Victorious319: You lie. I spy. You cheat. I admit defeat. You deny. I cry. We battle, but you know you've already won. The constant memories, running through my mind like a film reel. I begin to wonder, can you even feel? I'm empty. Your full of life. Two personalities, one body. Held together by one constant melody. Lie, cheat, use, repeat. And most important, never be the one to admit defeat. One moment you have love in your eyes. The next, treating me like something you despise. You cut me down each time, hoping I'll break. I'm only 5'3" how much more can I take? I need real answers, all you have are empty gestures. I'm begging for change, down on my knees. But opportunity is all you ever see. You know just what to say, know just what to do. To have me crawling right back to you. When will I ever see that I deserve so much better. I tell myself so much, I've even written many letters. Telling you I'm gone, and what you should do. Each time knowing, I know the real you. I tell myself to leave almost every day. Yell at you for your words, when there's no truth in what I say. Sometimes I almost feel worthy, but I mostly just feel sad. I keep reminding myself to go, but will you even feel bad? Because you see, that's the problem. I care way too damn much. No matter how hard you beat me down, I could never betray your trust. |
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