"Forever Gone?" (A)
(A Re-Write)
Dedication
Written on March 9th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright C.FanStory 2019
"All Rights Reserved"

Note:
"WARNING!"
"GRAPHIC THOUGHTS!"
"There will be one of these which are Dedicated Posts for my only Son Jason each day until April First when His Organs were extracted to save four lives...


****


"As the Darkness now sets in and I am now walking through Shadows...
"Shadows of the Valley of Death!"
"I shall fear no Evil...
"Surely Grace and Faith shall comfort me."
(Theology 37.81)
...
"God, my memory seems shot and I have not a clue?"
"And, it is so Damn Dark!"
"Dark as if the Devil itself?"
"And, it seems as if my time is now due?"
...
"But Lord, how can that be?"
"Dear Lord, why is this now happening to me?"
"Was I not..
'The Good Man?'
"My Fathers Son?"
"Did I not work?"
"Til Your Work...
"Was Done?"
...
"I do not understand what went wrong with me?"
"And, the last thing I can remember...
"Oh yes!"
"Yes the party!"
Note:
"The Party was for my oldest step-daughter Nicole Megan Harbach."
"Even though it was on March 31st, 2003, her birthday was on March 27th, 2003."
...
"It was a party for my oldest sister Nikki!"
"Now it's coming back!"
"Nikki's party!"
"And, she's having a W.W.F. Wrestling party!"
"But why God is this is so damned hard to remember?"
...
Note:
"At this moment in time...
Jason is in a deep coma...
"Approaching Brain Death...
"They smashed the glass and covered Him...
"Brian Cole the driver is extracted with...
"The Jaws of Life!"
"Jason and Brian will be rushed by Helicopter to Atlantic City Trauma...
"Jason will have a Heart Attack...
"They will bring him back...
...
"Yes, now it's coming back."
"I was with the kid Brian...
"Brian Cole and we left early."
"I remember he said he wasn't feeling well."
"And, there's something really wrong with him that day?"
...
"That day, as if he was going crazy or insane!"
"And, as I call out his name to watch out?"

****

Note:
"Brian was depressed, severely depressed on a drug called 'Effexor.'
"He was dared to do this. "
"And, he crashed the Ford Mustang Convertible purposely into a telephone pole at over 100 MPH. "
"HE WOULD LIVE!"
...
"There are these strange and Scary lights?"
"As I remember now walking...
"Walking what seemed forever and that voice!"
"Creepy at first...
"Yes, it was kind of creepy but seemingly comforting?"
"And, it said...
"Come, forth...
"Keep coming...
"And, follow the Light...
....
"And, it kept telling me that even though it was so very, very, dark?"
"And, even though that I don't right now understand...
"Just follow the Voice and the Light!"
...
"What's this?"
"Wow!"
"I can now suddenly see?"
"But, what, where, and why is this happening to me?"
"And I alive now or dead?"
"Damn!"
"How I so wish I could get all that Fog out of My head!"
...
""But Lord, I'm not dead?"
"And, Yes, as if I was meant to be?"
"To be there!"
"And, as I look around?"
"Lord, there is nothing but Beauty?"
"Surely Thee now comfort me!"
"I fear not and I am not!"
"Bit belong like a Sweet, Sweet, Song!"
"Now, to Thee...
...
"And, there's faces!"
"Smiling and happy faces!"
"As if they're all my friends and family?"
"But Lord, why are they coaxing me to...
"To go forth?"
"And, yes I remember now!"
...
"Oh now I know!"
"The Pearly Gates!"
"I heard but never knew?"
"And, those Gates!"
"The Pearly Golden Gates!"
"They seemingly stretch so high into the Blue and beautiful sky!"
"And music!"
"Beautiful music with thousands of voices all singing in harmony!"
"And, there are Angels!"
...
"I may be lost...
"I may not now totally understand...
"My Life seem to be so forlorn...
"And, my Body may now be done but My Soul is so Strong...
"And, even though I am not home where I used to be."
"Even though I am not...
"Lord, I finally feel like I belong...
"Perhaps I am not...
"Forever Gone?"
Approximate Word Count: 723.

"Forever Now Found" (B)
Written on March 15th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"Thank you Lord I so much!"
"And, I appreciate this."
"I went from the 'Edge of Pain.'
"To Eternal and Unknowing but this Beautiful Bliss."
"As if a Gift from an Angels Kiss?"
...
"Yes, Lord it's different here, I'll admit and Your Heaven above?"
"I can feel You Are Forever and Your Ever Love."
"And, even though I see you not, I feel as if You are now watching me?"
"And, I wonder what's coming next for me?"
"After all I so miss below my family."
...
"Suddenly, I can feel something happening to me?"
"What's this?"
"Its not another Angel's Sweet, Kiss?"
"It feels more like this?"
"It feels like an itching or scratching sensation, maybe I need some Calamine Lotion Medication?"
"But also a burning under my left shoulder blade?"
"Maybe...
"Let me take my shirt off?"
"Silly me!,
"I have no clothes!"
"Well, after all this ain't Hell!"
...
"Now, let me feel this scratch?"."Like something that...
"Hatched!"
"This, this something is protruding?"
"Extending as an Extension...
"To much to mention!"
...
"And Lord, I feel that now... "As I'm touching it...
"It's growing?"
"Holy Cow!"
...
Note:
"All new and Worthy Human Beings who are brought into Heaven...
"Become Angels almost instantly!"
...
"And yes!"
"Its as if...
"And, it's growing so fast like a forest fire!"
"Because it burning more and more?"
"Suddenly, under the right shoulder blade...
"A Wing finally extrudes and within less than Fifthteen seconds?"
"The same exact thing happened under the left side!"
...
"Startled, I yelled out...
"Wow!,
"I cannot believe I have a pair of wings?"
"And, now what's all that music I hear people now sing?"
"Glory to the Newborn King?"
"No, now its...
"God Loves His Little Angels!"
"But its deafening?"
...
"Let me ask one of those people over there what is going on."
...
"Hi, my name is Jason and I just arrived here."
"What's your name?"
I Ask.
"Well Jason just arrived here, my name is Ted "
He Said.
"And, I've been here for a while of course that's because I'm dead!"
"But don't worry your silly head we all are."
"But just because you're dead doesn't mean 'He' is here also?"
I Question.
"No Bro that's below!"
"And, I guess you're starting to understand that my friend."
...
"Do you have a question for me today or yesterday?"
"Ahh...
"I don't understand why I now suddenly have a pair of wings and where's your pair?"
"Or why we're in Heaven and not He'll because to tell you the truth...
"Let me interupt you a second Jay."
States Ted.
"We keep them hidden but when were called on a mission to go below?"
"We are able to and allowed by the Father to released them."
"Only this way can we travel but people also know who we are and that we're here to help them."
...
"Well, thanks I think, Ted."
"Now where do I get my gear because it's kind of a little bit creepy running around...
"The only naked person?"
"Oh yeah Bro, I felt the same way too."
"When I passed through... 'The Veil of Forgetfulness.'
...
"When I first arrived, they said...
"Just follow the light but you need to follow that path over there."
"And, that'll take you to the one of our blessed buildings."
"And inside?"
"You should be able to find something suitable."
..
"As I left and thanked Ted, I went into the building...
"And inside?"
"There were many, many, beautiful things that would be suitable."
"And, even a lot of the designs which matched Earth's!,
...
"There was a beautiful, purple, shirt that said 'BOSS.'
"So, I grabbed that and I also put on a very nice pair of jeans and I know they're very expensive Below."
'Aremani' I think?"
"On Earth, my Mom and Dad could never afford something like that but there wasn't any shoes or boots?"
"Or anything but...
"Yes, there was a lot of sandals and there was this funny kind of strapping?"
...
"Thank you Lord I so much appreciate this."
"For I went from ' The Edge of Eternal Death.'
"And, 'Unending Pain.'
"To this Beautiful and Blessed Place."
...
"Yes, it's a little different here I'll admit.,
"And, you're having an eerie feeling above...
"But Lord, I can feel your forever Love!,
"And, even though I see YOU NOT...
"I feel You...
"Now you're watching over me and I feel safe and secure...
"But Lord, I wonder what's coming next for me?"
"I so miss below my family."
...
"Suddenly again, I can feel something happening to me?"
"Again, it feels like an itching sensation but more?"
"Shut the Door!"
"Again Lord God?"
...
"Yes, a scratching but also a burning under my left and now right shoulder blads?"
...
"Lee let me take my 'BOSS' purple, shirt off!"
"My God!,
"A Second pair of wings?"
"Larger and more Fluffy?"
"Can I actually fly?"
...
"Well that's another Story?"
"As for now?"
"Gotta do something about this irritating music?"
"How many times do you need to listen to...
"God Loves the Little Children?"
Approximate Word Count:1600.

Author Notes

"Special Thanks goes first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ." "Fanstory and Tom the Administrator." "Fan Art Review, this Incredible Artist and Talented Writer... 'Doctor Ricky 1024,' and his amazingly Beautiful picture... "Just My Jay" ... Note: "It's been claimed often that this story is true. " "That there is a Heaven and that it exists above." "And, that there are Angels as friends long gone and long past and family. " ... "On March 31st, 2003." (Which is 16 years approaching) "My son Jason was in that car driven by Brian Cole and He was in an accident after that party." "And he did not understand because he was in a deep coma and approaching... 'Brain Death.' ... "And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Just simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania." "At 1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken and my Son Jason's donated Heart." Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984- March 31st, 2003. Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day)

"What About?"
(A Query)
Written on March 10th, 201o
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright C. FanStory 2019
"All Rights Reserved"

"What about if the Moon was the Earth and the Earth was the Moon?"
"Of course it would be cold and dark, no gravity or air to breathe!"
"How do we survive?"
...
"But then what about food?"
"Would we eat nothing but 'Green Cheese,' and live in a Moon Crater?"
"And what about...
'The Sea of Tranquility?'
"Is this where we swim and catch Moon Fish?"
"And, what about 'Moon Pies?'
"We do have them here on Earth!"
...
"Speaking Celestially, what about if 'Old Sol,' the Sun started to cry?"
"Would we all never again need to shower inside?"
"And, what about the temp of the water?"
"Would we get Third Degree burns from the heated water and or could we still tan?"
"Reviewers are you beginning to understand?"
...
"What about this?"
"If the only way to breathe was through our Pores?"
"Would we not need our mouths or noses?"
(I'm supposing)
"And, could we eat through our pores?"
"And, would we no longer need to snore?"
...
"What about if a cat was a dog and a dog was a cat?"
"And, would the cat bark and the dog purr?"
"Could the dog's tail fluff and the cat wag it's tail?"
"But then little boys would no longer be made of...
'Puppy Dog Tails?'
"And, which one now would be known as...
'Man's Best Friend?'

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"What about what this?"
"What if all our fingers and toes suddenly fell off?"
"Eating wouldn't be much of a problem since we learned earlier how to eat through our pores."
(Yes, as I earlier mentioned)
"But would we still be able to walk without toes and if so, could we still be able to balance?"
"And, would we be able to run or just walk more slow?"
"Do you know?"
"But no more Frostbite?"
...
"Now what about if the egg came first?"
"Then how was it created with out a hen or chicken?"
"Or what about if the hen or chicken came first?"
"Then how was it hatched?"
"Invitro from an egg?"
"Forget about getting to the other side cause this one isn't all that it's...
"Cracked Up to Be?"
"That's an interesting one but how about this one?"
...
"What about something creepy like if a spider was a snake and a snake was now a spider?"
"Would both still be venomous or poisonous and what about how they would travel?"
"Firstly, the snake is not use to having eight legs, while the spider now has none?"
"Just a thought?"
...
"What about if you would be able to live forever and never ever died?"
"What about when you are so very, very, old and it was time to go?"
"Would it hurt and if it did would we still need to go each and every day?"
"What?"
"You say Scott?"
"I say lots of Prunes!"
"But still, let's say, at the Age of 263?"
"Ouch!"
...
"Now staying on the the subject of pain...
"Now what about this?"
"Honey Bees that can no longer Buzz?"
"Would there still be honey?"
"And Winnie the Pooh?"
...
"Trees which don't have or no longer lose their leaves?"
"What about Fall?"
...
"Guns with no bullets, knives that lost their blades?"
"Then no more Cops and Robbers, isn't that a rage?"
"Paper but no pens?"
"Where would we Bee?"
"Buzz?"
"Books without pages and no ends or beginnings?"
...
"And, lastly?"
"Where would be and what about this?"
"A God whom we no longer worship and share?"
...
"It's Sabbath Sunday and now can you share?"
"And, pick out which one you liked the best?"
"If you dare?"
Approximate Word Count: 641.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ." "Fanstory and Tom the Administrator." "Fan Art Review, this amazing, as well as talented artist, 'GaliaG. ' "And, their Incredible picture, "Sun and Earth"

Chapter 11
Transcending Transparency

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Transcending Transparency"
Written on Match 12th, 2019
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright C. FanStory 2019
"All Rights Reserved"
"Transcending Transparency:
v. adj. to go beyond invisibility.

"Life for he was lot meant to be."
"He knew this and could use this."
"Yes, He was young and on Earth?"
"His Life had just begun?"
"Honey please stay awake to see our fourth born?"
...
"The year was 1984 and it was a cold November."
(As much as I now can remember)
"This birth would be our second together."
(We have two others, step-daughters from a previous and failed marriage)
...
"Honey, didn't you here me please?"
"But as usual, lights out!"
"Within minutes...
'The Miracle of Birth.'
"Would again be mine to witness alone. "
...
"Honey, it's a boy!"
I boasted.
"But she did not believe until Doctor Narishkin help up Jason for the new mother to see."
"Girl, Girl, Girl, Boy and within another Eleven months?"
"GIRL!"
...
"Now the Family was complete.
"Fortunately, our last daughter Dana Alyse, survived her ordeal with the cord wrapped around her neck twice."
"I took that seriously as a sign and Carolyn agreed to get her tubes tied."
"After all considering her condition?"
"She was never in any condition to conceive."
(More on that another time)
...
"From the moment of Conception, the Invisibility Factor becomes Crystal Clear."
(Theology 47.88)
...
"With nourishing Love and Attention, The Five grew as One."
"All Birthdays to all Holidays were treated on an Equal basis."
"Five, Crystal, Hearts all on one Single, Silvery, String."
"Dangling...
"But soon to be...
"Tangling?"
To be continued...
24.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. " "FanStory and Tom the Administrator." "Fan Art Review, this Amazing as well as Talented Artist and Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024." "And, his Incredible picture, "Universe."

Chapter 12
The Discovery of Me?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Discovery of Me?"
Written on March 17th, 2019
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
(A Dedication)
Copyright C. Fan Story 2019.
"All Rights Reserved"
Note:
Warning!
Graphic!

"I'm no longer here right now...
"But, I'm not far...
"And yes, I'm in a place...
"Close by not far...
"Like a Star...
....
"Now, you'll feel this place...
"If you just take a moment... "You'll see...
"And, and only then...
"Will you understand and know...
"Exactly where...
"I shall be...
...
"And, after getting Dad's Trophy winning and first Poem out of the way...
"Welcome to all who now read this and yes...
"It is being spoken from above!"
"Or, maybe below?"
"Or, if you really want to know?"
"Maybe from the grave?"
"Or perhaps below from a box...
"In my youngest sister Dana's house...
"Next to My moms...
"On a shelf...
"In Mystic Island, New Jersey?"
...
"The point is it doesn't matter what way you perceive it, what matters is the point and how you receive it?"
...
"I know most here will not Have a clue but what I am about to tell you?"
"Is True Life in the Most Graphic of Form."
"And, you may take it personal but after a little or long time?"
"Try and understand?"
"Okay?"
...
"The Discovery of Me?"
Written with All of My Donated Heart
March 17th, 2019
By Jay...

"Yes, I was involved in a horrible accident almost Sixteen...
"Terrible years, ago on this up and coming March 31st, 2003."
"The driver. Brian Cole."
(A past friend of Mine)
"Didn't want to live and had no clue!"
"That not his but My Time was due?"
"Expected, as Father told Me...
(Like Our Savior Christ)
"That I would die not for The Sins of Mankind but for their Future Existence!"
...
"And, as a result?"
"I'm the one who had to lose and he still walks this Earth today."
"Which is still key to me."
...
"And, I have no grudges...
"I have no hate...
"I have no miseries and I have no pains."
"And, after the incident I was in a very deep, coma for God was protecting me from the Brain Damage, following."
...
"Can you imagine how much there must have been?" "When even the head nurse in the X-ray department said to My family...
...
"It was the worst Mr. and Mrs. Smrkovsky that I had ever seen in my ten, year, career."
...
"And Yes, I looked like somebody from another planet."
"My head was swollen!"
"I was what is called 'Racooned.'
"Severely beaten from the results of this accident!"
"After all the Ford Mustang was locked in Third Gear. "
"A spokesman from 'Causeway Ford' said that it could possibly been doing 100MPH!"

****

"Now reviewers, the point and most important thing to know is that I was severely Brain-Damaged and that was intentional."
"And, the intent from the very beginning?"
"To Donate Me and save Four."
...
"In the beginning, I did not know what had happened to me."
"And it took awhile for my Soul or Spirit to release."
"They say My Spirit was even seen three weeks later...
"Right at the. Very Scene of the ACCIDENT!"
"And, described in full of who I was...
"What I looked like...
"And, what I was wearing!"
...
"That got back to a party honoring Me at my friend Jonesey's House!"
...
"My younger sister, Dana Alyse Smrkovsky, was there and as a result?"
"Was so disturbed that she went home crying."
...
"I want you to know that there is a place...
"A Very Special Place!"
"A Place of Everlasting Peace."
"A Special Place where God awaits you, when your time too...
"Is due."
...
"Yes, there are Angels and yes, they do sing."
"Together constantly in Harmony!"
(Hope you like music!)
"And, it's comforting here."
...
"There's never any clouds... "There's never any rain... "There's never any coldness or Darkness...
"And, there is no need to sustain yourself in any way!"
...
"And, at exactly the same time of day...
"We awake...
...
"For we are from the beginning...
"Spirits in the 'Spirit World.'
"And, we await our chance again to join you!"
"And, pass through...
'The Veil of Forgetfulness.' "And, as you do?"
"That we had remembered?"
"Nothing or not!"
"We don't remember life anymore...
"Either up here or life that we had, had below previously?"
...
"You can call it...
'Blessed Resurrection.'
"And, my father below, will speak on that subject in the near future."
...
"And, I wish to thank you all...
"All the reviewers whom took the time...
"To read...
"My words from *Above...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984-
March 31st, 2003.
Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)
Approximate Word Count: 806.

Author Notes

*Above: "To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' "Simply contact my dad's dear friend... Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... 1-800- DONORS-1. ... "And, thanks from the bottom of my dad's broken Heart and my Donated Heart... "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ." "Fan Story and Tom the Administrator." "Fan Art Review, this Talented Writer, as well as Amazing Artist, 'cleo85.' "And, her Incredible picture.. "Reaching for the Stars"

Chapter 13
Tree

By Ricky1024

"Tree"
Written on March 21st, 2019
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright C.Fan Story 2019
"All Rights Reserved"

"Tree"
"Resides in one place... "Spreads in Holy Grace...
"Roots down below...
"Anchors firmly...
"Roots above search though and investigate...
"Nutrient-rich absorption...
"Ready, willing, and stable... "Ever steady...
...
"Tree"
"Life from one seed...
"Part of a community...
"Roots anchor and grasp... "Lives as long as the weather lasts...
"Solarium features...
"Leaves cover and coat below...
"Creating shelter and warmth we know...
...
"Tree"
"Oxygen releasing and creating...
"Carbon monoxide... "Absorption...
"Chlorophyll-Photosynthesis...
"Light inhibitor...
"Incubator rich...
"Temperature regulator...
...
"Tree"
"Spring fresh grown leaves... "Free highway system...
"Age determined...
"Under bark circular rings...
"Years...
"Aged, teaching through growth and many tears...
"If only they could talk...
"They would speak of secrets of the past...
...
"Tree"
"Channels and absorbs excess water everywhere...
"Prevention of Deluge...
"If trees can speak and hear?"
"And, voice opinions?"
"Listen to the Wind...
...
"Tree"
"Autumn ending...
"As Pin Oak's Acorns fall...
"Signal cold Winters ahead...
"Barometer...
...
"If love speaks in flowered blooms...
"Can trees sing through leaves?"
"As they announce...
"Pronounced Swirl, Tumble, Twirl...
"Leaves...
"Depart the Mother Tree...
"Tumble, Again Rumble, Twist...
"Around...
"Finally in a Presentation of Eventual Doom?"
"No more room falling down...
"Turning brown...
"Coating...
"As Death is found...
"But new Life?"
"Warmth for Winters friends?"
"Finally, fuel for the End?"

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out First, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ." "Fan Story and Tom the Administrator " "Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'MMooNWillow.' "And, her Incredible Picture, "Forest Fire"

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