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"Expressing Myself"


Chapter 1
Warmth

By playinaround

I drifted, drifted – far away

This tender eve the boat did sway

So gently

 

’Twas but a dream yet on this night

no silent screams or torrid fright

Just waves of such pure delight

Safe from anything that might

Harm me

 

Over me a homemade quilt

so warm and soft and safe it felt

holding me

 

Was walking home from work next eve

holding tight to the dream

reliving, reveling – coveting, experiencing

everything

 

Passed a woman on the ground

faced to the wall - sleeping sound

Upon her ragged figure found -

the dirty, torn and weathered quilt

Warm and safe, she must have felt

Dream on


Chapter 1
AWKWARD (acrostic)

By playinaround

A clumsy encounter

Where words fail

Keeping a distance

With those present

Abetting a slow

Riveting

Demise of dignity

Author Notes Thank you so much for the exceptional artwork renate bertodi


Chapter 1
honestly...

By playinaround

time heals?
funny...
been forty plus years
this old heart beats to spite me
I hear it laughing

Author Notes Thank you, linda, for the expressive phot


Chapter 2
ANSWER: Anger

By playinaround

You are a pig?

ME?  Why am I a pig?

You are a human garbage disposal
eating other peoples crap.
Does it go down easy
swallowing their scraps?!
        You are weakling and a doormat
        Must be degrading to be like that


You are kidding me
I didn’t know you knew!
Who else did you tell this to?

Only you

But, how can I change?

When you are ready
This is what I do
With my help
You can do it too


Who are you?

Sort of a riddle
and a recipe
with a bit of awareness
and a whole lot of me
The pig and the doormat
will quickly cease to be


I think I'm ready now...


Chapter 3
One Uneventful Night

By playinaround

I have always lived on the edge
Just one step away from the ledge
 
A death wish you might say
Taking for granted each day
 
 My family prepared for the wake
And the poignant speech they would make
 

Approaching  my sixty third year
I guess I was meant to be here

I don't like to guess my demise
But just for this exercise
 
In my room the grim reaper will creep
And whisk me away as I sleep


Chapter 4
Colourful Stroll

By playinaround


Autumn's
          captivating
                         sunset


Mirrors

falling

leaves

 


Chapter 5
1-6-1 (Smile)

By playinaround

I'll
Just bet that you're worthwhile
Smile

Author Notes Thank you Mike K2!


Chapter 6
Sometimes its the journey

By playinaround

Standing on a dirt road by the bus stop in New Mexico, with the sun going down...

All around me. an indescribable sunset

I patiently wait

as warm wind surrounds my face
It playfully swirls my dark hair which annoyingly whips at my nose, ears and lips.

Imagine...

Headed to California... Palm trees, sandy beaches, and teeny tiny bugs...

I think, as the sunset engulfs me

Hope the bus breaks down...


Chapter 7
You Asked!

By playinaround

If I had to do it all again, I'd strangle myself with the umbilical cord


Chapter 8
Dream Light

By playinaround

Hardened solid is the clay
that shapes the way I am today
I dream escape from endless grief
restoring child-like belief

Experience has made me cold
Stolen who i was before
Left behind half of a whole
Changed the essence of my core

I wish to dance in brilliant light
Cleanse my soul with gentle rain
Slumber sound in dark of night
At dawn awaken without pain

Soar up high in skies above
Gaze down upon meadows green
Once again believe in love
and have faith in things unseen

Memories that formed the clay
Although impossible to do
Will them all to melt away
and live the bliss that I once knew

 

Author Notes There was a contest for submitting one of your first poems. I missed it...


Chapter 9
Love and Science

By playinaround

love
Full satisfaction
It heals or can kill
But real or chemical reaction?


Chapter 10
Farm Boy

By playinaround

Ma's a naggin'
say I laggin'
lolly gaggin'
feets er draggin'

Fence need mendin'
coop need tendin'
chiks needs fendin'
han needs lendin'

Rader mosey
see me Jozie
han ha rosey
den proposey

if ha has me
Ma be happy
proud me pappy
life be crappy!

I's a wantin'
ta ge huntin'
I be gunnin'
Ma be runnin'

Author Notes I know this is an odd poem, but please only review if you get it?


Chapter 11
Royal Chambers And Wine

By playinaround

He awoke to find the golden key
 It eluded him so jealously
 The chamber and its soft delight
 now his and her's alone tonight
  
 The canopy’s shear draped satin
 compelled him to sing low in latin
 A language that he never knew
 Delight betwixt his weak knees grew
  
 He caught a glimmer in the bed
 'twas not the one whom he’d just wed
 The door he opened was all wrong
 Too much wine and too much song
  
 led him to the Royal Queen
 this revelation turned him green
 He quickly snuffed the candles' fire
 laid back down where he was prior
  
 Said a prayer – went fast asleep
 A secret he’d forever keep
 In this tale lives a simple lesson
 Some things just aint' worth confessin’

 


Chapter 12
Pandemic Progress

By playinaround

at first
I smeared lambs blood
On my door....

Now I've gone back
to picking
my nose

Author Notes A little joke

Please donâ??t take offense. It is a terrifying dilemma weâ??re in.

I find that a little humor takes the edge off


Chapter 13
twilight and you

By playinaround

twilight here...
the dimming blue
soothes my heart
and all I want to do
is think of you



Author Notes thank you snapdragon!


Chapter 14
earth to family

By playinaround

scapegoat retiring
feel your own shame

Author Notes Thank you for your amazing artwork MKFLOOD!!!


Chapter 15
Night Owls

By playinaround

Dark and safe, the sinking night
Emotions stir before dawns light -
proceeds to hide the awakening heart
Be it whole or only part
Alive! Awake and questioning
the truth concerning everything

Before the moon sets down below,
the restless soul longs to know
pure meaning of this pulse inside,
that which no one can confide

The soul retreats with mornings glow
never to find what it wants to know

 


Chapter 16
Lucid Dream

By playinaround

Dawn always comes too soon
in the darkened room

In her dream-like state
a creature arrives

A cerulean butterfly
to chase away her pain,
and silent suffering

She covets its magnificent wings
as it hovers and glides
illuminating the darkness
of her soul

She follows its every move
as it slowly fades
and returns
to the hope chest
in her mind

Wearily she whispers
as if to someone else

"It's okay Valerie
take your pills
It'll be okay"

Start the coffee
Comes the day














































 


Chapter 17
5-7-5 and the wild winds blew

By playinaround

...and the wild winds blew
must have been a perfect storm

that created you...


Chapter 18
Beyond Fear

By playinaround

thought - rolls by like tickertape

emotion - a rowboat in the night ocean

tossing two and fro in the darkness
rocking ebb and flow in the piercing chill

threatening rogue waves
created by giant ships passing
waver one's existance



talk of shore, a warm sandy beach
beckons clarity in a weary heart
in the tiny wooden boat

Rowing is the hardest part


Just


Row
      
          Row 
            
                      Row...




 


Chapter 19
Baby and the Firefly

By playinaround

One humid, dark Virginia night
Mama holding baby tight
Strolling with no light in sight
With daddy walking on her right
Suddenly to her delight
She see's a floating, flitting light
"Hello there little human sprite"
"Bugs can't talk," she says outright
"And nor can babies of your height"
says the fly who lights the night 
"We can if we try with all our might"
we've talked a lot so far despite

must be special, you and I" 
Baby smiles and waves good bye....

Author Notes Thank you avmurray, for the beautiful artwork!


Chapter 20
Good NIght

By playinaround

I revel in the dark of night
Don’t need sunlight
The stars too shine
The night is mine
 
A soft and deep sweet lullaby
Dear blackened sky
My secrets keep
While I’m asleep
 
Like a shadow lurking behind
The night is blind
It cannot see
to label me

 


Chapter 21
Looking Back

By playinaround

No matter how strongly intact
our cards are already stacked
Comes a time in our lives
when innocence dies
simply an unfortunate fact
 
Back when life was worth living
Love was abundant for giving
Not a care in the way
but what next to play
days our hearts cannot stop reliving


Chapter 22
Red on Black

By playinaround

red on black
the widow's infamous hour glass
gives her mate little time


Chapter 23
Awkward

By playinaround

A clumsy encounter

Where words fail

Keeping a distance

With those present

Abetting a slow

Riveting

Demise of dignity

Author Notes Thank you Bertodi!


Chapter 24
Holding Back the Tears

By playinaround

"Sir Elwin Baboon
Your blushing flower awaits,
You may kiss the bride"


Chapter 25
Lost at Sea

By playinaround

I, upon the warm sand
salty breeze caressing me
Mesmerized by sparkling ripples
as the sun kisses the waters
with the rhythmic song of waves

and so go my burdens

Author Notes Thank you Doris 1022!!


Chapter 26
Bright Lights, Big City

By playinaround


I wawnt ta tel yu sthomthin bowt mee
I has a lithsp an sthomtime I git teesthed
 
kant sthpel vary goood, thisth ith my phlaw
Sthcool isth fer dumys sesth mye paw
 
I dosth da lawndrey an da chors
Paw sthays dats justh wat ime phor
 
Butt I ghot biger planths dan dat
I no paws a lyin rat
 
I thaved mee dayng neer tin buksth
 Awff ta vaygass, wisths mee luk!


 

Author Notes Thank you pattigirl, your artwork is beautiful!


Chapter 27
One Windy Day

By playinaround

kite
big eyed child holds on tight
flight

Author Notes Thank you VMarguarite, for the wonderful artwork!


Chapter 28
Birth of Night Beckons

By playinaround

birth of night beckons
fireflies glow
crickets sing for two

Author Notes Thank you Wolfdancer13, for the beautiful work of art!


Chapter 29
A Strange Comfort

By playinaround

I drove slowly by the old cemetery today

Green, green grass
Immaculately groomed

A garden of white headstones
Perfectly spaced
as far as the eye could see

Each white stone had a story
Surrounded by a world of grief

I drove by the old cemetery today and I am not alone

 


Chapter 30
Sweet Pickles and Milk

By playinaround

sweet pickles and milk
ketchup on potato chips
it's the little things...

Author Notes Thank you pattigirl, for the adorable art work!


Chapter 31
Anything but Outloud

By playinaround

Write on
Write anything
Anything creative
Anything goes
Goes so far
Goes to places
Places deep within
Places undiscovered
Undiscovered passion
Undiscovered world
World of thought
World of words
Words create
Words enlighten
Enlighten reader
Enlighten you
You matter
You give
Give comfort
Give love
Love in writing
Love in ink
Ink on paper
Ink spells
Spells your truth
Spells it out
Out of you
Out for others
Others to read
Others to ponder
Ponder from within
Ponder deeply
Deeply write
Deeply go
Go anywhere
Go down that road
Road to communication
Road to creativity
Creativity excites
Creativity heals
Heals deep wounds
Heals the heart
Heart once broken
Heart heard
Heard by you
Heard outloud
Outloud expressions
Outloud from the core
Core
Expressions

Author Notes Thank you Angelheart!!


Chapter 32
A Fist Full of Sand

By playinaround

A fist full of sand
that sifts through the hand
back to the land
Can't hold on

Feather in the breeze
Think you'd catch it with ease
but its only a tease
It blows away

A twinkling star
seen from afar
but then here we are
Never to touch


Sand at the beach
Feather out of reach
A star thats too far
What LOVE is to me










Chapter 33
A Day at the Park

By playinaround

"Flo, did you see that?
Gertie got him good this time!
Next time he'll bring bread"


Chapter 34
Be Gentle of Heart

By playinaround



Send love away
Softly
As velvet petals

Thorns
Are there

To protect
Not harm

Author Notes Thank you Sam S, for a beautiful photograph.


Chapter 35
Vanity Solutions

By playinaround

gravity set in
so now I pose for snapshots
standing on my head


Chapter 36
Love force

By playinaround

Love is a force
Where did mine go?
He took not the love
I intended

It came searing back
with fire and fury
Branding me
Upended


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