General Poetry posted May 8, 2011


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Regret afterwards

Compunction

by Amyna



You asked me to go on a trip with you
And I did not because my mother was sick and old
You slept all by yourself in our room
Because I did not want to leave her alone
Not once did you force me to do what you wanted
But now I wish you had, even if only a few times.

Why, oh why did you leave me all alone?
Regretting all the time we could have had
Together, doing all the things you wanted
You constantly wished to have me at your side
But you never were the demanding type.

One day when I was going to my mother's room
After a shower just before you went to bed
I joked that you could pray in peace without
Disturbing me, and you replied, "There's the
Balcony too, if only you would stay."


Now when I think back I want to ask you
Why oh why did you not force me
You had all the right in the world
To demand of me what you wished
But that was not the way you were.

You asked for a cup of tea one day and
When I came back I found you stretched out
On our bed where I had not been so long
With no demands you quietly went
Leaving me with all my guilt and regrets.

Now, years later I still ask myself
Why oh why did I neglect you so
Thinking I would have time with you
After my mother went, but my love
You left me long before my mother did.

And my tears have not dried even today as I ask
Why oh why did I take your time for granted
I had not slept in our bed for five years
Why did I assume we had the future
To go places and do things together?


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I met a friend of mine on a trip recently, and this is what she told me. She cried as she recounted it, fifteen years after it happened...
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