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""Cup of Smiles""


Prologue
The Prologue for Cup of Smiles

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Prologue for Cup of
Smiles"
Written on October 8th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'The book entitled,
"Cup of Smiles"
'Will bring a rainbow of smiles with each poem or story.'
...
'The idea of "Cup of Smiles" 'Comes from an old Twilight Zone episode from the '60s.'
...
'With each and every Smile.'
'I shall present in my own Special style, a lesson.'
'Depending on my feelings at that very moment...
'On that very day.'
"Cup of Smiles."
'Is like a refreshing cup of coffee to help you complete your day.'
...
'Sometimes so, so, Sweet and sometimes...
'So, do, Bitter...
"Cup of Smiles'
'Will be sure to please.'

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"The Cornavirus Disease" Written on October 8th, 2020 By Doctor Ricky 1024 Copyright © Fanstory 2020 'All Rights Reserved'

'She lived on Mockingbird Lane.'
'And, she walked and went to school every day with me!'
'This also sweet and pretty little girl you see?'
...
'The skin color of hue was as if brand new!'
'And, another day of school.'
'And, another lesson to be learned.'
'Yes, as I held her hand and gladly presented the way.'
'And, we did this each and every single day.'
...
'Now, as time went by.'
'Oh me oh my!'
'We drifted apart.'
'But I always loved her.'
'And, she'll always have a big piece of my Heart.'
...
'But, sadly to say...
'On this very day...
'In the month of October and not the month of May.'
'If I can now say?'
'I found out that my sweet, sweet, friend Monique Dixon.'
'Finally came to meet her End....
...
'The Covid-19 Cornovirus Panademic Crisis is touching people in all different ways.'
'And, it's even affected the Presidency of the United States of *America.'
Approximate Word Count: 343.

Author Notes *America: noun.
country.
Monique Phillips Dixon
January 17th, 1980~
October 24th, 2019
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, as well as Writer, 'John Bailey's
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "coffee time"


Chapter 1
With Time Comes Chance?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"With Time Comes Chance?" Written on October 12th 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

'When time comes knocking at the door.'
'Should entertain?'
'Shouldwe let him?'
'Yes, to entertain the moment?'
'Good as Heaven or Bad as Sin?'
'Let's begin?'
...
'Father Time sets the hands and monitors.'
'Each and every tick.'
'Of each and every hand.'
'Of each and every clock.'
...
'He takes no prisoners nor offers any forgiveness.'
'But Yes!'
'He's more than just that!'
'Let's begin a new?'
...
'Now what would you do if your clock ran out of ticks?'
'If the hands went motionless and no longer did wind?'
'One second at a time?'
...
'You see?'
"Father Time above takes no prisoners nor any offers any form of forgiveness.'
'And, in my case?'
'That's exactly what had happened to me in 2003.'
'Let's see?'
...
'Father Time are you there watching?'
'Yes I am writer and what shall I...
'What shall I do for you?'
'Exactly, what happened to me in 2003?'
...
'Well, I could tell you the truth it happened to your only son Jason.'
'Him and his mentally ill friend Brian Colr.'
'Went to work experimenting on how fast his Ford Mustang could go?'
'Firstly, let me explain?'
'That Death Machine was previously used and raced professionally at Atco Raceway.'
'Atco, New Jersey.'
'And, the kid purposely propelled it as if a missile.'
'At over 100 miles an hour.'
'Straight into the nearest telephone pole.'
...
'So when it comes to time?'
Wtiter.'
'You may have or think you may have all the time left in the world?'
'But actually your son does!'
...
'And, in enclosing writer.'
'You can explain that in your *Editors Notes!'
The End?
Approximate Word Count: 320




Author Notes *Editors Notes: noun
'summary.
'On March 31st 2003.'
'My Only Son Jason Richard.'
'Was involved unfortunately in a horrible accident.'
'Yes, where the car driven by the 17-year-old mentally ill young man named Brian Cole.'
'He did not want to live and took my son for the ride of his life!'
...
'And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tssue Donations'
'Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with,
"The Gift of Life" Philadelphia,Pennsylvania.
At 1-800-DONORS-1
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His So Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist,
'Kurtfondriest.'
And, Kurt's Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Grandfather clock of creation"


Chapter 2
Life is but a Dream?

By Ricky1024

"Life is but a Dream?"
Written on October 12th 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

'When I think back, way back on my past?'
'Past Wishes and Dreams.:
'Dear Lord God?'
'I so remember the Christmas Stockings are lined up in a row!'
'And, all the Beautiful and many Christmas Presents!'
'Yes Lord, with all their Pretty of bow!'
'And, I do remember the gathering of the hidden presents and being exhausted at 2:00 A.M!'
...
'I think back on all the Halloween's and all the little child smiles on Halloween night!'
'The way they dressed and appreciate the fright!'
...
'I remember back on the magic of the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy.'
'Searches for the Chocolate Eggs and the hidden pillowed Fantasies!'
'And Lord God?'
'Again I need to be there?'
...
'Why Lord, when I search for tomorrow?'
'I try my very best to locate that Morrow but what is moral of this story?'
'To find again the man I used to be?'
'To break the chains that bind me?'
...
'They say a Man is only a Man when he has a good Woman?'
'And, You know Dear Lord God?'
'You've tested me and I've taken your best!'
'So now dear Lord God?'
'Can you please end my *Quest?'

Approximate Word Count: 249.




Author Notes *Quest: noun
mission, adventure.
This poem represents an older man searching for that younger man again.
Praying to God that one day he will again have a new family?
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, as well as Incredible Writer, 'cleo 85'
And, her Incredible picture Entitled, "Dreaming Blue"


Chapter 3
Until She Again Comes Home?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Until She Again Comes
Home?"
(A Dedication)
Written October 15th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

"Until She Comes Home?"
'I await, with her flowers in her hair.'
'Oh Dear Lord God?'
'How I wish she was there.'
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
"Until She Comes Back Home?"
'Again, to me?'
'I shall shed countless tears of past painful memories.'
'I shall try.'
(If I can?)
'To be that man she needs of me?'
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
"Until She Again Comes Back Home?"
'Lord God Above?'
'To me?'
'I shall not want, nor need.'
'I shall not sleep, nor shall I eat.'
'Yes, not a single thing nor morsel of meat.'
"Until She Comes Home?'
...
"Until She Comes Back Home to Me?"
'With Flowers in her Hair and Stars that dot her Hazel/Green Eyes.'
'Moon that Glows in her Smiles.'

****

'I will be Faithful and dear.'
'Yes, in Hope again she will be here?'
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
'And, finally?'
"Until She Comes Home?"
'I await all alone as the Blacken clouds gather higher.'
'Higher up in the Gray of Skies.'
...
'I shall get down on my two knees.'
'And, as I realize.'
'Yes again, with pretty flowers from her hair.'
'And, Stars from her Beautiful eyes.'
...
'I shall gently lay them down where she rests.'
'For she has *Died.'

Estimated Word Count:
285

Author Notes *Died: noun
pass away, deceased, gone.
...
'A Parents worst nightmare?'
'Is to lose that child.'
'No matter what age no matter what sex.'
'But too shortly afterwards?'
'To then lose your only spouse?'
'After a nearly 20-year marriage.'
My wife Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky.'
'Purposely, due to the loss of our son Jason.'
'Stopped her medications for three months.'
'And, as a result she died from a DVT.
(Deep-Vernacular Thrombosis)
'A blood clot from the leg to the heart.'
'Causing Two Heart-Attacks.
'The second one massive.'
"If you know anybody feeling suicidal please dial 9-11.'
'That my friend is a Horrid Curse in reverse.'
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Writer
'Linda Bickston'
And, her Incredible, as well as, amazing Picture Entitled,
"Ghost Hunting"


Chapter 4
Just Me and You

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Just For Me and You"
(A Dedication)
Written October 16th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

'I Shall Leave you...
(My Endless Lover)
'A trail of Sweet Rose Petals to guide you on your way.'
'Then we will finally meet.'
'On the banks of the Cold, Cold, Bluen Lake.'
...
'And yes!'
'That Cold, Cold, and Beautiful Bluen Lake.'
'Where we will forget all our Miseries and cares!'
'And, as I now dive in, my dear?'
'You will finally see me in our Dreams!'
...
'Yes!'
'My Azure Blue Eyes and the Sparkly Driplets of water upon my breast!'
'Then my Love?'
'You will soon realize!'
...
'Realize as the music then shall begin!'
'As you come closer to me!' 'And, Luna the Moon Goddess?'
'She will watch with anticipation along the
"Sea of Tranquility."
'As we begin...
"The Dance of Love!"
...
'Yes, the Sweet, Sweet, Music will then begin!'
'As you now my Lover!'
'Come ever closer to me!:
'And, my Love?'
'She shall watch from above as we begin the Beautiful "Dance of Love!"
...
'Ever slowly at first.'
(As the tempo begins)
'No need to rehearse!'
'For we have been waiting...
'Way, way, too long for this love making to begin.'
...
'And yes, finally at last!'
(As if a Sin?)
'No for this is Truly a Gift.'
'Yes a Gift and Blessing from above!'
'Given to the very few'
"Just For Me and *You!"
Approximate Word Count: 293.

Author Notes *You: noun.
person, someone other.
This dedicated piece is for my late wife Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky.
'Rest in Eternal Peace my Love.'
'You no longer have to suffer.'
...
'And, if you know anybody that is suicidal?'
'Please call 9-11.'
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this talented,as well as, amazing artist, Jasper 56.'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Lovers Under God's Splendor"

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Chapter 5
Miss Her So?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Miss Her So?"
(A Dedication to my long lost wife Carolyn)
Written on October 19, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
Don't you know you miss her when you let her go?
That you need her when it isn't so?
That you can't find her because the Sun forgot to Glow?
Oh...
And now that you lost her you should know?
At it's over when you no longer loved her so?
And you should have never made her cry yes that day you told her goodbye?
Oh...
...
So, now when you think of her at night you realize?
As the tears now pool in your eyes?
That now it's your turn to do nothing but cry?
And, she's the reason that you lost her and she *Died? Oh...
...
And, when that Moon again is out of Glow?
And, you sit there thinking of what you done?
Yes now all alone?
And, you now know that you...
"Miss Her So?"
Approximate Word Count: 174.

Author Notes *Died: noun
deceased, pass away, gone
On March 31st, 2003.
We lost our only son Jason.
And, on the 1st of April. We donated Jay's organs to save four lives.
And, less than 8 months later.
On November 23rd, 2003. My only wife Carolyn Ann committed suicide.
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
...
'Rest in Peace baby.'
'You're home now at last.'
Note: If you know anybody severely depressed and possibly suicidal please call 9-11.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Susan F. M. T.'
And her Incredible Picture Entitled,
'A Dedication to the Fallen'



Chapter 6
My Buddy, My Friend 2003

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Buddy, My Friend 2003"
Written on March 7th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024 Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

"Sometimes when you think that everything's gone wrong?"
"Everything's actually gone right!"
(Theology 49.10)
...
'The Evening air seeks a replacement.'
'As God's Gentle Rain now touches below.'
'This you need to know for finally for someone it's time to now go?'
...
'Go as it may?'
'Go as it should?'
'And, go as it's necessary?'
'And, go as it could?'
'For tonight within the Mist of Early Springs Dew?'
'It will be all right for me and you.'
...
'And, I have come to realize exactly.'
'Exactly now as I finally knew.'
'Yes, exactly what these words now penned.'
'Mean to me and you.'
...
'Hark!'
'Hark!'
'The Angels sing!'
Glory!'
'Glory!'
'To your Newborn King!'
'Yes, for now my Only Son.'
'My Only Son Jay.'
'To embark now on this day.'
...
'And, I now sadly must say...
'Goodbye.'
'Yes Dear Lord God Above.'
'But please be gentle with my Only Love?'
'For in the future.'
'We Two have a date with Destiny and Fate.'
'And, I can hardly wait.'
'And, with these words I so have Penned.'
'I miss you my Son.'
'The most.'
'And, I will miss you until my very and Final End...
"My Buddy, My *Friend"
Approximate Word Count: 241.

Author Notes *Friend: noun
amigo, partner, buddy.
'On March 31st, 2003.' 'Unfortunately for my family and me.'
'My son Jason made a fatal mistake and got in a car with a maniac '
'And, this kid Brian Cole.'
'Decided to take that car and use it as a weapon and over 100 miles an hour until a telephone pole.'
'Seventeen, long hours later?'
'We had to deal with a Brain-Dead child.'
'And, it's parent's worst nightmare to lose a child.'
'To go through the experience and to live with it is tremendously heartbreaking.'
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist,
'Renate-Bertodi'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Bosses and Kids Not Paid For!'


Chapter 7
Dancing in the Breeze

By Ricky1024

"Dancing in the Breeze"
Written November 8th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

"Within the Avenue of a tman's Life"
"There's Only One Chance at the Dance"
(Theology 50.74)
...
'I'm dancing in the dark alone?'
'And, no one's even there on the cell phone?'
'It's continuous as if a sneeze!'
'Because I'm dancing now in a breeze?'
...
'Lord won't you please?'
'Send somebody?'
'Anybody to me?'
'Anybody that can dance?'
'Can't you see?'

****

'Darkness surrounds me!'
'Confounds me!'
'Lord, It's slowly like a vice!'
'Not very nice as it compounds me?'
...
'Lord, can't you please?'
'End this disease!'
'And, send me somebody?'
'With that Breeze?'
'So I cannot ever again dance alone?'
Estimated Word Count: 150.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His vision Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist,
'Joelgraphuchin'
And, his I ncredible Picture entitled,
"Dancing"


Chapter 8
Dancing with All My Heart

By Ricky1024

"Dancing with All My Heart"
(A Dedication to Carolyn)
Written November 8th,2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
Based on the song by
Lady Antebellum
"Need You Now"

'I wonder if I ever cross your mind?'
'I can hear No answers on the cell phone?'
'And, I feel as if I'm going blind!'
'This seems to be happening all the time!'
...
'Picture perfect memories...
'Sleep at night all alone?'
'Perhaps I truly still live in "The Twilight Zone?"
And, I don't know more I can take and still go on?'
...
'So, I take the time to write these words just for you?'
'Words you'll never know?'
'Words that still feel so true!'
'And, I write it as it crosses my mind...
'Because it seems to happen all the time?'
...
'So, here I go dancing again all alone?'
'No more dancing with the breeze baby?'
'And, I'm here down on my begged knees?'
...
'It's now a quarter after 8:00 and I'm feeling not so great?'
'Lord?'
'And, I need somebody?'
...
'As time goes marching on?'
'I'm still forever trapped in this song!'
'Forever gone!'
'And Lord, is this where I belong?'
'But, baby I need somebody!'
...
'And baby?'
'As I recite my wedding vow.'
'That is right where we will be again, right from the very start.'
"Dancing with All My *Heart"

Estimated Word Count: 280.


Author Notes *Heart: major organ, pump.
This coming November 23rd, will make the Seventeenth Anniversary since the loss of my wife Carolyn.
Less than Eight months after the loss of our only son Jason.
She decided she wanted to be with him.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing, as well as, talented Artist/Writer,
'cleo 85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Shadows of the Past"


Chapter 9
Stealing the Stars

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Stealing the Stars"
(One Dream at a Time)
Written on November 19th,
2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dedication)
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Once Upon a Time...
These many, many, many, memories...
So very, very, very, long ago...
Lost in my mind.
A young boy had a Dream.
...
Yes!
And, he dreamed of one and only one thing?
So, with each and every night?
He tried as hard as he could to get it right?
But only when the Stars were shining Bright?
He would fall asleep and Dream!
...
Dream of capturing his own Star in a net!
But then when he would wake up?
He would soon forget?
...
So, each and every time?
As he would try?
Yes, when he fell asleep?
And, when he dreamed?
Yes!
...
To capture that Star and place it in a Crystalline Jar?
And now?
From so very, very, far?

****

Many, many, years would come and pass....
Dreams that had been gone...
Dreams that he had captured...
And, dreams that had and could never last?
...
So, again my friend.
As, he went to sleep?
And, then he dreamed?
He finally caught that Star...
In that *Crystalline Jar.
Approximate Word Count: 266.

Author Notes *Crystalline Jar: noun
Container from God,
the Golden fleece,
"The Gift of Life."
...
To learn more about
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift Life"
Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Note: 'The Death of a child is a parent's worst Nightmare.'
'No matter the age, no matter the race, no matter the sex.'
"Time will package a Band-Aid over the wound but the scar will always run deep"
(Theology 54.01)
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984 ~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's graciously donated on April 1st, 2003.
( April Fool's day)
...
"I Mourn'd and shall mourn with
ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman
...
"I Mourn'd and shall mourn forever and ever with each and every...
ever-returning spring..."
Richard Edward Smrkovsky
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer, and Talented Artist, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Reaching for the Stars"


Chapter 10
Reverse Psalm

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Reverse Psalm"
Written on November 23rd,
2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

'The Lord is my Shepherd.'
'I shall not want.'
'He helped me to lay down in Green pastures.'
'He leads me besides the quiet and still Waters.'
'And, He restores my Soul '
'Yes, as He guides me!'
...
'Yes, He guides me to the path.'
"The Path of Righteousness" 'And, for His namesake.'
'I shall now die.'

****

'Yes even though I now walk through the Valley of my Death."
"The Shadow of Death"
'I no longer fear.'
'Yes, I will fear no evil.'
'Nor Man nor Beast.'
...
'The Iron Rod and his shaft!'
'Yes, they comfort me.'
'And, Lord God?'
'You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.'
...
'You anoint my head with oil'
'Yes, as my cup now overflows and runneth over!'
'For this is now endless Love.'
'And, surely Goodness and Endless Love.'
'Will follow me all the rest of the days of my life.'
"And, I will dwell in the "House of the Lord!"
*Forever."
Amen

Approximate Word Count: 233.

Author Notes *Forever: noun
always, lifetime.
after the death of our only son Jason on March 31st, 2003.
Only eight months later.
On November 23rd, 2003. My wife Carolyn stopped her necessarily medications.
(Three months previously)
Resulting in her untimely and ultimate death from a Heart attack.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, 'Jquijano'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Twogether till our sunset ends"


Chapter 11
Total Perfection!

By Ricky1024

"Total Perfection!
Written on November 25th,
2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fansto my dad2020
'All Rights Reserved'

"No Man nor Woman is an Island"
(Theology 54.04)
And, we are meant to be together as, "One"
...
So, we Hope and we Pray... (Each and every day)
Each and every Sabbath Sunday.
And, as we do this and take in the Sacrament?
We remember our past loved ones.
We remember possibly our past relationships and our past marriages?
...
We try with all our Heart, Minds, and Souls.
To achieve in our Hearts what we believe?
Believe as if as we try so very, very, hard to achieve!
Achieve and feel what has been missing?
Yes, for so very, very, long.
...
We stray from the path and hope to find what's been missing?
Now, as we stay?
Yes stay on the path?
...
But for so very, very, long.
We do the good as we should.
As we stay on that path.
As we try to do the best we can?
"Man and Woman and Woman and Man."
Understand?
...
For only if we achieve?
What we try are very best to believe?
As, we are gently nudged in the proper direction.
Hoping and praying to find...
"Total Perfection!"
Approximate Word Count: 263.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, ad Always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurray:
And her Incredible Picture Entitled,"Grand Perfection"


Chapter 12
To the Moon and Back (A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"To the Moon and Back" (A)
(Again)
A Dedication
Written on November 28th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1025
Copyright © Fanstory 2030
'All Rights Reserved'

On this very day.
My son Jay
Came to be.
And, on this day.
My only son.
Jay went away?
And, I too died.
...
Dear Lord God above,
How do you possibly put this into words?
Dear Lord God above,
How do you begin to write?
Dear Lord God above,
Write words that could ever mean?
Words from this pen?
Amen.
...
Yes he passed away.
And, yes he left behind a Legacy.
A Legacy, two men, and one young woman.
...
Life is more than a Precious Commodity.
Life is more than even Diamonds and Gold.
And, on this very day?
I must now pray.
...
Pray with all my Broken of Heart and Worried Soul.
Pray for just a chance.
Yes a glance.
A glimpse of Hope.
Yes, a Split Srcond of Time.
....
Dear Lord of God above,
Yes, I would experience.
Dear Lord God above,
Yes gladly experience.
Four Million Heart Attacks.
To get that chance to say to my Jay.
'I Love you more with all of this pitiful heart that lacks.:
...
Yes, for that last chance to travel.
"To the Moon and Back"

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"To the Stars and Back" (B)
(Again)
Written November 28th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Time is the Great Healer.
The Salve on the Wound.
The Bandage to cover the Scar.
"To the Stars and Back"
...
Destiny cannot be altered...
Nor can we affect...
The moon shalleth Glow.
(Yes we do know)
But it's so far and I lack...
"To the Stars and Back?"
...
The Sun is immense and warms the Pangs of my Endless Pain away but...
When you're Heart of Hearts is broken?
Broken and Cracked?
"To the Stars and Back?"
...
Time, Destiny, Moon, and Stars
Whether you plan a vacation to Saturn or to Mars?
"To the Dtars and Back"
...
The Stars above may twinkle with Love but when you die?
Die from a Heart Attack?
"To the Moon, to the Sun, to the Stars, and *Back"
Approximate Word Count:411.




Author Notes *Back: noun
again, repeat, over.
On March 31st, 2003.
And shortly there after on April 1st, 2003.
We donated our only Son Jason's organs.
To save four lives.
After being diagnosed brain dead.
And, in less than eight months later.
My wife of only twenty years.
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky Passed away from the results of two Heart Attacks.
Caused by a DVT.
(Deep Venicular Thrombosis)
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'moonwillow'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Reentry"


Chapter 13
The December I Remember

By Ricky1024

"The December I Remember"
Written December 1st, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
...
Icycle Spears dripping it as they pierced the snow below...
The midnight coating?
I remember so!
Going outside in 36-in snow...
A clearing I will go!
...
Good morning Sun as it kisses my "Frosty eyelashes!"
The snow plow overflow!
And, these are the memories I still remember!
So?
...
Up, Up, Up, and away we go!
It's a school day you know!
Get on the galoshes the scarves and the mittens!
Waxed the railings on the sleds!
Come on get up sleepy heads!
...
Roots Hill awaits!
And now all five of us have a date!
Yes a date with Fate!
A date with fun!
Because days like this?
Sometimes never come?
Approximate Word Count:
181.



Author Notes Special thanks goes out first,as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'pierrehusson:
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Frozen Colors"


Chapter 14
Always on My Mind

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Always on My Mind"
Written on December 6th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try our best to understand?
Understand the best we can?
Exactly why we exist?
And, How hard sometimes ..
To resist?
...
Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try our very best to understand?
But if we persist?
Give in and no longer resist?
I now must insist.
That there is more than meets the eye.
And, there is no longer any need....
To continue and cry.
...
Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try a very best to understand?
To want so much to die?
To try and waste away?
Eliminate the sad feelings and the loss of our sunny day.
No need to resist.
Waste away into a fine, powdered Mist?
Within the tears of the so, so, many years...
...
Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try our very best to understand?
Years of Bruised and Confused Feelings?
As we each must sacrifice.
Man to woman...
Woman to man...
Wife to husband...
Husband to wife...
We behind all our past Miseries and all our past pains...
If we can?
...
Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try our very best to understand?
And now as we care to...
We must go to the Altar.
For His arms are open wide!
Let him deep inside?
Deep inside your broken of Heart.
...
Throughout the history of Mankind.
We try our very best to understand?
As We capture your spirit!
A need to Go back home!
Home where you belong.
Because we are all...
"One-of-a-kind"
And, you my Love?
And, even though sometimes life can be so unkind.
You will always and forever be....
"Always on My *Mind"
Approximate Word Count: 352.



Author Notes *Mind: noun
thoughts, images, memories.
Note on this day.

'On this date of December 6th 2020.'
'The day of my late wife Carolyn's birthday.'
'And yes, she is on my mind.'
'And, she was on my mind November 23rd, 2020.'
'Seventeen years after she decided she no longer wanted to be here and went back home.'
...
'If you know somebody that's extremely upset and who recently lost a loved one and is suicidal.
Please call 9-11.'
...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003
'Rest in Peace Baby.'
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist as well as Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024'
And his Incredible picture and Entitled, "Just Me"



Chapter 15
Experiencing Winters Delights

By Ricky1024

"Experiencing Winter's Delights"
(As We Sleep this Night)
Written on December 4th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Let it Snow, let it Snow, let it Snow?
We all know!
As slowly God coats his Loving Earth!
(The Place of all Humankind's birth)
Yes, for what it's worth?
...
The Pureness of that White as it carefully covers all this night!
To cover all those past and Darkened memories...
With the Newest of Snow!
And, away we go as another Winters Coating!
...
Covers all and as we sled and ski and toboggan away?
On this very day?
And, How we sure wish that it would happen more!
Coat and gloves?
Or one mitten on and one mitten off?
And, one foot out the door!
...
It's a snow day and time to play!
But God works in Mysterious ways?
As He paints His Palette so perfectly in White?
We again dream of these past memories.
"As We Sleep this Night"
Approximate Word Count: 237.





Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Envision'
And, there Incredible Picture and Entitled to "Concert Confetti"


Chapter 16
January Chill!

By Ricky1024

"January Chill 2021!"
Written on January 30th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Baby it's cold out!
Scream and shout!"
This ain't no "California Dreaming"
Or "Old Man Sol"
He ain't a heating!
He ain't even a meeting!
...
The Coldest time of the year is late December and January.
In parts of the Northwest, the average temperatures bottom out before the Solstice.
...
Both the Arctic.
(Which is the North Pole)
And, the Antarctic.
(Which is the South Pole)
Are cold because they don't get any Direct Sunlight.

"Dead of Winter"
Written on January 16th, 2021

"The Dead of Winter"
Is an old saying that refers to the coldest part of the Winter Season. (January 10th to February 1st)
...
Today's date is January 16th, 2021.
And, it's been unseasonably mild?
With high temperatures today predicted to be 46.°
But we will Pay!
Mark my words!

"Old Man Sol."
Written on January 17th, 2021
He doesn't give and it feels as if he ain't there?
Why?
...
We are at the farthest distance from the Old man's Sol's heat!
Heat me up Scotty?
Or beam me up?
....
"Sunbeams or false Dreams?
I see Icy Sickles growing from my nose!
I ain't even any Santa Claus!
Damn it's Cold!
And, it's so so cold!
'How cold is it Dr Ricky?'
"Colder than my Ex's Nancy's tits!"
Approximate Word Count: 366.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'simoka'
And, they're incredible picture entitled, "When Hell Freeze's Over"


Chapter 16
January's Chill! 2021!

By Ricky1024

"January's Chill 2021!"
Written on January 30th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Baby it's cold out!
Scream and shout!"
This ain't no?
"California Dreaming"
Or?
"Old Man Sol"
He ain't a heating!
He ain't even a meeting!
...
Note: The Coldest time of the year is late December and January.
(In parts of the Northwest)
The average temperatures bottom out before the Solstice.
...
Both the Arctic.
(Which is the North Pole)
And, the Antarctic.
(Which is the South Pole)
Are cold because they don't get any Direct Sunlight.

"Dead of Winter"
Written on January 16th, 2021

"The Dead of Winter"
Is an old saying that refers to the coldest part of the Winter Season. (January 10th to February 1st)
...
Today's date is January 16th, 2021.
And, it's been unseasonably mild?
With high temperatures today predicted to be 46 Degrees.°
But we will Pay!
Mark my words!

"Old Man Sol."
Written on January 17th, 2021
He doesn't give and it feels as if he ain't there?
Why?
...
We are at the farthest distance from the Old man's Sol's heat!
Heat me up Scotty?
Or beam me up?
....
"Sunbeams or false Dreams?"
I see Icy Sickles growing from my nose!
I ain't even any Santa Claus!
Damn it's Cold!
And, it's so, so, cold!
And my breath is slowly becoming my death!
'How cold is it Dr Ricky?'
"Colder than my Ex's Nancy's tits!"
Approximate Word Count: 372.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'simoka'
And, they're incredible picture entitled, "When Hell Freeze's Over"


Chapter 17
Winter's End?

By Ricky1024

"Winters End?'
Written on February 13th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

It's almost the end of February and the snow is lifting.
No more will God's Delight be drifting?
The galoshes and mittens are hung by the chimney with care.
In Hope that Spring weather would soon be coming there?
...
The temperatures stopped falling.
Along with Long Forgotten Thawings?
And the icicles are now dripping.
Would it soon be time for skinny dipping?
...
The Winter's temperature if lifting.
So uplifting!
As Sun is now shining brightly!
And the daffodil smiles?
Well, I would walk a million miles!
...
Yes, gathering squirrels acorns are almost all gone.
And, the coming spring breeze
Are starting to play their wonderful songs.
...
Tulip's bulbs are bursting!
As frozen lakes again are flowing.
This God is a knowing as the Misty dews are all now brand new!
And, thank God!
And, Amen!
What took you so long Lord for
"Winter's *End?"
Approximate Word Count: 172.

Author Notes *End: noun
/end./
The part of the area that ends at the boundary.
The point where something ceases to exist.
...
The Winter of 2021 is not quite ending here in South Jersey.
We have been extremely lucky with fall like temperatures!
And, we recently had some wet snow two days ago.
But, Old Man Winter seem to continue.
As the lowered cold temperature's are holding it's own.
Yes, firmly coating the tree's branches.
I do believe we're going to get hit with not just a few inches before we see March!
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Dreaming of Spring"


Chapter 18
Heartbeats

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Heartbeats"
Chapter Number One
(Chance Encounter)
Written on December 16th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Within the Inner-Workings and Presence of a Man's Broken of Heart's.
Lies is a single Beat.
...
Note: A Normal resting Heart rate for adults ranges from 60 to 100 beats per minute.
Generally a lower rate at rest employs more efficient Heart functions, a lower rate at rest implies more efficient heart functions.
Yes.
And, better Cardiovascular Fitness.
A well-trained athlete might have a normal resting Heartbeat closer to 40 beats per minute.
...
Note: Your Human Heart beats about 100,000 times in one day.
And, about 35 million in a year.
During an average Human's Lifetime, the Human Heart will beat more than 2.5 billion times!
...
An example: Give a tennis ball a good serve?
Your now using the same amount of force that your Heart uses to pump blood out to the body.

****

Jonathan Stakes was a healthy man.
Understand?
He worked regularly he walked and bicycled he also ran occasionally.
This routine had kept his Heart healthy and at age sixty-six?
He expected to see many, many, more years.
...
Nancy was a normal and average woman.
"I am a good person"
She came into Jonathan's Life by a chance encounter in a local news agency.
Nancy cared mainly about horses and horse racing.
She went to Belmont religiously when she was taking care of another who had eventually passed away.
Some say that Jonathan Stakes had "The Heart of a Horse?"
...
Within three weeks?
They fell deeply in Love!
Jonathan had recently experienced incredible losses!
And was ripe for an encounter!
With this most Beautiful Angel!
...
He drove her everywhere in his Corvette.
They used to take long drives And His Cadillac DeVille listening to the cars wonderful music system!
And on his cruiser?
His 2003 baby blue Kawasaki Vulcan 2000cc cruiser?
They had numerous adventures!
...
Yes Nancy loved the fast life and the fast lane?
And also Jonathan's Rich's!
End of Chapter Number One.
Note: This is based on my relationship with Nancy back in 2006.


Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'simonka'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Multiplying Molecules"


Chapter 19
Block of Clay(A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Block of Clay"(A)
Written on March 31st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �?�© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'


Once Upon...
When Upon was "Upon Me."
I dreamed of a Miracle!
Yes, A Blessing!
A Gift Wrapped Just for Me?
Could it possibly be?
Was it from "Santa's Fairytale Factory?"
But if only only I could see?
See, exactly what was in STORE...
For me?
...
Yes I led the Good Life.
Save all of my money and eventually owned my own house free and clear.
Yes the good life and found myself a Beautiful wife!
But...
...
Oh Dear Lord God!
Help me for I was Blind!
Yes, how blind was Eye?
For with just one swipe of that
"Boney Hand!"
Are you beginning to understand?
As, "Tears of Sadness."
Fell from the Skies!
...
The Coldness invades me!
The Darkness coats and cuta my Sorried Soul with "Daggers of Steel!"
Dear Lord God above?
Is this for REAL?

****

'Dad?'
'Dad are you there?'
'I need to know that you still care?'
'I can't seem to hear a thing?'
'Can't even remember my very own name?'
'Am I going insane?'
'Nor can I see Dad what's happening to me?'
To be continued.
24

"Block of Clay" (B)
Written on April 1st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

'Nor can I see Dad what's happening to me?'
'Perhaps I died Daddy?'
'My Daddy did I die?'
'It feels as if something's coming from me!:
'And, I feel lighter than air, Daddy!'
'And, I don't care Daddy!'
'For I like this.'
...
Note: At this point, in time.
(March 31st, 2003)
My obly Son Jason, whom had been diagnosed, March 31st, 2003.
Is officially, "Brain-Dead"
And, His Soul is now exiting, for His many Organ's have been removed on this day of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
(April Fool's Day 2003)
...
Dad I think I see colors?'
'Yes Dad and I feel like I'm flying!'
'No longer am I crying but I feel Glee?'
'Yes Dad I think I'm going to Heaven!'
...
Note: There are Seven Layers of Multi-Different Coloured Hues.
Yes, these Cloud Colorings start as a light yellow and advance through the stages of the color chart.
Until eventually it is completely...
A Beautiful Azure Blue.
...
Note: As the Soul is rising through the *Firmaments: plural noun.
The Heavens or the sky, especially when considered a tangible thing.
...
'Yes Dad and I can see again!'
'And, I can also hear voices!'
'As if music or singing?'
...
Note: This is the announcement that you are extremely close to Heaven!
...
Yes!
As, the thousands upon thousands of Angels now continuously singing!'
...
Note: As of this day...
April 1st, 2021.
(April Fool's Day)
Three out of four individuals are now and have been given a second chance!
Yes, A Second Chance!
A Blessing!
A Miracle?
"The Miracle and Blessing of Life!"
...
To learn more about,
Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's Graciously donated
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)





Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist
And, Amazing Writer.
'Doctor Ricky 1024.'
Along, with his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"The Memory Box"


Chapter 20
Thirteen Cents

By Ricky1024

"Thirteen Cents"
Written on May 13th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

It comes and it goes with the flows of Inhumanity.
This existence of undeniable Insanity?
It's rooted to all Evil!
(We know)
Grab yourself a handful at the next "Traveling Show?"
(HELL!)
...
Easy comes...
Easy goes...
Bright and shiny as a newly created dime or penny?
But what's that got to do with it Jack Benny?
.
Is the point or a coin of it greed?
Yes, Greed indeed?
The more you get?
The more you want it!
Cherish and adore it?
Or, Adhore hunt it?
...
Save it till it a masses into a fortune or just give it all away?
But how exactly would we all benefit from doing that silly thing all day?
...
Maybe it's time for a change?
Help those in need and rearrange?
"Pocket *Change"
Approximate Word Count:225.



Author Notes *Change: verb
chanj
1) to make different in some particular: alter.
...
Unfortunately the end of March 2003.
And, on the first day of April or April Fool's Day.
I had to make that decision along with my wife and family.
To make a change and or alter Destiny.
...
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Pocket Change"


Chapter 21
Lost Connections

By Ricky1024

"Lost Connections"
(Ghostly Images?)
Written on June 4th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Lost Connections?
Communications?
No Relations?
Time lost in a bottle...
Slowly, ever so slowly...
Drifting away....
And, no matter how hard I try?
They all seem to dissipate but why?
...
Maybe things were somehow meant to be?
To be or not to Be?
Is that the Question?
Yes, of my immediate Direction?
Maybe I'm no longer?
But somehow I must persist?
Another day longer?

****

"Willow Messages"
Yes, somehow Voices...
But from the Grave?
Voices from the Grave...
that no longer Behave?
Please go Away?
No more teasing me this Way!
...
Yes, and I know how hard it is.
And, let me make this perfectly clear?
For I can feel the scratchings of the bony fingers that are near!
I can feel and realize your problems here too!
...
And, I'm doing the very best I can.
Yes!
To my Ultimate and to my Very...
Eventual *End.
Approximate Word Count: 271.

Author Notes *End: noun
/end/
1) (A): the part of the area that ends at the boundary.
(B): a point that marks the extent of something.
//world without End.
(C): the extreme or last point lengthwise.
//Tip.
(D): the terminal unit of something spatial that is marked off by units.
(E) a player stationed at the extremity of a line or team.
(as in football)
2) (A) cessation of a point of action, pursuit, or activity.
(B) DEATH, DESTRUCTION.
(C) 1) the ultimate state.
2) RESULT, ISSUE.
...
Note: on March 31st 2003 after a long 17 hour battle for survival my only son Jason became brain dead.
As a result a decision needed to be made immediately as to what to do with his remains?
...
To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1



Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Mr Jones'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Enigma"


Chapter 22
God Bless My Soul?

By Ricky1024

"God Bless My Soul?"
Written on July 11th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Perhaps there's a place beneath this "Bluen Sky"
Where lovers can go when life is so unkind?
Can it be I'm looking for a dream I'll never find?
Yes, I got to find some room before I die.
...
Because I'm but Drifting...
"Just Like the Wind"
Perhaps I'm just a particle of sand trying hard to understand?
...
Life for me?
Comes and goes with the Wind.
Movements directed; divided and Resurrected.
Interrupted eternally as if by sin?
...
My Dear Lord God above?
Yes, where's the Love?
And, Will My Life again, Begin?
...
You see for me i lost my ticket to Reality.
And, everything is so confusing?
There's no Crystal clarity!
A reflection that keeps now playing?
And, the more it gets in my way?
The more that I'm praying!
And, it's entitled,
"Lost in Me"
I try to make it go away but it seems to never listen?
Reviewer do you see?
...
See that My Heart's so broken!
And, my lousy Life?
Just a borrowed token!
And, Yes I've ever showing movie.
"The Greatest Show on Earth?"
First, lost my Only Son...
Second, lost the Only Wife...
...
I'm up for review but I seem to always get bad views?
Perhaps, if I can just shake this disease there will no longer be a rash?
Recently went on the internet to try and find a second wife?
Perhaps do it over and start a new life?
To try to find somebody for me?
But because of this past rash?
They stole all my *Cash!
..
So, I reach out now to you my Lord God.
Yes, and Hope to Pray that on this day?
Your job that Only You can do?
For life is taking such a horrible Toll!
The road is blocked but I can pay my toll!
Am I more or less than a measly mole?
"God Bless My Soul?"

Author Notes *Cash: noun /Kash/
1) ready money
2) money or equivalent (such as a check) paid for goods or services such as time of delivery.
*Cash: adjective
1) being a method of accounting that includes as income of what only has been received; as expensive of only what that has been paid.
*Cash: verb
Cashed, cashing; cashes
transitive verb:
1) to pay or attain cash for//cash a check
2) to lead and pay a bridge trick;
(With a card that is the highest remaining card of it suits)
*Cash: (noun (2)
plural cash
1) any various small coins of value in China in Southern India.
Especially: (a Chinese coin with a square hole in the center)
2) a unit of value equivalent to one cash.
...
April 2020.
I first started on a dating site Entitled, "Widows Widowers"
And, I met a young woman supposedly from Franklin, Tennessee.
Yes, who eventually would turn out to be scamming along with another young woman from Gloucester, UK.
(Who would do the same thing) costing me close to $3,000 in various plastic cards for different various reasons from boosting their cell phones to food to eventual air and bus travel.
Special thanks goes out first, as always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'aidear'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Evergreen"


Chapter 23
Defiant Red Rose?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Defiant Red Rose?"
(A Dedication for My Carolyn)
Written on July 11th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

She's lost her past blooms and now only exists...
My Sweet Rose...
In her small room of Gloom.
Yes, as she awaits her impending date with Fate.
...
No longer tis her stem of bright Green.
(You know what I mean?)
No blooms of Red...
Nor, Christmas time Sugar Plums dancing in her head.
And how she cries?
*(9,272,843 beats of her Broken Heart?)
...
For she has been through Way, Way, too much.
And, no longer is she but she pretends to be?
But to be or not to be?
Well that is not the question that remains?
...
She's been past hurt and bruised now very very extremely and completely confused?
She's about to now give it all away?
Yes, her Beautiful Blooms and her Sunny of days.
But why?
Why Dear Lord why?
...
Why does she sit now all alone in her small room of Gloom?
Waiting patiently in Cry...
**(556,370,613 tears)
For the day she can finally?
****Die?

Author Notes *(9,272,843)
The number of lost beats of her heart since she passed away.
**(556,370,613)
...
But the amount of Tears she has shed since she passed away on November 23rd 2003.
...
***Die: verb. di
Died; dying
Transitive verb
1) to pass from physical form.
EXPIRE
2) to pass out of existence CEASE
3) to disappear subside gradually.
...
On March 31st, 2003
We lost our only son Jason from a horrible car accident.
The following April Fool's Day; we donated His organs in order to save four lives.
And, only eight months later?
My wife I'm almost twenty years?
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky.
Decided to take her life by stopping her necessary medications.
If you know somebody that's contemplating suicide please call 9-11 immediately.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Beach Plum Roses"


Chapter 24
18 years 3 months and 10 days

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"18 years 3 months and 10 Days"
Written on July 12th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

So much time....
Hath now passed...
To just for once have back that grasp?
All those family Holidays, Birthdays, and graduations...
That were meant to be?
...
No more candles on the cake!
No more stockings hung on the mantle place with care?
Nor any sort or sight of Santa coming there!
...
No more Halloween costumes; nor
"Trick or Treat!"
Easter Bunny?
Go kiss my dirty feet!
Tooth Fairy to meet?
Just had oral surgery and even she didn't want to be with me!
...
Yes without a loving relationship?
Might as well ship myself off to sea!
Yes, to see what's in store store for me?
But Gotta first go shopping for a new and better Heart.
The old one it seems has fallen apart?
...
Afterwards?
I'll go to the five and dime to get myself a shoe shine!
Getting kind of old and Dusty.
Need a little more glitter in my step
...
My mind's now getting a little rusty?
Well Maybe then I'll try to take a new step?
Yes, take me a little Ocean Cruise!
God knows my brains getting a little mushy?
Putting on too much weight just look at my fat tussy?
...
Yes!
Now got to go to Sea!
In search of my lost Destiny!
I think it's floundering on the ocean blue?
From after all I've been through!
Then ship back to shore!
Again got to go to the store?
Yes, to find me a new Brain!
After writing this one?
I think I'm going *Insane?

Author Notes *Insane: adj.
/in.san/
1) in a state of mind which prevents normal perception, behavior or social interactions; socially, mentally ill.
"he had gone insane.
2) informal .us
shocking, outrageous.
"they were making outrageous amounts of money"
...
Note: I had no idea?
(Even though I was going through several forms of severe and chronic depression)
From the recent loss of my son Jason and wife Carolyn.
That my wife Carolyn had been mentally ill before we even married.
After about ten years of marriage.
And, no kiss goodbye at night to go to work?
I never realize something was seriously wrong.
Only many years later; did my youngest daughter Dana Alyse Smrkovsky.
Yes, would tell me that Carolyn would leave everybody behind at night.
And, then go gambling with her two friends in Atlantic City.
(Lenny and Beverly)
Only to return in the morning while the children were still sleeping.
This eventually wiped out my savings and left me close to $100,000 in debt.
...
Since November 23rd 2003?
18 years 3 months and 10 days...
219 months...
954 weeks...
6,676 Days...
160,216 hours ..
9,612,962 minutes ..
576,711, 772 seconds...
...
In loving memory of
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th,1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
Note: My wife had stopped her medications.
(Three months previous before her death purposely)
If you know anybody seriously ill contemplating suicide?
Then please call 9-11.

"Safely Home"
I am home in Heaven. dear ones:
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect Joy and Beauty in this Everlasting Light.
...
All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed:
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'lynnkah'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"What a cool family"


Chapter 25
Let's Pretend to Blend?

By Ricky1024

"Let's Pretend to Blend?"
Written on July 18th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Let's pretend to blend and of course we need to do it first in God's kitchen!
Ingredients:
5 lb bag or sack of Heckler's flour.
(Sifted and bleached)
One dozen eggs (extra large)
1 lb package of Land O'Lakes butter
1 quart of sweet cream
5 lb bag of Domino Sugar
1 oz of Cinnamon
1 oz of Rosemary
...
Note: Each and every Fanstory writer and reviewer will be a part of this new family!
...
The Creation:
We first need two large bowls.
(Sanitized!)
First Bowl:
Yes, and in the first Bowl you'll want to add halve the bag of flour, only six eggs, half of the butter, and half of the sweet cream.
...
The Second Bowl:
You will need to add the entire bag of sugar, the other half of the bag of flour, the rest of the butter, eggs, and sweet cream.
...
In the first Bowl you want to use your electric mixer or you can do it by hand.
You want to beat vigorously.
Wash hands first!
(if it's by hand)
Now, if you're using the machine?
Yes, it takes about 5 minutes on high.
Be sure to add the Cinnamon!
...
The Second bowl?
You will do the same thing but instead you will add the Rosemary!
And, you will note that this is the sweetest Bowl!
Yes, why?
Because little girls are much sweeter than little boys!
...
Cinnamon Creation:
After we have everything mixed well; we want to pour it into a very special mold!
This mold will be in the formation of a 6 lb baby!
...
Now, pour the ingredients carefully; and make sure you don't go over the edges!
(This is extremely important we don't want to burn the poor thing!)
Now place this "Godly Mixture"
In your GE. oven.
...
Note: You want to start it out at a very low temperature of only 175 degrees for about the first hour.
More Later...
...
Rosemary Creation: Now with this "Godly Creation"
We are going, of course, to want to put it in the oven at a different time.
(Of course after Cinnamon!)
Let Cinnamon start first!
...
Now we're going to set the temperature a little bit higher in the beginning for our Rosemary at 200A°
Why?
Cause little girls can be hotter to get along with!
...
Now, Let's go check on baby boy Cinnamon?
Okay, he's doing well but we want to now increase the temperature for the next 15 minutes to 375�°
...
Note: it's very important to not go past 15 minutes or you will destroy your child!
...
Let's check on baby girl?
Okay, and now I can see Rosemary's doing quite well Also!
So, we want to increase our heat and temperature to 400 degrees.
Now, Let's go check on how Cinnamon's doing?
...
I can see Cinnamon is completely done!
Damn!
Looks like he got his tan in Bermuda!
Okay, So, we want to turn off the oven, open the door, and let the poor thing cool!
(Do the same thing with Rosemary after 15 minutes)
After all we don't want her to look like she got her 10 in Jamaica!!
...
Final Creation:
And, in God's "Womb of Life"
Yes, we have just created...
(In our own special type of Way)
A little boy named "Cinnamon"
And, a little girl named "Rosemary!"
...
Note: Remember these are not cookies or cakes!
(Even though the recipe seems to blend)
So these are our Fanstory children and we must raise them properly!
Let them hold the pen or pencil in whatever hand they want!
Give them proper grammar and language skills!
And, we will have our future little Poets of Laureate!
The End.





Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Neilnap773'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Bubbling Romance"


Chapter 26
Lust-Fool Day!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Lust-Fool Day!"
Written on August 13th, 2021
(Friday the 13th)
By Doctor Ricky 1025
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

It's going to be a "Lustful Day!"
I can feel the lust cuming my way!
Yep!
No April fools again for me!
I'm no Mu Mu!
Finally I've shed my chains and broke Free!
And look?
One's coming my way?
...
'Hey Big Boy!'
'Ever ride on a "Cruiser?"
'Hmmm...
I replied.
'I'm used to only "Destroyers!"
'Butt let's give this a try?'
6 hours later...
...
'Baby?'
'Yes, you look a little flushed around the collar?'
I Stated.
'Want to go for a Round Number Two?'
She looked up at me and I could see the color of her Red Eyes?
...
And, that was a "Lust-Fool Day!"
Yes, for me!
But why?
How did I know?
Well, she put me under her spell below!
"Hell-O?"



Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'MK Flood'
And, Michael's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Island Dreams"


Chapter 27
The Wishing Rainbow

By Ricky1024

"The Wishing Rainbow"
(A Dedication)
Written on August 18th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Note: Inspired by brother Jackson.
A Latter Day Saint Priest.
With the Church of Jesus Christ.
(Such as me)
Who had been blind since the age of only eight.
Who passed away about a decade ago.
But while he was here for the brief five years.
Yes, he had showed me that blindness?
(Even though it is our major gift of our five senses)
That he had learned how to conquer the blindness!
And, he demonstrated it by working with power tools!

****

When I Wish Upon a Star?
For some reason nothing happens from Afar?
So, I decided one Day?
Yes, to wish Upon a Rainbow!
And, what more could I Say?
But wouldn't you just know it?
...
Wishing Rainbow where are You?
My day is cloudy and you're out of my View?
Please bring Thy Gentle Rains and with colored Hue?
And, wash away all my Terrible pains, Too?
...
Oh Rainbow, Oh Wishing Rainbow?
How I do so much Love You!
And I Love all the feelings I can get from Hue!
...
I love Thy colors of Azure Blue because they seem to help me in my distress!
Yes!
And, even when I feel blu!
And, are so much missing You!
...
And yes!
I now seen to have a better point of view and a newer Quest!
My Loving Rainbow!
For Your Loving and Thy Gentle Rains!
Oh, how you make my Blackened Clouds?
Yes, on my Saddest of Day?
Always seem to go Away!
...
Wishing Rainbow?
As I pray to You!
I Love Thy colors of Red and Pink!
And,for some reason I don't quite understand?
Yes, they help me plan!
Especially when I am confused?
Plan again to think!
Yes!
...
As for Your Yellows and Your Greens?
They seem to bring me back to Life!
And, help me with the loss of my son and my wife!
Yes, in my Spring Time Dreams!
With Daffodils and Dutch Tulips?
As they are Laughing and frolic all Day!
While, all Thy other April Flowers?
With Your Unending April's Showers?
They so much Brighten up and guide my Way!
...
I Love Thy Purples they are so
Majestical!
As your Beauty shines through!
Yes!
And, those Majestic Mountain's Plains?
So, very pretty Too!
While your Ambers and Orange-Reds?
Brighten and Shine!
As Your Rays make my Day!
...
Oh, Wishing Rainbow?
How I do Love FOR-E-VER ��
FOR-E-VER...
And, All the things that You do!
But sometimes when I don't know what to do?
Well then?
I think of You and I pray.
And yes!
I have come to realize that day?
That You pleased?
Yes!
Pleased only me?
...
With the most Beautiful Double Rainbow!
That anybody could ever see?
And, then there were two of You!
Yes!
And, only from You!
And, only to me?
Why?
Because with these two eyes?
I am as Blind as can *Be?




Author Notes *Be: verb
/be/
1) To exist.
2) occur, take place
"The exhibition will be in November"
*Be: verb
used with a present participle to perform continuous tenses.
"they are coming"
used with a past participle to perform a passive mood.
"it was done"
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo 85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Rainbow Ray's"




Chapter 28
When God Calls?

By Ricky1024

"When God Calls"
Written on August 27th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

When God calls?
You had better reply?
Especially if you're depressed!
Now that's a good reason why!
With a tear in your eye?
They're just ain't no good...
Reason why?
When God calls?
Give Him a try!
...
Why don't you give this a try?
The next time God calls?
Give Him a try!
Wipe that tear from your eye!
You may or may not wonder why?
Just pray and give God a try?
...
The next time you cry?
And, you wonder why?
Because you're so depressed?
Caught up in all your stress!
And, there's no Good reason why?
This would be the best time?
To give God a try!
...
Simply get down on your two knees...
Hold your hands together...
With all your Sorried Heart?
And, all your...
"Broken Dreams!"
All your Horrid Schemes!
Use all your "God-Given Means!"
Approximate Word Count: 231.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo 85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"The Power"


Chapter 29
Gratitude in Motion(Cont)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Gratitude in Motion"(Cont)
(Based on True Events)
Written on August 31th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

'My name is Grace.'
'Yes, but by no means a Grace Kelly.
'My lower abdomen and belly?'
'My lowered right leg?'
...
'The day I died was just the perfect New England day!'
'It was a fall morning and I was mourning for a ride.'
'I decided at 12 mile bike ride home from work along the Connecticut shoreline.'
...
'Sure I was sturdy.'
'And, as strong as a bull!'
'Yes, and an athlete indeed!'
'I was a CO-ordinator and program supervisor at "Peaceland."
'We work with kids whom could possibly become Future Leaders.'
'My husband's name is John and he was home.'
'As a Mail carrier.'
'He had an exhausting job!'
...
'I told my friend Mary Scott that we would meet afterwards for a chat.'
'And, a possible drink later but I would never make that date.'
...
'I was riding along Route 72 in the right lane with traffic.'
'I was semi keeping up with traffic on a downhill.'
'And, then there was a slight incline.'
'There was a large truck.'
(A tractor trailer)
'Yes, pulling out into the traffic lane.'
'He made a complete stop but as I was approaching?'
'He suddenly sped up!'
...
'All I could feel was the bike going down under his front wheels!'
'And, that was when I started to pray!'
'On that's fine fall Connecticut day?'
But when the other set of wheels ran me over a second time?'
'I prayed to God that I would die!'
...
The truck sped up and kept on going!'
'But it seemed like the whole world slowed down?'
'This one man stopped his car and also stopped that truck!'
'Another man got out of his car with a heated blanket.'
'He went over to the woman who was holding my head up.'
'He told the next woman who had just approached.'
'To lay the blanket over my abdomen.'
'Which was exposed and ripped opened!'
'And, the other woman to continue holding my head up.'
...
'I kept on fading in and out of consciousness.'
'But they say the ambulance arrived in less than 20 minutes to take me to the hospital.'
'All I can remember is the doors opening up and daylight starting to shine through?'
'But at this point it was about 9:00 at night!'
...
'I was told that they could not control the bleeding.'
'My lower pelvic bone was shattered and that helps hold your inner abdomen together.'
"I had a severed artery in my one arm.'
'My abdomen was exposed but swollen as if I was six months pregnant!'
'And, to make things worse there was rocks and sediment inside of me from the truck's tires.'
...
'Thank God over 100 people came to my rescue when the news went out for blood.'
'The next three hours was spent reviving me and resuscitating me.'
'Yes, with chest compressions as I kept on dying.'
'They had three people taking turns cuz it was so exhausting!'
...
'They finally stabilize me but I had gone through over 70 pints of blood!'
'They said at one point I wasn't registering a Heartbeat!'
'Yes, I was losing blood so quickly!'
...
'When I was coming in and out of consciousness?'
'The pain was tremendous.'
'Because I kept struggling so much; they decided to put me in a coma induced state of being.'
'And, this is where I would remain cuz I would wait for my date with Destiny and Fate.'
'To live or to die?'
'Yes, for the next 30 days.'

****

'It's funny how much pain human body can learn to accept especially in a short period of only weeks.'
'The nurse will come in regularly and clean My wounds and it was horrible!'
'They think when they self induce you in a coma you're completely unconscious.'
'I was semi-conscious.'
...
'My body would transmit the cleaning and all the pain as if a nightmare of torture!'
'And, the problem was I wanted to scream but I couldn't!'
'Being in the induced coma will also atrophy your vocal cords!'
...
'But the one good thing in my favor was my husband John!'
'I could hear his voice but I could not respond nor see him!'
'I could feel him holding my hand and then I could also feel him when he would rub the back of my neck which was tremendously beautiful!'
...
'Grace it's me John!'
'And, I'm here with you!'
'And, I'm not leaving you until you go home!'
...
'The nurse said that John stayed for a full week.'
"Yes!'
'And, he was there every day.'
'And, every hour.'
'And, he would sleep next to my bed in a chair.'
'Until they brought a cot in for him.'
...
'They finally talked him into going home to take a shower and get something to eat.'
'He said when he was home taking a shower.'
'He missed me so much that he couldn't stop Crying!'
'So, he had to run back to me!'
...
'In closing.;
'Yes, to this very day?'
'I don't know why I'm still here?'
'They told me I was lucky to be alive!'
(Let alone that I would ever walk again?)
...
'I decided to start a charity for paraplegic athletes who were wheelchair-bound.'
'In one week time I raised $10, 000.'
'I had no idea how many fans I had from all over the world who were praying for me!'
...
'That's when I decided I would get out of that bed and take my first step!'
'Yes, because people were depending on me!'
'I will admit I fell flat on my face but I made that step!'
'Yes!'
'And, then I made the next one!'
'And, the following!'
...
Note: Grace was transferred for eight months into Gaylord which is a rehab.
In her own words; and ten months after she died...
And, Eight months after leaving Gaylord.
She ran in "The Superhero Half Marathon"
...
This event took place in New Jersey.
She did it while using a walker; toting a colostomy bag; and dressed as Wonder Woman!
Yes, with the cape and all!
And, at the finish Line?
She was greeted by her husband John who smothered her in kisses!
Since then her colostomy bag has been removed and she has competed in dozens of races sans Walker.
...
What this amazing Amazon endured was a Nightmare!
Yes but every time she crossed that finish Line?
She thinks of all the strangers!
Yes who literally gave of themselves so much!
Yes, such a diverse group of people!
Black, White, Brown of all ages!
And, backgrounds!
Who came together and conspired together!
Yes, to help a fellow human being.
..
Her injuries made her realize just how lucky she was to have her husband John.
And, ven in her darkest of moments?Being locked in that coma?
His voice soothes her and to this very day!
And, with each step she now takes?
For she it will always be!
"Gratitude in Motion"
Approximate Word Count: 1265.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review this Talented Artist, 'iphone7'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Birth of Our Galaxy"


Chapter 30
Movement of Reality (A)

By Ricky1024

"Movement of Reality" (A)
Written on September 1st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Movement of Reality into Sensuality?"
Time becomes Stranded and
"One-Handed."
Destiny takes a break; while Fate now has that Date?
Hate moves over for Daisy Clover.
As God gathers in reference.
Now?
...
More than One Minute is spent; as Angels Above are Sent.
No Lament; no but Heaven Sent!
...
"Movement of Reality into Sensuality?"
Adrift Upon a Cloud of Waves.
Cresting Desires...
Floating, Floating, Floating.
Darkness matches Time...
One Last Heartbeat.
"At-A-*Time"


****


"Movement into Reality" (B)
Written on September 1st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �?�© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

"Movements of Reality"
Now into a Total State of Perpetuality.
Feelings are no longer Numbing me.
Honey bees are a humming!
Flowers of Liquefied Blooms!
No more mention of Pain and Gloom?
...
"Movements of Reality"
Into a Total State of Sensuality?
Righteous Notions...
No more drowning Oceans!
Fluffy whites mingle with Ocean's waves; as no longer am I enslaved!
...
"Movements of Reality"
Yes, into a Total State of Celestialality!
Angelic Music as Harps accompanied Trumpets!
Strings sting with Brazen Brass!
Alas!
Finally?
Finally?
I found Heaven...
At **Last!

Author Notes *Time: noun
plural / times
1) the thing that as measured by seconds, minutes, hours, days, years.
//the time pass slowly/ quickly.
//The two events were separated by time and space.
2) a particular minute or hour as shown by a clock.
//"What time is it"=(chiefly Brit)
What's the time?
//"The time is 6:15" [it is 6:15]
...

**Last: adjective
last
1) coming after all others in time or order; final
//"they caught the last bus."
2) more recent in time, latest.
//"last year."
adverb
1) on the last occasion before the present; previously
//"he looked much older than when I last seen him."
2) after all others in order and sequence
//"the two last mentioned-classes."
noun
1) the last person or thing; the one occurring; mentioned; or acting after all others.
//"the last of their guests had gone"
...
Note: When time runs out what are you left with?
How do you bear it?
When you lose something that is terribly precious?
And, then what time is it?
Lastly, how do you endure the loss of your only child?
The answer simply is that Life must go on.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Where Paradise begins"


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