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Prologue
The Prologue Book #16

By Ricky1024

"The Prologue for Book #16"
Written on September 23rd, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copywrite © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

This book is based on recent events.
Things that have happened to me within the past so sixteen plus years.
Important things of my life.
...
As I dig deeper, you will see first pain, then beauty.
Grief then Ectasy.
A collection from my Broken Heart and my Son's.
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"I Can't Smile Without You?"
Written on April 11th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copywrite © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Don't you know?"
"Jay, I can't smile without You?"
"Can't smile without You?"
"I can't laugh...
"I can't sing...
"Just trying to do just about anyting?"
...
"You know when you're Sad?'
"I'm sad."
"And, when You're Glad?"
"I'm glad."
"When up there, Your feeling Bad."
"Then I too, I'm feeling blue."
Trying do hard to just make it through."
...
"If You laugh and sing...
"No more will these tears...
"Shall I bring...
"Jay, I just want You to know...
"That way down below...
"What no can I Do because...
"I Just Can't Smile...
"Without...
*You."
Approximate Word Count: 199.


Author Notes *You: n.
person, significant other, family member.

"On March 31st, 2003 and after Seventeen, hours of pain and suffering."
"My family, which included, my wife at the time."
"And my four daughters."
(Nichole, Kyle, Corrine, and Dana)
"Decided to donate Jason's Organs."
"After we realised that He was 'Iirreversibly Brain Damage._
"Raccooned and in a Deep Coma.'
"A Coma with no relief."
...
"And, to learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life."
Philadelphia Pennsylvania at...
"1-800-DONORS-1"
...
"Special 5hanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ."
"Fanstory and Tom the Administrator."
"Fan Art Review.
"This amazingly Talented Artist and Incredible Writer, Doctor Ricky 1024."
"With his beautiful picture Entitled...
"Beautiful"


Chapter 1
Six Crushed Bottles and a Cap

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Six Crushed Bottles and a Cap"
(The Next Six!)
Written on September 25th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copywrite ?© Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"One fine day when I was riding my bike along Route 9 in town of Tuckerton."
(On my way to my storage locker)
"I noticed something wrong?"
...
"My God, look at all those crushed plastic bottles of booze?"
"And, mainly they are all 'Fireballs!'
...
"On the return trip, I did an actual count and I actually counted eight plus?"
"A Single Cap lying nearby all alone?"
"The cap must have popped off the bottle and then it was ran Over?"
...
"Again, that is where Our Story...
"Begins?"
...
"Yes, one fine day after returning from and going to the storage locker."
"I realized the death of these Poor, Plastic, Bottles of Booze."
"Whom led a valiant life?"
(Some Win and Some Lose?)
"Because of these Eight, Careless, and Cruel people?"
"Whom were driving their cars and most likely?"
"They then threw them out the window!"
(Just like some worthless piece of trash?)
...
"Most likely, all ei

Eight of them came from the 'Fireball Family.'
"And, what a poor way to be disposed of and then curiously crushed and ran over by their cars?"
"So let's bring them to life okay?"

****

(Death Number One)
"Hey Mikey?"
"Did you see what happened to Molly about an hour ago?"
"No Mikey."
Replied Ted.
"Some High School student was busy getting shut down by the cops and then this drunk driver?"
"Swallowed Molly right down His Fuck'n Gullet!"
"Qnd, that's what happened to her Mikey."
Wonders Ted.
...
"Well that someone threw her out the window and then that same someone's vehicle?'
"Ran over and crushed her!"
"That's a Sin!"
Replied Ted.
...
"Well Mikey, I got a better one!"
Replied Ted.
(Death Number Two)
"Later on that day, I was on Route 72 heading to Long Beach Island and this White Cadillac threw out...
"What I believe it to be...
"Our good and best friend Barry!"
"And, now Barry was still completed as in full!"
"Why Ted."
Wonders Mikey.
"It was another one of them cops chasing with the Blue Lights flashing!"
"Then what Ted?"
"The cop ran him the Fuck Over!"
"Like a drunken...
'Daisy Clover!'
"Female hah?"
"Yup, I suppose Mikey."
Replied Ted.
"Two now dead!"
...
"The Next Six!"
Written on September 25th, 2019
(Death Number Three Cynthia Manners!)

"The next day I decided to go out and instead of retrieving clothing."
"I decided I would retrieve records."
"Vinyl records much harder than clothing."
"I could hang up to four, large, bags of them off the handlebars of my Mongoose."
"A weight of about 200 Lbs."
...
"The ride going there is mostly downhill but the ride going back?"
"Was mostly uphill, so I'd be walking a lot."
(Watching the crushed bottles again)
...
"That's odd?"
"There's only six now?"
"Six bottles to share one cap."
I thought.
"It was at this point, I decided that I would write a story about this and bring the bottles to life!"

****

"Hey Jonathan?"
"Yes."
Replies Peter.
"I was talking to Mikey and Ted about the death of two of our friends."
(Megan and Barry)
"And, the other day?"
"Yes Jonathan."
"But what's that have to do with me?"
Wonders Peter.
...
"It's Cynthia Manners!" Jonathan."
"Cynthia is dead now too!"
States Johnathan.
"How did that happen?
Asks Peter.
...
"As far as the story goes...
"In Warren County, after Cynthia was consumed...
"This cruel woman threw her into a Fire!"
"That they were burning in the Woods!"
"My God!"
Exclaims Peter.
"And, her twin Barbara?"
"Yes?"
Asks Peter.
...
(Death Number Four Tony Bologna)
"As it all appears?"
"Barbara got so piss ass drunk drinking Fireball."
"That after she filled herself up to a capacity of 1 oz?"
"She fell over, passed out, in the middle of the road!_
"And got ran over by a Mack truck!"
"What a disaster!"
Replies Peter.
...
(Death Number Four)
"Peter do you remember our cousin Tony?"
"You mean the little guy I love pizza so much?"
"Yep that's the one."
"And, remember how much Tony loved pizza?"
"Yes?"
"As and, that was the problem!"
"Tony eats so much pizza they had to take him to the hospital!"
States Johnathan.
"And, while there were pumping out his plastic bottle?"
"He died from a plastic Heart Attack!"
"They gave him a burial by highway of course."
States Johnathan.
...
(Death Number Six Foxy Brown?)
"Foxy was a good girl."
"As good as any plastic bottle of Fireball ever was!"
"And, as far as the story goes._
"Foxy loves roller coasters and went to Great Adventure in Jackson, New Jersey."
"It was in October."
"During the 'Fright Fest.'
"Of course.
States Johnathan.
"And, she was so drunk on the roller coaster?"
(Riding, 'Rolling Thunder')
"That when She went around a hairpin?"
"She fell off...
"Smashed her little bottle of Fireball head...
"And, was dead!"
"A Park Ranger found her the next day and of course she was crushed!"
"What a fuck'n shame!"
"States Peter.
...
(The Death of Number Seven, Kevin)
"Kevin was a good boy and always did what is Mommy Francis Fireball told Him."
"Mommy?"
"I'm going to Heaven when I die and I will play with all the pretty Angels!"
"Of course you will!"
Replies Frances.
"Because, you're my Special and Perfect Son!"
...
"The only problem was Kevin wasn't the Perfect and Special son?"
"Because he smoked cigarettes!"
(Fireball Hell brand)
"And, he was only six bottles old!"
...
"Kevin, why are you constantly hacking all the time?"
"You know it's going to be the death of you!"
Wonders Francis.
...
"Hello is this 9-11?"
"Yes ma'am.'
"And, what's your emergency?"
"Well, it's my son Kevin!"
"He stopped breathing!"
"Can you come here quickly?"
"I live at 144 Fireball Lane Fireball County, New Jersey."
...
"Nurse Ball?"
"Yes, Doctor Fire?"
"As a result of the young man smoking."
"It appears he died of cancer."
"Them Damned Fireball Hell smokes?"
"That's the second one we lost in Mercy Hospital in less than two days!"
...
(Death Number Eight Nate Hate!)
"Nate Hate eas a chubby little Fireball."
"And, always being picked on at 'Fireball Central High.'
...
"Yes, all the kids hated him so much because he didn't look as perfect as everybody else!"
"For the most part."
"The kids wore yellow and red."
"While Nate wore only Black!"
...
"Hey Sally?"
"There at goes that Nate Hate kid again!"
"Wearing that ugly Black!"
"Disqusting!'
Replies Violet.
...
"On Monday Nate decided that he wants to get even?"
"So, his plan was quite simple."
"To burn down the entire School!"
"But somehow when he lit the match?'
"And, that he was of alcohol content?"
"He burned himself up?"
...
"As I was returning home from the locker."
"I noticed the last Fireball, plastic, bottle was replaced?"
"With a melted one?"
The End?
Approximate Word Count: 1196.











Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavnly Father above and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry.'
And, their Incredible picture Entitled...
"Four Roses"


Chapter 2
Full Crescent Moon of Doom

By Ricky1024

"Full Crescent Moon of Doom!"
Written on September 26th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copywrite © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"As I reflect on my Past...
"And, my most iIntimate...
"And, most positive Life...
"First lost the Only Son...
"Me..
"Followed shortly later...
"By the Only Wife...
"My Dad's...
...
"I look at this most Crescent Moon of Doom."
"I cycle under this Moonlight tonight."
"And, I don't know this Crescent Moon."
"This Glow?"
"That is so wish that I could again know?"
"Now what to do?"
...
"I ponder the yonder Glow...
"And, try to bask in its Glow?"
"Then?"
"My dad shall write about it."
"Which is the only way he knows."
...
"Perhaps it's been this way most of My Life."
"A World of me for you and you for me."
"And yes, I pondered this yonder of Glow."
"And wonder why and wish I'd know?"
"Surly there's been better days?"
"Better days to come?"
"Days when I was and used to be?"
...
"And, I wasn't firstly...
"An Earthly Ma3."
"Understand?"
"Me?"
...
"Well I would expect so for this is the reason for my show."
"And, I so want and I have to do this right."
"Before the Moon loses to Glow tonight."
...
"Did you happen to know which way it is to go?"
"The safe Zone?"
"Do you know?"
"Then ask for Me."
...
"Yes, I used to be...
"But now?"
"I'm no longer an...
"Earthly Man.'
"Understand?"
...
"Because of Destiny and Fate."
"But I guess that's the way God wants it to be?"
"And, as for now?"
"I follow the Crescent Moon's Glow on to *Victory."
Approximate Word Count: 282.

Author Notes *Victory: n.
accomplishment, adjective.

"On March 31st, 2003." "And, then following Seventeen, long, hours, later."
"After being diagnosed Brain-damaged."
"On April Fool's Day 2003."
My Son Jason's Victory?"
...
"And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
"At 1-800-DONORS-1."
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father above and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented artist, 'tailwaggers.'
And, their Incredible picture Entitled...
"Mystic Moon"


Chapter 3
Processing the Human Heart

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Processing the Human Heart"
Written on September 29th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copywrite © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

'Doctor?'
'Yes, Nurse?'
'His Heart?'
'His only Heart Doctor Williams?'
'Yes, Nurse Jones it's got to be.'
'But why Doctor?'
'Why He?'
...
Note:
Warning!
Graphic!
...
"After the party for my daughter Nikki on March 31st, 2003...
"The driver of a Ford Mustang Convertible...
(Brian Cole)
"Had decided that he was going on a Joy Ride."
"And, to bring my Only Son Jason along as the passenger."
"You get in 5hr back, 5oo Dana!"
Demanded Brian.
...
"And, yes my youngest daughter Dana?"
"But my Son Jason told her to get in the back seat of the car with your sister Kyle.
"As if he knew?"
...
After the accident?'
"In which the Death Car..
....
(A Ford Representative stated that since in was locked in 3rd gear)
(And, raced at Atco Raceway in Atco, New Jersey...
"It was doing a hundred.miles an hour."
...
"They extricated the driver with...
"The Jaws of Life."
the passenger..
(Jason Richard Smrkovsky)
"After, first covering him while a fireman axed the window and pulled him out."
...
"Along the way to Atlantic City, NJ. Trauma Hospital.
"Jay had a Heart Attack!"
"But, they brought Him back."
...
Unfortunately, Jason was Racooned, as if beaten, eyes swollen, and Umbilical Fluid and blood draining from Jason's ears."
"Nikki took over after the Emergency room but couldn't take it anymore."
...
"And, to Learn More about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
Approximate Word Count: 285.






Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father above and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'GaliaG'
And, their Incredible picture Entitled...
"Suffering Heart"


Chapter 4
Glow

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Glow"
Written on October 4th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copywrite ?© Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

'I don't have much time now.'
'And, it's April Fools Day 2003.'
'And they're now coming for me.'
'But, I think I understand.'
...
'And, even though I'm Brain Damaged.'
'At Eighteen.'
'I'm considered still not a child but a man.'
...
'They say I suffered not.'
'Yes, not much at all.'
'You need to understand that after that Horrid Accident?'
...
'During that car Accident?' 'God wrapped His gentle and warm arms around Me...
...
'In order to take Me back home where I belong.'
'And, yes now it won't be long.'

****

'The Sun never shines here.' 'And, it's more of a Tender Glow.'
(This you should know)
...
'And, yes there are clouds but they're not clouds you're used to on Earth.'
"They are Multi-colored with Rainbows running through!'
'This way you can climb...
(If you need to)
'And, st the top of the clouds?'
'You can sleep so restfully it's amazing!'
...
'When you venture further and deeper into this place of Specialness?'
'You'll notice that your more than just Blessed?'
'And, there is no more Earthly stress!'
...
'Note unto myself.'
'Gotta order a New set of Wings!'
...
'There are fountains and trees!'
'And, the fountains continue to run constantly!'
'And, with the Clearest and most Refreshing water ever created!'
...
'And, there are Soda fountains, Chocolate milk, and if you must...
'BEER!'
'All varieties and even some here in Heaven you will never get below!''
(This you should know)
'So, drink carefully!'
...
'Now notice the many trees are not only Fruit and Nut trees but they have other amazing things growing on them!:
...
'Like there's Cotton Candy trees...
'That scream of Sweets!'
'There also are trees of Chocolate Candy Bar Dreams!'
'All quite amazing!'
...
'And, in closing...
'Dir soon and come live here on Heaven with *Me?'
Approximate Word Count: 336.

Author Notes *Me: n.
self, person.
"On March 31st, 2003 and only Seventeen hours...
(After the Horrible accident)
...
"My Only Son...
"Jason Richard was involved...
"And, as a reluctant passenger?"
"In a car driven by a Mentally-ill maniac named Brian Cole."
...
"Who purposely crashed into a telephone pole over 100 miles an hour."
"We had a decision to make."
...
"To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life."
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
At 1-800-DONORS-1
...
"And, thanks from the Bottom of my Broken and my Only Son Jason's donated Heart." and organs."
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist and Talented Writer...
'Doctor Ricky 1024'
And, his Incredible picture entitled, "Glow!"


Chapter 5
I Want U-2 Know

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"I Want U-2 Know"
Written on October 12th,
2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©. Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"I want you to Know."
"That Life...
(For some Whom Passed Away)
"Live on?"
"Yes, and exists even after DEATH!"
"Even after, a Heart-Attack!"
"Even after, that very last Breath!"
...
"I want you also to Know."
"The lucky few?"
"They too...
"No matter, how bad it may Be?"
"No matter, if you're only a few hours from DEATH...
"You too can Live again and take in a large and generous Breath!"
...
"And finally, I want you to Know."
"I personally have witnessed these and many, many, more!"
"I want you to Know."
"That there is a place...
"A place that is so Blessed!"
"Yes so, so, Blessed!"
"Awaitinus All...
"Even after DEATH!"
"Even after that very, last, Breath of *Life!"
Approximate Word Count:148.

Author Notes *Life: n.
existence, alive, creation.
....
"On March 31st, 2003."
"My Only Son son Jason was involved as a passenger."
"In the horrible accident."
"The car driven by Mentally-ill young man."
"Who m was Hell-bent on Suicide and destroying himself."
"Purposely, crashed his Ford Mustang into a telephone pole at over 100 miles an hour."
...
"And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1
...
"And, thanks from the bottom of my Forever Broken and my Only Son Jason's donated Heart and organs."
....
Special thanks again goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
FanArt Review, this Talented Artist, 'eileen 0204.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Green Horned Owl"


Chapter 6
Abounding Heaven!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Abounding Heaven!"
(It's a Wonderful Life!)
Written on October 13th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

Time reflections meet Fate.
Your Destiny this day?
Well, I must say in good time.
And, the will say Death has now come for me?
And, I welcome the opportunity.
...
Welcome now, to this opportunity to go back.
Yes, back to My home!
And, it is here that I right.
And, I start My day with a sip from the Heaven's Fountain!
...
It's refreshing and it replenishes M shattered...
What's the matter...
Soul.
The purest and sweetest water abounds.
Abounds here but no beer.
...
I get ready so, I fluffle My wings.
My wings of white and wonder?
Why I was given a pair that night?
Well, perhaps God works in strange ways indeed.
(My need)
...
I am fortunate to work in God's Garden.
And, it is here I harvest for all.
(A privilege surley)
For this crop is always so dear.
...
Now join Me in prayer for all still suffering below.
And, they are.
And yes, we all should now venture forth and see the many amazing delights?
(Every single night)
...
And, I harvest in God's Grand Garden also!
A little different here.
There are trees...
Trees of Ice Cream Cones!
Trees and they need attention!
(To many flavors to mention)
...
I personally look forward to the Cotton-Candy machine!
A little sticky though.
So, only one hand will do at a time.
...
And, now come with Me for dinner tonight!
(Angel hair pasta with alfredo sauce)
And, the evening flick tonight?
"It's a Wonderful *Life"
Starring James Stewart.
(My favorite!)
Approximate Word Count: 290

Author Notes *Life: n.
existence, alive, creation.
"On March 31st, 2003."
"My Only Son Jason was involved in a horrible car accident."
"And, as a passenger."
"He was diagnosed 17 hours later Brain-dead."
...
"And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia Pennsylvania.
At 1-800-DONORS-1
....
Special thanks again goes out, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, 'jgrace.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled...
"Under Angels Wings"


Chapter 7
My Heaven Again

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Heaven Again'
Written on October 14th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Here we go I'm coming now!"
"And, I see the light!"
"Yes Lord, I'm going to follow this and this time get it right!"
"To the very end up or down, I can care less at this point in time.'
"Hold on tight Lord this is gonna be Devine!"
...
"Here we go I'm coming now!"
"And, I see the 'Pearly Gates!'
"I guess I won't be visiting Hell for a third time?"
"Cause Satan, I'll be late!"
"And, here we go I'm coming now!"
"Heaven abounds!"
"Such Great and Blessed Ground!"
"Three hours later...

****

"The Clouds are kind of different here seen with the some Errie of light?"
And, I haven't seen a sign or clue of any pain just delight."
...
"I'm coming to God's garden now because I want to see the crop."
"I hear it's quite a bounty here."
"I'm going to harvest and never stop!"
...
"Woe!"
"The corner to the East?"
"The trees have Ice-cream Cones of all flavors and types."
"Now to the sides?"
"There are no leaves just Sprinkles of Heavenly Delight!"
...
"And, in the corner of to the West?"
(A place I Love the Best)
"I venture to the very best!"
"A Special Spot!"
(I almost forgot?)
...
"Yes, a Special Place!"
"And, have no haste!"
"Where you just raise your hands and say...
"These words...
'No Waste!'
"And, Cotton-Candied Sprinkles come down and coats your hands!"
"Don't let it hit the ground!"
...
"Now, look what we Found!"
The sentinel a place where beautiful things abounding there's never senseless taste!"
...
"The Fountains are clear and Rejuvenate!"
"The Mountains are of a Purple Majesty!"
"And, don't be late!"
"For the Forests are so Green?'
"They seem to Sheen?"
...
"And, the Beaches?"
"Ah...
"The Beaches are of Pearl Whites and if this is Dieing?"
"Man, I finally got something *Right!"
Approximate Word Count: 347.




Author Notes *Right: adj.
correct, appropriate.
"On March 31st, 2003."
"My Only Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky."
"Was involved as a passenger."
"In a Horrible Automobile Accident."
...
"The car...
(A Ford Mustang)
"That was raced it Atco New Jersey.'
"Now belonged and was in the hands of a Seventeen-year-old year old."
"And, Mentally-ill Child by the name of Brian Colr."
...
"And, he decided he was going to take them both...
"On a Death and Suicide ride."
"At over 100 miles an hour into a telephone pole."
...
"And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
At 1-800-DONORS-1.
....
"And, thanks from the Bottom of my Broken and my Only Son Jason's donated Heart and Organs "
...
Special thanks goes out again, ad always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'jgrace.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "A Glimpse into the Heavens"


Chapter 8
Candy Coat Your Dreams

By Ricky1024

"Candy Coat Your Dreams"
(A Dedication)
Written on October 15th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

'Candy Coat your Dreams'
"With Whipped Cream and a Cherry on top!"
"And, never ever allow them to stop."
...
"Go to Sleep baby and when you Awake?"
"Your time will be better no more to forsake."
"No, follow and release your Spirit and Tattered Soul."
"As the Light will guide you Away...
"Away to a better Place...
"And, you'll be back home soon...
"Where You Belong...
....
'Candy Coat Your Dreams' (A)
"With Whipped Cream and a Cherry on top and never let your thoughts and Dreams...
"Never let them ever stop."
...
"Because Your now or in a most Special place."
"Yes, a Place of Holy Grace."
"And, this You need to know...
"And, finally...
"You've done Your job *Below."
Approximate Word Count: 150

Author Notes *Below: adj.
under, beneath, lower.
"On March 31st, 2003."
"Shortly after a Seventeen hour Period...
"My Only Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky...
"Was diagnosed with Brain Damage."
"In a Deep Coma and Raccooned."
(As if severely beaten in the ring)
"We were given a choice of donating his organs."
...
"And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life."
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Special thanks goes out again, as Always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artistand Writer, 'cleo85.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Sugar Plum Fairy"


Chapter 9
WithintheParametersofaDeadPoets

By Ricky1024

"Within the Parameters of a Dead Poets Mind"
Written on October 16th, 2019
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

As I think back on my feeble life... Lost first the son, followed shortly later, by the wife.
I come to understand the Broken Road in front of this man.
...
Yes, I'll fall on my face but this is not a disgrace.
As time reflects pain and pain reminds time...
That sometimes in our lives...
We must realize to try and be more kind.
But, time must insist and yes time must move forward...
One step at a time never backwards...
...
Sickness will come, sickness will go...
Ashes to Ashes and Dust as it Must.
For, Death does follow the flow.
And yes, this I do know.
But, time must insist and yes time must move forward...
One step at a time never backwards.
...
And, when time comes for me...
I shall welcome and not fear...
The Valley of Death tis always near.
And, when finally the pain comes to call?
I will not hesitate...
I will not fall...
For now for me?
Time must insist and yes time must move forward...
One step at a time and never *Backwards...
Approximate Word Count: 210

Author Notes *Backwards: adj.
reverse, negative movement, behind.

"As I got the idea to write this, not only about my life but my Son and my Wife's."
"Anybody that knows my story knows my editor's notes."
...
"And to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1 800-DONORS-1.
...
"And, if you know anybody suffering and wanting to end their lives?"
"Please contact a Suicide Prevention Specialist at 9-11."
Thanks,
Doctor Ricky 1024
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer,
'Doctor RIcky 1024.'
And, his Handsome Picture Entitled, "Selfie"


Chapter 10
Heaven, My Place I Found!

By Ricky1024

"Heaven, My Place I Found!"
(Chapter Number One)
Written on October 17th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Through the Rabbit Hole."
"Alice?"
"I ventured and went down!'
"Hopped around a while and this is what I found?"
...
"A Room with these colored vials?"
"With notes that were all the same?"
"Each one calling out my name?"
...
'Drink me!'
'No, not he but me!'
"They seemed: to help me but which shall I dare?'
...
"At this point in my life, I realized it doesn't pay to be vile."
"So, I hopped about and drank the Blue Vial."
...
"And, when I left?"
"I tried to cross the street but got ran over by a car!"
"Guess I can forget my Rabbit Grass don't seem to be going far?"
...
"But suddenly, a voice rang out and said to follow some dumb light?"
"I guess I won't going out with Bobbeta tonight?"
...
"Now I followed this light and look exactly where I are?"
"I guess they take rabbits here?"
"And, I hope they don't make no stew!"
"And yes, kinda getting used to this place."
Let me make one thing perfectly clear!'
"You know I'm kind of new up here and unless I hop around?"
"But, I sure wish I had a pair of wings!'
"For that seems to be the mode of travel here, as the Angels sing!"
....
"On Harps they sing the and the music's not so bad."
"A little melancholy and kind of different but I dare not venture far!"
...
"Just kind of looking for a little Rabbit Grass, as I continue on my way."
"Perhaps, I'll get to go home before some rabbit they want to slay?"
...
End of Chapter One.
"Searching for a Little Grass?"
(Chapter Two)
Written on October 17th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024

"So here I am searching?"
"For as I Ponder...
"Perhaps they'll be some grass there yonder?"
"But for now, I'm just hopping around looking at these Strange Clouds?"
...
"And yes, they're so White and Fluffy."
"I wonder if that's where I'll be sleeping tonight?"
"Cause, I here in Heaven...
"That's where the Angels go to Rest...
"From working hard all day but what kind of work is hard up here?"
"An Angels needs to rest?'
...
"I hear that there's a Fountain."
"And, I'm going to go get me a little sip!"
"They say it's the Clearest and Sweetest Water."
"Maybe I'll just take a little dip?'
"Nah, they don't want no dirth rabbit's ass in there!"
"I"ll just take a little drink."
"Sure wish I had some Rabbit Beer!"
End of Chapter Number Two.
Chapter Number Three
"Looking for My Sunshine?"
Later today.
Ricky

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, 'jgrace.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Roads to Heaven"


Chapter 11
Looking for My Sunshine?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Looking for My Sunshine?"
Written on October 17th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"When we last met the rabbit."
"Through the Alice Looking Glass."
"We quickly realized the theory that after the poor little creature drank the Blue Vial?"
"He unfortunately got ran over by a car!"
...
"So, now that he's in Heaven above and he's confused!"
"He wants his girlfriend Babbitt!"
"And, he can't find any rabbit grass?"
"So, he's getting hungry numbet one and number two, he doesn't have a set of wings to travel!"
...
"So, can only hop and he gets very thirsty and finds the Heavenly Fountain."
"But, as we know, this rabbit wishes he had some Rabbit Beer!"
"He's also worrying that he could become the next dinner or Rabbits Stew?"
...
"Looking for My Sunshine"
"It's been Seven, Long, Day's up here in Heaven and this poor rabbit?"
"He wishes that he was back bellow in the Rabbit Hole."
"He also wishes that he never drank the Blue Vial and maybe the Red would have been better?"
"But anywho, he misses his girlfriend Babbitt and is bound and determined to get home?"
...
"He gets purterbed."
(A Rabbit Word)
"And, because there's these Silly Creatures flying above, going to the Fluffy, White, Beds for the night...
"He gets depressed, while here he is stuck down below?"
"And, in the dirt like some dog and not a rabbit!"
...
'I bet you if it was Easter or if they had Easter in Heaven, I wouldn't be treated like this!'
He Complains.
'Maybe if I do something wrong?'
'Because I understand Heavens all about the good people.'
'They will send me back down below?'

****

"So, comes up with a plan."
"A plan to not only make himself noticed but a plan to make him a pest!"
"And, he's going to go about this the way he knows best?"
...
'Oh, look over there?'
'Theres those funny looking creatures or as they call themselves...
"Angels."
'And, they are sitting down and having a meal?'
He Wonders.
...
'Maybe I should just go there and join them Angel like creatures?'
'Hey do you have any rabbit grass?'
'Getting kind of hungry down here.'
(You know)
'And, also that Fountain only has clear water.'
'I only drink a Rabbit Beer.'
'You got any of that?'
He Asks.
...
'Hey Michael?'
'Yeah Gabriel?'
'I can't believe which just hopped up this way?'
'A Pink talking Rabbit?'
'Yeah, and this talking, Pink, F****** Rabbit gets thirsty for Rabbit Beer and hungry for Rabbit Grass!'
"Can yeah pull any out of your Angel Ass?'
He Snoddily Complains.
'Yeah that is kind of strange.' Michael wonders.
...
"Gabriel introduces himself Michael and everybody around the table Arch and guardian angels here in Heavenly father's Heaven above.'
He also realizes that this rabbit has needs and talks to the rabbit about satisfying them."
...
'Gabriel?'
'Yes?'
'Perhaps we can get somebody to take care of this?'
'I think there's a medow a few miles away where there could possibly be some Rabbit Grass."
'And, perhaps we can have one of our Sister Angels makes something like Rabbit Beer?'
'Maybe Root Beer?'
'There are some Sassafras trees over than that medow, also.'
States Michael.
'Yeah, something similar to satisfy the thirsty rabbit?:
Replys Gabriel.
...
"After about three hours, they come back to the table with the freshly made Rabbit Root Beer and a whole bowl of Beautiful and tasty Rabbit Grass."
...
"The rabbit sniffs the grass and then taste the root beer and starts his meal."
"Never stopping while starting his story below."
....
"He talks about his time below and what had happened to him."
"In the Rabbit Hole."
"And how he still misses his girlfriend Babbitt."
...
'Hey rabbit!'
'Don't you know this is Heaven and in Heaven, having dreams can come true.'
'If you juet pray.'
...
'So, after your done your meal.'
'Go over where you rest and pray to Heavenly Father.'
'And, tonight ask him for your needs.'
States Michael.
...
'Dear Heavenly person here in this place.'
'You know I'm not exactly the most perfect rabbit up here or below but I do love my girlfriend Babbit.'
'And, even though I died and was run over by that nasty car.'
'Maybe you can cut me a break and send me back below?'
'Amen.'
...
"Suddenly, the alarm clock goes off!"
"Startled, the rabbit wakes up."
...
'Rabbit don't you know you got work to do at the Rabbit Grass factory!'
Complains Babbitt.
'You been drinking too much of that rabbit beer again?'
'Babbit.'
'I must have been having a nightmare?'
'I dreamed that I died and I was run over...
'And, I went to this place called Heaven...
'And, there was all these strange creatures there...
'Oh, just shut up rabbit and get to work!'
The End.
Approximate Word Count: 832.

Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artistand Writer, 'cleo85.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Butterflies"


Chapter 12
What Does Love Mean to Me

By Ricky1024

"What Does Love Mean to Me?"
Written on October 25th, 2019
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Love Me Tender"
"Love Me Do"
"Love Me Forever?"
"As I will Love You"
...
"Love is Concerning and Conceptional."
"It, like the breeze, comes and goes."
...
"Love is fleeting yes, and defeating."
"Comes once in a Lifetime."
"You for Me?"
"Will you be mine?"
...
"Angelic Spell this Love I know so well!'
"Tease me and never please me?"
"Take me for a ride!"
"Give me a second chance?"
"I'm dying *Inside?"
Approximate Word Count:103.



Author Notes *Inside: adj.
innner, center, core.
"On March 31st, 2003, I was a passenger in a Ford Mustang "
My friend Brian Cole had problems and decided to crash into a telephone pole."
"They say he was doing over 100 MPH."
"I wouldn't know for I was comatosed and Raccooned."
*As if my Beaten body left the room."
...
"And, today?"
"I exist in many others in many **Ways!"
**Ways: n.
types, kinds, varieties.
"On March 31st, 2003."
"And, after the accident.$
"They decided to donate My organs."
...
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Simply contact my father's dear friend Lara S. Moretti
the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life."
"Philadelphia Pennsylvania."
"At 1-800-DONORS-1."
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984-
March 31st, 2003
Organs graciously offered on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
....
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry.'
And, her incredible Picture Entitled, "Window Decoration"


Chapter 13
On My Knees

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"On My Knees"
(A Dedication)
Written on October 27th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

'I can feel that something's wrong but what?'
'I can feel that My body's gone but why?'
'Maybe, this is My Time?'
'And, My time has come?'
'But Lord God, when?'
'And, God where?'
...
'This strange but welcoming Light appears?'
'A voice I can now hear?'
'A Light, so Brilliant, I must?'
"Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust."
...
'I flow up and look down below...
'At what's left of Me?'
'Only God knows.'
'Lord God, what is now happening to Me?'
...
'And, as I move ever higher, I see no more below?'
'Lord God, this is so Errie...
'But now I must go.'
'I wish I knew more?"
'Soon to pass through Heaven's door?'
...
'So, I accept this Destiny and Fate.'
'And, there must be a good 'Reason?'
*Reason why?'
'Why I must die?'
...
'And yes, I shall not cry for I know that I possess the Keys...
"And, now I must pray...
"On My Knees"
Approximate Word Count:193.

Author Notes *Reason: n.
message, purpose, Fate.
On March 31st, 2003."
"Jason was involved in a horrible Accident."
"And, as a passenger?"
...
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, " The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'jgrace.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Grounded"


Chapter 14
Heart To Heart

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Heart To Heart"
Written on July 27th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2018
'All Rights Reserved'

"Time swiftly erases...
"Fast tis Thy paces...
"No...
...
"My Life is so demure ..
"Tis Broken in part...
"Heart To Heart."
...
"Time the Great Healer...
"Save this Fallen Soul?"
"For Life Tis now...
"Taken such a Horrid of Toll...
"Tis Broken in Part...
"Heart To Heart."
...
"Time the Hands wind round and round but Lord God?"
"My Life is Upside Down!"
"Mashed, Ripped, and Torn apart...
"Heart To Heart."
..
"Shed no tTear for Me...
"For you will soon see...
"That a Father-son Love ..
"From below to Above...
"Even though temporarily Misplaced and Apart...
"Tis Lost its Mark?"
"Heart To *Heart."
Approximate Word Count: 132.

Author Notes *Heart: n.
core, pump, human organ.

"On March 31st, 2003."
"My Only Son Jason Richard was involved in a car accident."
"In which He was carelessly tossed about...
"As if grabbed by his shoulders...
"By a giant and thrown...
"Into the car's windshield...
"Resulting in a Irreversible-Brain damage."
(Shaken-Baby Syndrome)
...
"And as a result?"
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life."
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.
...
"And, thanks for the Bottom my Broken and my Only Son Jason's donated Heart...
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'GaliaG.'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Fire on the Heart"


Chapter 15
Believe? (A)

By Ricky1024

"Believe?" (A)
Written on December 26th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright C. Fanstory 2019
All Rights Reserved'

"From the formation of the Firmenents to the separation of Night from Day...
To the eventual creation of Adam and Eve...
"Believe?"
...
"From the flooding of Earth and an Ark built by Noah...
To the eventual destruction called '9-11' and the Twin Towers...
"Can you possibly conceive?
"Believe?"
...
"From the first stone throw to the possible and upcoming World War III...
"To Nuclear Devastation...
"A Wounded Revelation...
"Enough to make one sick and Heave...
"Believe?'
...
"Finally, a much needed...
'Total Utopian Society.'
"Love Thy Neighbor and they shalleth Love Thee...
"The Hate, Predjudice, Killing, Rape, and Thievery...
"Which we must learn to Leave...
"Believe?"
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><>

"After"(B)
Written on November 2nd, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"When the Music stops and there is nothing but, 'No.'
"There will always be...
"After...
...
"When the Sun no longer shines and I no longer feel the warmth on My face...
"There will always be...
"After...
...
"When the Seas no longer touch the shore and I can no longer smell that Saltine Sea...
"There will always be...
"After...
...
"And, finally when I no longer can breathe...
"I No longer can See...
"Nor Touch, Hear, and I am long Interred...
"There will always and Forever be...
*After...
Approximate Word Count: 249.
Note:
This is my first post in 68 days.








Author Notes *After: (af' ter) adj.
Naut, Farther aft; toward the stern.
"After over Seventeen hours of watching my son literally having his life force sucked out of him."
"With sSevere Brain Damage we decided to donate his organs and save Four lives.
...
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1."

Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003
Organs graciously offered on
April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)


Chapter 16
Frozen

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Frozen"
Written on December 27th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and 'Jay'
Copyright C.2019 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
(A Dedication)

"It won't be long now for...
"I can feel...
"I can smell...
"I can almost taste and sense it... "They are slowly and methodically dissecting me!"
...
The time is March 31st 2003.
(A little after 8 p.m.)
I just come home from work at a supermarket that I manage on Long Beach Island.
Ready to relax.
And, playing a game of chess on chess net.com on my computer.
My wife Carolyn, was silently asleep having hopefully, sweet dreams?
...
The first noise kind of shocked me and when I heard it, I knew somebody was in trouble!
"Some poor fool."
"I guess they're going to regret it."
I thought.
...
Now the second noise came almost immediately which was much louder!
"Oh my God!"
"What is going on and it sounds so close?"
I thought.
...
The second noise actually woke up my wife but the phone call that came immediately shocked her awake!
"You had better get over here!"
"It's Jason and he's been in a horrible accident!"
Stated Kyle Erin my second oldest daughter.
...
As the helicopter transported the driver...
(Brian Cole age Seventeen)
And, our only Son Jason.
We delightfully enjoyed our 45-minute ride on the Garden State Parkway to the Atlantic City trauma Hospital in Atlantic City, New Jersey.
...
Upon arrival we presented the hospital with no medical insurance.
(Since my, let's just say now deceased ex-employer)
Turned out and turned into a Real Prick!
...
The nice nurse lady took us to the X-ray room where there was multiple pictures black and white on the walls of our 18 year old son.

****

"Time moves slowly as if the wine's everlasting drips will not leave my lips."
(Theology 48.09)
...
We were then taken into the second floor trauma room where they had Jason hooked up to all kinds of devices.
There was an emergency room nurse attending to him.
Note :
Warning!
Graphic!
...
Since Jason was massively tossed about as if a child with shaken baby syndrome and we truly believe His head dislodged the top carriage of the Mustang convertible.
(Driven by a Seventeen-year, old, Maniac!)
He was what you would call 'Raccooned.'
...
Eyes shut...
Swollen and bulging...
(Along with his Head)
Jason was in for the fight of his life!
To be Continued...
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Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this amazing
Artist, 'el-mundo.'
And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Sub Zero"


Chapter 17
Frozen (Continued)

By Ricky1024

"Frozen" (Continued)
Written on December 27th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and 'Jay'
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Dear Lord God,
"I truly know that this is not Your Job."
"Your job but mine to protect...
"But it is Your job now to Resurrect."
...
"Eventually, my wife, myself, and my four daughters...
(Along with Jason's girlfriend named Angel)
"Wanted and waited?"
...
"Thousands of dollars of medications...
"Deep Coma....
"Brain-dead...
...
"Then we were asked to leave the room."
"As a surgeon tapped Jason's skull to relieve the pressure?"
...
"The music starts...
(Drums and Harps)
"Angels Above...
"All join in crescendo...
"Tears of Joy rained down from the Angels above!"
"Happiness...
"There long, lost, brother Angel was finally coming home!"

****

"I can feel now as my Liver...
"I can feel now as my Kidneys...
"My Lungs...
"And, finally My Heart...
...
"A representative...
(Lara S. Moretti)
"From, 'The Gift of Life.'
"Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
"Came up and now we had to make a decision?"
...
"To be or not to be?"
"Life after Death?"
"Ashes to Ashes or Dust to Dust?" "Death after Life?"
...
"To make a long story short."
"Three out of four and Seventeen years later?"
"For what it's worth...
"Still walk this Planet *Earth!"

Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.

Organs graciously offered on April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)
Approximate Word Count: 243.

Author Notes *Earth: n.
planet.
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
"Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.
....
Thanks from my Broken and my Son Jason's donated Heart.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son gay Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review and this amazing artist, 'pierrhusson.'
"And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Frozen Colors"


Chapter 18
Conception!

By Ricky1024

"Conception!"
Written on March 1st, 2015
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2015
'All Rights Reserved'

'Goodmorning egg!'
'Goodmorning womb!'
'How did you sleep egg?'
'Quite well for it is warm in here womb!'
'How old am I now womb?'
Wonders egg.
'Only one day dear.'
'You have split many, many, times though.'
'And, you are now the size of a small pea!'
States womb.
'Goodnight egg!'
'Goodnight womb!'
'See you soon.'
(Perhaps, God works in strange ways?)
The next morning...
...
'Goodmorning egg!'
'And, good morning to you too
my womb!'
'Egg, you are now an embryo!'
'Okay womb but I like my name?'
'But you see love, your growing!'
'And, good morning to you again egg!'
'How are you?'
Asks womb.
'I am quite well and sleept well as always.'
States egg.
Three months later...
...
'Goodmorning egg!'
'Goodmorning womb!'
'Guess what honey?'
'What mommy womb?'
'You are ending with me...
'Our First Tri-mester and you are now a fetus!'
'Yuck womb sounds putrid!'
'Its okay your growing so fast now!'
On and on the conversation went until...
Six months later ..

****

'Goodmorning again to you my sweet egg!'
'Today is a special day!'
'Yes, a very, very, special, day for you son!'
'You can no longer stay.'
'Why womb?'
Asks egg.
...
'You see dear, you are no longer an egg, nor embryo, or even a fetus you are soon-to-be a new born child egg!'
'A boy child!'
(I hope)
Wonders womb.
...
'Hold on a second mommy womb.'
'I'm confused?'
'First you tell me that I'm an egg...
'And, then after a little while, you change it to an embryo?'
'And, then months later, a fetus?'
'But now you tell me my new name will be child?'
'Yes that is right.'
'Egg hold on another second I have to push!'
Twenty minutes later...
...
'Where the F*** am I?'
'It's cold and no longer dark?'
'So noisy!'
'And, I'm afraid!'
'I feel slimy and wet mommy womb?'
'You were just born!'
'Don't cry my newborn child.'
Three days later...
...
'Hello little baby!'
'I am your new mommy!'
'Womb?'
'Thats me too!'
States mommy.

'What is this noise from you?'
Wonders egg.
'And, why can't I stop crying?'
Wonders egg.
Note: Egg can't talk yet but can hear.
...
'Well you were in an incubator right after you came out of my womb little baby.'
'And I shall call you Kate!'
Great thinks egg.
'Now my name is Katie or Kate?'
'And I thought I was supposed to be a boy egg?'
'Thats what my old mommy told me!'
'And, what happened to "egg" what happened to my real mommy womb?'
'Why are all these other people and noises here and they're all calling me baby?'
Egg wonders.
...
'And, why are there all these people poking me?
'Cold things touching me and...
'Im hungry!'
Suddenly, egg feels something knew in its mouth?
...
'Hmm...
'I like this and it's sweet and warm!'
'Yummy to my tummy!'
Three years later...
...
'Kate?'
'Yes Mommy?'
'I have to go to work now you're babysitter will be here in a few minutes.'
'Yes I know Mommy.'
'She's kind of strange?'
'And, she tells me her name is "womb?"
The End.
Approximate Word Count: 563.







Author Notes Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'unknown'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Conception"


Chapter 19
You Don't Own Me

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"You Don't Own Me"
Written on December 31st, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ?© Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'
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Chorus (Number One)
You Don't Own Me...
Don't tell me what to do!
You Don't Own Me B**** but I'll fall in love with you!
Don't tell me what to say...
I won't try and run away!
And, You Don't Own Me...
This way!

**********************************
Melody (In Variation)
Sweet lace and all alone.
Please take me to places that only your body owns?
Call me your gangsta and tell me you love me.
Don't always forgive me.
Try to live for me?
**********************************
Chorus (Number Two)
You Don't Own Me...
I'm not some little boy!
You Don't Own Me...
And, don't try and make me...
Just someones toy!
And don't take me from my joy...
**********************************
Melody (In Variation)
Sweet Lace and all alone...
Don't try and reach me on some stupid phone!
For I am his and he is mine...
I'm the Night and he's the shine...
And, in the end we both shall die!
**********************************
Chorus (Final)
You Don't Own Me....
Don't try and tell me what to do!
You Don't Own Me...
Don't treat me like other guys do!
Cause...
I'm the Sun and your the Moon!
See you really soon?
I'm just a girl...
Please don't make me cry?
I'm the Sun, your the Moon, and all the Blue Skies...
*******************¢? ************
Melody (Final)
Sweet lace and all I could be?
Now just the song lost in this melody?
Torture but never love me?
Cross my Heart...
And, hope to die?
...
Don't tell me what to do!
And, don't tell me what I need! Cuz I'll be there for you...
And, you'll be all I ever need!
For I am his, he is mine...
And, in the end?
We both shall *Die...
Approximate Word Count: 315.

Author Notes *Die: v.l.
To suffer death, pass away from Life, expire.
The idea for the song came from soundtrack from the movie, "Suicide Squad"
Anybody knows the movie knows the romance between the joker and the main character played by Hayley Quinn.
...
And then almost middle of the movie joker says...
"Will you die for me?"
(No reaction)
He again repeats it but much louder...
"WILL YOU DIE FOR ME?"
...
At this point, she standing over a precipice of some liquid and bubbling goo!
And, she turns around backwards...
Raises our arms and spreads them apart...
And, lets her body slowly fall below?
...
He watches in disbelief, takes off his jacket and says...
Oh F***!"
And, dives below into the goo and comes up with his woman!
True Love in a Sadistical Way!
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented and Amazing Artist...
'seshadri_screenivasan.'
And, their Incredible picture Entitled, "The Blue Whale Menace"
And, lastly the singer, 'Grace.'


Chapter 20
The Celebration!

By Ricky1024

"The Celebration!"
Written on December 31st, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and 'Jay'
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

"Hallelujah come feel my elation." "Celebration!"
"The Skies are Bright tonight and a Crescent Moon winks it's eye."
"And, not an Angel above...
"Nor a tear in their eyes!"
...
"Music is playing...
"Golden Harps spread the word!" "Many Drums start their drumming...
"And, a new Angel...
(They've heard)
...
'Dad?'
'A new decade and year appears...
'Below...
'And, how I miss you so.'
'Not a day goes by and I can feel your pain...
'Still makes Me cry.'
'And, I so wish I could provide a reason why?'
...
'You see over Sixteen years ago, Fate and Destiny had their plans for me.'
'Yes, My young life was cut short but there was a reason you see?'
...
'Sometimes just when you seem to think everything is going your way...
'Something else happens and gets in the way?'
...
'So, on this day of gathering and Revelation...
'I want you to know below...
'As above...
'We too are enjoying...
"The *Celebration"



Author Notes Approximate Word Count: 189.
*Celebration: n.
gathering, party, special occasion.
...
"As this New Year and decade approaches...
"It will be Seventeen years since we had to release my Son Jason to Heaven above due to mMassive Brain Damage."
"And, donate His many organs to Four deserved Human Beings...
...
And, to learn more about... "Organ-Tissue Donations." Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Special thanks goes out first, ad always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist....
'Neilnap773.'
And their Incredible picture Entitled, "Spanish Fiesta"


Chapter 21
Flowering Hopes

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Flowering Hopes" (A)
Written on January 5th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

When your World suddenly just turns...
Upside down.
And all hope gets Tangled around.
When all that is left is Eerie Darkness inside.
And all those things...
"That Go Bump in the Night?"
No longer hide?
...
When that World in which you made for yourself to live...
Hopefully they don't open that sad, sad, place where you can no longer give?
When you when you're at the end of your Rope?
"Flowering Hopes"
...
When your Light turns into a Horrid of Darkness and you no longer have...
"The Will to Live"
And, all your Love has no place left to go...
And, no one to share with or Give?
...
Just a few places left to run to and Hide?
As the Planets above are disrupted and Collide!
It's almost over and you're in for that Ride?
They now treat you as if your...
"Jekyll and Hyde!
Your laughed at and you became...
"The Local Joke"
Egg on you face, followed by Yoke...
"Flowering Hopes"
...
When nothing good is left and your suddenly surrounded by Death!
You try so hard and you give that last breath?
But your lungs are no longer filled?
With nothing but Pain as your Brain goes to mush!
Insanity rushes in and you feel...
"The F***** Rush!"
...
When it feels as if the damage is done and it's now time for the Devil to Vote?
You got to go back above and find your...
"Flowering Hopes!"
...
Yes, you feel as if there's nothing left and your now tortured by Demons that stalk and they Prey!
And, you feel as if they will never go away?
...
Finally, you feel as though your through and you can no longer Cope?
Are you able to find those...
"Flowering Hopes?"
...
'Yes God!'
'My time is now!'
'Jesus told me that I am your friend!'
'And, to forget all that Hate and all that Pain!'
'No more thoughts of Sadness to the End!'
...
'Yes, Feel Again My son inside and look!'
'There's no more Sadness for there's Love again and your finally Hooked!'
'Your Broken Heart hath sprung open...
'As if Beautiful Words written from a Special Book!'
'And yes, Elijah's back again at long last!
'And, My New Son...
You no longer curse the Christ and no longer the Depressions 'Last!'
...
'Yes My Son, it's better now.'
'For Religion is back and you've now taken a vow!'
'And, you now ffeel like the Pope!
And, your no longer hanging at the End of Some Stupid Rope!
Why?
Because you finally hath found your...
"Flowering Hopes!"

"When My Love, Will I See You?"
(Again?) (B)

"Time moves ever slowly now and I feel my life's just begun."
"The past is long gone and there is no longer any fun."
"Yes, there's a hole right in the center of my Heart and I shall try...
"To again start...
"And, Cry...
"But, I want so very, very, much God...
"To Simply Die."
...
"The Coffin's Lid is open and baby I'm coming home!"
"There will be no more Soured Sugar Plum Fairies dancing in my head!"
"I'm better off Dead!"
...
"It's all perfectly clear."
"And, I know now what and needs to be done."
"Lord God, I so wish and Lord God?"
"I know now what I want and need."
"I wish to be there to share for it's so quiet there."
"And, there is only Love above but Lord God?"
...
"So, I pray and I await my date with Fate and Destiny."
"And Lord God, on this day as I hope and I Pray...
"Yes, for that final and last day."
...
"So, I write these words to You."
"Now with a Sadness and a pen."
"When my Love, Will I See You?"
(Again?)



Author Notes Approximate Word Count:
664.
*Hopes: n.
To desire with expectation of fulfillment, to wish; want.
...
"After I lost my son Jason first and we donated His organs on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
"Depression set in."
"But then?
"And, only Eight months later?"
"On November 23rd, I lost my wife Carolyn Ann."
"I too had lost my...
"Flowering Hopes."
...
"For two long and a half years no good years...
"I cursed Jesus Christ every morning I woke."
"Why?"
"Because I didn't want to be here anymore!"
"I even gave up all my writings and thought it was just a bunch of stupid crap!"
...
"But suddenly no longer would I suffer in the Depressional Pit of Endless Crap!"
No more slipping on those rungs laced with my tears...
"As if someone reached down and I was suddenly Zapped!
....
"To learn more about...
'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.


Special thanks goes out first, ad always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'j grace'
And her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Mother's Garden"


Chapter 22
I'll Be True

By Ricky1024

"I'll Be True"
Written on January 12th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dedicated Song)
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

Chorus Number One:
"I'll be true to you, yes I will."
"I'll be true to you, yes I will.'
"Until my heavy Heart no longer beats...
"Our Minds no longer meets'
"I'll be true to you, yes I will."
...
Melody (In Variation)
"When I look above, I'll always share this Love!"
"For in my broken Heart, I know
again our lives will start."
"I'd swim an Ocean for you, yes I will."
...
Chorus Number Two:
"I'll be forever Yours, you know that I will."
"I'll be forever Yours, you know that I will."
"Because though live my end but I know you'll always be my *Buddy Friend.'
"I'll am sure, do sure, yes I do."
...
Melody (In Variation)
"Yes, when I look above?"
"The Stars shine for our love.'
"Yes, when I look above?'
"The Moon shows glows of love.'
"And, the seas cease just for you.'
...
Chorus Number Three:
"I'll be true to you, yes I will!'
"I'll be true to you, yes I will!'
"Because I'll never forget and you can count on that as Yet!'
"I'll be true to you, yes I will!.
"Yes, I will!
End.


Author Notes Approximate Word Count: 221.
...
*Buddy: n.
companion, person, special friend.
...
On March 31st 2003.
"After my only son Jason was involved in a horrible automobile accident."
"Unfortunately, he became 'Brain-Dead.'
"And, with no where to go, an important decision would be made."
"Yes, that would change, my life, my family's, and four lucky strangers."
...
"And, to learn more about the amazing 'Gift of Life' and 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
'The Gift of Life.'
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1 800-DONORS-1
....
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing, as well as, Talented Artist,
'helvi2'
And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "A Special Bond."
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003
Organs graciously offered to four recipients on April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)
And, my first of hundreds of thousands...
...
"Buddy Friend"
(A Dedication)
Written on April 14th, 2003

"I'm not here right now but I'm not far...
"I'm in this place...
"Close by and not far...
"Like a Star...
...
"And, you'll feel this place...
"Just take a moment...
"You'll see...
"And, then you will know...
"Just where...
"I'll be....
Your friend Jay.
"For my friends...


Chapter 23
50 Times Three Billion Tears

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"50 Times Three Billion Tears"
Written on December 14th 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2018
'All Rights Reserved'

How do you describe the Worst Day of your Mortal Life?
You wonder or pray?
Pray for a more or..
"Better of Day?"
Or, do you curse yourself like now in verse?
...
Do you document?
Categorize it?
This event?
Do you try to reinvent it?
Write it down outside with a large piece of chalk and hope that it gets washed away?
...
Maybe you write a large check and I hope and pray for a better day?
And, again pray that it all goes away?
In each and every moldable moment...
Your now a peering and peeping being!
And, it's so, so, sad ..
And, it's so, so bad.
Abd, it's as if a drug intentionally injected straight into your brain!
...
The Stars still shine above while the Moon also still glows.
(This we all know)
But doesn't the sun rise or set on the poet past regrets?
...
The best that I can say...
The best that I can do...
The best information that I can give to you?
If you have to go through what I continue to go through?
...
Is to write ir journal it.
Try your very best to always remember and never forget.
And, after a long period of time?You should be able to try to go forward.
...
And, you're forever cursed in verse,?
The nightmares and the pains?
When they are fresh?
When they continue?
When it seems like a million years?
...
Write it all down over and over again my friend and load your pain?
And, your pen!
Loan your pen with...
"50 Times Three Billion Tears"

<>®<><><>©<><><>®<>

"50 Times Three Billion Tears" (B)
Written on December 16th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2018
'All Rights Reserved'

How do you describe the
WORST FUCKING DAY OF YOUR LIFE?
When it seems to be...
To be or not to be?
Iis this the question?
The question that I can now ask of you?
From this poem Number Two?
...
"5.0 Three Billion Fears?"
Yes, as I want you to not read but to now read and hear me?
Hear me?
Feel me?
Touch me?
As much me as you can?
My reviewer friend?
As much me that you can?
As I write these sad words to you with this new Cross Blue pen.
...
Yes, it's too, too, late to curse in verse because that we never do do?
Do away all the Damage...
Do away all the horrible Pain...
Do away all the Depressions...
Do away all the Endless Damages, Pains, and Depressions as Mesmerized miseries is all that you now see!
...
Pictured Eight by Tens...
God, the damage?
Those past miseries and Depression?
Cant you see?
For me?
It's all about ABSORPTION?
Absorption and all the inclinations...
As you slowly follow...
As your slowly absorbed...
Follow...
As you slowly...
As...
You...
...
As you erase it!
As you investigate it!
As you analyze it!
As you picture it!
All the pieces of the Event?
ABSORPTION!
...
'For now my friend?
'It's like...
"A Thanks-for-Not-Giving Turkey!"
"Forget it as you Stuff it and place it on your Mantle Place!'
'Investigate as exorbitant as can be?'
...
'Ricky?'
'Yes, God?'
'It's so, so, easy now to erase it!'
'Write it as your now testing...
'And, your molding...
'And, your now better...
'Yes, God.'
...
'Abd, Straighten your life!'
'Take a hammer, ratchet set...
'Your life!'
'Live longer for your now worthy!'
'As you can.'
'Your cure to a realization!'
...
'A realization that even with living in the Past...
'A realization that even with nightmares!'
'And, Unending Pains, miseries, and Depressions?'
"Yes, God.'
...
'Search out for there are also the keys...
'That will help you as you follow your desent?'
...
'Test and believe for me?'
'My son for these two tests that are horrible?'
'And, as for your blame?'
'Reach out and call his name!'
'But for now?'
'All is for the best!'
...
'And, believe in Me!'
'And, as you do?'
'With as he doth do so?'
'Even with just a little ink left in your Cross pen?
*Amen

Author Notes Appropriate Word Count: 717.

*Amen: n.
closing, finish, end.
"On March 31st, 2003."
"My son Jason Richard unfortunately...
"When Things Go Bump in the Dark?"
"Brain-Damage"
"Brain-Dead"
...
*And, to learn more about....
'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Simply contact my dear friend Laua S. Moretti the L.S.W with, 'The Gift of Life' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
"At 1 800-DONORS-1"

"And, thanks from the bottom of my broken and my son Jason's forever donated Heart."

Special thanks goes out first, as always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist...
'seshadri_sreenivasan'
And, his incredible picture Entitled, "Jesus-The Protecter of Faith"


Chapter 24
With Just A Single Smile?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Song" (A)
Written on March 13th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'
Melody Number One:
"The notes are Perfection, surrounding Direction "
'Movement in a Symphonic Beat "Measures to Measures...
"Dancing in the Street."
...
Chorus (In Variation)
"Feel me...
"Touch me...
"See me?"
"Walk with me...
"Talk with me...
"Dance with me?"
"Can't You See Me?"
"Touch Me Feel Me?"
"Vibrations!"
"Creations!"
"Revelations!"
...
Melody Number Two:
"The notes now are movement in track."
"Ever forward, No Looking Back!"
"Forward musical, Heart Attack!"
"Can't you see?"
"Babe what your music is doing to me?"
...
Chorus (Repeats in Variation)
"Feel me...
"Touch me...
"See me?"
"But now you can no longer, walk, talk, or dance with me!"
"For like a scratched record that no longer spins?"
"I am gone?"
...
Melody Number Three:
'Purple Rain or God's Window of Pain?'
"Jackson's never coming Back!"
"Elvis is no longer shakes his pelvis?"
"Lennon shot!"
"What a Heart Attack!"
...
'No more Rocky Mountain High!'
"Be John Denver crashed his plane into a mountain from the Blue sky!"
"La Bamba?"
"Ricky Valles, along with the Big Bopper aren't no more if a Show Stopper?'
...
Curtains drawn...
We must somehow go on?"
"So, so, many artists that were hanging on...
"Now all now just memories in this song...


"With Just A Single Smile?"(Two)
Written on March 10th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2019
'All Rights Reserved'

With just want to smile and a little hug?
With just one tug on your Broken Heart?
You can do wonders from the moment of your Conception or
Start.
...
You learn and begin.
We are taught how to adjust...
And, adjust we must.
Tried-and-True, sometimes long overdue...
"Music from yYour Heart."
...
Timeless tis Thee, a Gift formed as if, Poetry!
Shining never binding.
Separate but together...
Lasting Forever...
Perfection which is lasting more than a while...
"With Just One Smile?"

Author Notes Approximate Word Count:330
Special thanks again goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Artist...
'Doctor Ricky 1024'
And, his Handsome and Incredible Picture Entitled...
"Just Little Old Me!"


Chapter 25
Happy Burst Day Wishes!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Happy Burst Day Wishes!"
Written on January 19th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

God sent me an Angel the day I first met you!
Dark hair upon you little head! Striking Azure eyes so Blue!
The Day I first met you!
...
'I think his name should be Alex yes!'
"Alexander the Great!"
'And, my youngest daughter Dana Alyse?'
'Agreed with me.'
(To say the least!)
...
She had decided it was perfect and to say.
And, he grew and grew!
Yes, he grew to love his Thomas Choo-Choos!
And, Choos Choos became his favorite pastime and passion!
As he pushed them along from James to Emily his new family!
...
Yes, and he pushed them along as if to the beat of a better song!
Weather Steamie's or Diesel's, "Alexander the Great Choo Choo Commander!
...
Today?
And yes, it's just a day...
Just and only one day away!
And, what an event it shall be!
A Chocolate cake with layers!
With green icing!
'Yes, for you, Mommy, and me!'
...
God sent me an Angel the day I first met you!
Darkened hair upon your little head!
Striking eyes of Azure Blue!
And, a smile that could kill!
...
And God, even with the loss of his uncle Jay.
On that oh so, so, sad of day?
I have come to realize that with Alexander?
It was God's will that day.
"Happy Burst Day!"
Alex!
...
'And, I hope and pray...
'You rocket ship and burst away!'
'And, show your Uncle *Jay!'

Author Notes Approximate Word Count:264

*Jay: n.
name, person's identity.
"Jason passed away after he sustained injuries as a passenger in a car accident.
"Severe Brain-Damage on March 31st, 2003.
...
"On April 1st, 2003."
(April Fool's Day)
"A decision and sacrife."
"As the team of surgeons removed His many organs to safe four lives."
...
"And, yes there is life after death"
"To learn more about..
'Organ-Tissus Donations?' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist..
'Linda Blickston'
And, her incredible picture Entitled, "Harrison"


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