nods his chin over to the door. I follow him to the door, and he looks at me.
“You better be careful. Noel, if you choose to have sex be safe about it.”
“Dad! We’re working on a project for school.”
“Yeah, well, one thing leads to another. I saw how Luci was looking at you. I’ve been there, Hijo. I know what’s up.”
“Dad, stop.”
“Fine, but remember what I’m saying.” He says. I nod. “Bye, Luci! Thanks for the snacks.”
“Bye, Mr. Felix.” She calls out from the kitchen.
I go back, and we get to work on an activity for the school, a carnival. We go over what we want to have at the carnival, and in the next few weeks, we will see if it will be possible and if we have to work out a budget. She is smart as a whip but likes to pretend that she is not. I eat the snacks that she brought, and they taste great. She lets me know that she made them and tells me her dad let her off early to work on the project.
We go into the living room and watch some TV, and I can’t concentrate because she is sitting pretty close to me. She is beautiful, and my heart is beating fast. I look over at her, and she smiles at me, and my god, that smile is everything.
“Can I kiss you?” I ask. I feel so stupid for asking.
“I like your accent. Can you ask me again?” Luci smiles.
“Luci, can I kiss you? I ask. She nods, her face blushing.
My lips meet hers. We kiss frenzied. I take Luci by the hand and take her to my room. We make out on my bed, and it is bliss. Damn, if Dad wasn’t right, one thing leads to another…..
We have sex.
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
The summer flew t by, and having sex daily with a hot girl does that to you. Luci and I have been inseparable the whole summer. I haven’t spoken to my dad since the first day I came to California. He has been talking to my mom, and she tells me things he says, and I’m not interested in what he has to say. I got accepted to all the colleges I applied to. Everyone thought that I would go to college in Texas. I got into the best two schools in Texas, but I chose to go to UC Merced in California. My dad was pissed off because he wanted me to go to his school Alama Mater Texas A&M. Fuck that. Luci is still a junior, but she’s already applied to many colleges and got accepted to a bunch. She didn’t get into UC Merced, but she into UC LA it’s only four hours away.
“Mama, I’m leaving for school! I’ll be home late. I have football practice!” I yell as I grab the keys to my car.
“Okay, have a great day! Hey, call Papa. It’s his birthday.”
“I know it’s his birthday. I’ll think about it.”
I pick up Luci, and she does what she always does; she kisses me and grabs my dick. It makes us laugh, but we got to get to school. I skipped the other day, and I was yelled at by my Coach if I did it again, I would be on suspension from the team; I’m the first-string quarterback.
“We can go to your house.” She says.
“I can’t, Luci. I need to go to school, or I’m fucked.”
“I’ll fuck you.” She says. She can get aggressive and can be a little much. I love her, though. I shake my head. “You’re fucking boring, babe.”
“I’m not fighting with you today, Luci.”
“Fine, let’s go.” She scowls. Great, now I have to deal with this all day.
We have an interesting relationship, and my best friends tell me to drop her, but I’m in love with her. The Gooch and her hate each other, but they play nice because of me. The Gooch says that Luci is a manipulator and will do anything to keep us from hanging out. She threw a major tantrum when she found out that Gooch, Guerro, Narizón, and I will be going to the same college. I will not change my goals for anyone, and one day I think I will ask her to marry me. I can’t see my life without her in it. The guys don’t know what to make of her. They say she’s not very friendly. One day while I was at home taking a break from everyone. I got a weird call from my cousin Jose from Texas.
“I miss you, Noel!” he says when I answer.
“I miss y’all too!” I say
“You won’t guess what I heard!”
“What?”
“The reason why you got sent away!”
“Seriously! Why did I get sent here?”
“First, Esther told your dad that you were too wild to be around Destiny and that you were too hyper for her to control. Right?”
“That’s what he told me.”
“That’s not the reason though the real reason was that Destiny told my sister Lisa that she had made up this whole plan to get pregnant.”
“What the fuck does that have to do with me?”
“I’m getting to it, cabron.” He says, and I laugh. “You won’t be laughing in a second. She said she was going to get you to fuck her and get her pregnant.”
“The fuck! Hell, no, that would have never happened. She would try to be sexy, and I would ignore her. That’s disgusting! Dude, I need to call my dad.”
“Okay, bye, primo! See you soon?”
“Hopefully.”
I dial my Papa’s number, and it rings and rings. My heart is pounding in my chest, and finally, he answers the phone.
“The prodigal son returns.” He says into the phone.
“I have to tell you something.”
“Que paso, Hijo.”
“I was just told by someone that the reason that you sent me away was that Destiny wanted fuck me. That Esther made a bullshit lie saying that I was too much to handle.”
“What the hell are you talking about? Who the fuck told you that? Why would Esther lie to me?”
“I’m not going to tell you who told me. There you go again, you never believe me and always believing what Esther says.”
“Let me find out what’s going on. I miss you, Noelito. I can’t wait to see you next Saturday.”
“Okay, I want you there but not Esther because if this is true, that means she lied and wanted me out. When it’s her daughter that was the perverted one.”
“I’ll call you back.”
My Papa never called me back, but I didn’t care if he doesn’t show up for graduation. I won’t care either. I got a ton of awards from school, and I’m proud of myself. Graduation is tomorrow, and I haven’t heard a thing from my Papa. I know I said I wouldn’t be upset if he didn’t show up, but I am. There’s special graduation for Latino students that excelled tonight. I get ready to go when my mom comes in and sees me with my cap and gown in my Mexican sash and my honor roll sash. She cries, and I hug her tightly.
“I’m so proud of you Mijo, you had a struggle with your ADHD, but you did it!”
“Thank you, Mama. I always strive to make you proud. “Let’s go.”
We get to the school auditorium, and it’s transformed with decorations of red and black balloons, the school colors, and it looks cool. I see the Gooch, and she waves and runs over to us. I have never seen her in a dress, and she looks beautiful. She’s a tomboy, but she has guys tripping over themselves to get at her. They tell us that our parents will come up with us as we get our awards from MECHA. My mom is acting a little bit weird, and it makes me laugh. I see Luci come through the door, and she looks beautiful. She walks in with another junior named Mario. She sees me and runs up and kisses me crazy, and my mom looks at me. My mom says that Luci takes it too far with the PDA. In a way, I think she’s right. We take our seats and wait for our names to be called. When they call The Gooch’s name, we yell out.
“GOOOOCH!!” we yell out, and she laughs. She gets her awards and sits down. My name is being called next.
“Noel Armando Fernandez escorted by his Mother, Mrs. Anabella Felix, and his father, Rodrigo Fernandez.” The principal says. I think this must me a mistake. My Papa isn’t here. As I stand in the aisle waiting for my mama to escort me. I look behind me and see my Papa. I look up to the ceiling to prevent my tears from falling. Fuck, who cares if they see me cry.
“Papa! You came.” I cry as I hug him.
“I’d never miss this for as long as I live.” He says proudly.
I get my awards, six of them to be exact, and I’m awarded a five thousand dollar per year scholarship to add to the ones I got. My schooling will be paid in full, and what a blessing that is. My family is going out to dinner along with The Gooch, Guerro, and Narizón’s families. We go to an expensive Brazilian Steak house. Luci comes along with us, and my Papa says she’s cute but to concentrate on school. My Papa tells everyone that the meal is on him. He takes me to the side to talk to me.
“Hijo, I talked to Esther, and you were right. That’s why she wanted you to go. You don’t need to have a relationship with her, Hijo. I want you in my life.”
“I know you love her, Pa, but I don’t want to know her. I will still be in your life. I love you.”
“I love you, Hijo. I have a surprise for you after dinner. Let’s go eat.”
We eat, and the food is fantastic, and I love having my family here with me. My Papa takes a shine to my baby brother’s, and they love him. My Papa stands up and clinks his fork against his cup to get everyone’s attention.
“Hi everyone, thanks for joining us for dinner. I reached out to everyone over the last few months to make this surprise happen.” He says, handing me a set of keys along with the Gooch, Guerro, and Narizón.
“Holy shit, did you get us cars?” the Gooch says. Her Mama smacks her arm. “Perdon, did you get us cars?” We all laugh at her.
“No, something better.”
“What can be better than a car” Narizón laughs.
“A house,” Papa says.
“What?” We all scream out.
“Your parents and I all agreed that being wait-listed for dorms was a bad deal. We wanted to make sure that you didn’t stress out about where to live. Or struggle with working and school to pay the rent. School is hard by itself. So I bought this house full out, and it’s yours until you graduate.”
We all get up and jump up and down, screaming and hollering! This was one of the things that have me the most worried. Housing. I’m relieved and happy that I will be living with my best friends in the whole universe. I think Papa did this out of guilt, but shit, I’m okay with it. I look over and Luci, and she is glaring at us. I know she is pissed that I’ll be living the Gooch but so what.
No one will steal my joy even if she withholds sex from me!
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
My first year at college was fun and brutal at the same time. The class load I did was bonkers, but I'm glad I did it that way. Luci got mad at me for not coming to visit as much as I could, but I need to focus, and with ADHD, even the slightest distraction would fuck me up. I did the huge class load so I would have all the class requirements for the law program. I'm on my way there, and that is the goal at hand. She knows that, and I told her it's for our future. I know I'm only nineteen, but when you know, you know. After we all graduated, Luci moved to another school because her parents bought a house thirty minutes from where she used to live. She used to babysit my brothers once in a while but hasn't in a long time.
"Noel, you're so dumb. There is a lot of girls here that think you're amazing." The Gooch said one night after she heard a screaming match between Luci and me over Facetime.
"I love her, Gooch. I do." I said.
"She's crazy, Noel, like super crazy."
"She's upset that I'm not be spending summer at home."
"Tough shit! She needs to grow the fuck up. It's not like you're cheating. You're busting your ass for your dream. It's called adulting and adulting fucking sucks, but we'll be better for it."
"I know. I miss Luci, though. I haven't seen her since Thanksgiving."
"I know you miss her, but you'll see her for your birthday weekend next month."
"I'm excited about that! I'm glad that y'all are coming with me."
The last few weeks flew by, and the closer it got to us going home for the weekend, the more excited I got. I haven't had sex since September, and my balls are bluer than a damn smurf. We had a fight at thanksgiving and we never ended up making love at all the week. So I'm really looking forward to being with her again. I can't wait to see my girl and my family, of course. We packed all our shit in the car, and we were driving home first thing in the morning. We are taking two cars because Guerro will be staying home for a few weeks because he is having his tonsils removed. Poor guy got sick so much over the school year he went class sick as a dog too!
Our house that my dad got for us to live in is fantastic. It's a five-bedroom house with three bathrooms. I got the master bedroom because my dad bought the house. I didn't choose it myself. The Gooch decided for me. My room is connected to another bedroom, and that bedroom is currently empty. The person that we had move in with us didn't work out. She always fought with everyone, and she didn't mesh well with our group. We are in no hurry to find another roommate. If we find one, we find one. If we don't, we don't. There's a pool and hot tub, so our house was the place to be for parties and kickbacks. I decided to soak in the hot tub after I packed my bags for our weekend trip. I smoke a little weed and drink a beer and soak in the warmth of the water when the Gooch comes out of the patio door.
"Noel, your mom's calling you on my phone. She said you didn't answer yours, and she needs to talk to you." She says, handing me the phone.
"Thanks, gooch," I say, pushing myself out, so I'm sitting on the edge of the tub. "Ma?"
"NOEL ARMANDO FERNANDEZ!" she screams into the phone so loud that the Gooch can hear her from across the patio.
"Mom, my ear! Why are you screaming at me?"
"Noel, I always tell you that you can come to me about anything, right?"
"Yeah, you do."
"That's why I'm so fucking upset with you. You didn't come to me."
"Mom, what the fuck are you talking about?"
"No seas, Pendejo Noel!"
"I'm not. I swear I don't know what you're talking about. Can you tell me what the fuck is going on?"
"I took Tenoch to the mall so he could get you a birthday present, and we ran into Luci."
"Okay, you always see Luci. Why was today so different?"
"Noel quit fucking lying to me. When were you going to fucking tell me that Luci was almost seven months pregnant?" she cries. All the air leaves my body.
"What!? I have no idea what you are talking about, mom. I swear she has never said anything to me."
"I saw her. I know she saw me, and the next thing I know, she was gone. Tenoch even called her name." she says. I'm walking through the house dripping with water, and I grab my phone cellphone in my room and dial Luci's number. It gets forwarded to voicemail.
"Luci, you need to call back ASAP." I hang up, "Mom, I'm leaving the house now. I'll see you in a few hours."
"Noel, I believe that you didn't know about this, but why would she not tell you? When did you see Luci last? Has she gone to see you there?"
"The last time I saw her was in November."
"Did you have sex during that time?" she asks. Just like that, I feel like my world is falling apart. It dawns on me what is going on.
"No, we didn't have sex. The last time we had sex was in September when you brought her to the family weekend. She's fucking someone else!" I yell. The Gooch comes into my room. "I'm leaving tonight."
"Noel, you can't drive while you're upset," Mom says.
"I'll drive him." The Gooch says.
"Thank you, Cecy, and please be careful."
"I promise I will."
"Mom, we'll see you in a bit," I say, and I hang up. "Gooch, what fuck? Is she pregnant?"
"Noel, I don't know. Maybe it was a weird angle or something. Call her again." I call Luci again, and again it got sent to voicemail. "Text her."
Me: Luci, call me back. I need to talk to you.
I look at my phone, and I notice that the text was read. "She fucking left me on read. Let's get the fuck out of here."
We tell the guys what's going on, and they tell us that they'll see us tomorrow. We drive for a few hours, and my mind is all over the place. My heart is beating so hard, and I don't want to believe it, but something deep down tells me it is true. Could she be pregnant and it be mine? I need to see with my own eyes, and it has to be tonight. I don't care how late it is when we get into town. The Gooch looks at me with sympathetic eyes. She knows what this will do to me. It's hard for me to trust and let people, and I let Luci in and consume me. This will fuck me up if it's true.
"Noel, you want to go to your mom's because we are forty-five minutes away?" she asks
"Nope, I want to see Luci. Take me to Luci's house."
"Are you sure you want to do that tonight?'
"Yup,"
"You have her new address?" she asks. I take out my phone and give her the address. I sent her flowers two weeks ago.
It's close to midnight when we finally get on Luci's street. The Gooch pulls up in front of the house I point to. My heart is jackhammering in my chest. I feel like I'm going to puke, so I take a few deep breaths. The Gooch rubs my back as I'm having my mini-panic attack. I unfasten my seat belt, and I feel like I am doing these things in slow motion. I knock on the front door and take a moment for someone to answer the door. Her father and his eyes go wide when he sees me.
"Can I talk to Luci? It's an emergency. Please."
"Come in," he says.
"I'll wait here," I say.
"You sure?" he asks, and I nod. He goes into the house, and I stand on the porch, looking at my feet. The porch light turns on, and the door opens, and standing in front of me is Luci.
A very pregnant Luci.
By Sylcastillo14
Noel
My whole world is crashing down on me, and all I can do is stare at her. My heart is shattered beyond repair. She stands there, and she is stuck like a deer caught in the headlights. I can feel tears streaming down my face, and it angers me that I'm crying over this bitch. I thought she was different, and I thought she loved me. She moves toward me and touches my forearm, where I stupidly got a tattoo that says, Luci. I jerk my arm back so hard and fast that it startles her.
"Noel, I fucked up. I know I did. I'm so sorry." She tries to touch me again.
"Don't fucking touch me!" I yell. "Who's baby is it?" I ask. She looks to the floor. "Who's is it, Luci!"
"Mario." She says with her voice cracking.
"The dude you said was just a friend." I laugh sardonically.
"It's your fault. You left me here by myself and lonely."
"I was in school! I never cheated on you. Trust me, I had plenty of opportunities, but I never took them. Wanna know why?"
"Why, Noel." She says, rolling her eyes pissing me off.
"Because I loved you. I'm the fucking idiot. You hurt me worse than anyone could ever have. Worse than even my dad." I spit out. "What did you think I would do when I saw you? You knew I was coming home for my birthday."
"I don't know. I guess I thought if you loved me, you would look past this." She says.
"Look past this? You got pregnant by someone else. How many times have you been with him?" I ask. I'm crying hard now. She's about to answer when the door opens, and Mario walks out. "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?"
"Baby, what's going," Mario asks her.
"BABY?" I scream.
The next thing I know, I am beating the living tar out of this guy. He gets in some good shots, and I get even better ones. Luci starts screaming, and I hear The Gooch yelling for me to stop. Big arms are pulling me off. Luci's dad is holding me back from hitting Mario.
"What the fuck is going here?" Her dad Eduardo yells.
"She's been cheating on me with this guy and is having his baby."
"Luci, you told me you broke up with him," Mario yells.
"She played us both. I can at least leave and never have to worry about anything. You, on the other hand, are stuck with her until your kid is eighteen."
"Fuck you, Noel!" She yells. "You piece of shit."
"I'm the piece of shit?" I say, walking away. "Fuck you, Luci. Never I mean never call me, text me. Pretend I'm dead." I say, flipping her off with both hands. I get in the passenger seat and look at The Gooch. "Get me the fuck out of here."
"Okay, damn Noel, I'm so sorry, Hermano." She drives down the block. Everything hits me, and I begin to snap. I punch the dashboard, and I just don't cry. I wail and scream. "Aye, Noel."
She pulls over quickly and throws off her seat belt, and hugs me tightly. She is crying right along with me. She pats my back and tells me it's okay. It will never be alright ever again.
"I hurt so bad." I cry. "I hurt."
"If you could take your pain away, I would."
"I wanna die!" I yell.
"You don't mean that. Never say that." She cries. "Please never say that. I can't exist in a world that you don't."
"Fuck, I'm sorry. I just want the pain to go away. I want to get high."
"You can smoke weed. I'm gonna keep an eye on you."
"I want to pick up some rolling papers and cigarettes," I say, and she rolls her eyes. "What?"
"You started smoking cigarettes now?"
"Today, I will. Can we just go?"
"Fine, but girl hates guys that smell like cigarettes. It's gross."
"I don't give a fuck about girls right now. "
We go to the store and get a bunch of junk. My rolling papers and cigarettes before we get home, I already smoked a joint and a cigarette. I feel buzzed and not at all, ready for bed. The Gooch came to stay with me at my house. She filled my mom in on everything, and my mom was livid, of course. She came to check my eye, that I'm sure it will be a black eye in the morning. I sneak into the kitchen and grab some liquor from the cabinet. I take it back in the room, and The Gooch is lying down watching TV.
"Give me some of that tequila." She says as she watches me take a swig. "Don't be stingy." I laugh and hand it over to her. "A penny for your thoughts?"
"I'm just sitting here thinking about all the missed opportunities I had this year."
"When you say opportunities, you mean fucking girls?" She laughs.
"Yeah!" I say. "When I get back to school, it's on! I'm gonna fuck whoever I want."
"You want another relationship?"
"No, I just want to fuck girls. I'm going to be that dick that fucks girls, and when we're done, I kick them out."
"That's not how you are, Noel."
"It's going to be how I become. I'm going to be a Fuck Boi." I laugh.
"Stop." She laughs. "That'll never be you."
"Watch me!" I laugh.
"I don't want you to change. I love who you are."
"I'm not gonna change towards you. I love you. Just the girls that want to fuck me. I'll be a dick, too, and they'll keep coming back for more. That's all I'm willing to give. Nothing more or less."
"You're drunk. Go to bed." She laughs.
"Wanna fuck?" I laugh. She smacks me. "Ouch!"
"Fuck you, Noel. Go bed. You won't remember any of this bull shit you're saying tomorrow." She kisses my cheek as I lay down.
I fall asleep next to one of the most influential people in my life. She has stood by me through a lot of shit, and I'm glad that she was there when I shattered and helped pick up the pieces. Even though I know I'll never be the same again. I wake with a groan because I have a raging hangover. I get up quickly and run to my bathroom and puke.
"Noel, you okay?" The Gooch says.
"Yes," I manage to reply between dry heaves. " Just fucking peachy."
"Happy Birthday." She says.
"Thanks. Some fucking birthday."
"I'm sorry that it sucks. You still want to fuck me?" She laughs.
"What? The fuck you are talking about?" I say, coming out of the bathroom.
"You asked if I wanted to fuck last night." She cracks up.
"Shut the fuck up. No, I did not."
"Oh, but you did, and you declared that you're now a Fuck Boi."
"Sorry about asking you to fuck. As far as being a Fuck Boi, I remember that, and I'm not sorry about that."
"Oh god, Noel, you're too good for that." She groans.
"I'm not going to be a dick to you. Only the bitches I fuck."
"You're dumb! What do you want to do before the party?"
"First thing, I want to drive to San Francisco and get this piece of shit tattoo covered-up," I say.
I feel like Humpty Dumpty, and I'll never be put back together. She shattered me.
My walls are so far up now that no one will ever be let into my heart. EVER. If I do cut my balls off with a vice grip.
A rusty one.
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