Deep within the anger boils,
As I struggle to not succumb
To the desire eating at my soul.
I yearn to feel the ecstasy of happiness
That eludes me.
The fire burns me from the inside out,
Nothing I say or do seems to matter,
I cannot fix what has become broken.
I cannot fix myself.
The tears surge up behind my eyes,
An angry, raging river
Toppling over the rim,
Crashing--
A waterfall.
Drowning me
As I gasp for breath after breath,
Unable to save myself,
Help!
I scream out, begging, pleading,
But no one comes.
There's no help for people like me,
No way to escape.
No salvation.
Trapped--
Locked in the darkness,
The blackness of my surroundings
Enveloping me,
Closing in.
Help!
Broken beyond repair,
Hopeless.
Helpless.
A lost cause.
Engulfed in self-loathing,
I know there is no fixing what I've become.
Save me!
Don't let me continue down this path,
Pull me, grab me, save me
From myself.
From the darkness consuming me--
From the flames licking at my conscientiousness.
From the blackness settling upon me.
Please...
Save me,
I cannot save myself,
I've tried.
I've failed.
I'm on the verge,
Dangling off.
Can't manage,
Lost.
Alone.
Self-conscience.
Drowning.
Help me!
I cannot save myself,
I need someone else to aid me,
Help bring me back.
Don't let me go--
Don't let go.
Protect me--
I can't protect myself
I try to,
I can't. I fail.
The blackness has consumed me.
I'm nothing.
Gone.
Lost to all.
Forever.
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Author Notes
Okay-- let's lay it out there:
Yes, I'm depressed. No, I'm not thinking of hurting myself. Yes, I use my writing to cope.
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