Your narrative and dialog (soliloquy) are excellent but ... I guess this just is not my genre. I felt you were going out of your way to shock and I wasn't shocked, just bored. Thus I must leave it to your other readers to assess the content.
I read some of the reviews, which some referred to this as free verse. I guess because it doesn't rhyme they think it is. Blank verse and as a sonnet is something I don't think I could do. Superb flow. My favorite line: "while thoughts of you whirl round like autumn winds." Also, the ending is great, in that silence is where peace is found. Wonderfully written. Les