By Bicpen
The dictionary definition of the word freedom is, “the condition of being free: independence.” I start my story with this word simply because freedom was what I wanted in my life. I once heard a story about a young boy who spent his time moaning about life. This is how it goes.
The boy and his father, a minister, went to see some friends. One of them put a question to the young boy, "What will you be when you grow up?"
The young boy grunted.
"Will you be a doctor, a teacher, or maybe a minister?” the friend said again.
The young boy looked at the friend.
The boy`s father replied, "He will grow to be an old man, just an old man!"
I never thought much about getting old, I loved life. As a young child my surroundings were both serene and tranquil. I had a happy childhood. My mother and father loved their family which consisted of four boys.
My childhood was a time of adventure and discovery. I had friends who kept me playful, inquisitive, and always content. The gang of children surrounding me at this time of my life were devoted to each other, each with their own gift of persuasion. We loved to spend hours running around the village chasing one another, and doing what kids do.
My father was a strong, tall, balding man whom I cherished. He let me play on the fishing boats on which he was working. As a marine electronics engineer he would be fixing radar systems. After a hard day`s work we would return to a well-covered dinner table, also to my three brothers with their grubby hands. Life in Lochinver was never quiet. I knew what real freedom was from a child's point of view.
My parents were well versed in the word of God teaching me to respect God from an early age. My father was a lay preacher. I always accompanied him on his weekly walk to the Church. Here he would preach faithfully. To walk with a man is to know a man ... can two walk together except they are agreed?
He was by submission to his call faithful, and as children we accepted his faith. I can honestly say, knowing what faith is now, I trusted his judgment over me outwardly. However, I did not know the same saving faith as my father had known when I was a child. I certainly did not know God`s gift of faith personally. I did not know it as an inward soul felt passion, as in my father`s example.
I was not a regenerated Christian. I was not someone who had professed a belief in Jesus Christ through being changed by God`s Holy Spirit. The knowledge of this regeneration came to me later in my adult years; with it came true freedom and liberty … Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
As a child I was under the Law of the Gospel. I grew to become a teenager and the Law worked in my soul continuously to prove my sin, also the death that that sin would yield. I remember after being in the company of my father for many years, as I sat to watch him leave this world, I questioned my personal need for salvation.
I had accepted this man's faith and the faith of my Mother, but the question struck me personally; did I have faith? The honest answer, I was still blind in my sin and a stranger to the almighty God of heaven.
Teenage life was very different from my younger years. As I grew in age, I grew as a sinner. I was a child who seemed to know no boundaries and, as such, I searched the boundaries of this life with its sin. I was never ashamed of what I had become. What had I become? Well, I was no longer in a condition of freedom or independence.
I was a slave to the vices of this world and the foolishness of youth. There were very few occasions when I stopped to actually consider God's hand upon my life. However, I could not understand what I was supposed to do to make things right.
My conscience was seared and my life was a snare of depression, addiction, and lust. Where the Law of the Gospel works you will reap nothing but self-despair, and this was what my life had become. I knew the common grace of God in my life, but as to his special effectual grace I knew nothing of it.
To anyone who feels the same despair as I did, I recommend prayer. The prayer of repentance. I wanted to turn my life around. I wanted to change. I wanted to be righteous. As my brother used to say to his children, "I want doesn't get!" The true change of soul had to come from God.
The Law of God`s Gospel had worked in my soul revealing the knowledge that I was a vile, filthy, sinner; there was no escape. All that I needed to do in my condition was die, unsaved and unforgiven. However, the despair of sin is only half the story... the other half is yet to be told. Grace … amazing grace!
| Author Notes | I would be much obliged if readers could point out any SPAG issues or anything relating to this piece that detracts from its enhancement, or vise versa ... which would add to its enhancement. |
By Bicpen
One definition of the word grace is, God's loving mercy towards mankind. I will use this definition regarding the work of regeneration.
The Law of the Gospel does all in its power to condemn, when it is finished it kills … for the wages of sin is death. Amazing grace on the other hand brings life … but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
I was made aware of my inward spiritual condition early in life during my teenage years. The Lord revealed my personal sin through an action of the Law of the Gospel. The work of the Law of the Gospel is to discover unrighteousness.
I was snared in some of the vices of this world and as a result lived a life in contradiction as to how God wanted me to live. The Law of the Gospel brought with it the conviction of sin upon my conscience. What the Psalmist of old said I knew to be true for myself … the sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow.
As a personal experience I was convicted of my own personal sin. This is to say, I was made aware of my own personal sin. The Holy God of heaven was calling. In the light of his holiness my sin was unbearable. My conscience could not bear the weight of the condemnation of the Law which appeared through the Ten Commandements.
Physically I was unable to stand and forced to my knees. Due to the nature of my personal vices I thought that I was having a heart attack such was the nature of my conviction. Once I was helped to my feet I was taken to a hospital where a very important question was asked of me, "Do you really want to go in there?"
The answer was, "No... It’s my soul that hurts!"
A sudden realization of my condition of need came to me and I was brought to a house and given a bed. I was left on my own with the encouragement that Christ was the answer. To explain the hours of conviction in my soul that followed would be futile but be certain I was shown the brink of hell. There I stood, spiritually speaking, staring at my fate.
In the hours of despair and hopelessness of my conviction one voice came through the darkness of my sin ... Christ. It forced it's way through my darkness until it became a voice all of my own. I cried to the Lord in need. He is faithful. He answered with a peace that conquered all … and the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. At that point I had been forgiven a lifetime of sin.
Although I did not know much at this point I knew enough, the Lord was mine and I was his. He had come to me in an hour of darkness an hour of desperation and an hour of shame. In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, I had received something I had never known before… a personal Saviour.
I had been redeemed. As for my sin, the voice of Christ spoke of a beauty not my own. In the voice of redemption there was the word of life … awake to righteousness, and sin not, for some of you have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame. Grace appeared the hour I first believed.
What had happened? Well, my conscience had been seared and my memory had been cut off. God in his saving effectual grace had called me to repent. I did. I believed. My responsibility before God made me aware of what was required of me, that being, to believe. God gave me the means to believe, that being, faith. I was made willing. Grace made itself known. As she poured into my soul Christ's righteousness covered the filthy, vile, ignorant sinner.
| Author Notes | I would very much appreciated the acknowledgement of any SPAG issues and anything that detracts from the piece, also anything that would enhance the peace. Please note in the last para I use the word, "she," This is for grace as a feminine grace and is in no way a reference to the Virgin Mary. |
By Bicpen
Once grace had come to my soul I was filled with the Holy Spirit, life was different. The hand of the creator was seen in everything. There was nothing he could not do and no power could stop him.
His power was not forged on this earth and, as such, no man or being could confine his power. He confined me. I was his prisoner. A prisoner is, a person kept in confinement held in another's grasp.
He had me bound with the cords of love. He had me confess my sins. He put me on trial and found me guilty. Now that I was forgiven he imprisoned me in his love … let the sighing of the prisoner come before thee; according to the greatness of thy power preserve those that are appointed to die.
I was now a captive stripped of my unworthiness and clothed in ... garments of salvation and robes of righteousness. He had delivered me and now he would use me.
The purpose of a prisoner is to rehabilitate them. This is so they conform to the society they live in. I was now a pilgrim of heaven and as a citizen I had to learn it's customs and it's language. Patience was one of the first lessons, amongst others, I am still learning.
I learned to wait on the Lord for my direction and instruction. Whilst waiting I had the scriptures opened to me by the Holy Spirit and the preachers of righteousness. I learned enough to know the Lord was now my Master and I was his servant.
Looking to Christ for help and strength I was able to pray. With prayer we are equipped for this cruel world and all our enemies. To pray was a joy that I had never experienced before but now it was a daily privilege.
God was showing me the error of my sins and the vain thoughts that had deluded me. Instead of these my mind and my heart were now opened to the beauty and wonder of heaven. Calvary was my cage.
I was fed with the bread of life and living waters. If ever I wanted to escape this prison I had a crucified saviour to gaze at. If you are like me that is one sight that is able to turn the hardest convict to tears, I pity the man that does not feel the lash upon his brothers back.
The story of Christ and his life made me realize the wrong and hurt I had caused him through my rejection of his truth. Now, in his company, I was made to feel that only through him could I change. I had. I no longer cared for the familiar vices or addictions and never was his name as sweet as it was now.
Would I ever leave this prison? I hoped not. The alternative has no real attraction ... therefore hath hell enlarged herself, and opened her mouth without measure: and their pomp and he that rejoiceth shall descend into it. Hell, that is where I had been. I no longer cared for its hopeless despair and destructive falsehoods besides there was no Christ there.
Now was my correction to begin and as a student of grace I cared to do well. I walked as I talked and once again when I was unsure or dissatisfied I looked to Christ ... the lamb slain from the foundation of the world.
When my walk was faint and weary I asked if he would carry me. When he gave me strength I marched in his footsteps taking the heat out of the sin still dwelling in mine. When I lost the way he gave me a lamp. When I left the path of righteousness in his love he guided me to the steps of faith once again. When I stumbled his arms pulled me from my unbelief. When I rested he comforted me.
By Bicpen
A promise is to declare that one will give or do or not to do something. Christ had promised me eternal life. Now I was to promise him something in return.
He had made a covenant with me by his sacrifice and through his love. Christ was to reveal all of heaven's beauty through himself to my soul. I thought it only right to give allegiance to his cause here on earth.
His promise was written in the foundation of his scriptures which no one could change and nothing could defeat. His moment of regeneration had awakened me to the very real power of his Holy Spirit. With that Spirit we are conquerors with him as the victor.
My promise started the moment I was taken from his seat of learning to be left in my right mind. I pondered all that he had shown me. The sign of my seal for my promise was a rainbow that arched the sky.
I knew that he had heard me. The reason for this sign was God had also made a promise with that coloured bow to one he knew well.
I began my journey and with difficult times ahead God prepared my path. He gave me first of all a little indication of what would be required from me and then another and then another. After a while I became used to God's company. In his different forms of assurance that I was given I grew in a private personal knowledge God was with me.
I left my home to visit a relative. During the night a signal was given to me and my heart burned within me. Tonight I was to walk with God. I left my place of abode and travelled through the city. A deep sense of prayer was given to my soul and as always Christ was preparing me for the challenge ahead.
I was unsure as to what exactly it was that God was ordering in this walk I just followed his footsteps. I was led to another city and again another deep sense of prayer was given to my soul. When I became uncertain I trusted in God.
He led me to a train station. With little money I boarded a train. The weather closed in. I think it was late October and the snow was beginning to fall. There was no train connection for this journey. I took the situation before the Lord and as I stepped onto the platform of my destination I knew with certainty that God had led me here.
I walked the streets of the town to which I had been brought to and delighted in the Lord. After familiarizing myself with the streets I grew tired. It was late and I knew that it would be a long night.
I took refuge and rested on a bench with my back against the cold stone wall. I reflected on the night's events as I had travelled some considerable distance through two cities and then arriving at a town completely unknown to me.
Suddenly while I was resting a spirit made itself known from behind me which entered my mind. It gave me an immediate sense of false security and enticed me to walk down the dark narrow path in front of me.
Once at the bottom of this path I stood gazing at a tree glistening in the moonlight and snow. I felt almost invited to fall asleep under it. I was oblivious to the very real danger.
A very dark and evil spirit made itself known pyhsically behind me. It revealed itself. Although not to my face it was as if standing over me waiting for the right moment to announce its arrival. A voice came through my mind willing me to obey, "Kneel!"
I froze with fear. In a second my thought was lifted to Christ for an answer, “Never!," came the reply. As I prayed to God to take me from this place I walked in his strength back up the lighted path and past the graveyard wall I had been seated against.
I continued walking and asked God to guide me. Every wrong turn I took my burning friend the Holy Spirit would leave me. When I was on the right path he comforted me. The Holy Spirit led me to a place over looking this particular town and there I knew I could rest safely. I began to read my scriptures and with my reading came a prayer.
The prayer and reading was very specific and related to the evil that was to come over this particular town. With no knowledge as to the specific evil that would come I asked the Lord to protect and keep the place. When I was finished I knew then that my job was done. I left being assured that all was done on my part and now I was to make my way home.
After walking a short distance I was given a lift by a milkvan driver and made for a railway station in the village that I had been taken to. I rested in the station and slept. In the morning when I awoke I went to wash and clean up in the station toilets. I was sitting against the radiator reading my bible when the door opened.
A man walked past me and went to the sinks. I stood up drawn to this man. In meeting with this man face to face a very real darkness and evil presence made itself known. He looked at my bible and apologised stating he did not realise I was reading it. He seemed to know me but I did not know him. He then left. I thanked the Lord once again and went on my way.
Eighteen months later whilst back at home in Stornoway I watched the Scottish National news. A very dramatic intervention became known. The news reporter was standing outside the walls of a church connected with the graveyard that I had rested on.
The reporter announced the massacre of Dunblane. The Dunblane massacre was where a lone gunman had opened fire killing sixteen children, their teacher and finally himself. It is considered the deadlist mass shooting in Great Britain.
I know for sure that my meeting eighteen months earlier was not with the gunman Thomas Hamilton. Whoever or whatever I met was not of this world.
In contemplation I believe the first spirit or evil angel I met at the graveyard was sent to destroy me. I had a meeting with one similar if not the same one previous on another occasion in my lodgings in Stornoway. I believe it was sent to kill me and take my life.
The second spirit or evil angel I met was I believe the Mater of Darkness himself, Satan. The reason I say this is because of the enormity of what was to happen in that small village.
I believe it was Satan putting in an apperance to allow identification as to who and what was behind the yet to be revealed enormity of the events to take place. It was as if to say, it was me and I have been defeated.
I said I was drawn towards the man in the railway station toilets and as I approached him I looked him in the face as it were but his power of evil actually blinded me. I did not recognise any of his features. I only know that he was in the form of a man. In the scripture the Devil reigned in a city in the form as a man and took his name to be The King of Tyrus.
In the second world war it was rumoured that Satan was in a form of a man on earth living in a villa in Vienna. This villa is worth five million pounds and is for sale at a rock bottom one million due to the severe erie and very real evil that still dwells in it. No one wishes to purchase it. The presence of his evil can drive a man insane.
One last thing I will mention about meeting these angels on this particular night is this ... before I left the first city of Edinburgh I was met by one of God's elect angels who gave me his name. This was enough knowledge for me to know that this was indeed a night with God and that my own safety was assured.
The angel I met was also present beside me when I was in the designated place for prayer overlooking the town. One other thing when I was at this point in my journey I felt a hand on my back which I believe could have been one of two things, either, the Holy Spirit or an angel.
The reason I say it may have been another angel is because my father when he was alive had a similar experience. He was climbing down a ladder at night to one of the fishing boats he had been sent too when his hand slipped and he felt he was falling backwards off the rails, which would have lead to a nasty accident possibly death. At this point he felt a hand on his back pushing with force his body against the rails of the ladder so he could grip again and make for a safe landing.
I do not profess to hold the answers to Gods mysteries. I do however profess the truth and God was very much in control as he always is. What I do know is that God was in control. We may ask the question whether God really was in control that day or any other day. I have to say yes. God permitted an evil act but possibly prevented further evil by this cruel individual.
God is sovereign in all things and we are responsible for our own actions even within this sovereignty. Even in such a tragedy as the massacre of Dunblane my thoughts are to those who God may have touched through these events. Has God awakened someone from their own sin and falsehood they may have had in this life? Maybe God has spoken to someone already through this tragedy, maybe he is yet to set him or her free?
After watching the ten-year memorial of the Dunblane massacre I remember the words of the Primary School Headmaster spoken in a documentary. His words on the event were these, ... "yesterday evil came to visit us but today it is gone!" As for my promise … if God ever needed me I would be there. Why? ... because I am a debtor.
By Bicpen
Note: 05/08/2014
Conclusion
After years of contemplation over my experience concerning the reference to Dunblane I believe I have had an answer of some considerable significance given to me. It is said in the Holy Bible, “Judgement begins in the House of God." To elaborate on this the idea is when perversion is found in the Church, here on Earth, God's judgement is forced and appropriately ascribed to the said Church.
This judgement then spreads to the wider community of the social environment. In doing so it unfolds its perversion of justice and truth allowing a more than normal evil to reign. When the Old Testament Church, or people, had a form of this judgement within their midst it is said that the Lord put Evil Angels amongst them.
The period of judgement remains so until such a time of repentance, true repentance, is administered within the Church. The Judgement then abates until another such occasion of judgement occurs. Firstly, it is the Church which is judged as it is the place where God dwells.
This judgement of the Church is most noticeably attributed with perversion of God's authority and division. In the community of the outer regions of the country evil is given a reign. From the top of society to the very bottom of society everything is tainted.
As a nation Great Britain has been under the grip of a moral and spiritual decline for almost twenty years. This I believe can be attributed to the unrighteous acts which took place in the Covenant Church of Scotland. This occurred in the period of the year ... 1996. It was in this year a notorious Professor, within the said Church, was to be held accountable for sexual misconduct and perverse notions against his Theology.
He did at first confess to a male colleague of his actions. However, when realising the consequences of discipline he refused to be held accountable thus forcing unjust actions to cover his ill behaviour. This ill behaviour resulted in the division of the Covenant Church of Scotland in the year of 2000.
It is interesting to note the date in which the first recanting of his confession took place, the year of … 1996. This being the same year as the massacre of Dunblane the deadliest mass shooting in British history.
The judgement had already started within the Church at this point with cover up's of immoral behaviour and perversion within the courts of the Church. My own conversion took place towards the end of 1994 and October is the month of that year I am settled on for my walk to Dunblane.
It would be intresting to note when the first instance of Mr. Macleods affair was first documented which happened in in Australia. Also it would be good to note the length of time between my walk and the actual time of dealing with his discipline.
I have for the moment settled on eighteen months for the period between my walk and the actual events of Dunblane. In prophecy I think six months is considered a year or possibly a month is considered a day. It is also intresting to note that it was sixteen children and one adult including the perpertrator. A DAY OF PROPHECY FOR EACH INDIVIDUAL KILLED WHICH WOULD TOTAL MY EIGHTEEN MONTHS.
I have documented evidence in my private medical notes that suggest I was in Dunblane specifically in the end of the year of 1994. How this piece of evidence came to light will remain a mystery to myself as I repeat I had no personal knowledge of where I was until the actual events in 1996.
Personally I believe my own experience was a counter measure from the Lord to cover the action of judgement which took place in the wider community. This has been deduced by deep contemplation on the matter and revelation from the Holy Spirit. It has been for my own healing concerning my experience with the matter.
As a reminder to the judgement within the Church division was a particular feature. It was concerning not only the body of Christian worshippers but also friendships and families alike. The division left no congregation within the Covenant Church untouched in some measure or degree.
It is also worth noting since the division the Professor concerned has been charged, albeit out with church courts, with no less than twenty counts of heresy.
The Holy Bible states there are to be no more than two counts of heresy. Otherwise the individual concerned is to be admonished and have nothing further to do with the Church. It shows the unsound theological mind of the Professor concerned and his followers at the time, let alone the perverse nature of the individual.
On a personal note as concerning my own feelings on this matter I would like to express what I actually feel about this particular man and some of his followers.
Firstly, you and those concerned with you have no common decency to acknowledge the pain, suffering and hurt you have caused to people on this Island which you call home. You and those concerned with you have completely disregarded any scriptural leadership in your actions concerning the people of the Free Church of Scotland.
Any reference to this man Mr. Donald MacLeod being similar to that of King David is absolutely absurd and dillusional. King David when he was discovered in his adultery had his whole Kingdom rent apart and lost his son in an act of betrayal towards him. King David was eventually restored to grace and his son Solomon was the attributing proof of the matter.
If Mr. Donald MacLeod had done what was right and proper I dare say he also could have been restored to grace but as you can see the facts are here to be believed.
As you pretend somehow everything has been forgotten and forgiven please remember you are a fool. This is shown especially if you think that my God is ever going to forget the actions you have taken and the consequences that have followed for nigh on fifteen years.
His book of remembrance will have every detail disclosed on the day of Judgement. Whereby I will stand on the right hand and ... you ... on the left hand.
The seriousness of your consequences will attain more credibility when you understand that you … Mr. Donald MacLeod ... are nothing more than a man who has done the utmost to pervert, destroy, and condemn those that stood for righteousness and truth.
You pursued the actions of legal entanglement, slandering good names and reputations for your petty pride spiritual jealousy and ignorance.
This is what you will remember ... God is true... and you Sir … are nothing more than a lying, cheating, ignorant man. Your heart is so deceived and full of your own importance you cannot even begin to correct what you have done.
As a final and last pronouncement on this sorry chapter of history ... (HIS-STORY) … because remember it is actual history. YOU SIR are what in the biblical example are A BASTARD AND NOTHING MORE THAN A WHORE ... who like Esau has sold his heritage for a morsel of meat.
As far as I am concerned you will stand in my mind as the great example of what happens when unrighteous men stand in place of God's throne and denounce everything that is good about the Christian Faith.
Remember ... the time of man is short and we all must pass through the veil into the bar of Christ where only then I hope you realise what you are truly guilty of. God does not forget nor does he always cast aside in the world's fame and fortune, until it is time... and what will you say you did with your time Mr. Donald MacLeod... and men like you... what will you say... I’ll be there to hear it ... and so will my Saviour.
As a final thought on this matter a final curtain to the show I will reveal a very, very, personal piece of information that has always been part of a mystery to myself now making sense. In my first public interview about the matter concerning Dunblane, given in a recalling of my testimony and experience, I remember stating that I met an angel. A signal was given to me at this point. This signal was to be part of my assurance for the safety of the journey ahead.
The signal I was given was the name of the Angel involved with my walk at that time. He was called … Gabriel. He is one of God's Archangels who in the scriptures was the interpreter of God's Prophecy. The Prophet Ezekiel met with him in his visions. Daniel met with him in his interpretations of Prophecy and he announced the birth of our Saviour to His mother here on Earth, Mary. He is also the covenant Angel connected with the Covenant Church.
To me he... walked with me... on my journey... a prophetic journey. I state God as my only and necessary witness. Id.
I only pray God has rested the souls of those concerned with this story in a peaceful place where I when it is my time can enjoy their fellowship and love. If not ... so be it … and on your head may it rest Mr. Donald MacLeod.
As for the actual perpertrator of the event, he was just a means to an end.
P.S. There was a story I heard in recent years of a young boy who was out playing on his Fathers croft when he met a man. The man stood beside the boy and told him his name was Gabriel and that in twenty years time, he, Gabriel, would come back to meet the boy.
Time gathered and the days grew strong for the boy. He had become a fisherman on one of the local boats. The boat on which the boy, who had now become a man, was serving had a very unfortunate end and tragedy struck. The boat was lost at sea with all hands-on deck including the young man serving on it. It happened exactly twenty years later, to the day, from the time when the young man first met Gabriel as a young boy.
My own desire for meeting with Gabriel for a second time is for one last walk this time into eternity. I believe the normal process is for the angel of death or even Christ Himself to come and claim our souls and usher us into our private judgement before going into our eternal destination. My desire is to walk through that river of death with an old friend, who better than one who has known the deep spiritual things that I have passed through. Till we meet again my old friend.
Three important points that make this conclusion relevant and true:
1) The year of 1996 with the connection of recanting and Dunblane.
2) A prophetic walk with a Covenant Angel involving a Covenant Church.
3) A prophetic timeline consisting of a number of victims connecting to the date of commital.
One last observation on the entire matter:
The first recorded article concerning the notorious Professor and his sexual misconduct I could find was dated 1987. The Free Church of Scotland split in the year 2000 and was reconstituted as a covenant church now called The Free Church of Scotland Continuing. This could be thought of as the new covenant bearer and if you take the years from 1987 to 2000 they are exactly thirteen. The date of the Dunblane massacre was on the thirteenth of March 1996. A day of prophecy for each year, perhaps too much for a mere coincidence. The only unanswered question remains an obvious one why March and not May which is the month of Assembly within the Church? I leave it open for any suggestions.
One of my own suggestions is that it was March the fifteenth 1995 that I was condemned medicaly insane by a muslim psychiatrist at my state mental examination in Inverness after retelling my testimony in part. This Doctor is now clinically insane himself and has been for a number of years. Other than that there seems to be no Free Church of Scotland connection with the month of March unless a commision of Assembly was held concerning information dealing with the notorious Professor.
Remember this date: March 13th. 1996
(We are linked as children in a circle dancing)
1) March 1995 was the month I was deemed insane.
2) The 13th day is the thirteen years to return the covenant.
3) 1996 is the year in which the recanting of the proffessor's confession was officialy announced.
Conclusion
(without Mr. Donald MacLeod)
After the tragic events of the Dunblane massacre I have often wondered what my part was worth considering all that has gone before me in this life. Firstly, I have always wondered about the prophetic element of my walk with God and his angels on that night when I arrived in that small town.
No one let alone myself expected or suspected such as would follow. The only information I could possibly have revealed at the time would have been the fact that it was Gabriel who walked with me and that the prophetic time line of eighteen months was revealed.
The only information about the small town which I had visited that I could reveal was that some evil was about to befall it but without a name I could never commit to a connection.
I have wondered for twenty and more years about the value of the souls executed that day in the gym and my own understanding tells me the following.
In the good book of the Holy Scriptures the Bible there is reference to the Angel of children being always before his, the Fathers, face. To me it is a sign that children’s lives are being observed by the angelic host and their deeds being recorded.
It does not tell me that somehow because of their so-called innocence that they automatically shall be received into heaven. The truth about acceptance into heaven comes from the doctrine of election. This doctrine states that we are either chosen or not from before time began and is in no way able to be altered.
The misuse of the doctrine of election gives a false impression that it will be impossible to change from being a sinner to a state of grace. It also gives the false impression that in a believed state of grace we cannot be changed. This is only true in the human perspective of the abuse of the doctrine.
The doctrine of election is a very powerful tool of the true believer to give a full assurance. The secret lies with a true conversion of grace. It is only as a believer can we truly understand the benefit of the doctrine.
There are several things about the doctrine of election that make perfect sense. Such as when we are converted to faith in The Lord Jesus Christ we then have a warrant to believe we have been chosen from all eternity. It also gives a warrant to bless the children of believing adults.
In this regard where the children have been brought up in the knowledge of the Lord they are sanctified to a degree and protection is given over. It is in the understanding that they are from the womb of a blessed mother or loins of a blessed father. The truth about the choosing of the elect is that it really can only be seen and known by God.
With this understanding we have no room for complacency and are instructed to teach our children the knowledge of God. Strictly we do not know who is and who is not within the elect as it is only observed by God. Hence the angel of the child always being before the face of God.
The doctrine of election is an important doctrine with great magnitude and deep consequences. The scriptural reference for this doctrine is that of Jacob and Esau both brothers and yet it is said by God of Jacob, he whom I have loved, and it is said of Esau, he whom I have hated.
As to the children of Dunblane and their teacher my prayer was directed to protect them from the evil which was to follow. Though the prayer did not protect physically it may very well have protected inwardly or spiritually.
They were all alive and well at this point in time and though chosen in the way they met their deaths they were appointed to this end. Perhaps it gives the prayer a more poignant and deeper meaning to which it may at first seem to have.
Abraham once prayed that he may be cast aside so that all of Israel might be saved. He was also told in relation to the seed of Israel or the chosen of God concerning true believers that they would be a number like that of the stars in the heavens.
Though my prayer was specific in whom it was to touch, that being those involved with the tragic events of March the 13th 1996, it does not and cannot change God’s doctrine of election. It does however tell me that something special had to be observed, perhaps they were all part of the elect. The genuine answer is that we may never know until the great day of Judgement when the truth of the doctrine of election will be revealed.
One thing I can reveal is that I am with no doubt as to the salvation of one girl connected with the incident. I have already had a revelation as to one child entering glory relating to this incident. My personal hope is that possibly they will all be there.
I cannot say nor with any real conviction state that. Though I believe with all that happened surrounding this event can wonder whether God had chosen some if not all to election. Hence an elect member of Gods kingdom being called to serve in the way I did.
All I ever needed to know to answer my real question of soul was whether one alone was taken to glory. This has been answered and the answer was ... yes. This is enough to satisfy me personally that all my own suffering over the matter has been worth it.
From a Soldier of Christ
P.S. The mystery, for me personally, has now been solved. I would like to thank my Heavenly Father and his Angelic hosts for giving me the mind and heart to persevere and finish what he set me out to do. I hope and pray that it may give understanding and peace, such as has been given to me, to those who read and descern the truth as it is revealed by the Holy Spirit. I thank you Lord and Father in Heaven, and may your peace reign in our hearts, and your name be ever precious to us such as thy dear Son, The Lord Jesus Christ, was to you: and now to us ... "He called a little child to him."
From a child of God to his Father in Heaven,
THANK YOU,
Amen.
Completed: 13/11/2017
" ... we are linked as children in a circle dancing ... "
... we danced with the Devil, Donald,
and unfortunatley for you, you came off the worst ...
Signed: George Lea Bingham.
One further note of intrest: 27/10/2018
One thing I often meditated on when I was in my early years of Christianity was this, "What would you do for Christ ... given a clear commandement." My answer was I could kill for Christ ... if I had to.
This was not a light thought or being flipant this was a real soul searched question I had to ask myself. Now just for a moment imagine what could or might possibly have been an outcome to this Dunblane saga ... There I was all alone with no one to guide me but the Lord and he proved he guided me to all the right places ... now think about it just for a moment ... imagine he had given me the commandement to kill and led me to the house of Thomas Hamilton that night?
The man would have been dead without commiting the atrocity that he did. I would have been most possibly incarcerated in carstairs as a madman serving a life sentence and being constantly psychologically evaluated to see what went on. Lo and behold no one including myself would have been any the wiser to the real reasoning behind it all.
Sometimes it is best to obey the Lord and stick to his providence as he has ways and means to bend and over rule people if not and these consequences can be far greater. The real reason this did not happen though it was thought about at the time, though without any personal knowledge of the individuals concernen perpertrator or massacre involved, because all I really was aware of was that some evil of some significance was going to come and come it did.
Just a private personal note ... dont ever think lightly about what you are willing to do for the Lord for one day he may call you to actually do it.
Id.
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