"The Purrenees of Evil?"
Written on November 8th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
?<*> C. FanStory <*>?
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Example Number One:
"Here kitty, kitty, kitty!" "Here kitty, kitty, kitty!" "Here kitty, kitty, here kitty, kitty!"
"Where have you been Blackie?"
I Wondered.
...
"I've been out with a new, stray, cat called Puss!"
"Okay Blackie, now what did you and Puss do?"
"Well Daddy, me and my new friend Puss went out!"
"And, we went to this place...
"And, he's called it...
"A Bank" I think?"
"And, and...
"He said we have to go inside and get all..
"The Greens?"
"And, with it we can get goodies!"
...
"And, then we can go get Foodies...
"And, Treaties...
"And, Lickie, Lickies!"
(Milk)
...
"And, then after stealing all...
"The Greenies" we burned the whole place down!"
...
"Bad Kitty!"
"Now Blackie, say...
"Seven Hail Kitties" and in your room for a week with no treaties!:
"Ahh, Dad?"
...
Example Number Two: "Ring, Ring, Ring!"
"Hello Kitty?"
"Oh, Hi Midnight and what did you say Midnight?"
I Ask.
"You went out?"
"And, yes?"
"You're with a new friend named Boots?"
"Puss's brother?"
"Oh no, trouble!"
...
"Okay...
"So what did you and Boots do?"
I Wondered.
"Did you get into trouble like your older brother Blackie?"
I Ask.
...
"Well Daddy, me and Boots went to the park and we saw this girl kitty named Mona and..
"And, she was running and...
"And, she wasn't running away from anything...
"So, he jumped on her and Boots raped her...
"And, he made her cry...
"And, the he bit her on her neck...
"And, she stopped breathing...
"And...
...
"Bad, Bad, BAD, Kitty!!"
"What did I tell you about going out and hanging out with Strays like Blackie?"
"Now say...
"Eight Hail Kitties" and no Treaties and no Foodies for a whole week!"
"Get in your room!"
...
Example Number Three:
"Daddy I'm home!"
"Where you been messing around with stray cats or kitties Mystery?"
"Like your brother's, Blackie and Midnight?"
I Wondered?
...
"No Daddy and I met a nice girl named Dalahi and she smells sweet like a flower!"
"And, she took us to this place called...
"A Concert?"
"And, and they passed around this stuff?"
"And, it was like...
"And, it was like something you swallow...
"And, we swallow it...
"And, then I started feeling really funny...
"And, Daddy...
"And, and, and...
"I started getting really, really...
"Sick!"
"Oh, My, God!"
"I'm going to go throw up!"
...
"Bad Kitty!"
"Bad Kitty!"
"Go to your room and after you're done throwing up...
"No Treaties, No Foodies...
"For two, full, months!"
...
"But Daddy!"
"Two months?"
"The other kitties weren't treated that bad!"
Complained Mystery.
...
Example Number Four:
"Hi Daddy, I'm home!"
"How you been and what have you been up?"
I Asked.
"I met a new friend and he took me to this special place...
"And, we went to this place...
"And, it was really, really, really!"
"And, it was a nice place...
"And, it was like they had these things...
"And, they call them beds...
"And, there...
"And, and I...
"And, we went in the beds...
"And, we found ourselves some...
"Some new friends...
"And, their names were Missy and Tina...
"And...
"And...
"And, then Garfield said that they are our new friends...
"And...
"And...
"And, then we did something bad!"
"I am so sorry!"
...
"You did not do what I think you did?"
"Oh, My God!"
"You could get a disease!"
"And, I would then have to take you to the vet for a shot!"
"Right now!"
"Go to your room and don't come out!"
"And, say...
"Nine, Hail Marys and Nine Hail Kitties!"
"And, no Lickie, Lickies, or Treaties, or Foodies...
"For three months!"
...
"And, you better not have any diseases!"
"But Daddy?"
"In your room, NOW!"

****

"These are all examples of what I call...
"The Seven Laws of Judification."
"Starting with of course addictions...
"To injectable drugs... "To addictions of snorting various forms of drugs...
"To addictions of over-the-counter, dispensed medications..
"And, pills and alcoholism of course."
...
"The Second Law of Judication" is of course addiction to tobacco."
"According to the President of...
"The Mormon and Latter Day Saint Church of Jesus Christ." "Tobacco was originally meant is a poultice...
"Or dressing on an animal's wounds."
...
"Now this has gotten out of control throughout man's history."
"Actually starting with the American Indians and the "Peace Pipe!"
...
"Now, it is smoked and snorted and there are various forms of tobacco that will get you in what is called...
"A State of Ufouria!"
"Or a State of high by smoking things such as...
"Marijuana, peyote, and of course there are other forms of highness like mushrooms, ect...
...
"Thee Tobacco Industry" consist of...
"The Three Big T' S."
"Which are R.J.R. Reynolds, Liggit Myers, and Philip Morris."
...
"Together, they contributing and control this Industry with our addictions."
"Which enables them to profit and make billions of dollars a year!"
...
And, they've been doing it on Tobbaco Farms now...
(In the Southern States such as South Carolina, North Carolina, and Virginia)
"For quite a few decades now."
...
"They post on their cigarette packs...
(Which they've been forced to, of course, after taking all TV commercials off)
"That smoking cigarettes can cause cancer?"
...
"I would love to see it revised to...
"Smoking cigarettes can and will cause cancer, other related lung disorders, and possible eventual death!"
...
"So that children starting around the smoking age of eight and up, can make a viable and proper decision."
"This way they don't have to suffer!"
...
"The next...
"Law of Judification" or "Seven Deadly Sin" is going to, through, and under the Earth with...
"The Oil Industry."
...
"These companies consisting of the majors like...
"Exxon, Sunoco, Shell, Gulf, Getty, and Hess."
...
"And, they are sucking "The Core Blood" of this planet Earth up through there various forms of drills and devices."
...
"And, as they are bringing it up and forward, it's being transferred...
(By Factories and Refineries)
"Into various products that are causing air, water, and land pollution!"
...
"Even the creation of heating oil is of course a major pollutant!"
"And...
"The Transportation Industry consisting of the Lesser...
"To the Greater...
"Going from as little as motorized bicycles, all the way up to jet airplanes...
"And these major Companies...
"On this Industry...
"ARE DESTROYING THIS EARTH!"
...
"Classic Example over fifthteen, years, ago?"
"The Exxon Valdez!"
"And, the animals that were rescued or destroyed in...
"The Alaska's Prince William Sound."
...
"Next we go into..
"The Banking iIndustry" consisting of...
"The Bank or Yank of America, Chase Your Money Away Manhattan, Soverien Sanyander," and...
"We also have, of course, the two Canadians!"
"Touch Down Your Mo ey or TD. and...
"Wells Fargo."
...
"By the way...
"They are not subject to State Laws cuz they're Canadian-based."
"And these Banks will take your money and make you pay it back...
(Multiple times and various decades)
"In interest!"
...
"It is incredible when you figure it out!"
"Even Al Capone way back in the thirties and forties...
...
"If you borrowed money from him...
"He wouldn't steal and take your house!"
"And, leave you homeless like Bank America or my Mortgage Company...
"Carrington!"
"He would just break your arm and leg!"
...
"Yes, a lesson wr need to learn!:
"And, here is the next one!"
...
"So, now we go into the next...
"Which is the Fifth...
"Law of Judification."
""Called the... "Telecommunication Industry!"
"Which consists of companies such as...
"In-Direct TV, I do the Dishes Network, and Comcast!"
"These TV systems and others offer various services such as Wi-Fi, and Call phone."
"With these services, we can go on the internet and tele- communicate practically free."
...
"And, with companies like AT and T, and Verizon, whom are supplying us with the communication of our cell phones and landlines...
"Are tapping...
"The Airways" what are up there and meant to be discovered by us from God for free?"
...
"But instead they are making a fortune!"
"Check your bill ladies and if you like the best of the best...
"Your current bill for those serves is astronomical!"
(Depending on how many cell phones and Land Lines your using)
"Anywhere from $125.00 to $500.00 a month!"
...
"Now we're going to go into the sixth...
"The Sixth Law of Judification.:
"Which is now not only petty but serious!"
"Which would be the current lack of Monopolization Laws!:
...
"Some Classic Examples...
"Home Your Depot, Lowe's, King Koles, Book Companies, and...
"Most Major Supermarkets!"
...
"The Big Boy?"
"Sam Walton with his Walmart Industry!"
"And, he's sucking dry...
"Hometown business and crippling the small companies with...
"His Massive Two Thousand Plus Stores!"
(Who could ask for anything more?"
"Shop Walmart!"
...
"And, thry gotz EVERYTHING!:
"From hardware, Pharmacies...
"Right up to Supermarkets!"
"And, yes...
"Walmart has it all and now we are going into the very, very, last and I saved the most important...
"One for last!"
...
"The Seventh and final Law of Judification" is the lack of Religion@"
"And, in "Today's Dorried World."
"Dad or mom the...
"Bread Winners will drove astronpmical distances like...
"New Jersey to New York for their serious office jobs...
"Or serious Administration jobs."
...
"And, they would rather duffer with the commute and make a lot of money...
"Driving back and forth!"
...
(Which takes a lot of hours out of the day!)
"And on "Sabbath Sunday or for them...
"Sinday?"
...
"It's a day of rest!"
"To be or not yo be home on the weekends?"
"That is the question?"
...
"Now for them, it is Sunday!"
" A day of rest but they don't look at it today...
"To honor?"
"Instead to save your Sundays watchong the various Sports on TV!:
...
"From Hockey, Baseball, Tennis, Basketball, to...
(Of course)
"The Sunday N.F.L. Football Game!"
...
"And, everybody loves that!"
...
"So, there you have it!"
"The Seven Laws of Judification and The Seven, Deadly, Sons" all wrapped up in one...
"N.F.L. Seadon package!"
"And, this is why the Earth....
"Our Place of Birth)
"Is revolving backwards!"
"Which will continue this way until Mankind grows up."
"Which in my terms is...
"Psychologically, Spoctological, Ill- Logically Locical!"
"Which of course is quite Enterprising?"
Approximate Word Count..
1,764.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father followed by His Son Jesus Christ FanStory and Tom the Administrator' Fan,Art Review' this amazing and talented artist... "Cleo 85," and her picture,, "Medusa."

"Giving With all of My Heart"
Written on November 22nd, 2017.
Dr. Ricky 1024.
<*>C.FanStory2017<*>
"I want to tell you a little bit about myself?:
"Please?"
"Myy name is Jason and I was born November 5th, 1984."
(The only son in a family with four daughters).
...
"Now when I was a child, I used to go and wander around the backyard saying these words?"
"Holy Crackle, Holy Crackle."
...
"I was more or less in my "Own Little World."
(More or less).
"Ignoring my four sisters."
(Nikki, Kyle Erin, Corrine Alexis, and Dan Alyse).
...
"When I got older and started school, I learned to play in the band."
"I also learned and played on a basketball team which I really enjoyed!"
"Then when I became a older teenager, I passed my driving test for a car and a motorcycle at the same time."
(Which I had one of each).
...
'On March 31st, 2003 I had my car and motorcycle not working there temporarily out of commission and I was riding in a Ford Mustang convertible when my friend Brian Cole little did I know that Brian was on a one-way Mission down death Street did not want to live anymore and he would crash that Ford Mustang that was raced at Atco New Jersey purchased by his mother that he didn't have the shift at most mostly a hundred miles an hour I was not killed but I was put into a deep coma brain damage severely and raccoon while frying both of us were taking over to Atlantic City Medical Hospital Atlantic City New Jersey I had a heart attack in the helicopter along the way but they brought me back the reason for this giving all of my heart is that's exactly what I did after 17 hours of oxygen in the brain The Gift of Life representative Laura already decided to come in and asked us if we would like to donate Jason because it was 66 57,000 people in United States that could use an organ or two to save their lives and that's exactly what I did my heart and lungs went to all 57 year old man named Chaz from Philadelphia couldn't even walk feel sorry for what happened to us he saw his son and daughter both go into medical and engineering school and graduate he also runs seven mile in my honor and bicycles twice a year 15K the purpose of this is to tell your viewers are readers and people that are do not be afraid the odds of what happened to me or greater than being eaten by great white shark while being struck by lightning early in the morning in the morning thanks Jason from heaven
Approximate word count 448

Author Notes

Special Thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and then his son Jesus Christ followed by fanstory and Tom the administrator fanartreview it's amazing talented artist and writer Ricky 1024 and my wonderful picture of my son Jason called just Jay

Chapter 12
Dreaming With You

By Ricky1024

"Dreaming of You"
Written on November 22nd, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
(*)?C.FanStory2017?(*)

"Come on dad, let's go play!"
"Let's go play...
"The Heavenly Way!"
"Okay, what's that over there?"
I ask.
"Well dad, that's our sea!"
"And, it's the colors of the rainbow!"
(You see).
"Things are much different here in Heaven above!"
"Everything is Beautiful..
"And, Everything is about love!"
"Come on dad!"
"Don't be...
"So *Sad!:
"Be glad, like Me!"
"And, let's go ride a "Rainbow Wave!"
"There my 'Fav!'
"And, they're here each and every day!"
...
"Come on dad, let's go play!"
"The Heavenly Way!"
"Okay, what's that then?"
"I wondered?"
"Oh?"
"That's...
"The Sky of Blue!"
"And, you know what we can do?"
"Weird here but what Jay?"
I Ask.
"We...
(You and Me).
"Fly!"
...
"Come on Dad!"
"Let's go and play!"
"And, fly through the white, and fluffy white hhj clouds and enjoy the pleasures of above come on dad come and play with me come and play Heavenly way with me and let's go fishing in this very special rainbow C see but Jason we've been fishing for 3 hours we haven't gotten a single bite you said that this is a very special see how come there's no fish here in the sea will dad remember when I gave you the pole I also had a net that's because all you have to do is stand up and say a prayer and they fall down from the sky right into your net!
Approximate Word Count 257.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son, Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented, amazing artist/Writer. Dr.Ricky 1024. "And, my picture... "Just Jay's Way."

Chapter 13
The Puppet Master?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"The Puppet Master?"
(Who am I?)
Written on November 24th, 2017.
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
(%)C.FanStory 2017(%)

"Riddle me this...
"Riddle me that...
"Who's afraid of that?"
"And yes!"
" I am...
"The Puppet Master!"
"And, I control all!"
...
"I come in many, many, forms and you must now figure out who I am?"
...
"Maybe I am your stepmother?"
"And maybe I am your stepfather?"
"No!"
"I'm not your FUC**** "Evil Stepmother" as you will soon see?"
"AND...
"You must now worship me!"
...
"A clue...
"I am Almighty and my subjects are all under my control like Y pu Reviewers!"
"Puppets or Marionette Dolls!"
"On My Evil Strings!"
"They cling to the Evil Strings at the end of My Bony and Evil Claws!"
"A.B.C. 1, 2, 3!"
"Whom may I now be?"
...
"And, I shall make them all dance!"
"Twirl, Swing, and Sing!"
"My Little Musical Toys?"
"All dangling at the end of My Evil Strings!"
"Whom am I?"
...
"Yes, I make them do what I command and there are Doctors...
"There are Judges..
"And, there are Lawyers as well as...
"Preachers and Teachers...
"Senators, Mayors, Govenors, and Even...
"THE FUC**** PRESIDENT OF THE UN-UNITED OF STATES!"
"Isn't that great?"
"All at My Command!"
"Whom am I?"
...
"Ha, Ha, Ha!"
"What?"
"Yes, they worship Me and have no idea of clue?"
"You see?"
"And, I say...
...
"Do as you may...
"Do as you can...
"But no!"
"You can't because your under...
"My FUC**** COMMAND!"
"Whom am I ?"
...
"What?"
"Here, take this knife and slash your wrists more than twice, I now insist!"
"And, come now...
"Little Puppet to Me!!!
"Suicidal Intentions?"
"Did I Forget to mention?"
"That's how you wind up with ME!"
"HA, HA, HA!"
"Too much or not enough attention?"
...
"Do you know now who I may be?"
"Well, i've been around for Eons but you won't ever see me till the very, very, end?"
"Did I forget to mention that the Administrator of this site FanStory, and Tommy Boy is also under my command?"
"Just look up the word "Horror" and then you will see...
"All the works by Dean Kuch from me!"
...
"And, "The Grim Reaper of Death" is my second at command!"
"As he collects all you worthless beings...
"Whom pass away as I demand!"
...
"By noose, by knife, by Bullet from strife!"
"By Now and by Arrow as I now Duck Up All of Your FUC*** MARROW!"
...
"By needles to their Veins...
"As they slowly come to Me..
"It's All part of...
"My FUC *** AND EVIL GAME!"
...
"HA, HA, HA!"
"Make no mistake for I truly do Exist!"
"I'll make you drink from...
"The Fountain of Alcoholism" I insist!"
"And, partake in the Terror that's Me!"
...
"Knock, Knock?:
"Who's there?"
"Is it...
"The Tooth Fairy come to give me money?"
"Or maybe Santa with Gifts in his sack?"
"No you FUC*** IDIOT!"
"IT'S ME ????? TO GIVE YOU A FUC*** HEART ATTACK!"
...
"Well than..
"Can I have my money back?"
"Are you some crazy "Who" in a stupid "Suess Story?"
"And, are you feeling a little low?"
"Well then, let's get high as you inject a needle into your vein!"
"That's it!"
"Insane?"
...
"Oh Me, oh My!"
"What?"
"You think you know My name?"
"Now, you don't want to FUC*** DIE?"
...
"Puppet, what you need more and it's not pure?"
"You seem to be a little low?"
"Lost your...
"Get up and Go?"
"That's definitely not good and you cannot purchase it on a website or from a TV show?"
...
"You need to come to Me to get more Go!"
"More drug, more booze, and more Pain!"
"For, that is my plan!"
"For, I control you!"
"For, you are my Puppet and I am Your Puppetear!"
"And, in My Filfthy Hand I am now your..
"Master of Command!"
"Who am I?"
Approximate Word Count 666!

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review... "This talented and amazing artist... "Mr.Jones," and his picture... "Spitting Image"

Chapter 14
House at the End of the Street 2017

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"House at the End of the Street 2017?" (A)
(A Continuation)
Written on November 25th, 2017.
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
<*>C.FanStory2017<*>
"Many, many, years has gone by...
(Almost Seventy)
"And, John Burns is long dead and creamated."
"He was actually murdered by the police after he went to trial?"
...
"He was severely beatened by three police officers who caught up with him."
...
"Still not satisfied for the Gristly Slayings...
"The Edison Tribunal" dated October 24th, 1954...
(My birthday)
"Quoted...
...
"John Bartholomew Burns was shot and killed in what seemed some sort of... "Revenge or Mercy Killing."
"More on Page Three.:.
...
"You see, the three Detectives...
(Whilliams, Robertson, and Eposito)
"Couldn't handle the fact that John got away with it and beat the rap?"
(For lack of evidence and a fantastic Lawyer)
"So, they shot John Burns in the head."
"But...
"John Burns Sr. had started a third family?"
"And, even though he never saw his child being born, nor the sex, (Which was Male).
"It was a good thing!"
"Because, he probably would have slashed and slaughtered the child and also the entire family!"
(God works in mysterious ways).
...
The Year now is 2017...
"When I first got the assignment...
(By the way my name is Ricky Livingston)
"There wasn't much to go on?"
"A Series of recent murders and the first person was butchered?"
...
"One of the detectives in the office...
"Edward Eposito).
"Said that it sounds like a "John Burns thing" but he's long dead!"
"Yes, I Swear I saw that Son of A Bitch Fry!"
Stated Williams.
"But it resembled it so much?"
I thought.
...
"And yes, I had this assignment to try to put this puzzel together?"
"And, it continued to haunt me?"
...
"For months, I couldn't get that FUCKING SHIT out of My Head!"
"And, it continues to appear like "The Burns Case?"
...
"My dad always said to me before He passed away...
"Follow Your Gut like A Blood Hound!"
...
"So, with that thought in the back of my head...
"I headed back to Edison where it all started...
"Tp see if I can find any information?"
"A Single Clue?"
...
"And, I did find out from a neighbor that John had, had a third family?"
"But they knew very little about it!"
"So, I was still in the hole and I knew I would find out soon...
...
"And, it is now "Thanksgiving Eve," as a furious, young, man starts walking down the streets of Edison."
(Right outside of)
"Twin County Grocers."
(A Supermarket Warehouse).
""For the local, "Foodtown Supermarket Chain's.
...
"John took out a cigarette as he got a cell phone call."
"And, it was his wife Sarah."
"She wanted to know where he had gone?"
"Gone, without the car since they had that Nasty Argument?"
...
"He told her little as he went into...
"The Local Tap Room,"
where he sat down to drown his woes...
...
"John Burns Sr."
(The Serial Killer).
"Would haunt John Jr!"
"And, he tried to keep it quiet as he was growing up but they would have to move...
...
"Ftom one town to another."
First, they lived in Edison but had to Paterson, and then they had to move to West NewYork, and then finally to Ridgefield in Bergen County!"
...
"And, it was the same thing over and over!"
"He did graduate "Ridgefield High" but never attended college."
"You see, there was just no money available!"
"For, his mother was just a clerk at the local Walmart."
...
"But, John did have a decent job working at "Foodtown's Warehouse."
"He was in charge of moving pallets of groceries off tractor-trailers."
(And, he did this for three years).
...
"Soon, he became "Warehouse Manager!"
"But, the problem was it was Thanksgiving Eve and it was his job to keep an eye on the turkey?"
"The...
"Thanks-For-Not - FUCKING GIVING-A-SHIT-TURKEY?"
...
"You see, while his wife Sara went out...
"He fell asleep after having a few too many and the turkey burned!"
(To A Crisp!).
...
"And, that's what caused the argument!"
"And, that's why John Burns Jr. is walking!"

****

"John where are you?"
She Wondered?
"Nowhere."
He Replied.
"You have money come on!"
"This is ridiculous!"
"I forgive you!"
"I didn't mean to be yelling at you?"
"She Stated.
...
"Sarah, Sarah, Sarah Burns...
"The Worry Wort!"
"That worries about everything!"
He Thinks.
"As it again, creeps...
"Creeps back inside to hide?"
"John Burn's Sr!"
"That was shot in the head!"
"John Burn's Sr!"
"That had started a third family and never saw his child born!"
"John Burn's Sr!"
"That never lived long enough to even know it's Sex!"
...
"Which was good because he probably would have slaughtered the child...
"Me!"
"And, also any other children?"
...
"And, this new wife?"
"Sarah?"
"Which would have been the third round!"
"Yes, God works in m
Mysterious Ways and when I first got this assignment...
"And, by the way my name is Ricky Livingston."
...
"That there was this recent murder and the person was drastically butchered!"
"One of the two texts that came into the office stated that it sounds like a John Burns thing?"
"But, he's long?"
"But, it did resemble it?"
...
"So, I had this assignment to try to crack and put away before...
"Before it continues liked "The Burns Case!"
...
"My first thought was to head back to Edison and see if I can find any information."
"And, I did find out from a neighbor that John had stated a third family but they knew very little about it."
"So, I was still in the hole and I knew why?"
"Why I would soon find out...
...
"Thanksgiving Eve as a young man start walking down the street of Edison right outside between Twin County Grocers...
...
"To be continued...
"On the 26th...
"With Chapter Two...
"The Re-Emergence of John Burn's Senior?"
Thanks,
Dr. Ricky 1024...

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented and.... "Amazing artist... "Lorraine Purviance," and her incredible picture... "Haunted House."

Chapter 15
House at the End of the St. 2017 (B)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"House at the End of the Street 2017 (B)
(A Continuation)
Written on November 25th, 2017
By Dr.Ricky 1024.
<*>C FanStory2016<*>
**********2017********
"After a wonderful...
(Re- Cooked Turkey Dinner)
...
Note:
"In the previous chapters, we learn more about John, his father, and how his father Butchered his first two families."
Note:
"This is his third familie now and the most of this will be conversation, with John Junior talking."
...
"As usual, the next morning, I left for my job at "Twin County Grocers" in Edison New Jersey."
"As the manager in charge of the warehouse, I do mostly all of the receiving."
"So, all I did all day was either help move the pallats off the tractor trailers that came in or supervised my employees."
"It's hard and dirty work and can be dangerous at times."
...
"We once had a pallet collapse!"
(The wood core broke and the pallatt collapsed!:
"It tipped over and crushed one of the employees here?"
"It didn't kill him but put him in a hospital for months!"
"He had been srriouly crippled!"
"And, this made him a paraplegic for the rest of his life!"
...
"After a good ten hours of work, I decide to go to my favorite tap room and relax."
"After haveing a couple of beers, I was tired."
"I'm trying to cut down."
"I don't want to become an alcoholic like my father."
...
"After a few hours there at "The KitKat Taproom,"
"I decided to just take a walk and try to clear the cobwebs from my head!"
"And yes, it's a constant barrage!"
...
"Thoughts...
"Constant thoughts that never go away?"
"I wondered how I'm going to get this to stop?"
"FUCKING DAMN IT!"
"What God does it take to make this go away?"
"But of course there's no answer?"
...
"So, it started out innocently enough I was driving home from work one night and it was a squirrel in the road?:
"And, I decided...
"That little b****!"
"If it's stupid enough to get in my way, then I'm going to run it the hell over!"
"Which I did!"
...
"I then stopped the car, looked at it, and my handiwork...
"And, of course, it was quite devastatingly nasty!"
"Just like my nightmares when I dream."
..
"About my dad's previous two families...
"The problem is he had taken pictures from the last murders and he left them in his study?"
"And, I somehow inherited them?:
"So, I parked my and decided to take a walk to the Edison Park."
"Where I stop to watch the moon's glow shine off the water."
"It's relaxing and theraputic for me."
...
"I didn't fall asleep right away...
"But then I drifted into a deep and restful...
"Wonderful and peaceful sleep...
...
"It starts out as a dream...
"I'm at home and I'm enjoying myself on my scooter?"
"And, I'm only about ten, years old."
"But then all the sudden...
"I'm a grown man again and I'm out at this park for some reason?"
"And, this person comes walking past me?"
"And, it's a woman?:
"So, I greet her and say hello."
"And, she doesn't stop for me?"
"And, she just keeps on going?"
...
"So, I think to myself...
"How rude!"
"So then about an hour goes by and she comes back around again?:
"I guess she was doing a complete Loop of the Four Mile Park?"
"And, again like before, I said hello."
"And, again she ignores me?:
"As before!:
...
"This really irritated me and I wondered if she was going to make a 3rd run and loop?"
"Which she had but this time...
"I guess...
"She was resting?:
...
"I did not ask her or say a word to her, so she sat down at the bench further down from me." ...
"Now this was my opportunity to have a conversation?"
"And, to see why she was ignoring me?"
...
"So, I went over and introduced myself with a fictional name."
"I told her that my name is Robert "
"And, she told me her name was Evelyn."
"And, that she comes here to the park to run quite often."
"And, to lose weight."
"She stated that it's healthy for her."
"I asked her if she's married and she says... "That's personal please...
"Please don't ask me personal questions!"
She warned.
"And, your a stranger!"
"That's why I ignored you the first two times!!"
...
"So, I started talking to himself...
"Wow what a fuc**** b****!"
"This one is!"
"And, when I wake up from my nightmarish dream...
...
"There's now a woman...
(The same one)
"Lying down by that bench?:
"Apparently, somebody came by and slaughtered her?"
"Wow, the knife marks were quite apparent!"
"And, she was completely nude!"
"All of her clothes were cut off!"
"And, she was bludgeoned over the head!"
"And, she was raped!"
"And, basically gutted!"
...
"As I noticed that, I threw up and I walked home."
"I did not say a word to my wife or employes...
To be continued...
Ricky...
Approximate Word Count 852.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, followed by FanStory, Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... "Meg119" and her incredible picture, "booooo."

Chapter 15
House at the End of the Street 2020?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"House at the End of the Street Street 2020?"(D)
(COMING UP FROM THE GRAVE!)
Written on November 27th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
"Coming to a house near YOU?"
Character List:
John Burns Senior and his wife Kelly
John Burns Jr and his wife Nancy
Detective Martin Truex and various Victims.
...
Note:
"For those who have not read the three, previous, parts of this amazing book...
"This amazing book that a reviewer here...
(Liberty Justice)
'Said and I quote...
This is do,wonderfully done."
"And, it should become a Hollywood movie!"
"Hollywood!!!
"Hollywood!!!
"Hollywood!!!
...
"Upcat...
"It is 1954 and John Burns was born."
"He grew up and was basically abused and ignored?"
(Shut the door!)
"And, he turned his intentions towards helpless animals?"
....
"Now, when he got older, he stopped torturing animals and dissecting them?"
"To see how they worked and what made them, "Tick?"
...
"He marries and produced the family of two children."
(A boy and a girl)
"Life seems okay for a while for John but something was drastically wrong with him?"
"You see, he had a taste for Death!"
"And, presented ir!"
...
"Now for the shocking end of the first book...
"House at the End of the Street!"
....
"After he slaughtered his own wife and two children, he comes home from a hard day of work."
"And, that was when he notices that there's no electric in his house?"
"He stumblestrips, and falls over a chair as he's trying to see...
"See, with this, little, flashlight on a keychain."
"He then realizes he has a cell phone?:
"So, as he gets his cell phone working, he stumbled again!"
"This time over his dead wife!:
...
"Investigators...
(A male and a female).
"Both get deeper into this and in the shocking twist ending...
"I have him as being the actual serial killer!"
...
"Now, many, years passed but John takes a second family?"
"Which he does the same thing?"
...
"Now the reader does not know this till later."
"That he doe re-marrie and this time...
"One of the children survives?"
"And, that's when we get more into the present and Errie World of would be John Junior thed Serial Killer?"

****
"John Jr. Is plagued and tortured by the memories...
"Memories of somebody...
"And, being a baby..
"He remembers nothing?"
...
"And, this incredible story continues to move first forward...
"Then backward?"
"As it plagues him in high school!"
...
"So, he moves from various towns to get away from it."
"And, when he finally grows up...
"And takes on his own family...
"He comes back to Edison where he gets a job at 'Twin County Grocers" in charge of the unloading of pallets from the various, tractor, trailers...
...
"Being a drinker instead of a thinker, he loses that job."
...
"So, he decides to drown his recent woes at "The Kit Kat Tap Room."
"And, his wife then divorces him!"
...
"Now he's homeless, getting divorced, no job nor income...
"And, not able to be around his children...
...
After driving his car to the tap room, he then parks the card and starts walking."
'Ve goes into the 'Edison Park,' where he sees a jogger."
...
Note:
"In the first part of this which is...
"House at the End of the Street 2020!"
"He befriends rhat jogger...
"That younger sister...
"And, she wants nothing to do with him?"
"After three loops, he eventually kills her!"
(Guts and deciminarws her).
....
"Now supporters...
"This is where we go deeper into the book...
...
"John didn't find another jogger...
"And, does the same thing to weeks later...
"But this woman is obly stabbed twice and miraculously survives?"
"Now, there wasn't a witness but rhis male jogger calls rhe police and John runs away likd a coward!"
...
"He can only briefly describe him as a bum sleeping on a bench, deeply into a sleep... "Sleeping and having nightmares as he is reliving his father's Guastly Deeds?:
...
"But as presented earlier...
"How could he?"
"He was a baby?:
"And, he never witnessed it?"
...
"You see, many years later...
"He finds the pictures taken by the police in his father's desk!"
...
"And, that's where we are now!"
"House at the End of the Street 2020! (D)
...
"John realizes that now there's been two murders in that park?"
"As he was sleeping?:
"Both times!"
...
"Feeling confident he had nothing to do with it...
"And, he couldn't understand why he was considered a possible threat?"
"But, there was mention on 'Action News Channel 6,' about this being a liking to a serial killer!"
"Named John Burns!"
"And, many, many, years ago...
"They showed pictures of John Burns family and John Burns Jr.!
(As a young man!).
...
"So, now he sees that his face is coming across the TV?"
"Shocked, there's an "All State Bulletin' looking for John!"
...
"What the FUCK!"
He Thinks.
"And, he knows that he has no place to stay?:
"No place to go?"
"As Detective Martin Truex is closing in!!!"
...
"So, he can't go back to the park...
"So, he gets in his car and drives around Edison...
"He finds a cheap hotel and talks to the owner...
" And, he agrees yo let John spend one night for a $20 bill."
"But, you see, he has no intentions of making any more payments?"
...
"So, he stays there for two days until the owner finally kicks him out into the cold!"
...
"And, it's right before Christmas of 2020!"
"Do, no money, no place to go, and hungry...
"He stops at the... 'Most Likely Perfect House?"
...
"He knocks on the door and a woman, living alone, greets him?"
(Is she FUCKING CRAZY?)
"He tells her his sad story that he broke down and lies!"
"And, says he needs to use her cell phone."
...
"He figures once he gets inside, he'll take advantage of her, and do like Daddy father"
...
"So, Like Father Like Son, once inside, the unsuspecting woman turns the TV on to 'Channel 6 Action News.'
"And, he doesn't notice it?"
...
"As she gracefully prepares a meal for him of turkey dinner...
(Of course it's Christmas Eve).
"She tells John that she's expecting her husband to arrive shortly."
...
"And, as she tells this to John...
"John doesn't seem to care and greedily partakes in the festivities?"
...
"She asks John if he would like a drink?"
"And, he replies most graciously...
"Yes!"
"Anything thing eill,do?"
...
"She tells him,that she expects that Her husband...
(Which there is no one).
"Will walk through the door and minute."
...
"A D she passes the Living room to the bathroom, she sees a picture of John Burns Jr. on Action News!"
...
"It's a picture of him as a young man."
"She instantly recognizes this and instead of calling the Edison Police, and tells them what was happening...
"She recalls the past...
"And, remembers John Burn's Jr."
"And, because he actually had killed...
(One of the joggers).
"And, that was her, little, sister...
...
"Yes, she recognizes the younger picture as being John and she says...
(To herself).
"THAT FUCKING BASTARD!"
"But Fanstorians...
"That second woman that was attacked was her younger sister Betty...
"But what you don't know...
"The first woman survived!"
"For the male Jogger was Surgeon!"
"And, that was FUCKING HER!!!"
...
"So, she devises a plan?"
"She goes back into the dining room and offers him a glass of iced tea which he graciously accepts?"
"And, then she goes back into the living room to again...
"Watch TV."
"Waiting patintly...
...
"And, within minutes, he starts throwing up violently?"
"Vomiting everywhere?"
...
"He calls out fir help as she comes back into the Dining Room."
...
"And, as he collapsed on the floor he cries out...
"Please, Fucking, Please call 911!"
"You mean like you did after you slaughtered my sister?"
"My younger sister?"
...
"So, now guess what I gave you and you so graciously just drank?"
...
"It was a 'Highly Toxic Potion of Tea!"
"HEMLOCK, FUCKING, TEA, LOSER!"
"And, I hope you enjoy your visit to Hell!"
"MOTHER FUCKER!!!"
The End?
Approximate Word Count 1387.

Author Notes

"Special thanks hoes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, followed by FanStory and Tom... "The Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented.... "And, amazing artist... "Lillibug6," and her incredible picture.. "Coming up from the grave"

Chapter 16
Carolyn Ann Richmond Smrkovsky

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"Carolyn Ann Richmond Smrkovsky"
Chapter Number One:
(The Beginning)
Written on December 6th, 2017.
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory2017<*>
(A Dedication)
Chapter Number One:
(Her Blessed Birth)

"On this day of Our Lord, December 6th, 2017."
"I so dedicate this poem...
"To my deceased wife...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Smrkovsky."
"And, Once it shall begin...
"And, Once it's shall end...
"And, Once it shall begin...
"Over and over again?"
(Theology 24.99)
"Born (Nee) on December 6th, 1952."
"She would have had...
"Fifty-One years on this planet...
"On this planet of Pain,
of Grief, and of Misery."
"All because of poor choices, being a by-product of a Cruel, Cruel World...
"As well as family."
...
"And, on this day...
"Of Our Lord Jesus the Christ 2017."
"In the month of December...
"There will not be any snow falling to cover this Filthy Earth...
"There will not be any celebrations nor celebrating Her birth...
"But, her death?"
....
"She was a good wife...
"And God knows I tried so...
"To give Her a good Life...
"But, due to circumstances...
"Circumstances above and beyond my control...
...
"The Year Was 1984...
"And, the first Ten years of marriage from 1984 to 1994 were beautiful."
"I had no worries...
"No, pains...
"No, problems...
"No...
"What to Do with Circumstances Beyond My Control?"
...
"Yes, the first ten years of marriage from 1984 to 1994 were beautiful, indeed."
"And, I already had ten years into my carrier."
"A carrier with skills I attained in...
"Upper- Management."
"And, would give me the ability for Thirty Six years to feed my new family."
...
"Carolyn Ann Richmond Smrkovsky "
Written on December 7th, 2017.
Chapter Number Two:
(The Confused and Abused Years)

"December 1972...
"Carolyn would go on to attain a job at The "T Burger."
(One of three jobs)
"That she would a attain that Summer of '72."
...
"Yes, she would attain a job to save enough money to purchase a used car and to start her college career in Maryland."
"A career as a nurse."
"But, the only stipulation...
(Since she was living at home)
"With her mother...
"Millie the Miserable Mildred Richmond!"
...
"Okay, you can go yo college but not with your car!"
Demanded Millie.
Leave the car behind...
"Which Mildred would use but also...
"The savings?"
...
"She agreed with Miildred that she would disperse a small stipend."
"And, there never was an agreeable amount." "So, when Carol got her first check...
(That she was so much in need)
"It was for only $10.00?"
"WHAT THE FUCK?"
She thought.
"With so much grief as well as agony...
"Making her now have to take on a part-time job in a hospital in Washington DC?"
"Between that and all the other problems that she was experiencing...
"Carolyn would only complete one semester?"
...
"So, she had no choice but to return home?"
"Now, this is the second, abusing, experience Carolyn would experience from Mildred the Miserable!"
...
"The first was when she was a child of eight and she was made to do the dishes for a family of ten?"
"And, not leave until they were done!"
Millie Roared!
Wash or wet yourself!"
"Little Bitch!"
(Which would happen quite often)
...
"Now, reviewers? you need to realize that she was a...
"By-Product" of Miserable Mildred or Millie...
"The Miserable Mildred Richmond."
...
"Now, back to the new problem...
"Not only was her account mostly drained but also the car!"
"Not of gas but Oil!"
"And yes, it was ruined from abuse by her mother."
...
"At this point in time, she had left and had no choice?"
"And, this is where we will get into the next chapter...
"Called...
"The Meeting of the Minds."
"Carolyn Ann Richmond Smrkovsky:
Chapter Number Three:
(The Meeting of the Minds!"
...
"The year was 1983 and I had returned to work at Foodtown as the grocery manager."
"After my first of three nervous breakdowns, an opportunity arose?" "I could go out on a blind date with a woman whom was a cashier in the store."
"Named Wendy."
"But since this was a "Set-Up."
"I had a choice of two?"
...
"The First was Carolyn a woman whom shopped in my store with two, young, daughters."
"Nicole Megan and Kyle Erin."
"She would push them around and talk to me?"
"And, in the shopping cart she would go?"
"With them in the store!"
"And, we would talk."
"And, I said to her that her two daughters were so beautiful."
"I called her...
"The Baby Maker."
...
"Carolyn's girlfriend...
(Sharon Kline)
"Lived in Harvey Cedars, New Jersey."
"Now, back to...
"The Set-Up!"
...
"Everything went fine and I had my choice as both women were basically either abused or both had been dumped or hiding from their husbands."
"Sharon was quite beautiful but already had six kids!"
"So, I chose the 'Lesser of the Two Evils!"
"Carolyn!"
"And, after our first night together...
"She realized that I was the one to be?"
...
"And, now this is where I will end it."
"Tomorrow the conclusion."
"Called...
These Are the Golden Years?"
Dr. Ricky 1024.
...
We met on a blind date and yes there was sex and yes children would be born even though no she said she couldn't have them know because she had an appendicitis to 17 and no no no little did she know that I was not firing on empty and then the one fallopian tube even though it was fractured it was a Hatcher so on our first trip to Disney World in Orlando Florida we stopped on the way at South of the Border and border of South and North Carolina to rest and the rest is history 83 was Corinne Alexis 8 on the return trip 84 was Jason Richard and lastly and not least leave a third trip in 85 would result in Dana Alex markovski each time we would stay at my mother's Place Port Orange Florida which wasn't working too well by the way but then off to La Quinta where we do a buy one night get two nights free which we give it four days at the complex in return and yes I had a miserable and Mildred also but her name was flossie Florence and yes she did steal from me too so we set up house in Manahawkin New Jersey and the first ten years would be caring for the newborns and sending the two from the baby making experience with her first husband off to grade school as our three started to grow and went off into kindergarten 1st and 2nd loosen the reins and got herself a job which is part of our agreement of her to stay home take care of they were nothing off to school we didn't need the money I was doing quite well at Foodtown yes these are and where are the Golden Years now we're going to move into the final part called The Tattered and shattered years from the period of the 80s of marriage to the 90s of the children being born and finally to the turn of the century the year of Our Lord 2003 my children now were teenagers 17 18 and 19 the older Korean was off to college Douglas College Rutgers University juniors in high school horrible night of March 31st 2003 let's just say jay and yes J went away and then Carolyn went away to be together in heaven and this is shattered and tattered years of the previous golden years but this is not and never will be the End Amen.
Approximate 1283.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist and writer, Dr.Ricky 1024, and his beautiful poem picture my wife... "Graduation 1972"

Chapter 17
Takes My Breath, Away?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Takes My Breath, Away?"
Written on December 13th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dedication)
<*>C.FanStory 2017<*>
"Nothing disturbs me more than the Sorrid and sorrowful day ,the Lord took my wife, Carolyn away...
...
"The event...
(Over fourteen, years, ago)
"On November 26th, 2003...
"Started out normal enough?"
...
"As I returned home from a hard day of work...
(Managing a local supermarket on Long Beach Island near my home)
"In Manahawkin, New Jersey...
"The first thing I noticed that evening coming home was the lights out in the house?"
'Which was not normal?"
...
"The second thing was the light was out in the kitchen?"
"Which also, was not normal?"
...
"You see, normally she was out there in the kitchen preparing the nightly dinner."
"But I did notice the light on in our bedroom?"
...
"Upon entering, she was lying in the bed."
"And, I asked...
"What's wrong?"
"And, she said...
"She was not sure and she felt clammy to the touch?"
...
"So, at that point, I decided to take her to the local Pathmart...
(About a mile-and-a-half from my home)
...
"And, the results came back that her BP."
(Systolic and diastolic)
"Were both half the normal reading?"
"Which was strange?" and had me very concerned and upset."
...
"At that point, I said...
"I'm going to take you to the hospital."
"To let them run a couple tests...
"To make sure you're alright."
"But, she refused and there would be a reason for that...
"And, you'll find out at the end."
...
"So, that evening, her temp started to spike.:
"So, I cool her down with some wet cold clothes as she instructed."
"That was about 9 p.m."
...
"For the next few hours, we sat on the couch watching TV."
"At 1 a.m. after Saturday Night Live was over, I asked her if she wanted and needed help to get to the bathroom?"
"She said no and then I decided to do the 'Three Fingers Test."
"Which she passed."
"So, then I decided to go into the bedroom To sleep."
"It also had been a long and stressful day for me...
...
"At 4:00 a.m. I heard a strange noise which woke me up?"
"It was her collapsing and taking in a death breath which scared the living s*** out of me!"
"I immediately called...
"9-11 and went to her assistance."
Note: When a person does that...
(Takes in the deep breath)
"It's the Mind and Brains reaction to the oncoming Heart-Attack!"
"Also, it's the bodies reaction that there's going to be a lack of oxygen to the brain."
"So, as a result, the deep breath which is being taken, may possibly be the last breath taken...
"If that person doesn't survive."
"In this case I did not know what I was doing?"
"I did not know how to perform any kind of resuscitation?:
"So, I grabbed her from behind and lifted her."
"And, I must have shocked her back?"
"So, I laid her against the bed and then she came to."
...
"She asked me what the fuc* had happened?"
"What happened?"
"You almost the FUC* DIED!"
...
"At that point the police unit that was dispatched arrived."
"Concerned but of very, little, use...
"I waited until two paramedics came."
"They did their necessary tests and everything checked out quite normal?"
"Which I will call...
"At this point...
"The Calm Before the Storm?"
"And yes, they took her to the hospital which was less than a half mile from my house."
..
"I immediately contacted the closest daughter Kyle Erin and told her exactly what just happened and to get over to the hospital as quickly as possible!"
...
"During that time, I gathered up Carolyn's clothes."
"I dressed and within less than half an hour... "I was over there and Kyle Erin was in tears?"
...
"Standing against the Emergency Room Doors...
"She was crying hysterically!"
"I asked would happen?"
"And, she replied...
"It's Mommy!:
"She's dead!"
...
"That was November 26th, 2003 and to this very day...
"It still haunts me."
...
"You see, that was only eight months after the desth of our only Son Jason."
"And, she had apparantly suffered a second Heart-Attack due to a D.V.T. which is 'Deep Vernacular Thrombisis," or the blood clot from the leg to the brain or in her case...
"To the Heart."
"And yes, to this very day, it still...
"Takes My Breath, Away."
Approximate Word Count 750.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing writet as well as talented artist.. 'Dr. Ricky 1024,' and my beautiful wife Carolyn's picture... 'Graduation Day 1972"

Chapter 18
To Save a Life?

By Ricky1024

"To Save a Life?"
Written on November 16th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory 2017<*>
(Based on True Events)
Cast of Characters:
Edward Smrkovsky
(My Dad)
Alexander Herve Valle
(My Grandson)
Florence Smrkovsky
(My Mom)
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
(My Son)
Dana Alyse Smrkovsky
(My Daughter)
Professor Eric Velde
*********1920**********
"My dad, Edward Smrkovsky, was born in Clarkston, Nebraska on 1920."
"The Son of a poor, dirt, farmer, they lived...
"Back then, a quiet and meanger life."
...
"Dad had a sister named Emily Ann who passed away at the age of only eight from what was called back then...
"The Blood Disease."
"Which is today knon as 'Leukemia.'
"He also had two brothers named Joseph and James."
"His mother's name was Mary and His dad's name was 'Vulcac."
"We're Czechs!"
...
"Dad graduated(with honors)
"From the small high school in Clarkston."
"A class of only sixteen."
He then, at the age of only sixteen, joined the U.S. Navy."
...
"Now his first hitch was during the Korean War."
"Previously, they had traveled the world on maneuvers on one of four Destroyers."
(The Wasp, The Hornet, the U.S.S. Fulton, and one other Destroyer which was not in my genealogy."
...
"His first mission was the Korean War."
(Also known as 'The Cold War!)
"And, since he was a Chief, of course, He did not seen any action but from the ship."
...
"The Army went onto land and because of 'The Cold War,' many returned with life-threatening disabilities from frozen limbs!"
Note:
"That war was never won just like the Vietnam War."
...
"Many years passed and then Edward was involved in what was known as...
'The Japanese Excursion.'
"Iwo Jima, JFK, Torture, the A-Bomb...
"The whole Shebang!"
"And, of course, again...
"He never saw any action except aboard the Wasp or Hornet."
"But soon...
"He would see action at the bottom of a bottle of booze!"
...
"Twenty-six years had passed and my Dad decided enough was enough."
"As Vietnam was approaching, He had done His last hitch on the 'U.S.S. Fulton' which did nucleur Explosions at sea!"
...
"After a Nervous Breakdown because he was not ready to come home to a family with a wife and four sons...
"He had no idea how to do that!"
"He left the 'Comforting Blanket' of war...

****

"Dad's last hitch in the Navy was 1959 when we moved to Sewell, New Jersey."
(Which is in Western and Central New Jersey)
...
"The house was paid for by my grandfather Bill."
"Sorta, as a sort of gift but later I found out that it was because we were behind on the mortgage!"
"You see...
"Dad, even though he worked, He spent a lot of his time and money drinking away everything!"
"And, that's where we are now!"
...
"The Fight for Life!"
(The Story of Edward Smrkovsky)
...
"Mommy, Mommy, Mommy!"
Yes Alex.
"Do you know what I want to do?"
What Alex?
"I want to build a Time Machine and go back in time!"
"I want to go all the way back to the Prehistoric Time and play with those dinosaurs!"
"That would be wonderful Alex."
Stated his mother Dana.
Approximate Word Count 549.
To be Continued later today!
24.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing, talented artist and writer... Dr. Ricky 1024 and my picture... "Just Dad."

Chapter 19
Faith

By Ricky1024

"Faith
Written on December 20th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C. FanStory 2017<*>
"Firstly, in order to Define Faith...
"We must learn exactly what it is?"
...
"The word 'Faith,' has a different meaning for each and every person."
"For the poor and the homeless"
"They pay homage to the Lord for the day that they will finally have a roof over their heads."
"While 'Faith,' for the hungry, is that someday they may go to sleep that night and have a full belly...
....
Note: In my State of New Jersey, over 68,000 people go to bed each and every night without a full belly"
...
"Faith is a word that cannot be defined for it means so many things."
"From the Love of A
Child to Charity."
"To have given Faith is to have found Hope of Redemption, true Love, and Everlasting Peace."
...
"Each and everyone of us in the state of New Jetsry can define Faith...
(In A Spiritual Way)
"As an 'Eternal Resting Place."
"A place of Everlasting Peace."
"To have Faith.
(For the Faithless)
"It must be learned first and then earned first"
"And, for those that have done wrong?"
"They are the Sinners of this World."
"The Murders, Rapists, Thieves, and Abusers."
"Confused, they live confined in...
"Their Addicted World."
"They are controlled by Satan with the Addiction of their choice."
"To find, 'Faith,' they must firstly have found themselves and given themselves to the Lord...
"And beg for forgiveness."
...
"To find it (Faith).
"In the most Serious of Degree...
"One must be able and capable to descibe it...
"The best way that I've ever been able to define 'Faith.'
"Is as so...
....
"To Define 'Faith."
"Each and every Night...
(Before I go to sleep)
"I first take my boots off and place them below my bed."
"And then, I go above...
"To rest my weary head....
....
"And, each and every morning...
(When I awake)
"I have no choice but to get down on my two knees to retrieve them...
"And, to thank God above...
"For each and every Blessing He has given..
"To me."
Denzel Washington Actor.
Approximate Word Count 364.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... "dragifortuna," and their beautiful picture... "A Morning Path to Mass"

Chapter 20
Alphabet Soup

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Alphabet Soup
(An Acrostic Bowl of Soup)
Written on December 20th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory 2017 <*>

A-Arronic Priesthood. B-Babylonian Times.
C-Centuries ago before the Crucification of Christ.
D-Distant Memories hanging on a vine.
E-Each and every day...
F- Forever and ever we pray.
G-Galleons adrift...
H-Hellions of War, Schemed...
I-Intruders arrived...
J-Jesus Christ no longer alive?
Crucified by the Jewish Priests!
K-Killed and hung on a Rosewood Cross...
L-Lies by the High, Jewish Priests!
M-Mockery to say the least!
N-Now today?
O-Only today if we had known?
P-People go to church to pray.
Q-Quietly each and every Sabbath Sunday.
R-Religiously.
S-Sharing their evry thoughts...
T- Tormented by the price that Jesus Christ had to pay.
U-Ultimate Sacrifice!
V- Vicariously Victory!
W-Winning the war for society!
X-Xmas we celebrate Christmas and Christ's birth!
Y-Yield and bow before Christ!
Z-Zest!
Approximate Word Count:149.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... "Davil Ruhl," and his incredible picture... "Impossible!"

Chapter 21
My Christmas Gift To You

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Christmas Gift To You"
Written on December 23rd, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C. FanStory2017<*>

"And, As I reflect this upcoming and Holiday Week."
"I will allow you my 'Christmas Gift' to you...
"With this little peek?"
...
"Born (Nee) on November 5th, 1984...
"My only Son Jason, could do no more?"
...
"And yes, He grew in His, what I will call, His 'Holy Crackle World."
"Oblivious to all else...
(From what I've heard)
"And, He grew...
"As He got older...
"And, He knew...
"As He got Bolder...
"Exactly what His purpose was before His World...
"Got Colder...
"And yes, He new exactly His Purpose and His eventual...
"Do."
...
"As a Peer Mediator, they sent all yhr yroubled teens His way, even though there were others...
"On those...
'Dark of Days.'
"And, in 6th grade.
"My only Son Jay played on the basketball team."
"And, saved the Day and wore the crown!"
"You see, my son Jason was a Gift and well as a Blessing...
"Sent down from Above to be Loved...
...
"And, as He grew...
"He found that He could play the drums."
"And, He even had His own band!"
"A pair of drumsticks...
"Always closely...
"In His little Hand."
"My Little, Drummer, Boy did all of that and more...
"He played the concerts...
"And, was adored."
"And yes, the school applauded on those 'Seasonal of days' and He did it...
"His Way!'
...
"He also, wanted to be an auto mechanic they say, His teenage friends would work on cars."
"With welders and rip them apart."
"And, rebuild them again...
...
"And, they dreamed...
"Of possibly going to a 'Vocational College'' named Brookdale in New Jersey."
Amen.
...
"But, you see, things aren't always as Blessed as they seem?"
...
"On March 31st' 2003 Jason was in a horrible accident."
"A passenger in a car driven by a maniac."
...
"So, this is my present to you and the only thing that I can give or do...
"For you...
"My Son...
" My Heart...
" My Soul...
...
"So, this Christmas...
"A Gift from above...
"A Gift of total Love...
"A Gift that you can take with you...
"Whenever you have a disturbance...
"And, when something is causing you Grief...
"Causing you Strife...
"Just Gift from My Son to You...
...
"A Gift from my son Jay...
"The Gift of *LIFE"
Approximate Word Count: 406.

Author Notes

*LIFE: "To learn more about "Organ-Tissue Donations." "Simply call my, dear, friend... (Lara S. Moretti) "The LSW with... 'The Gift of Life.' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. "At 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, I wish to thank you from the bottom of my Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist and writer, 'Ricky1024,' and his incredible picture, "Just Jay."

Chapter 22
The Church of Jesus of LatterDay Sai

By Ricky1024

"The Church of Jesus Christ of LatterDay Saints"
Written on January 2nd, 2014
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory 2017<*>
T- Teachers.
H- Healers.
E- Each.

C- Can.
H- Help.
U.
R-Religion.
C-Church.
H-Holy.

O-Only.
F-Fullfilled.

J- Jesus Like.
E-Everyone are
S-Saints.
U-Useful.
S-Saints of.

C-Churches.
H-Help and healing always.
R-Religion Savers.
I-Immaculata.
S-Saints.
T-Taught through Christ.

O-Openly Healed.
F-For.

L-Lasting Perpetual!
A-All.
T-Teach and have taught
T-Teachers tell
E-Each.
R-Religious and Non-Religious.

D-Developing Religion.
A-Assistants of God!
Y-yearning for Religion.

S-Seeking and learning.
A-Assisting and learning.
I-Internationally Reknown.
N-Needy.
T-Teachers.
S-Saints...
...
"Following in the footsteps of God."
Approximate Word Count 111.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... 'shesandri_sereenivasan'... And, his incredible picture... "Reflecting the Light of God!"

Chapter 23
My Buddyest Friend

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Buddyest Friend"
(Just You and Just Me)
Written on December 28th, 2017.
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dedication)
(*) C.FanStory 2017.(*)

"My Buddyest Friend to the very *End."
"I'm soon to be with you now."
"And yes, I dream of the day...
"Somehow...
"Someway...
"My Buddyest Friend."
...
"My Buddyest Friend the one whom I love. "
"Send me a message from far, far, above?"
"Let me know how and when?"
"We can be together again?"
...
"But dad."
"It's too soon for you."
"Dad, your time yet is not had!"
"And, even though the cards are stacked against you...
"I see you seem to have cut to the high card each and every **Time?"
...
"Dad, you need so stay down below."
"And, do what you have now learned so."
"For someday... "Someway...
"You'll see...
"That it'll be...
"Just You and Just Me...
"Buddy Friend"
Written on April 14th, 2003
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
<*>C.FanStory 2017<*>
"I'm not here right now but I'm not far...
"I'm in a place...
"Close by like a Star...
...
"You'll feel this place...
" Just take a momment...
"You'll see...
"Then you will know...
"Just where I'll be...
Your friend Jay.
Note: This was my first piece written which won me my first trophy in Washington, DC. June 2006."
"With The International Society of Poets."

Approximate Word Count: 230.

Author Notes

*End: "My Son Jason passed away from His injuries after he was involved in a terrible and Horible accident on March 31st 2003." "He was a passenger and a victim." "A victim with severe brain damage." "And, we made the decision to donate His organs." **Time: "To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations." "Simply call my dear friend Lara S Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania." "1-800-DONORS-1." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist as well as writer... 'Dr Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture... "Just Jay"

Chapter 24
Four Quadrennial Poems.

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Four Quadrennial Poems"
Written on December 31st, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C. FanStory 2017<*>
"Silent TisThis Night"(A)
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Silent Tis This Night as all the Herald Angels Sing."
"Glory to the Newborn King."
...
"Tis so, so, quiet Daddy."
"Why?"
'Why did I have to *Die?"
...
"The Angels stopped singing."
...
"Oh Me, Oh My, maybe my only Son from above...
"Your time had come?"
...
"Silent Tis this Night as...
"The Hearld Angels Sing."
"Glory, Oh Glory for a Newborn Angel."
"The Father Hath bring!"
<><><><><><<><><><>
"Hark the Herald Angels Sing!" (B)
"Hark the Herald Angels Sing For All Above Thy Love they Bring!"
"Thy Blessed Grace, the Smile upon Thy Face!"
"Thy Presence Above...
"A sure Sign of Your Eternal Love!"
...
"Hark the Herald Angels Sing...
"Glory, Glory for my Son Jason finally got his Wings!"
<><><<><><><><><><>
"Joy for This World!"(C)
"As the Earth spins on its axis, people are crying...
"People are lying...
"And, people are dying...
"Where for Art Thy Joy, God?"
...
"Silent Tis Thy Lambs of Faith whom cry out Thy name?"
"They Live for you...
"They Love for you... "They Give for you...
"And, they now die for you?"
...
"Starvation...
"Humiliation...
"Judification...
"Unification...
"Where's the Exceltation?"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Cry Out Thou Lord for Me?" (D)
"Cry out Lord for Me for "I have died for the Thee."
"And, I sacrificed all for Thee, so others down there, can be."
...
"Cry out Lord for Me for I so, so, miss my family"
"They wonder why and now all they do is cry?"
"There is no reason Why?"
...
"And Lord, as I now continue to give."
"This Christmas remember."
"I died so that they could **Live."
Approximate Word Count: 295.

Author Notes

*Die: "On March 31st 2003 my son Jason was involved in a horrid accident. "As a passenger, he had susstained... 'Irreversible Brain Damage." "So, we had no choice but to donate His organs." **Live: "To learn more about... 'Organ-tissue Donations.' "Simply call my, dear, friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. 1-800-DONORS-1. "And, thanks from the bottom of My Heart and my Son Jason"s donated Heart."

Chapter 25
Break These Chains?(A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Break These Chains?"(A)
Written on January 2nd, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*> C. FanStor 2017<*>
"Lord God, please help me and do Your job?"
"I'm dying God and I'm not lying God."
...
"Lord God, please help
and assist me?"
"My grief is way too, too much now...
"I must persist, as it now persists, as I now drift in and out of me...
...
"For, I'm lost forever in that Mistress...
"That Mistress of Loneliness," within the sea."
...
"My desert island is now completely deserted."
"And, no one's there anymore for me?"
"Please Lord God, too much...
"Too much pain...
"Can't you please?"
"Break These Chains?"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"The Bonds of My Humility" (B)
"The Bonds of My Humility are now covering me and comforting me."
"No longer must I feel the shame or the pain."
...
"I can shake this Misery Lord now."
"Off of me!"
"For, I am well protected...
"A Protect Identity under my covers of no more misery!"
...
"I peek out and notice there's nobody there?"
"To worry or bother me!"
"And, that's the way it's meant to be."
...
"Lord God, no more will I feel disgrace!"
"Lord God, no more will I hide my face!"
"And, no more will I feel all this misery and all this pain!"
"This unprecious presence if depression and fear!"
"Because...
"I'm not here?"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Barbed Wire!" (C)
Written on January 2nd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
"Lord and I'm on fire!"
"Ablaze!"
"I'm burning alive!"
"Disappearance in a Glaze!"
...
"I'm smoking and smoldering!"
"Lord, there's not much more time?"
"Kick away these Cinders that seem to just Bind!"
"Diffuse the fuse for I refuse to this pain!"
"I must, my Lord, carry on my good name!"
...
"And yes, it's been a long journey...
"Way, way too long to just give in?"
"As I feel the presence of the heat burning in!"
"But, I fear not dear Lord and I have not a care!"
"Even though I'm so tired but I know You are there!"
...
"But it seems Lord...
"It seems as it if...
"I'm at my own funeral Pyre?"
"Barbed Wire!"
Approximate Word Count:367.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... 'Algeria, and her incredible picture... "Has Seen It's Day"

Chapter 26
Window of Pain! (A)

By Ricky1024

"Window of Pain!" (A)
Written on January 4th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*> C.FanStory 2018<*>
"As I reflect as thou now protect all that is precious to me."
"All that I still can now see?"
...
"It's not much longer now God for I have completed My job."
"No more shall I remain below Lord for Thou surely do know...
...
"Know all and see all that there is."
"Fpr, you created and navigated me...
"But, what more can I be?"
...
"For I have been...
"For I have began...
"What You Lord needed me to be...
...
"Reflecting as if thouu art protecting me?"
"From my...
"Window of Pain."
...
"Thy Heart and thy Hand, guide me but surely...
"I *Remain?"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Memories of a Crucified Me?"
Written on January 4th, 2018
"Take My Hand and come..
"Come and Journey with Me?"
"For, I long so much for you to see?"
...
"The Oceans of Azure Blue!"
"The Many Rainbows of Multi-Hue!
"The Fluffy, White, Clouds and Sky of Bluen Relief!"
"Come, take My Hand and understand!"
...
"Yes, now come and see!"
"Come and see with Me!"
...
"And, take My Hand for you can not understand!"
...
"That there is something...
"And, that there is nothing?"
"Yes, nothing for you to see?"
"If only you could be more...
"Like Me?"
...
"The Deserts are moist wet but Barren"
"The Snows are so, so, cold sweet but you know?"
...
"The Countless Stars are tormented in Your Hands...
(If only you could finally understand?)
...
"For, Life here with Me...
"Is more than just this and that!"
"Oh yes, believe you Me!"
"There's more than meets the eye of Me!"
...
"For, I died so you could be..
"For, I sacrificed and gave so you could see...
"For, I gave...
"All of **Me...
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Post Cards of My Past?"
Written on January 4th, 2018.
"Postcards of My Past?"
"One by one as you now grasp"
"Yes, take me and care for me"
"Again and again"
Amen.
...
"Come and take My Hand and meet my family!:
"Come meet my four, beautiful, sisters!"
"Nikki Kyle Erin, Corrine Alexis, and Dana Alyse!"
...
"And, come meet My mother Carolyn and My father Rick!"
"Together they take good care of Me."
"Even though I am no longer there?"
"Witj great care?"
...
"For, you see...
"Now you see Me and now you ***Don't?"
Approximate Word Count:409.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... 'Cleo85,' and her incredible picture... "Oberon"

Chapter 27
My Good Heaven!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Good Heaven!"
Written on January 4th, 2016
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
*@C.Fan Story 2016@*
"As the curtain Fades and God turns down...
"The Darkened Shades."
"As the Music Stops...
"As the Heavens above call out Your Name...
"And, as my Sullen and Swollen Heart in Pain...
"Finally Bursts...
"I now Realize...
"The Dreaded *Worst...
...
"Lord God, nothing no longer matters as this "Horrible Scene of Oblivion"
"My Yask as I cast into this place of no return."
"But, foe some reason I don't well understand...
"The music goes on and on?"
...
"And, as I now think of You my only Son...
"And, all that you had meant to do Son...
"I think way back ago when You were born...
"And, you and your song played on...
"That music was so, so, very Sweet...
"Yes, a certified and Sweet Treat but...
"The Event in **2003 took you away from me?"
"And, now?"
...
"No more music here... (I must say)
"No more...
"No more thought of You...
"No more touch from You...
"No more Sweet Treat...
"No more Tendered Thoughts or Eight by Tens...
"God, when doth the pain end?"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"My Kinda Heaven?" (B)
Written on January 4th, 2018.
"Come now friend with me and then you will see a place so remarkable!"
"Come now and see my place of Grace!"
"The Last House on the Left!"
"That Special Beach House at thr Jerseh Shore!"
"Come and take the Tour!"
"Back to that place where you fell in Love with me!"
"That was the best my friend certifiably!"
...
"Heaven's Fountains and takes away!"
"No more pain now...
"My friend...
"For Heaven's Sake...
...
"The Purple Mountain's of Majesty are there for You...
"Just for You and yes...
"Just for me too."
...
"The Beauty from the 'Azure of Blue,' and Puffy, White, Clouds that now comfort you...
"And, envelope you!"
...
"Yes!"
"Now your Life is so, so, blessed!"
"No more so, so, and sad...
"No more so, so, and Bad...
...
"For my Son Jay...
"And, now that you have come here to be with Me...
"And Dismissed that part of Pain...
"That now no longer remains...
"And, as I and I can guarantee you this Jay...
"That's more here...
"Some fine day...
"The rest of your family will be there for you...
"And, also for me...
"Too...
<><><><><><><><><><>
"The Music of Heaven!" (C)
Written on January 4th, 2018
"There's a Special Place of Eternal Forever...
"Love and Grace where...
(One Day)
"I can go...
"If I can follow God, "Your Glow...
...
"And, when I go...
"And, when my time here, below is done,
"I will follow that Glow to that place...
"That we all know...
...
"A Place of Forever Fun and in this place...
"There's me, you And yes...
"My family too!"
...
"Lord, just for me and from just You...
"Because of all the Good and Grand things that we together...
"Can now do!"
...
"We can fly with Angela's of Wings and do all those amazing things that You Lord, can bring!"
...
"And, as I now come and follow You...
"As You lift my Soul above...
"And, when I'm there all alone at first...
"I'll look closely at what's there and then in this place of many beautiful things to do...
"From the music of the many Harps and the many Drums...
"And, when the music is over and done."
"I will finally realize...
"My friend...
"That I will finally sleep...
"Again...
Your Friend Jay...


Approximate Word Count:598.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist, 'Cleo 85.' "And her, incredible picture... "Tears from Heaven <><><><><><><><><>

Chapter 28
To Honour One So Dear

By Ricky1024

"To Honour One So Dear
Written on January 11th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky 1024.Later today

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist..

Chapter 29
The Exrightment of Love?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"The Exrightment of Love?"
Written on January 15th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
<*> C.FanStory 2018<*>
"And Now Kids...
"Let's explore this word that we so much want...
"And, so much need...
"But, so much fear?"
"Whence taken away...
"And, so dear?"
(From what I hear?)
...
"So, how do you make...
"A Love Cake?"
"Well, let's start with a He and She!"
"But, we won't need them."
(Most definitely until the end!)
...
"First you'll need one cup of sugar and spice!"
(For that'll make this cake very, very, nice!)
"Now carefully add half a cup of Puppy Dog tails and snails...
"Or if your Pissed?"
"Bat Wings and Snout of You don't Fucking Care!"
(If tou so dare!)
"And, of course, just for the boy."
"Cause, we already got the girl covered!"

****

"Now, that's a joy!"
"Now let's get busy you "Pillsbury Dough Girls and Boys!"
"Now let's add some maraschino cherries to this mix."
(For colour)
"And, three cups of finely sifted Gold Medal Flour and six eggs."
...
"Now, let's put it all together with a beater and make ourselves a wonderful batter!"
What's the matter Miss Tier?"
"Sorry...
"Brought back unpleasant cooking memories!"
...
"Now, all but youTier, place the whole mess in the oven at 3,000 Degrees!"
"And, cook for one minute and only one minute...
(Until it comes to a beautiful and fleshy, bubbly boil!)
...
"Now kids, take Shit out and let's just let it cool?"
"After all, it's been in Hell for years!"
"Not yours Tier!"
...
"Now, let's do the top?"
"Icyibg for the he and she of course!"
"So, so, sweet as sugar!"
"Now say a spell or two and add that...
"He and She!"
"And, carefully then put it back in the refrigerator!"
(Over night!)
...
"And, there you have it!"
"You just learned how to make...
"A Love Cake!"
"Stop having Sex on it Meia and Dean!"
"And, always remember...
"When it comes to True Love...
"We must never forsake?"
Approximate Word Count: 345.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'Jorlgraphuchin,' and his incredible picture. "Love design five"

Chapter 30
Whispering Passages

By Ricky1024

"Whispering Passages"
Written on January 15th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{.}C. FanStory 2018 {.}
"It will be soon...
"My dear...
"Soon my love...
"And, I will be here...
"With You...
....
"Please Son, do not cry 'Willowed Tears."
"For me."
"I so miss You...
"Can't you now see?"
"Yes my Son, I know but my job is not yet done."
...
"You know Jay, I wait and I pray...
"Pray for You Jay...
"Each and every night and day...
...
"Yes, each and every night...
"I look up at the Stars that shine so bright."
"And, I wonder...
"Wonder where Jay...
"You are?"
...
"Is a place far, far, above?"
"Above a Star?"
"And, I think of our past times that we spent."
"But, now it seems like so much Lament."
...
"Tears, 'Willowed Tears.' "Fall down my cheeks and my face but somehow I sense that you're in a more...
"Place pf Heavenly Grace."
...
"And, with each and every year...
"And, with each and every tear...
"I shed..
"I think not of when you were close to being dead...
"In a Deep Coma... "Instead...
...
"But, way, back, when..
"When...
"We were...
"Together...
"*Again...
Approximate Word Count: 201.

Author Notes

*Again: "To learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations." "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with.. "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia? Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1. "And, thanks from the bottom of my Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky's donated Heart... .... "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His lost Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... 'SeanT. Phelan,' and his incredible picture... "Whispers in the Night"

Chapter 31
Thirty Days Away?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Thirty Days Away?"
Written on January 20th, 2018.
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky and Doctor Ricky 1024.
ã??C. FanStory 2018.ã??

"Yes, it's only 30 days away from today...
"March 2nd, 2003."
"When My World...
(As well as My Family's World)
"Would change forever and ever...
...
"How well I wish I could forget...
"The Careless as well as Fateless Day in March...
"And, not November...
"For Better Of Worse...
"For Richer Or Poorer...
"Til Death Do Is Part."
"For not just you...
"Reviewers but Me."
"And, let me explain and make this perfectly clear...
"I Died as well as still Live?"
"In order to Give...
"My name is Jason and this is my story."


****


"I was born November 5th, 1984."
"And, I had one purpose and only one...
"In My Short Life...
"And, that was just to give"
"And, for the 18 years that I will live...
"And now, listen closely to My words...
"For they come from very, very, far...
"Above...
...
"And Yes, it's been many, many, years since I died."
"And Yes, I lost My love...
(Her name was Angel, like Me now)
"And, my family...
"I was so distressed and distraught...
(Especially my father)
"Who they say...
"Bought...
"A One Way Ticket to Hell."
(As well)
...
"And yes, he had bought and he had suffered...
"Suffered so but not as much as My mother though."
"Because she eventually took her own life."
"And yes, she's here now with Me."
"And God has forgiven her and yes...
"She took a vow..
...
"So, it's only...
"Thirty Days Away."
"And, on April 1st, 2003...
"They will quickly and accurately...
"Dissect Me...
"For, I will give all that was meant to *Be...
Approximate Word Count: 297.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented and gifted artist/writer... 'Ricky 1024, and his amazing picture and incredible picture of Me entitled... "Just Jay" *Be: "And, to learn more about... 'Organs and Tissue Donations... (Like I did fiftteen years ago) "Simply call my dad's dear friend... "Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1.: ... "And, I wish to thank you from the bottom of my dad and My donated Heart... Jason Richard Smrkovsky. November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day)

Chapter 32
Only One Day Away?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Only One Day Away?"
Written on January 20th, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
â??â?ªâ??C.FanStory 2003â??â?ªâ??
"Yes, it's Only...
"One Day Away."
"Now as My Body rests in that bed."
"That Horrible bed!"
...
"I'm **Raccooned and My eyes are swollen closed?"
"And, My Head swelled so?"
"I'm no more Alive...
"Then Dead!"
"And, there's Umbilical Fluid and blood...
"Coming out of my ears from My Head?"
"Dear God?"
"Was this Your plan for Me?"
"Was this Your Job?:
"I feel so, so, useless?"
"Can't You see?"
"WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME?"
...
"Drooping blood from!the Insides of Me?"
"Comatosed?"
"Lying in a Vegetative State of Being...
"Not?"
"Lord God, is this My last Shot?"
"My final finale?"
"Is this all that's left of Me?"

****

"I think one of My sister's is caring for Me?"
"Most likely Nikki"
"And, I keep hearing crying in the room?"
"Lord God, how I can hear?"
"Perhaps...
'The Grim Reaper' is Here?"
I have no idea?"
"Maybe it's a nightmare or a dream?"
"Someone is crying?"
"I think it's My Dad?"
"So, so, horrible!"
"So, so, sad!"
...
"But Lord, I'm still not exactly sure...
"What actually happened to Me?"
"I'm just grab grabbing at straws...
"Streaming and Drraming...
"As if there is this Nasty Demon in My Head!"
"Better off Dead!"
...
"Anyway, My brain is seriously damaged and all that's left is misery!"
"Lost all of...
"The Best of Me?"
...
"Look!"
"They have all kinds of tubes hooked up to Me?"
"And, I heard that nurse state something about the amount of urine that I was emitting?"
"It was incredible!"
"What more can I say?"
"I like my soda and I was at my Nikki's party...
"A part of the Day."
...
"Why did we have to leave so early?"
"Not real God?"
"Then why was I so stupid to drive in that Ford Mustang Convertible?"
"With that Mentally-ill kid?"
"Surely I mist of flipped My...
"FUCKING LID?"
...
"Brian Cole...
"I used to be friends with him...
(I think)
"And, they say, he purposely crashed into the pole on Nautilus Avenue...
"That Horrible March Day!"
"And, now I'm heading in a New Direction?"
"Perhaps some place of perfection?"
...
"Well, don't Shed One Single Tear For Me!"
(Reviewers here at Fan Story!)
"You Never Cry...
"Why?"
"Because, you see, I never *Died!"

Approximate Word Count: 402.

Author Notes

*Died: On March 31st, 2003." "I was a passenger in a Ford Mustang convertible driven by a Srvrnteen year old Maniac named Brian." "Brian Cole." "And, since he belongs to the local 'Suicide Club.' "At Southern Regional High School in Manahawkin, New Jersey and took Me along for... "This Joy Fucking Ride to Hell!" "And, as far as I understand, he's the one that got away with it?" ... "Oh well, hope he enjoys His ride to Hell!" "And, as for Me?" "I'm the one who had to suffer that horrible day." "And, to learn more about the amazing process of... 'Organ- Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dad's dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, I like to thank you for reviewing My Story.. "From the Bottom... "Of My... "Donated Heart to Chaz." ... "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist as well as writer... "My Dad... (Dr. Ricky 1024.) "As well as his picture of Me taken in 2003... "Just Jay"

Chapter 33
It Now Lies Naked As The Soul

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"It Now Lies Naked As The Soul"
Written on January 21st, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
�¿� C.FanStory 2018¿�
************************
"As if lost within My Mind...
"As if My Heart beats...
"Nevermore?"
"As you suddenly open up that Door...
"That Horrid Door and the Crimson, Red, Blood just Pours...
"Reviewers...
"Never, never again...
"My friend."
...
"Wicked and Evil ways... "Approaches and Encroaches Me...
"Cold, Icy, and Boney Fingers grasp a hold of Me!"
"The Pain's threshold is attained!"
"And, Lord I died...
"Yes, oh how I...
*Died...
"But, you see for Me, I tried...
"Yes Dear Lord, I tried but toss this truly My time?"
"To die?"
...
"Wicked and Evil Ways...
"Paths captured in the Haze...
"Waste is imminent and spent...
"But, why oh Lord God, why...
"Did I have to Die?"
...
"My family...
"My poor, poor, family below...
(You know)
"They just cry and cry?"
"Confused as I?"
"But why oh Lord why?" "Again, did I have to Die?"
...
"I remember very, very, little as if something is missing?"
"A piece to My puzzle perhaps?"
"Or some kind of memory relapse?"
...
"Perhaps God it's better this way."
"To forget the things I had lost?"
"No more Sunny of Day."
...
"For there's Angels here and everything now is quite Crystal of Clear!"
"No more darkness...
"No more pains...
"No more worries...
"No more confused as Me for Yes!"
"There's Angels here and now the pains of past are just so vain...
"No more worries for they're that all gone."
...
"For I am Reborn...
"Resurrected and complete...
"Yes, completely protected."
...
"Yes Lord, I lost a family...
"I lost my girlfriend and friends...
"I lost all my future dreams and visions and I lost my Amen's."
"But you know now for Me?"
...
"Even though I am no longer...
"Even though I'm long gone...
"And, as you read this poem...
"I'm finally home...
Approximate Word Count: 326.

Author Notes

*Died: "My only Son Jason was in a horrible car accident on March 31st, 2003." "And, since His injuries to His brain was so severe, we donate his organs on April 1st, 2003." (Which is April Fool's Day) ... "And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "And, The Gift of Life." "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti." "The L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at. '1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, thanks for the bottom of my Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'Little Bogie 007,' and their beautiful picture... "The Eye, a Window to the Soul"

Chapter 34
The Colour of Blue?

By Ricky1024

"The Colour of Blue?"
Written on January 22nd, 2018.
Dr Ricky 1024.
¿.¿ C. FanStory 2018¿.¿

"The color blue means different things to me...
(As well as you)
"First off, my blood runs blue and the color of my eyes are blue...
"As well as the rivers that flow...
"The oceans and seas...
"The many lakes and streams...
"And, sometimes...
"My Nightmares and Dreams...
"All messages from above...
(It seems?)
...
"The color of my rain that falls down on me...
"Is sometimes...
"Sadly blue...
"As well as sometimes for you too."
...
"There are flowers of blue, as well as birds of blue, insects of blue, that are so, so, beautiful too!"
...
"The sky above and Heavenly Father's, eyes are blue and my favorite color is baby blue!"
...
"There is powdered blue of course, as well as turquoise blue...
"Which is also a good choice and that comes in light as well as dark, too!"
...
"There is 'Rhe House of Blues.'
"And in that house there is music that is written and so, so, blue"
"So, so, sad to me and you."
...
"There are candies made of the color blue."
"Like lollipops and Turkish Taffy...
"That are so yummy to my tummy, too!"
...
"Toys as well, like Dollys made from thr color blue."
"And, then again, there's though dreams that are blue."
"Like when I dream of my Lost, Son, Jason, too....
"So, blue can make me feel...
"So, so, very, very, blue...
"And, that is true for me here and other writers I know...
"Too...
....
"The word 'Blue' has many other meanings too."
"Of course, there are other colors that make the color blue."
"And, there's spin-offs of the color blue, like purple too."
...
"I see and feel the rain"
(Above that falls from the sky)
"That can be so, so, blue."
"As well as the "Ring Around the Moon.:
"That means and makes me feel blue...
"And, there could possibly be...
"Snow fall,!so blue?"
...
"If you're feeling sad like me too, you can sometimes dream...
"Dream and dream in the color of blue."
"Which can represent sadness too."
...
"I like to wear blue jeans and blue t-shirts and my pair of shoes...
"Just like that Elvis song that he sung called...
"Blue Suede Shoes."
...
"Every once in awhile there are lighter and spin-off variant colors of blue."
When mixed with green, these thoughts of sadness occasionally appear...
"To make me feel so blue."
"So, I just wash those Blues Away with the sad, sad words I say."
"Yes, just wash these Blues away with the words I present this *Day."
Approximate Word Count: 450.

Author Notes

*Day: "The time I feel the most blue is when I think of my Son Jason who passed away too... "Not on March 31st, 2003 and not in 2002... "Or even from that horrid and a horrible accident too!" "On April 1st, 2003." (Or April Fools Day) "We did the best with those... 'Blues,' by donating Jason's organs." (Which helped to wash our blues) "And, many other people's Blues Away." ... "And, to learn more about the amazing process." "Process of Organ-Tissue Donations." "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. (Who deals with peoples Blues... (Each and every day) "With the Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, tell Lara that Ricky as well as Jason said hello.... "And, thanks from the bottom of my Broken Heart... "As well as My Son Jason's... "Donated Heart... Jason Richard Smrkovsky. November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. (Organs graciously donated on April 1st, 2003). (April Fool's Day) ... "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'Alex Ehrhardt," and his amazing as well as incredible picture... "Blue Daffodil"

Chapter 35
The Disappearance of Me? (A)

By Ricky1024

"The Dissapearance of Me?" (A)
Written on January 23rd, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
<* C. FanStory 2018<*>

"Now You See Me, and Now you don't?"
"Could I possibly still be?"
"Or, maybe I'm not?"
"You see?"
...
"Am I just this mirage, Image or Vision?"
"And Envasion, a reflection in a mirror?"
"That you see?"
"Or is there really more to Me?"
"The Invisible Man?"
"Whom once started an amazing *Band?"
"Or is there really a "Disappearance of Me?"
...
"Now, in order to figure this out you just need to be able to see?"
"And, was I in an accident almost 15 years ago?"
"Yes...
"Was I severely injured in that accident over 15 years ago?"
"Yes, yes...
"And, did I have Severe Brain Damage and Injury?"
"In a coma?"
"And, Raccooned?"
"With little chance?"
"Yes, yes, yes, yes!"
...
"But, did I die?"
"Well, continue to read but I warn you...
"I could make you cry!"
"Especially if you have a son like me."
...
"They say I was born November 5th, 1984 and yes...
"I was in an accident March 31st, 2003 and in order to recover from something like that you need a miracle or blessing you see?"
"And, did I die?"
"Disappear and make you cry yet?"
"Don't place a bet yet?"
...
"Well?"
"It's easy as one, two, three!"
"Just read the editors notes using the key word **Infinity!"
Jay...
Approximate Word Count: 244.

Author Notes

*Band: "Yes!" "I really did start a band at age seventeen!" "And yes!" "I did cut my own CDs called... "Jason's hot Shit!" "And yes!" "I did sell them at my local High School for only a dollar a piece!: "But, the amazing thing you see?" "Is the name of My band!" "Four Ways to Save!" "And, that is exactly what Me and my family did with My Organs!" "Saved four people's lives!" **Infinity: "Forever, Eternity; Everlasting." "And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. "At 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, I thank you from the bottom of my broken Heart and from the bottom of Jason's donated Heart." ********************** "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Dr. Ricky 1024 the Administrator, Preaching the Choir, Fan Art Review view this amazing artist as well as talented and incredible writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024' and his incredible as well as amazing picture... "Just Jay"

Chapter 36
Will I Be With You?

By Ricky1024

"Will I Be With You?"
Written on January 27th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{.} C.FanStory 2018 {.}
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Will I be With You...
"My Love...
"When the Sun no Longer Shines?"
"And, Will I Be With You...
"My Love...
"When the Stars Wander not through the Night Skies?"
...
"Will I Be With You Son...
"When the Moon no Longer Glows...
"The Winter no Longer Snows...
"The Rivers no Longer Flows?"
"Will I Be?"
...
"Will I Be With You, Jay...
"When the Oceans and Seas no Longer Rise?"
"And, Will I Be With You Son...
"Before my Eyes no Longer Cries?"
...
"Will I Be With You...
"Only God knows when and why...
"Maybe, when the Mountains are no Longer So High?"
"Will I Be With You?"
"And, Will I Be With You Jay, the Day that I Die?"
...
"Will I Be With You...
"Before my Songs and Poems no Longer Appear and I am No Longer Here?"
"Will I Be With You... "My Only Son Above...
"Someday when my Broken Heart no Longer Beats with Your Love...
"My Body no Longer Greets...
"When the Oceans no Longer Meets...
"The Bay?"
"Wiill I Be With You Son....
"Someday?"
...
"And, when my Broken Heart no Longer Beats...
"I can no Longer stand on My, Own, Two, Feet...
"My Body can no Longer Be...
"And, my Soul...
"No Longer Belongs to Me...
"Son, will I Be With *You?"
Approximate Word Count: 244.

Author Notes

*You: "And to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. "At 1-800-DONORS-1.' "And, thanks from the bottom of my Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ***************************"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Doctor Ricky 1024 the Administrator? "Fan Art Review, this amazing as well talented artist and writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture... "Jason Before and After"

Chapter 37
Will I Be With You, My Love? (B)

By Ricky1024

"Will I Be With You, My Love?" (B)
Written on January 27th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{.} C.FanStory 2018 {.}
***********************
"When l Be With You, My Love...
"When My Time comes Near...
"When the Sunset is Again Here...
"When the Moon and Stars Above...
"Forget to Shed Their Love?"
"When Will I Be...
...
"When Will I Be With You?"
"When the Light forgets to Be...
"When My Broken Heart Forgets...
"Forgets to Cry?"
"When Will I Be?"
...
"When Will I Again, Be With You My Love?"
"Before My tired Body Forgets to?"
"Forgets the reason Why... "Before the Universe... "Wanders Far and Wide...
"Will I Be With Thee?"
...
"And, Will I Be With You My Love?:
"When the Autumn Trees forget their many Yellowed and Ambered Leaves...
"Shed their Acorns from thier Oak Trees?:
"Yes Lord God, will I be?"
...
"Will I Be With You...
"When the Earth Forgets when Her many Volcanoes Erupt...
"When finally the World forgets to Corrupt...
"Could it possibly be Lord God...
"When The Frigid Icebergs begins to Melt?"
"Will I Be...
....
"Be With You Darling...
"Before all will I be...
"Just For ever and Ever...
"Lost Memories?"
"When Will I Be...
Approximate Word Count:
208.

Author Notes

*Felt: "Carolyn passed away only eight months after our only Son Jason on November 23rd, 2003" (An apparent suicide and successful attempt) "As she abstained from her necessary medications for her Heart." Carolyn Ann Smrkovsky. December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003. ********************** "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his son Jesus the Christ, FanStory, Dr. Ricky 1024, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer, Dr.Ricky 1024, and his amazing and beautiful picture picture... "Carolyn Ann Smrkovsky"

Chapter 38
Painting My Life Away?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Painting My Life Away?"
Written on January 29th, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
{.}C. FanStory2018{.}
**March 3rd, 2003**
"How do you tell your story...
"Your story...
(Especially ftom the grave?)
"I will attempt to now... "From My Broken Mind...
"Through My...
"Very own Living Father...
...
"My name is Jason but some call me Jay."
"And, That's okay."
"Always did things...
(My own way)
"And, the best way"
...
"As a Peer Mediator, Musician, and Auto Mechanic...
"At the age, of only eighteen, I'd started My own *Band."
(If you know what I mean)
"But, before you know it, sometimes comes knocking at your door?"
"And he takes his palette, dabs on a little paint, starts on his mural, to create."
...
"You see, there's this thing called...
"Destiny and Fate."
...
"Now first on the mural and palette, there is a long road...
"An automobile...
Alot of Pain...
"Me in the passenger seat...
"Is this starting to get a little bit vain?"
"Hang on there!"
...
Let's just take that car...
"A Ford Mustang Convertable...
"Shift this car all the way into third gear....
"This car...
(Raced professionally once)
"At Atco New Jersey Raceway in Taco, New Jersey...
"And yes, into 3rd Gear... "Running straight into...
"A FUCKING TELEPHONE POLE AT 100MPH."
...
"Nw listen carefully for the first noise...
(You're here hitting the curb)
(Now the Pole)
"And up onto the pole...
(About Eight Feet)
"And then after it hits the ground...
"There won't even be a sound?"
...
"Many vehicles will appear as if it's some kind of Polish nightmare Joke."
(I hear)
"But, I can't hear a damn thing?"
"Not even a Church Bell from Heaven or Hell, that now rings?"
...
"So, he now paints a picture on the pallette or mural...
(Of what's left)
"What he can find... "What's left of Me...
"Up there...
...
"And, here I am and here I lie above This 'Earthly **Sky."
Approximate Word Count: 330.

Author Notes

*Band: "Four Ways to Save" Note : "Jason saved four lives with His Organs." **Sky: "To learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "And donate." (As my Son Jason did) "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania." "At 1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and Jason's Donated Heart... ********************** "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Dr.Ricky 1024 the New Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist as well as nd talented writer.... 'Dr.Ricky 1024 and his incredible as well as beautiful picture of his Son... "Jason Before and After"

Chapter 39
Side By Side

By Ricky1024

"Side By Side"
Written on February 1st, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
&*&C.FanStory2018&*&
"Carry Me...
"Take Me...
"Away...
"And Lord, take me to that greater place...
"Where all they do is Say...
...
"Take me above...
"To the Blue Horizon...
"Far, far, up in the night sky...
"Take me away Lord...
"Forever and away...
"Relinquish those tears that I so Cry!"
...
"Yes, take me away... "High above the Night Sky."
"To a place I know exists...
"In a Child's Lullaby."

****

"Complete me Lord and make me feel whole again"
"For I am no longer...
"And, I am past but still Bolder...
"But now colder?"
"As I Rise...
...
"Take me away Lord but don't take Your Eyes off of Me."
"Watch Me...
"Guide Me...
"Teach Me why?"
"But don't cry for Me...
"Just because I Died...
...
"But you can pray for Me...
"For, I am now gone but I'm coming home Dad."
...
"And, don't forever be so sad...
"For I walked with!you and hold you Deep inside...
"And, soon we will be...
"Side By Side."
Approximate Word Count: 187.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist, 'cleo85,' and her incredible picture... "Nereus"

Chapter 40
Message from Above!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Message from Above!" (A)
Written on February 11th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory 2018<*>
"World of Mine!"
"World Below!"
"What's the Good Word?"
"I want you now to know!"
...
"The winner of the 2018 SuperBowl?"
"How many years do the have left?"
"If Thee will be successful and Rich?"
"But, however can Thee?"
"If Ye work not and treat all as Your Bitch, Bitch?"
Switch...
...
"Wake Up World Of Mine!"
"Stop your unnecessary boozing, stealing, raping, and murdering!"
"Stop your unnecessary disregard for My Word!"
"And, you know who you are!"
...
"You dishonor amd disgrace Me!"
"And, you disgrace and do not honor My Ten Commandments!"
"You live not by the Seven Angelic Laws of Bliss!"
"But by the "Seven Deadly Sins!"
"Based on the "Seven Laws of Judication!"
...
"The Tobacco Industry times Three!"
"The Big Three Oil Industries!" "Telecommunication and the Banking Industry!"
...
"Stop promoting the Poisoning of My clean Earth!"
"Stop Polluting My Land, Seas, Oceans, and Air!"
"Do you still care?"
...
"You treat My Earth as some sort of Disease!"
The Air above as I Weeze!"
"You devastate My Land and Trees!"
...
"Stop sucking the "Lifeblood of My Earth!"
"And, stop pumping the Oils of My Earth's Core to My Surface!"
"Stop Poisoning the lungs and bodies of All My Children!"
"Stop Stealing and looting their accounts with your petty Internet Thievery!"
Switch...
...
"Instead, start giving and helping!"
"Start Drilling Water Wells, Assisting, and Loving your Fellow Man!"
"Understand?"
Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.
<><><><><><><><><><>
"The Devil's Bible" (B)
Written on August 26th, 2013
3:30PM.
WARNING!"
"This piece was found in an old box of Unknown Origin!"
"Read carefully if you so desire and dare!"
"And tread not...
...
"Want everything?"
"Treat all always and Unfairly!"
"And, Never Dishonor but always follow Me!"
"The Lord of Darkness, Satan!"
"The Commanding Commandments of the Devil!"
...
Number One:
"Thou shall not honor the Lord!"
Number Two:
"Thou shalt Always Forever and Ever Kill!"
Number Three:
"Thou shalt commit Adultery and Convent Thy Neighbors Wives!"
Number Four:
"Thou shall Rape and Thieve!"
Number Five:
"Thou shall believeth in only Me!"
Number Six:
"Thou shall free all Serpents and other Nasty Creations!"
Number Seven:
"Your not to Beliveth in Heaven!"
Number Eight:
"Thou shalleth delve and Practice the Black Arts and Black Magic!"
Number Nine:
"Thou shall Recruit all Sinners!"
Number Ten:
"Thou shalt drink Thine Spirits and use illegal Drugs!"
...
The Nature of Creation?"
A:"Earth was created by my twin Christ!"
B."I was Besieged and sent to the Neverworld because I Sinned!"
(A Lie!)
C."The Vastness of the Universe is because...
'Two Evil Stars' collapsed in 722 Million-Negative BC!"
D."Adam never wanted Eve until Heavenly Father got involved!"
"And, He was happy with the Earthly Pets!"
E."Moses, Noah, Aaron, David, John, and the Apostles are Myths!"
"They never ever did exist!"
<><><><><><><><><><>
"Ritualistical, Transitical, Unresistable Faults and Thoughts!"
"In order to create Evil you need Enchantments, Crystal Ball of Corruption, Spices of Anti-matter and Incantations!"
(Theology 666!)
...
"Enchantments!"
"Order My Santanic Book Entitled...
"Creating Evil 1- 2- 3 at your local Santanic Witchery or Barnes and Un-Noble."
"Or just call My cell phone at 1-800-The Evil Of Me!"
...
"Crystals!"
"Locate Evil stones that are clear and melt in a Satanic Well of Deception!"
...
"Spices of Antimatter!"
"First, find yourself a good store in either Vermont or Massachusetts."
( Preferably in Salem)
"Collecting these following items."
"Witch Hair."
(Possessed)
"Bat's Scars, Monkey Balls with Aids, Warlock Ear Wax, A Murdered Saints Heart tissue, and Black Spice!"
...
"Incantations."
"First pray to Me but only ask for my fake name...
'Bazabug!"
"Then take ten steps forward...
"Duplicate with ten steps backward twice as you curse the Lord Jesus Christ!"
"Slaughter a Goat, Pig, Cat or Dog."
(Preferably a black cat)
Slaughter a child of two."
"Finally, light a fire as you drawl a Pentagram and wait until Twelve Midnight."
"Then, light Twelve Black Candles and once that they are exhausted...
"Recite these words...
...
"Evil Lord Cast Away all my good as You should!"
"Recreate one Demon and Demonize me!"
"Take my Soul, poke it, choke it, and promote it in HELL!"
Approximate Word Count: 711.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'BRUCEIORIO,' and her incredible picture... "Below Heaven and Above Earth"

Chapter 41
Valentine's Heart

By Ricky1024

"Valentine's Heart"
Written on February 13th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C.FanStory 2018 <*>
"Mickey had his love for Minnie...
"True love created by genius who now lives very, very, far above...
"While Popeye had his Olive of Oil but his best friend Wimpy's love... "Was for burgers, never fried...
"But always boiled."
...
"Samson had his black and curled locks cut!"
"His powers zapped!"
"He was chaind!"
"Beaten!"
"And, then finally mocked!"
"And, turned into a pariah?"
"All because of the love of a beautiful woman named Delilah!"
...
"Marilyn Monroe starred and sailed down a river in a movie titled...
"River of No Return."
"She eventually married a playwright by the name of Miller...
"Divorced him and remarried the CEO Slugger of all baseball named Joe DiMaggio."
(Who did not know that J.F.K. was in the way!)
...
"Raquel Welch started in a movie called...
"One Million Years B.C."
"And, I personally fell in love with her and her poster...
I always kept above it right above my bed so...
...
"Love...
"See all...
"But want not...
"Crave all but get not!"
(Theology 40.06)

****

"Bo Derek starred in the movie...
"Ten."
"And carried her beautiful body along a beach to the music of 'Boleros's Rhapsody,' as Dudley Moore wanted more but...
"You say true love doesn't always last for an eternity and there's been so many hearts broken....
"And, there's been so many Hearts hurting."
...
"Elizabeth Taylor had many, many, times...
"Her Richard of Burton" "And, if Love truly does exist...
"And, you truely do believe...
"Then...
"True Love must go back all the way back to...
"Adam and Eve?"
Approximate Word Count: 283.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer... 'cleo85,' and her incredible picture... "Love"

Chapter 42
Miracles from Heaven?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Miracles from Heaven?"
Written on February 17th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*>C. FanStory 2018<*>

"Miracle"
(Something not explicable, by Scientific Laws)
Theoloy 40.06)
...
"When I was younger, I first noticed that Miracles can come true?"
"And, as time passed, I would be tested...
"Not once...
"But many, many, times!"
...
"Dad?"
Yes Son?
"Can I go out and play with Tommy and Brandon?"
Yes but be home in time for supper, Son.
...
"Somehow, Time Heals all but the many Scars?"
Theology 40.07)
...
"And, the message is Crystal Clear!"
"When my first born... "And, natural daughter Corrine Alexis was born she was born...
"Unfortunately, she was colic."
"And, for seven, long, months...
"We fed her Similac and Enfamil"
Note:
"Way back in the 80's...
"Isomil did not exist!"
"But,with...
"The Miracle of Love and Patience."
"I had the good sense to walk her round and round the Christmas tree."
"And, ever so slowly the crying would stop."
"And, she would fall asleep in my gentle arms."
"Fascinated with the many, many, colored lights!"
...
"Now, begore my youngest, natural, daughter Dana Alyse was born."
"She was not colic but there were several issues?"
...
"The first was the fetal monitor!"
"You see, as the many contractions persisted...
"The Fetal Monitor went backwards?"
"And, when it hit 100,
My Heart dropped and I knew something was wrong?"
"You see, before the fetus was in distress...
"The normal Heart beats around a hundred and sixty."
"And, the second issue was yes..
"The Damned Cord had been wrapped around Dana's neck not once...
"But, FUCKING TWICE!"
...
"And, I did have the good sense to listen...
"Not to some dumb Barry Manilow Song like...
"Mandy."
"But, to my 'Gut Feeling.'...
"And, as her Heartbeat reversed below one hundred...
"My wife Carolyn said..
"It's okay."
"The babies just turning?"
"FUCKING BULL SHIT!"
"But, by the Good Sense and 'My Gut Feeling.' "And, preserverance."
"Finally, baby Dana was released from...
"The Strangulation Chamber."
"Of Doom and Gloom!"
...
"To make a long Story short...
"My wife Carolyn and I had ourselves a normal and beautiful baby girl!"
...
"Many, many, years would go by and I would again be tested a third time?"
"And yes, our Only Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky."
"Would be taken away...
"That Horrid, ever so Horrid...
"MARCH 2003 DAY!"
"With the Miracle of Death?"
"And, it would take away my very, last, breath!"
...
"But, by the Miracle of Death...
"The Miracle or The Gift of *Life?"
Approximate Word Count: 430.

Author Notes

*Life: "To learn more about "Organ-Tissue Donations." "And, how my Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky.: "Not only donated His major organs but saved four lives almost fifthteen years ago... ... "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life.' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. "At 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my Heart and Jason's donated Heart." ... "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'eleen0204,' and her incredible as well as beautiful picture... "God's Craft"

Chapter 43
Soul 2 Soul?

By Ricky1024

"Soul 2 Soul?"
Written on February 18th, 2018
By Richard and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
(A Dedication)
{�¿} C. FanStory 2018{�¿}

"Dad?"
Yes Son?
"Why Dad?"
"Why Dad did I have to DIE?"
...
"Well Son, as far as I can understand, it was your time."
"But, I was only 18 Dad."
...
"Now, time passes and the Years shall blend...
"Blend together...
"In a Slushin Blur of Loneliness...
"Understand...
"There will be missed Holidays...
"There will be missed Birthdays...
"Missed Graduations...
"And, it got so bad...
"I began to curse the Lord for Living!"
"Curse the Lord Jesus Christ for not Giving!"
"Giving me a second chance to Die...
"And God how I tried?"
"I tried to be with *He."
...
"I tried all that I knew!"
"I tried suicide not once but three times at once?"
"I purposefully crashed a couple of cars!"
"A couple of motorcycles!"
"And, I was even ran over while riding a bicycle three, damned, times?"
"But, when I tell this amazing story...
"It's always the same?"
...
"There's a reason free Ricky to be here...
"And, not there...
...
"Well, after almost 15 years of this crap...
"Waking up each and every day...
"Eating and sleeping again...
"Watching TV over and over again...
"Going to church for Relief...
"Mental Hospitals and programs...
"Family and friends houses...
"Nothing seems to work ...
"Work for me God?"
"That was when I began to realize that yes...
"We all have a reason...
"Yes!"
"A reason to be here!"
"And, no matter how painful it may seem...
"No matter how bad the depressions...
"No matter how bad the grief and pains...
"And, no matter how horrid...
"And, horrible the Toll... Soul 2 Soul?"
Approximate Word Count : 294.

Author Notes

*He: "And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1--800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart... "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as nd talented artist and writer... 'Ricky 1024.' "And, my incredible but so sad picture... "Ashes 2 Ashes Dust 2 Dust"

Chapter 44
Shadows of Substance

By Ricky1024

"Shadows of Substance"
Written on February 21st, 2018
Dr Ricky 1024.
�¿� C.FanStory2018�¿�

"My Thoughts are a jumbled mess...
"Misconceptions that will always last."
"The Many Whos, Whens, and Whys...
"Never to forget...
"Continuous Fountain of Cry...
...
"So, here I sit and here I Journal...
"On my way to a Pulitzer Prize-winning Author...
"Someday?"
...
"All, I Remember When's, Lets Pretends...
"Fractured and Captured in some Horrid of Rapture!"
...
"Oh why Dear Lord why?"
"Did this have to happen to me?"
"Was I not worthy of aThee?"
"Was I not attendant...
"Attendant as could be?"
"Forever Haunted in an Eerie Dance...
"Just one Glance...
"JUST ONE MORE CHANCE?"
"Shadows of Substance."
Approximate Word Count: 121.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented and gifted artist and writer... 'cleo85,' and his incredible picture... "Lights at Night"

Chapter 45
Peaceful Tis this Bliss with Grace

By Ricky1024

"Peaceful Tis this Bliss with Grace"
Written on February 22nd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
â?? C.FanStory2018â??

"An Angel sleeps below...
"Dreaming of many beautiful things I know."
"Playing quietly, video games on his Xbox 360 and dreaming of a Time...
"When he can finally be...
"With his Uncle *Jason."
...
"An Angel sleeps below...
"As he rides his Chariot through the Stars...
"Far, far, above...
"Reaching out and touching everyone he meets...
"With his wonderful and perfect Love...
"Touching planets and connecting the Stars...
"A darling of the night...
"That you are...
...
"An Angel sleeps below...
"Blissful and Peaceful...
"Beautiful Bluen Eyes...
"Oh, how he so lights up...
"That dreary night sky...
"With his Blessed whispered cries...
...
"An Angel sleeps below...
"Peaceful and blessed with Grace...
"And, as he dreams...
"No secrets will he keep...
"Precious Memories all in place...

Approximate Word Count: 150.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist as well as writer.... 'Dr.Ricky1024.' "And his incredible picture and beautiful picture... "An Angel Sleeps Below"

Chapter 46
Heaven is Real? (Conclusion)

By Ricky1024

"Heaven is Real?"(Conclusion)
Written on February 23rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(Based on True Events)
£�? C.FanStory 2018£¿¥

"Is Heaven Real?"
"Really for Real?"
"Or just some...
'Synthetic By-Product' found on a Holy Shelf?"
"Judge for yourselves...
...
"Colton was only three, years, old."
"His mother Sonja said that he was an Active Child with an Active Imagination."
"Active until he got extremely sick!"
"You see, for little Colton Shelton...
"He would become sick...
"As sick as sick...
"Could ever be?"
...
"The year was 2007...
"Tom And Sonja were expecting a little boy and yes...
"It would make up for the lost of their first daughter, Cassie, who was 'Still Born."
...
"Yes, Tom and Sonja were devastated with Cassie but Colton...
"Would more than make up for it?"
...
"After Colton's birth, family and friends would say that Colton was 'A Gift from God!'
...
"Colton who's your Mommy?"
"Sonja."
"Colton who's your Daddy?"
"Thomas."
"And Colton, how old are you today on your birthday?"
"Three Mommy."
...
"Yes, not only was Colton a very active child but for his age...
"Smart as a Whip!"
"But you see, for that precious, little, baby...
"He would be born with a bad deck of cards?"
...
"After his third birthday, Colton got sick...
"Very, Very, sick...
"So sick that he wouldn't and couldn't stop vomiting!"
...
"Colton Shelton developed an 'Appendicitis!'
"And, the infection was Ravaging through the little boy's system!"
"Gravely Sick and ill, they took him to Saint Mary's Prespetarian Hospital in downtown Dallas."
"And, Pasture Tom was so devestated, that he cursed the Lord...
...
"God, did I not serve You well?"
"Do all, that You expected me too?"
"THEN, WHY ARE YOU TAKING MY ONLY CHILD AWAY?"
"End of Part Number One!"

"Part Number Two."
"Colton Sees Heaven?"
Written on February 23rd, 2018
"In critical condition, Tom and Sonja had no choice?"
"As they were wheeling little Colton to the 'Operating Theater' the movie...
"Soon to play was called...
"Colton Sees Heaven?"
By Heavenly Father.
Starring His Son Jesus the Christ, Angels, Cassie, and Pops."

****

"As Mom and Dad watched them wheel Colton AWAY, he cried out....
Daddy, Mommy, don't let them take me!"
"Take me away!"
"I'll die!!!"
...
"In tears, Tom went to a Special Room in the Hospital to reflect and pray...
"Sonja was resting and needed to be sedated."
...
"Dear Lord, I am grateful and sorry to curse You so!"
"If it is my only Son Colton's Time...
"Please forgive me?"
Amen.
...
"For three, long, hours Thomas waited...
"Praying for a miracle as Doctor Roberson said there was only a slim chance."
"They waited too long....
...
"Under Anesthesia, Colton's tiny Heart had Stopped?"
The rest is 'Colton's Story' in my and his words...
...
"I saw three Angels come down to me."
"The first Angel lifted...
"Da otter two too."
"The first Angel had a long and white dress...
"It flowed with purple design."
"I knew He was Special cause He had marks on His wists and ankrls...
"They all lifted me and da one with the marks told me..
...
"I am taking you Colton, to a Special Place with Special People.
End of Part Number Two!
Conclusion Today...

"Colton Now Sees Heaven!"
(Conclusion)
Written on February 23rd, 2018
By Colton Shelton and Ricky
(In Colton's Words)
...

"Two Angels and Jesus, gently carried my sic body above."
"Hold on Colten Shelton!"
Jedus said ta me!
"I felt no longer anty pain or anty fears?"
"It was crystal clear!"
"Note: "Even though at the young age of only three, Colton was not confused?"
"But, quite content with this journey."
...
"After passing through...
'Seven Layers of Beautiful Clouds.'
(Of all different colors)
"They finally came to rest and Jesus said to Colton...
...
"Somebody here wants to meet you!"
"Somebody that knows of you!"
"But, someone that you've never met before!"
"And, he calls himself 'Pops!'
...
"Hi Colton"
"I mean Colton Shelton!"
"I am your grandfather...
Your Daddy's dad!"
...
"And, do you know that when your Daddy Tommy was a little older...
"A little older than you...
"He worked on my farm!"
"And, he was a good worker like you!"
"And, I'm sure you would be a good worker on my new form here in Heaven...
"But, you have somebody else you still have to meet!"
...
"Then, a little girl about the same age as Colten, appeared?"
"She had blue eyes and redddened hair."
"And, she was dressed in the most beautiful, pink, dress that you ever did see!"
...
"She came up to Colton...
"Introduced herself...
"And, started hugging him?"
"And, showering him with hugs...
"As well as kisses and said...
...
"I'm your big, baby, sister Cassie!"
"Cassie Shelton and I'm so happy to finally meet you!"
"And, I knew you would come to us one day and me and Pops!"
"But, the man here wants to talk to you now...
"You know...
"Jesus!"
"And, Jesus said...
...
"Colton Shelton, it is not your Time."
"And, your dad misses you so much that he is praying below"
"Praying for his sins?"
"He thinks that this is all his fault?"
"And he wants you back."
"After four, long, months in the hospital...
...
"We never knew until many years later, that Colton so Heaven!"
"The fact that he described Christ's Crucified Marks and exactly...
"My Dad, 'Pops,' and a sister he never met...
"Convinced me...
"Thomas R.Shelton that...
"Heaven is Rea!"
Approximate and Estimated Word Count 1,000.(940)
24.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist, 'booklotto,' and their beautiful picture... "Window of Heaven"

Chapter 47
Just a Breath Away? (A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Just a Breath Away?" (A)
Written on February 25th, 2018 (A Dedication to Jay)
By Doctor Ricky 1024
�¢?� C.FanStory 2018�¢?

"When I think of You...
"I tried to remember when...
"Everything was okay...
"My Little Buddy *Friend."
...
"And, when my eyes are teary...
"And, when my body's weary...
"Sad and Blue...
"I think of you and nothing...
"Nothing Jay but You...
...
"When I think of You my Love...
"I can feel You tremble in my Touch...
"That So Ever Horrid Day...
"The Hand of Fate...
"Took You away...
...
"And, I can't take much more...
"I'm on the Edge...
"Looking down...
"At that So, deep, crack...
"I can't go back...
"I can't go back...
...
"But suddenly You appear...
"As if in a Dream...
"I know Your here...
"And, I suddenly feel much better inside...
"All the Endless Tears...
"The tearing that collides...
"Go away...
"My Love, my Jay...

****
"So sad these memories inside...
"And, when my World goes upside down and collides...
"I then think way back when...
"We did so many things together...
"My very, special, friend."
...
"Yes, I think of You my Son and remember...
"As the rainbows appear from up there ...
"For that's when nothing bothers me...
"I have not a problem or a care...
"When I think of you Jay."
...
"I remember that Special day when you hitched a ride upon my back."
"The thoughts of me...
"Holding You and the waves back...
"Still takes my breath away...
"I said...
"Hold on tight Son to the sand bar before we are done!"
"And, the waves just took us away...
"And, I remember...
"Remember that Special... "That very Special day...
...
"And, I remember when you didn't even shed a single tear when your basketball team lost every single game...
"That sad, sad, year...
"But then later in the following year, when your team won every game...
"You shot three...
'Three Pointers' and gave this Little Devilish Grin...
"That time You helped your team finally win...
"Each and every game...
"Those memories and many more...
"Will never Wane."
...
"When I think of You Jay and hurt so deeply inside...
"Those happy thoughts and sad memories etched within...
"Can never be taken away... "Just like that sad, sad, day Jay...
"You passed away...
...
"But, God wrapped His Gentle Arms around You and said...
...
"Come with Me...
"My Son...
"My Jay...
"Because Heaven is...
"Just A Breath **Away?"
Approximate Word
Count: .
<><><><><><><><><><><>
"Just Many, Many, Breaths Away?" (B)
"As my...
'Bulged Supply of Memories' manipulate their way Forth."
"I shall shovel and share again...
"This Sweet Gift to you!"
"My Fanstorian friends!"
...
"And, I shall write this for thee with all my Broken of Heart but as happy as a Bumblebee in Flight!"
"So, hold on very, very, tight!"
"For Jay's Death...
"Is just...
"Just Many, Many, Breaths Away?"

****

"Cool and Clammy tis this Brian Cole as he grabbed the 'Death Wheel' ready to spread his Evil...
'Doom and Gloom!'
"His Suicidal Game!"
"That's his ***Aim?"
...
"Slowly very, very, slowly... "Blackened Clouds of Grief see or seek some form of relief?"
"As they watch from far above!"
...
"First, it started with a little Trickle...
"And then, a little Tickle down...
'Old Memory Lane.'
"Nothing gathered...
"Nothing gained...
"And, then soon...
"Suddenly, with a Great Deluge into my Sorried Brain!"
...
"Hitting a pole at close to 100 miles per hour will do that to you!"
"Even not in the car...
"I heard the jar...
"A block away!"
"That Sad, oh Sad...
"Not so glad of Day!"
"For this we now need to Pray...
...
"My Dear Lord and God,
"I know Your work above is hard!"
"And, I know that Your hard at Your job above...
"But please oh please don't take away My Love?"
"My only Son named Jay?"
...
"As 'Blackened Clouds' release...
"A Thunderclap Roar...
"Rain and lightning Pour...
"But then...
"A Gentle pair of arms appear?"
"They came down and caress my Jay?"
"And, then took Him away?"
...
"Oh Lord, Oh Dear!"
"Am I not a servant to You?"
"And, do I not do exactly what You needed me to do?"
...
"My son, my son!"
"Your Son's job below is almost now done!"
"For soon four people living in 'Doom and Gloom' will get a second chance!"
"Yes, a Second Chance at...
'The Great Dance!'
...
"The first is very, very, young girl from South Jersey!"
"And she will dance her way to Freedom!"
"No more dialysis for this little Miss!"
(I must insist!)
...
"Noe the second...
"Will get Eight more years of Bliss!"
"With just a little Kiss!"
"And, a new Liver which will suddenly appear!"
...
"The third named Bill will get Jay's right kidney today!"
"The right one from your Son!"
"So, there will be no more diabolical straining and draining for poor Bill!"
"No more dialysis anymore still!"
...
"But, yes!"
"The very, very, last whom almost ran out of gas!"
"I shall save...
"Yes, save for last!"
...
"For he...
(Chaz from Philly)
"Will make himself known to you!"
"Not once or twice!"
"But three times and live again!"
"My well worn froend!"
...
"And, there's more reason to this rhyme because of you dad and your Son Jay!"
...
"The Orgon donor is with me now and on His way... "And as He comes back to Heaven fresh and renewed today...
"Always remember this that your Son Jay is no longer...
"Just Many, Many, Breaths Away!"
Approximate Word Count:
937.

Author Notes

*Friend: My first... "Buddy Friend" Written on April 14th, 2003 on days after my son's death. (A Dedication and Trophy Winner) By Richard Edward Smrkovsky "I'm not here right now but I'm not far away... "I'm in a place close by like a Star... "You'll feel this Place... "Just take a moment... "You'll see... "Then you Will know... "Just Where I'll be... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th,1984~ March 31st, 2003 Organs Donated on April First (April Fool's Day) **Away: "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations' simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... 1-800-DONORS-1. "And, thanks from the bottom of my Heart and my son Jay's donated Heart... ***Aim: "It's hard to believe that a seventeen-year-old mentally ill child.. "On a drug called Effexor for depression... "Driving a Ford Mustang raced at Atco Raced at in Atco, New Jersey... "Could possibly be... "Part of some... "Demented Suicidal Club." "At a local High School?" <><><><><><><><><><> "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist as well as writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture, "Jay, Sasha, and Alexander"

Chapter 48
As Cold As Ice!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"As Cold As Ice!"
Written on February 26th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*> C.FanStory 2018 <*>

"A Touch of Fridgid Acid permeates the Air."
"I feel nothing much...
"But, His Horrid Touch?"
"I shiver, then shake, try to forget...
"As Heaven Quakes!"
...
"A voice Pierces the Air, as it approaches with Deadly Care?"
"Come now with me Meer and Meek Mortal!"
"Here, take My Boney White and Ebony Hand!"
...
"Shivers Forsakes my Sullen Soul as if this Messager of Death would had taken It's Toll?"
...
"Hold on!"
I Said.
"I was supposed to meet or see my only Son Jay?"
"He laughed and struck me down?"
"Down to that Filfthy of ground!"

****

"What's going on here?"
I Questioned?
"He laughed again and bellowed with glee, like some Evil Santa of Clause!"
...
"I said look...
"I don't know who the Hell or what the Hell you are and...
"I DONT GIVE...
"A FLYING FUCK!"
"I WANT TO SEE MY SON JAY!"
...
"The Blackened Clouds lifted...
"The Golden Light Rain...
"Remained as the 'Brilliant Sun warmed my tired of face...
"And, then these amazing words came from some unknown place?"
...
"Do not worry...
"And, do not fear!"
"The Evil Of Presence...
"I made never again to APPEAR!"
...
"I HAVE YOUR ONLY SON JASON NOW, AND HE IS HERE WITH ME...
"AND, ONE, FINE, OF DAY...
"WHEN YOUR TIME HAS COME HERE TO STAY...
"YOU WILL FINALLY BE...
"WITH YOUR ONLY SON JAY...
Approximate Word Count: 261.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist, 'avmurry,' and her incredible picture... "The Girl in the Ice"

Chapter 49
Writing With All My Heart

By Ricky1024

"Writing With All My Heart"
Written on November 5th, 2017
By Doctor Ricky and Jason
(A Dedication)
¥�¿�¥ C.FanStory 2017 �¿¥

"I'm writing this with...
"All of My Heart to you today."
"On my Birthday."
"Yes, today will always will be My Birthday and that will never change."
...
"But, you see for Me, I don't age anymore"
"I have not gained or lost any weight anymore."
"Not even an ounce."
"And, I don't drink or sleep?"
"I have not taken a sip...
"A sip of soda or water now in over fourteen years."
"Do you know why?"
...
Yes, I never sleep or watch TV anymore, don't drive anymore or go to see a movie anymore."
"I don't go to Mickey D's or Friday's anymore."
"Do you know why?"
"I stopped going to Sam Goody's to buy?"
"And, I haven't ever had a cold in over a decade!"
...
"I wear the same clothes and my hair never grows."
"Why did I stop going to school and I'll never graduate?"
"Nor play the drums in My *Band...
"Anymore?"
...
"I don't work with my dad anymore and there is a reason why?"
"Please don't cry
for Me on my Eighteenth Birthday...
(You See?)
...
"There will be no gifts or cake, let alone a turkey or Christmas of present under a Pine Tree."
"Yes, on my birthday I left a present behind...
(You see)
"And, see if you can figure it out?"
"As I left this part out."
...
"For yes, I died I'm now...
'Writing With All of My Heart'
Approximate Word Count: 273.

Author Notes

*Band: "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist... 'GaliaG,' and their beautiful picture... "Dancing Heart"

Chapter 50
Daddy's Little Girl

By Ricky1024

"Daddy's Little Girl"
Written on February 27th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
<><><><><>******<><><><><>
"Once Upon a Time, Monsters lived in closets and Angels danced on Clouds."
"All my scrapes and boo boos were the only things I knew?"
...
"No World existed outside my Daddy's arms and tender Charms."
"And, my head cradled carefully on his shoulder where I could dance with him for hours."
...
"Every Fairytale ended with 'Happily Ever Afters.'
'Every night with a Million Kisses."
...
"Yes, I was the Princess Ballerina!"
"And, my Imagination was my Stage...
"No one ever interrupted the dance."
"I was my own little Princess and my Daddy was my Only Prince."
...
"Once Upon a Time... Monsters Roamed the Streets and Angels faded with the Sun."
"I learned what it meant to cry."
"The Real World took me in and invited me to stay."
"And my Daddy told me I could go away?"
...
"The hours faded into minutes?"
"The Happily-Ever-Afters tainted with Reality?"
"And, I forgot that there were bedtime kisses...
"And, I Love Yous?"
...
"I now learned I wasn't the only Ballerina in the World?"
"And, that it was a crowded Stage?"
"Everyone wanted to dance...
...
"Once Upon a Time...
"Monsters lived in closets and Angels danced on Clouds."
"Every Daddy had a Princess and every Princess now had a Prince."
"But my Daddy is and always will be...
"Forever for *Me...
Approximate Word Count: 240.

Author Notes

*Me: "This is a Re-write, a Gift from a Princess whom got her Prince back... "Thanks to my Son Jason's Heart and Lungs." <><><><><><><><><><><> "And, to learn more about Organ-Tissue Donations... "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life" "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my Heart and my Son Jays." <><><><><><><><><><><> "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Spn Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist... 'jesuel', and their beautiful picture... "Sunrise Girl"

Chapter 51
The Day the Lord Took Away My Jay?

By Ricky1024

"My Blue Skies Be Gone?"
"When I think of You...
"My Darkened Skies turn Blue...
"My World becomes more Clear...
"Because of You...
"My Stars Flicker...
"But go away?"
"Why Dear Lord why?"
"Did you take my Heart away...
"Today?"
...
"The Winds Willow and Chill...
"As if I've taken some kind of...
"Chill Without A Will Pill?"
"This is the way Lord, that it's supposed to be?"
"You for You?"
"And, Me for Me?"
...
"My Dear Lord what am I supposed to do or say?"
"And, why did you take my Jay...
"Away?"

****

"The Music stopped and my Broken Heart hit the floor!"
"My Cup of Runneth Over spilled and you drained my Bottle...
"Of, Chill Pills?"
...
"My Soul Shattered and Scattered to...
'The Four Ends of Pretends?'
"And, my Body started to Shiver and Quiver?"
"The Lights Went down...
"The Curtains drawn...
"The Music Seized and Dark replaced the Dawn?"
...
"But, I realized that something's are meant to be?"
"To Be or to Be Not?"
"That's not up to me...
...
"How I wish my Son was here...
"But I know that I Can't always have my way...
"The Day the Lord Took Away
"My Jay."
Approximate Word Count 210.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist... 'supergold and their beautiful picture... "Sailing Under the Rainbow"

Chapter 52
That You Could Mourne Me

By Ricky1024

"That You Could Mourne Me
Written on March 5th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dedication)
Note: This is my first...
"March Poem...
"To Honor My Son Jason on the 15th Anniversary of His Death."
March 31st, 2003.
Based on the song...
"Mandy."
(By Barry Manilow)
<><><><><>*****<><><><><>
Chorus Number One
"Last night I Sad Goodbye...
"It's been...
"So, so, many years...
"I'm out in the Meadow...
"Just...
"To many Tears...
"The thoughts of you...
"Leaving me...
"Making this clear...
...
Melody (Repeats in Variation)
"So tell me...
"When can I Touch You?"
"When will I Hear You?"
"When Will this Long Story End?"
"And when...
"Jay, will I see You again?"
....
Chorus Number Two
"I'm back out in the Meadow...
"Lost in those sad Years...
"It's a Long Tattered and What's the Matter Moment...
"Colliding with Tears...
"The thoughts of You...
"Being Here...
"It's now so suddenly Clear..
...
Melody (Repeats in Variation)
"God tell me...
"When again.
"Can I Touch Him...
"When again...
"Will I Listen and Hear Him?"
"And, when will this Long and So Sad Story End?"
"And My Love...
"When....
"Can I see..

"My *Buddy Friend?"
Approximate Word Count: 202.

Author Notes

*Buddy Friend: Firstly introduced and Written only two weeks after... "On Jay's Dell Computer... "In His now... "Ocean of Life Room April Fool's day 2003. "Buddy Friend By Richard Edward Smrkovsky (Silver Bowl Trophy Winner) The Hilton Connecticut Avenue Washington DC. "I'm not here right now... "But, I'm not far.... "I'm in a Place close by... "Not Fat as a Star... ... "You'll Feel this Place... "Just take a Moment... "And, you will See.... "Then you will Know... "Just where... "I will be... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, (Organs Donated on April First) <><><><><><><><><><><> "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view, this amazing and talented artist as well as gifted writer... 'Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture... "Euolgy"

Chapter 53
Liquid Gold

By Ricky1024

"Liquid Gold" (A)
(One Single Kiss?)
Written on March 4th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
(A Dediation to Jay)
�.£ C. FanStory 2018 �.£
"As I live in...
"And as I Breathe...
"In and Out...
"In and Out...
"Over and Over again...
...
"As my Broken of Heart...
"So, so. stolen and broken...
"Apart...
"Over and Over...
"Over and Over again...
"I now relinquish and embellish my beliefs...
"To Thee Lord God."
"Relinquish and Embellish my Beliefs...
Amen.

****
"For You are my Soul...
"For You are my Heart...
"For You are my Body and my Soul."
...
"I will trust in the end when I'm broken down and in despair."
"When I have given up all Hope."
"And, Jay, I can hear You...
"And, Jay, can see You...
"Touch You knowing how much You...
...
"I know and realize that someday...
"Somehow and someway...
"For You are my one and only...
"My forever and ever...
...
"I can tell when You are near or You are far...
"When my Heart and Faith fails me...
"I will I will trust in You...
...
"My Dear God!"
"Passages of Time...
"Healing Prayers...
"Waters of Heavenly Bliss?"
"All have been dismissed?"
"Jay?"
...
"As I Breathe...
"In and Out...
"Over and Over again...
"Won't You reaffirm with but...
"One, Single, Kiss?"
<><><><><><><><><><><><>

"Will You Die, Again for Me?" (B)
"Will you die for me?"
"And, give all that you are for me?"
"Will you die for me...
"Give your Heart and Soul for me?"
"Sacrifice like Christ for me?"
"Sacrifice and be Crucified for me?"
...
"For You Died Again for me!"
"Gave it all again for me!"
"Sacrificed Your Very Heart for me...
Approximate Word Count: 290.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented artist as well writer... Dr.Ricky1024 and his incredible picture... "Jason and Sasha"

Chapter 54
Coffee, Tea, or Me?

By Ricky1024

"Coffee, Tea, or Me?"
Written on April 3rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky and Jay
�¿£C. FanStory 2018 �¿£

"Once When I Was young...
"I wanted to be?"
"And, when I got a little older...
"I wanted to be?"
...
"But, now that I'm dead and gone...
"I just wanted to be...
"Me....
"It's hard, Oh So Very Hard...
"To go on...
"Gotta get me a cup of Coffee...
...
"Yes, being dead ain't so bad!"
"Make everybody though...
"Very, Very, sad!'
"But waiter, you know what?:
"Could you please change that coffee to a cup of Tea?"
"thanks!"
"That's much better!"
...
"Okay, yes It's been awhile and Yes, things have definitely changed below but...
"You know?"
...
"There's So much suffering and waiting...
Suffering and waiting for just a little more time!"
"Time.'
"The Great Healer of Woes!"
"But now tell Me what do Thee need from Me 'Suffers?'
"Coffee, Tea, or *Me?"
Approximate Word Count:163.

Author Notes

*Me: "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of myBroken Heart and my son Jay's Heart." *************************** "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist.... 'Alveria,' and her incredible picture, " Tea Time"

Chapter 55
Only One Single Red Rose?

By Ricky1024

"Only One Single Red Rose?"
Written on April 4th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<*><*><*><*><*><*><*><*>
"Could our Love be...
"Possibly as Beautiful...
"As A Single, Red, Rose?"
"Or, Could our Love have taken...
"A terrible Toll?"
"Body to Body...
"Heart to Heart...
"Soul to Soul?"
...
"Winter comes and Winter goes...
"As the Red Rose lies dormant in wait...
"By the bank of a Cold, Blue Lake...
...
"Her thorns are no longet present and her bloom is never more?"
"Her Blossoms have lost their hue...
"And, Her stem...
"Blackened in *Wait...
...
"But, in the Mists of the Early Spring...
"Among the Depth of the Glistening New Dew...
"A Single, Red, Rose will Rise...
"And, a Single, Red, Rose...
"Will **Renew...
"Miss you Babe...
Approximate Word Count: 133.

Author Notes

*Wait: "My wife Carolyn passed away only Eight months after the death of our Son Jason." "She stopped Her medications and passed away that November from a second Heart Attack." **Renew: "Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky" December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003. "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024.' "And his incredible picture... "Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky"

Chapter 56
Bittersweet Memories of You

By Ricky1024

"Bittersweet Memories of You"
(Until the End of Time?)
Written on April 7th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
<><><><><><><><><><><><>
"Bittersweet memories are defined as past thoughts that no longer exist except in your mind."
(Theology 45.09)
...
"I crave Thee...
"I crave and Need Thee...
"I crave, Need, and Miss Thee...
"But You no longer exist....
"Exist but within the perimeters of my Mind...
...
"My Life now is defined as...
'A Left-Over Piece of Moldy and Mildew Bread.'
"That is no longer wanted or needed?"
"No Sugar Plum Fairies dancing here in my Head...
"Just past wanton needs of wanting to be Dead...
...
"Perhaps yes, I'm better off Dead but I tried that and failed miserably way back in *2003!"
"And, my blood still flows and Exists...
"Unfortunately still exists in me."
...
"Dear Lord, haven't I been good?"
"And, did as You instructed...
And, did as I should?"
"Was I Knotty Baddy as a Flower that needed to bloom?"
"A little and scared mouse that would never leave it's little and scared mouse room?"
"Why do I just want to give up and die?"
...
"Is it those...
'Bittersweet Memories' all trapped and tangled up inside?"
"Caressing off the Cornered Spectrums of my mind...
"Ricocheting off the 'Outer Edges' of my Twilght Zone?"
"Lost with theres no...
"There's No Place Like Home?"
...
"Is it that they still Haunt and Taunt me?"
"Never leave me alone and displeased me?"
"They rapture and Capture me and still make me cry?"
"Oh me Lord, Oh My?"
...
"The Beach when He was only three?"
"The Basketball Games when He finally won...
"I went Insane?"
"The many School Concerts...
"Our drives back and forth to Work...
"His hopes and my Dreams all just seem...
"Like lost memories trapped in 8 by 10s?"
"Can't You Lord see what is still happening to me?"
...
"I cried myself to sleep...
"Last night."
"Like almost each and every Night and Time...
"Lord, is it supposed to be like this...
"Like this...
"Until the End of Time?"
Approximate Word Count: 349.

Author Notes

*2003: "On March 31st, 2003 my Spn Jason made a mistake and road on a car with a mentall- ill child named Brian Cole." "Jason was seriously Brain Damaged and we had no choice but... ... "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations." "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my brpken Heart and my son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist... 'cleo85,' and her incredible picture... "Dream"

Chapter 57
Springtime, Again

By Ricky1024

"Springtime, Again"
Written on April 11th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#÷#"Spring has sprung and now nice weather hath begun."
"Yea it's no more 'Doing Time!'
"As it is now time to unwind!"
...
The Crocus's are now almost gone...
"Sending a message that Spring Flowers are coming after the Dawn!"
...
"Yes, light sneaks a little peek and the Daffodils are 'Sunny, Yellows!"
"Telling us that we are very, lucky, fellows!"
...
"The many Tulips are starting to reach...
"For the warmth of the Sun...
"Now that Spring has begun
and the Grasses are again 'Greening' as Dandelions are beginning and seeming to emerge...
"A nasty weed, I've heard?"
...
"Wintern Colds are replaced with Spring Warms, as we are now in for a much overdue...
"Colorful surprise!"
...
"My Morning Glories are vined and ready to bloom...
"Perennial Plants are now coming to!"
"Announcing the end of Wintern gloom!"
..
"Tiger Lilly's are now ready to display...
"And send their colorful message in a very, special, way!"
..
"From Annuals to Birennials...
"To always returning Perrenials...
"God helps us along in His way!"
"Brightening our Lives...
"In His many, special, way!"
Approximate Word Count:198.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing and talented artist... 'cleo85,' along with her incredible picture.... "Dreaming of Spring"

Chapter 58
Eye M Nothing Without U!

By Ricky1024

"Eye M Nothing Without U!"
Written on April 12th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
�°â?? C.Fan Story 2018�°â??
"I am nothing, nothing without You...
"For all those things that You used to do!"
"Your music reactions...
"Were Once a matter of satisfactions?"
"As You, Rum, A Dum, Tumed
on Your New, Pearl, Drums."
...
"And yes!"
"You had started Your Quest with your own *Band!"
"Try to understand reviewer!"
"It was a One Time Offer!"
"No Deposit, No Return!"
"When You were there but now?"
"Now that You are gone?"
...
"There is no more music, My Muse went away?"
"Lost the best of my...
'Sunny of Day?'
"So now, I pray...
...
"Dear Lord God,
Only Eighteen Years?"
"Is that the way...
"The way that It Is done when you love and raise your child?"
"Walk the walk?"
"Educate and nourish and nourcher that child?"
...
"It now all seems so long, long, ago?"
"Long, long, gone?"
"Astray?"
"Like my 'Sunny of Day?"
...
"No more ME and You?"
"No more You and Me?"
"Just Centuries of Distance lined with Ancient Resistance?"
Dad.
...
"Lord God, Are there just 'Rotting Apples' upon My tree?"
"My Orchard is now bare, barren with no Care?"
...
"Yes, no one seems to care about ME?"
"They all used to be there for ME?"
Jay.
...
"Yes Jay, that seems now to be the way?"
"They abandoned Thee but not ME!"
"Never, You see?"
"And, never Your Dad too!"
"For he writes and dedicates this Poetry to You...
God.
Approximate Word Count:
264.

Author Notes

*Band: "Jason had just started a band right before He had passed away called... 'Four Ways to Save.' "And, That's exactly what He did.... ... "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with.... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer... 'Dr. Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture... "Jason and Sasha"

Chapter 60
The Lonely Red Rose that Was So oved

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Lonely Red Rose that Was So Loved"
Written on April 15th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024??�¢?? C.FanStory 2018 �¢??�¢??

"For all, including my four daughters that hath Lived and so lost...

"Dripping tear carefully marked the outline of Her sad, sad, face."
"Sinking to the bottom of that child, child, Bluen Lake...
"As She wonders...
"Why Me?"
"And, she wondered why only One, Single, Red, Rosen tear...
"Collected in Her sad eyes?"
...
"She wondered...
"Was this as good as it gets?"
"Subjected to a drought, a lack of good Soul?"
"She was a 'City Girl' stranded and all alone?"
...
"She wondered why there was always water in Her Dream but She always awakens parched and So, So, thirsty?"
...
"So, She prayed and She prayed away the Night...
"And, She prayed and prayed away the Day...
"And, always the same answer comes?"

****

"Never would there ever be a Single, drop, of rain!"
"But, She had Faith and High Hopes and thought that She was now at the end of Her rope?"
...
"She thought of Her dead Son...
"But HE too was in a 'Field of trash and ashes....
....
"Suddenly, it started?"
"As if an answer to Her prayer!"
"An Angel from Heaven above to share?"
"Cast down from Heaven above to Earth?"
"The place of all 'Human Kinds' birth?"
...
"Was she sent down, that day, to wash all of Her many Miseries away?"
"For a single tear had been shed and the 'Blackened Clouds' of Her Miseries burst?"
...
"Her withered and almost dried and dead leaves and stem....
"Magically were renewed again?"
"Her pure, Red, Rose tripled and bloomed?"
"And, no kidding reviewers...
"She realized that all Her grief and Gloom...
"Went away?"
Returning Her...
"Sunny of Day?"
...
"The Blackened Clouds lifted...
"And, on this April Day..
"April 15th, 2003.:
"It rained all *Day....
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky.
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
Approximate Word Count: 335.

Author Notes

*Day: "If you know someone so depressed that they want to commit suicide... "Simply call 9-11 before it is too late." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing and talented artist, 'avmurry,' and her incredible picture... "Bleeding Rose."

Chapter 61
Seven Blessed Tiers

By Ricky1024

"Seven Blessed Tiers
(Flowering Moments)
Written on April 21st, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
�¥�¥ C.FanStory 2018 �¥�

"Gaze gently now into My Eyes, My Son, for soon You will realize, My Son."
"That there is more than Life and Death."
...
"Wander and Wonder in all that I now Grasp...
"For now, You must live here with Me and not in Thy Past."
...
"Capture and notice all there is to Give...
"Since the last time that You hath *Lived."
...
"Christmas in Heaven comes not once a year for I present it in 'Seven Tiers.'

****

Tier Number One:
"You shall live here with Me, forever in Peace and good Health."
Tier Number Two:
"You shall live here with Me, forever with no Depression and no Pains."
Tier Number Three:
"You shall live here with Me, forever with no Fear."
Tier Number Four:
'You shall live here with Me, forever and never want nor need."
Tier Number Five:
"You shall live here with Me, forever and all that You see is Beauty."
Tier Number Six:
"You shall live here with Me, forever and never feel Hunger or Thirst."
"Last Tier Number Seven:
"You shall live here with Me, Forever and Ever with all whom You have Loved...
Approximate Word Count: 217.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing as well as talented artist and writer... 'cleo85,'and her incredible picture,"The Butterflies"

Chapter 62
Sometimes 2003

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Sometimes 2003" (A)
Written on April 22nd, 2018
Dr Ricky 1024
â??�° C. FanStory 2018 �°â??�°
"Sometimes...
"I feel all alone when Life gets to Me."
"Sometimes...
"I wonder why, all that's left of me?"
"Sometimes...
"When I pray, I think of my Son...
"My lost Son *Jay."
...
"Sometimes...
"When I write for There, I think of Nothing for Life seems to get the best of Me...
"And, sometimes...
When the Pain gets too Bad...
"I think of You...
"Son and feel more Glad...
<><><><><>*<><><><><>
"Forever" (B)
Written on April 22nd, 2018
"Forever...
"I wonder why Lord, that my Wife and Son...
Lord, had to die?"
"Forever...
"I think back on that Dreadful of **Day and wish it would go away...
"Forever...
...
"I try to manage my Depression and Grief but they just get in my way."
"Forever...
"Is just a moment in Time...
"Going back to that horrible Day."
"And Forever...
"For ever...
"I Pray...
Approximate Word Count:164.

Author Notes

*Jay:"Jason was in a deep Coma with serious Brain Damage due to a Mentally ill driver named Brian Cole. **Day: Jason was involved in an accident on March 31st, 2003 and in such serious distress that we donatedHis organs." "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the the L.S.W. With... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jasons." Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003 Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing artist, "Photopeb." "And, their incredible picture, " Not Promised"

Chapter 63
Lifes

By Ricky1024

"Lifes"(A)
Written on April 22nd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Life, more than a 'Spirit of Man!"
"Life, a moment caught in Silence...
...
"Life, a fresh Breath of Love from Above!"
"Life, Families sharing together Forever!"
...
"Ah, Life!"
"Smell the Roses, taste the Flesh, experience and Refresh!"
...
"Life, wander and Wonder there!"
"Drift in the 'River's of Life!'
"And, be Blessed that you were there...
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"Life Past"(B)
"Life, Long Gone like a Note taken from a Song...
"Life, Long Past, never again to Grasp...
...
"Life, how we all had Exist...
"How we all had Persist...
"Used to Be...
"Together, T ou and Me...
...
"Life, Long Gone...
"Long Past but...
One Day...
<><><><><><><><><><><><>
"Life Lasts" (C)
"Life!"
"Long Last!"
"Resurrection Ever for Ever and Wternity!"
...
"Life, Long, Lasts!"
"Heaven Above!"
"Life Loved!"
"Angels with 'Silvery Wings.'
"Harps playing in Blazened Brass!"
"Each and every Day and Night!"
"Forever Lasts!"
...
"Grace, Harmony, Faith, and Togetherness."
"Forever Cast!"
"Life Lasts!"
Approximate Word Count:
174.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing and talented artist, 'photopeb,' and their beautiful picture... "Not Promised"

Chapter 64
Listen to the Wind 2018

By Ricky1024

"Listen to the Wind 2018"
Written on April 25th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
~â?¢~â?¢C. FanStory 2018~â?¢~â?¢
"Listen to the Wind...
"As its message comes near.
"Listen to the Wind...
"As its message becomes Clear!"
...
"Firstly...
"Listen carefully to the North Wind as it gusts so...
"And, listen next to the 'Southern Wind' before it. Puts you under its spell!"
...
"Listen oh Listen to the East as it meets with the West and does what's Best!"
...
"The Wind, Oh the Wind."
"Mighty as it powers the many waves of the Seas!"
"The Wind, Oh the Wind!"
"Forever and ever as I wait for my LIFE to again...
"Begin...
Approximate Word Count:
117.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist as well as writer, cleo 85, and her incredible picture... "Wind in the Caribbean"

Chapter 65
Soul to Soul?

By Ricky1024

"Soul to Soul?"
{Un-wiped Tears}

Written on May 3rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{A Dedication}
"Talk to me...
"Tell to me...
"Where you are?"
"Listen to me...
"And, tell me...
"Why you are?"
...
"Feel for me...
"And, then you will see...
"And, know just why...
"Dad...
"I had to *Die."
...
"Wander with me dad...
"I know that you are still sad...
"And, tell Me that you are alright?"
"Wipe your tears that come...
"Each and every night...
"And, when you do..
"I will know that I am closer...
"To you...

****

"How I still miss you dad...
"Please don't be so sad...
"Never will I dismiss you...
"Never for I know how much I miss you...
"Always and forever...
"Remember Me...
"For...
"With each passing day...
"I know you mark my grave...
"After all those **Years...
'With those...
"Un-wiped Tears...
Approximate Word Count: 151.

Author Notes

*Die: "Jason passed away on March 31st, 2003 after injuries that He had suffered in a major car accident." **Years: "It has been now, over fifteen years since this event." "And, to learn more about "Organ -Tissue Donations.' 'Simply cakk my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life!" "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS -!." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart... "And, my Son Jason's donated Heart." Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 2003~ March 31st, 2003. Organs donated on April 1st, 2003. {April Fools Day} <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, "This gifted Artist and Amazing writer, 'cleo 84' and her incredible picture, "Calling the Past"

Chapter 66
Trinket {A}

By Ricky1024

"Trinket" {A}
Written on May 30th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Note:
"All three of these 'Triliptic Poems.'
"Were written on Memorial Day in Southern Meridian Hospital in Manahawkin, NJ."
"{In less then five minutes}

"I wear it on My Sleeve like a trinket."
"It is the color of Red?"
"And, even though I am long Dead...
"It still beats?"
...
"I still need It...
"Still Feed It...
"And, I hope that it is Okay?"
"As it continues to serve It's Purpose on this...
"Memorial Day"
*Holiday."
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"Wonder in Absence" {B}
Written on May 30th, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky

"I know now and accept My Fate."
"And, I no longer fear the unknown."
"As My Soul hath long risen and My Body is Long Gone...
"Like My favorite Song...
...
"I am now back home where I belong and many Angels comfort Me."
"My Father in Heaven Above offers continuous Love...
"For Me...
...
"I wonder now what hath happened to Me?"
'"And, I suppose I will never Know?"
"Like the Past Reflections on a Bed...
"Of Long, Ago, melted, **Snow...
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"Killing My Avenue" {C}
Written on May30th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"It spreads like a Disease...
"Ever Distant...
"Always Resistant...
"Ever Alert."
...
"It taunts Me and Beckons...
"Averting my every call...
"When I feel Its Breeze...
"It is you...
"When I feel your Wrath!"
...
"Dear Lord,
"Can't you take this Pain away?"
"Recast my Sunny of Day?"
"Help Me never fall victim again...
"To it's ever present...
"Pain and Grief?"
I beg of You...
"This Poet...
"This Prophet...
"This Latter Day Saint Priest...
Approximate Word Count:288.

Author Notes

*Holiday: "Jason Richard Smrkovsky passed away on April 1st, 2003 after the removal of his last Organ.' **Snow: "And, to learn more about this amazing procedure of 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' 'Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S. W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." 'And thanks from the very bottom of my broken Heart and Jason's Donated Heart.' "Special thanks goes out firstly, to Heavenly Father and His amazing Son... "Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented and amazing Artist, 'Galia G' and their incredible picture... "Dancing Heart" Jason Richard Smrkovsky. November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003.

Chapter 67
The Connection Was Broken But Not?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"The Connection Was Broken But Not?"
Written on May 3rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
{At The Borgata Hotel and Casino in Atlantic City, New Jersey}
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"The Time was unknown and I was a long, long, way...
"From Home?"
"It is dark now and I'm afraid but all of My past pains are now fading...
"Drifting...
"Drifting...
"As if on a Cloud?"
{For crying out loud}

****

"I can't remember much but being in a sport's Car?"
"And, I don't know why Lord?"
"Perhaps, Fan story reviewer, you can help me with these clues my dad Ricky will add?"
"But for now, it is time for a Good Cry."
...
"Oh, Me, oh My, why God?"
"Why?"
"Clue #1- "There was a tremendous Noise three times!"
"First, as the 'Ford Mustang' driven by a 'Mentally-ill Teenager' named Brian Cole hit the curb, then the pole, and finally the street below!"
...
"Why God is this happening to Me?"
"Clue#2-"I'm only Eighteen?"
"Can't You see?"
{If You know what I mean?}
...
"The dark is fading now as I come down...
"A long way from the ground"
"And, someone was holding MY hand?"
"I'm no longer afraid."
{If you understand?}
...
"Clue #3-"The person holding Jason's hand says...
"You will soon like it this way here...
"In Heaven, even though My Son...
"You Died."
...
"Jason:
"You see Reviewers, Yes I died over Fifteen, Years, ago but I also left the 'Best Part of Me Inside.'
*Behind!"
Approximate Word Count-265.

Author Notes

*Behind: "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue donations.' "Simply contact my Dear, Friend, Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. With... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1.' 'And, thanks from the bottom of my Broken Heart and Jason's Donated Heart." 'Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review as well as, this talented Artist 'Moon Willow,' and her beautiful picture "Heaven Bound"

Chapter 68
Victory in Defeat? {Cont}

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"Victory in Defeat?"
{Part Number One}
Written on June 6th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
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"The American Flag hung high on this 'Hallowed and Shallow of Day.'
"In the month of March of '03 and not the month of May."
"And, if I may?"
"I shall tell...
'My Story,' from a 'New and Different' point of view?"
...
"My name is Jason Richard Smrkovsky and the date was March 31st, 2003."
"I had just got home from High School and ready to celebrate my older Step-Sister...
"Nichole {Nikki's} Twenty-Seventh Birthday!"
"And, for some odd and eerie reason?"
"I felt a strange sensation that day which is hard to explain?"
...
"I had a Transportation- Problem and was relying on my old school buddy {Brian Cole} for rides."
"He had just received a Mustang Convertible as a birthday gift for turning Seventeen."
Note: "The Ford Mustang was professionally raced at 'Atco Raceway' in Atco, New Jersey."
...
"The party was at my Step-Sister Nikki's Dad's house on Liberty in 'Ocean Acres.'
"My sister Dana Alyse and other Step-Sister Kyle Erin, along with her boyfriend Frederick Drum and their Seven-Year old Sasha would all arrive together."
'My older sister Corrine Alexis was at Douglas College in East Brunswick, New Jersey."
{Part of Rutgers University}
...
"Nikki had ordered a 'WWF Pay- For View."
{Today it is WWE}
"She had invited a few older friends, older than her Sister Dana and brother Jay."
"This would soon turn to be a devastating thing."
...
"Everything was going well and a few of Nikki's 'Georgian Court University' friends from Lakewood, New Jersey showed up to celebrate."
"After about an hour, Brian had started to get 'Antsy' being the party was mostly older."
"He told Jason that he wanted to leave."
"And, that's when 'The shit' would soon...
"Hit the FUC**** FAN?"
End of Part Number One.
Part Number Two
"That's When the Shit Hit the Fan!"
Part Number Two.
Written on June 8th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
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"To Be Or Not To Be?"
"That now will soon be the question."
"My Dad would have just got home from work."
"Another 'Crap Day' at the farm."
"Note:"He always relaxes first with a quick game of Chess on his computer."
"And yes, he is good."
"{He once beat a 'Russian Grand master' in a Thirty Second 'Lightning Round!'
...
"As time progressed, he was slowly losing his 'Stress.'
"I unfortunately, would soon...
'Regress.'
"Suddenly...
"BANG!!!"
...
"The noise came from a couple blocks away."
"The first noise was the Ford Mustang hitting the curb."
Note: "The car was locked in 'Third Gear' as noted by a Paramedic and Fireman at the scene."
...
"The second noise was even louder than the first, as the car now hit a 'Power Pole.'
"Some unfortunate fool."
I suppose.
"As I was finishing a game."
"But, the 'Third and last Noise' was even louder as the car now fell below to the street."
Note: "The entire Driver's side of the car hit the pole causing massive front end damage."
"The pole had moved Seven Inches at the bass but did not crack or topple."
...
"That last noise woke My Mom Carolyn and she is NOT a Light Sleeper."
"And, within minutes the call came through from My sister Kyle whom was about two, blocks, behind us."
"This is Kyle!"
"Mom, you had better get over here on 'Nautilus!'
"Jason has been in a Horrible accident with that 'Mentally-Ill Idiot Brian Cole!"
"I knew this was going to happen!"
"This is the Most Sick Thing."
"That I have ever seen!"
End of Part Number Two!

****

"This Is The Most Sick Thing!"
Written on June 8th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Part Number Three.
Note:"My Son Jason will not be sharing in this 'Last Part' as He is in a coma."
"Dark Clouds of 'Ominous Lather' sickened and Thickened the scene, below."
"We arrived in less than two minutes to this now...
"Seemingly Nightmare!"
"One officer was there already marking the curb while Judy Kish was attending to the boys."
"As we approached, she went back into her house."
Note: "The accident happened right a Judy's house a nurse a *S.O.C.H."
"Southern Ocean County Hospital."
{Now Hackensack Meridian}
...
"Things started to happen extremely fast as many 'Emergency Vehicles' and nearby residents viewed the scene."
"Brian was trapped in a 'Prone Position' with the wheel firmly against his chest."
"They had to extract him with 'The Jaws of Life.'
"Jason, on the other hand, was resting as asleep against Brian with a trickle of blood emerging from His Right ear."
Note: "This was a sign of 'Brian Damage' which would worsen in the next, Seventeen, Hours."
...
"How do you describer an Eighteen, Year, Old whom is *"Raccooned?"
"How do you describe the doctor tapping His Skull?"
"How do you describe an Allergic Reaction to all the 'Anti-Swelling Medications.'
...
"Judy called me about two, hours, later and said this."
"Jason did not feel a thing."
"God came down from Haven and wrapped His Gentle arms around your Son and took Jason back home."
"Sometimes when I recall her words and other things that I heard after the fact, It haunts me to this **Day...
"What can I say?"
"I lost my...
***'Buddy Friend.'
"That day...
Approximate Word Count: 926.
Estimated Total Word Count:1,000.

Author Notes

* Raccooned: "A word used when a person is severely 'Brain Damaged.' **Day: "On March 31st, 2003 My only Son Jason was Pronounced Dead." {State Record} "But, on April 1st, 2003 Jason's many organs were retrieved to save Four Lives." "And, to Learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "!-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and Jason's donated Heart." Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. ***"Buddy Friend" Written on April 14th, 2003 on Jason's Dell Computer in His Room." {My first Piece of Hundred's of Thousands and a Trophy Winner in 2005." <><><>?????<><><>?????<><><>C.2003<><>?????<><><>?????<><><> "Buddy Friend" "I'm not here right now but I'm not far." "I'm in a place close by." "Not far as a Star." "You'll feel this Place." "Take a moment... "You'll see... "Then you will know." "Just Where I'll be... {Dedicated to Jason's many friends whom missed Him so} ""Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented Artist and Writer 'Dr. Ricky 1024,' along with his incredible picture... "Just Jay"

Chapter 69
Angels Above

By Ricky1024

"Angels Above"
Written on June 8th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Angels exist, I know they do!"
"I've seen them in my dreams...
"Spiritual Beings, ever present and all seeing."
...
"Angels exist, I know they do!"
"I've seen them in my dreams and they are everywhere, it seems?"
...
"Michael, Gabriel, they are all there for me!"
"They are all real, as real as real can be!"
...
"They will help you in your time of need!"
"No matter how bad the pain may be!"
...
"With 'Silvery-White Wing's' adorned, they will fly down to you and take you away!"
"Back to a "Special Place' you used to be...
"Many, Many Life-Times away!"
...
"So, the next time you are in need of an 'Angel from Above,' remember this...
"There is a 'Special Angel waiting above for you and just when you have given up and can no longer exist...
"There is one for you just within 'God's Sweet Kiss!'
Approximate Word Count:167.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist, 'Kathy Schipper Art,' and her incredible picture... "The Healer"

Chapter 70
Written Within All of the Boundaries

By Ricky1024

"Written Within All of the Boundaries of My Heart" (A)
Written on June 13th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"As I reflect on my past Life."
"I must realize now...
"That time has Healed...
...
"Healed the Pains...
"Healed the Depressions...
"Healed the many Miseries...
"And, the many Woes...
"But one thing that Time hath not or can ever heal..."'Is, my 'Miss You So's.'
...
"My Heart still beats and my Body is now Strong...
"But when I think of You my *Only Son...
"The Missing has been too, too, long."
...
"Holidays, Birthdays, and all The Special Occasions have blended into...
'A Swirl of Make-up Believe?'
'A Mixtured Tonic' of 'Never-Agains' and 'Tangled Weaves?'
...
"I do try my best...
(The best that I can)
"As I journal with this pen but the ink bleeds Red and those Horrible **Visions...
"Get stuck in my head?"
...
"Perhaps something has happened inside of my head?"
"Perhaps I also died with Jay and I truly am Dead?"
...
"They say Time Heals, which is true, but the Scar is always visable and there to me...
"God, Can't You see?"
...
"So, the best thing that I can do is to try and pretend...
"Live and hide in 'My Silent Place and continue to write with this Bloody Pen?"
...
"And, then and only then...
"I can finally get past the Boundaries that seem to never Part...
"Written Within the Boundaries of My Heart."
******************************
"Written Within the Emptiness of My Mind" (B)
(Life is But a Breath Away)
"As my Buldging Supply of Memories manipulate their way forth...
"I shall write again my friend for Thee...
...
"As Happy as a Bumble bee in flight...
"Now, hold on tight!"
"For Jay's Death...
"Is only...
"Just...
"A Breath away?"
...
"Cold and Clammy...
"Boney and Damny...
"Death's Wheel Spins...
"Round and around...
"As it takes me down...
"To the Pit of Hell!"
...
"Ready to spend an Eternity?"
"Down here with Me?"
"Damned is His Son and Suicide is His Gsme!"
...
"Horrd is the heat and unbearable is the Mental Pain...
"Pardon me if I try to get a moment of relief?"
"This all started with just a trickle down Memory Lane...
"And, I swear that I would dive into a volcano of molten Flame...
"If for just a moment I could be there with Him and call out His name...
...
"Hitting a Telephone Pole at close to 100 MPH will do that to you!"
"Even from a couple of blocks away, I can still feel that Jar!"
"That sad Oh so sad of Day...
"For this we can now Pray...
...
"Dear Lord and God,
"I know you work hard each and every day but to You I know must Pray...
"Pray that You can take This Never-ending and Mind Boggling Pain...
"Away?"
"But why take away my only Son Jay?"
...
"Lord Oh Dear Lord!"
"Am I not a servant to You?"
"Do I not Do...
"What You want of me...
"To do?"
...
"My Son, My Son...
"Your Son's job below...
"Is almost done!"
"Four People...
"Suffering in Doom and Gloom...
"Suffer no more and all got a second Chance at...
'The Great Dance!'
...
"No more dyalasis...
"No more pain of Heart...
"No more Liver that functions no more...
"Their Lives were restored, more Pure than before!"
...
"And, I say to you on this day...
"Always remember this...
"Life is but a Breath Away."
Approximate Word Count:594

Author Notes

*Only Son: "Jason passed away on March 31st, 2003 and on April 1st, 2003... "Four lives were saved... **Visions: "Nighmares." "And, to learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... 'The Gift of Life.' "Philadelphia,Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist... 'booklotto,' and their beautiful picture... "Attached by Love"

Chapter 71
Our Me's and Our You's?

By Ricky1024

"Our Me's and Our You's?"
(Til We Meet Again)
Written on June 13th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"I still think of *You...
"And, forever and ever...
"That is all I do."
...
"I think of You My Jay when Time for Me...
"Will go away."
"I think of You My Jay at the beginning and at the End of each and every day."
"And, My Son...
"I've dedicated each and every thought...
"Each and every moment...
"Each and every Heartbeat...
"No matter what they may say...

****

"I will always and forever...
"Remember our good...
"And, our sad...
"Our happy and our bad...
"The things you and I would do...
"From ripping a wave to the sand bar at age four...
"To watching You pass both driving tests...
"What dad could ask for anything more?"
...
"Our first time You opened Your eyes and smiled to Our first Christmas Day when I remembered Your little face and the Tree in the way...
...
"But now that Your gone what am I to do without...
'Our Me's and Our You's?"
Approximate Word Count:194

Author Notes

*You: "Jason was only eighteen when a horrid accident took my only Son Jay away. "And, to learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia Pennsylvania "At 1-800-DONORS-1" "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart." ************************* "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review view this amazing and talented artist... 'omntch,' and their beautiful picture... "The Capital Ferris Wheel"

Chapter 72
Retrieving the Soul

By Ricky1024

"Retrieving the Soul"
Written on June 16th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024.
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"As I ponder in wonder, I realize that some things are meant to be."
"Where there is darkness there is light."
"Where it is cold there is hotness."
"And, where there is Life...
"That is Death!"
...
"As I catch my breath and realize that things aren'twhat they seem?"
"Like cars drive drunk...
"Today, dishes can wash themselves...
"And, most importantly...
"Death can be 'Retrained'
"As if reteaching a dog new tricks?"
...
"As I ponder in wonder of all the things that we can't quite yet understand, I realize that some things are NOT meant to be?"
...
"We are not supposed to live forever but let me ask you this."
"Can the Soul live on?"
"Can It rise and than rise again friend?"
"I believe so."
...
"Lets explore this a little deeper."
"As I ponder in Wonder and realize that yes...
"Death is not 'The En's in soe...
"Extremely, Rare, Cases!"
...
"Let me reinterate."
"Life is refreshed, renewed, resurrected, reborn, and again!"
"I know personally, that there are people walking this Earth that shouldn't be?"
"To Be or Not To Be?"
"That is the question, I post up thee!"
"Where there is Jeckle...
"There is Hyde!"
"Where there is Bob Banner...
"There is The Incredible Hulk!"
"Where there is Noise....
"There is Silence...
"And, where there is Death...
"There is Life!"
...
"As I ponder in Wonder are there really such things as 'The Walking Dead or Zombies?"
"Once you are Dead...
"You are Dead?"
...
"Dead as a Door Nail?"
"Dead as a no longer Flickering Flame?"
"Is Death the End?"
"Or is Death just the beginning?"
...
"Can one be given...
"A Second Chance?"
"A New and Better Life?"
"A Lucky Break?"
"Finally that one in a Billion Lottery Ticket came in!?"
...
"There are people walking this planet Earth that shouldn't be?"
"And, they are not some Walking Dead Zombies from Some George Romero movie!"
"Hey appear on the outside, as you and me."
"But a little different."
"Can you see?"
"They have been through so much!"
"So Much Pain...
"So Much suffering...
"So Much misery but...
"They are still here due to the miracle Of 'The Gift of Life!"
...
"As I Ponder in Wonder, I now realize that some of the very few are given a Second Chance."
"We are so lucky!"
"To have a career."
"To have a home."
"A family and food on the plate but..
"Between you and me?"
"When Life has taken a Toll...
"You need to remember."
"Retrieving the Soul."
Approximate Word Count:447

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing and talented artist as well as Artist 'Little Boogie 007, ' and their incredible picture... "The Eye, a Window to the Soul"

Chapter 73
Father's Day

By Ricky1024

"Fathers Day"
Written on June 16th, 2018.
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"What exactly is...
'The Measure of a Man?"
"Is it more than 'Flesh, Blood, and Bone?"
"Does a real man watch that 'ET Movie and is there...
'No Place Like Home and a 'Phone Home too?"
...
"Does a 'Real Man still Cry?"
"Change Diapers or Wonder Why?"
"Will a 'True Man of Honor' step up to the plate when...
"The Going Gets Tough?"
...
"Open the door, walk her across the street, say...
"Please and Thank You?"
"Will a 'Truly Real Man of Faith?'
"Bite the Bullet? ...
"Step in and sacrifice wirhout ever thinking *Twice?"
"Of course!"
"A Real Man does all of this and much, much, more!"
...
"So, this 'Father's Day' let's celebrate 'The Real Father's' out there and realize that we are lucky have, share, and care!"
Happy Father's Day to all my Father Friends here at FanStory.
Approximate Word Count:166

Author Notes

*Twice: "Aftet my only Son Jason paased away on March 31st, 2003, we had a decision to make." "To give or not to give?" "That is the question." "Do you waste over Eighteen years or give your Only Son away to the World?" "I hope you never cross thay path." "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my son Jason Richard Smrkovsky's... 'Donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing and talented artist... 'Barb Baker,' and his incredible picture... "Father and Son"

Chapter 74
Listen to the Wind, Cry and Cry

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Listen to the Wind, Cry and Cry" (A)
Written on June 14, 2014
Time In: 1:25 PM.
Time Out: 1:33 PM EST.
(An Eight Minute Slammed Poem)
Dr Ricky 1024
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"And, it Howls and Reverberates into the Northern Night...
"For this is the 'Cry Of The Wind!'
"Created with Love but suffering from *Sin!"
"And, as I remember that Early, March, Spring...
"The Fury, the Pain, the Shame...
"Gracefully, as it surrenders to the Earth for Temptation will **Triumph."
...
"And, it will cry once and only only once more for when it's gone...
"The Shame will remain."
"It's given it's all for its purpose was to leave behind a Gift...
"A Blessing spurned and burned in Tears and Strife."
"And, it cries out for wighout Pain there can be no new ***Life."
(Theology 24.21)
"As it Howls and reverberates into the Northern Night...
"For this is "The Cry of the Wind.'
"Created with Love but suffering from Sin."
ApproximateWord Count 166.
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"Listen to My Heart
Written on July 2nd, 2017
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Beat Number One:
"Listen to my Heart for it beats in the note of C"
"It's kind of hurting right now for the year is 2003."
"And, listen closely for there is a story spent"
"A time of happiness...
"Than a time of Lament"
...
Beat Number Two:
'Listen again my friend for my Heart now is healing"
"The Brokenness is almost now gone and with each beat...
"My Life moves on."
"Strong as it bears and tells now of better time in 2005"
"Yes, when my Life became more alive."
...
Beat Number Three:
"Lusten now so closely for my Heart is in despair?"
"Ricky lost his way and is no longer there?"
"The year now is 2006 and it was a time of reflection."
"No more Journaling...
"No more Protection?"
"The Heart, so wounded...
"The Heart of *Resurrection?"
Beat Number Four:
"Listen to my Heart for now it is healing!"
"Gentle Hands massage again!"
"It has feeling feeling for me and feeling for you!"
"Feeling for everyone and it now has a job to do!"
...
Beat Number Five:
"Listen to My Heart it's beating everstrong ever steady like a clock that his been repaired when it was gone."
"Listen well to My Song!"
"It has a new and better attitude..
"Right and ready as if a shiny penny,"
...
"Just listen closely for it has a story...
"A New and better story of Life!"
"A story it knows well and it and if you take the time...
"The time to listen to your Heart."
"I'm sure there is a wonderful here...
"A message from me to you!"
Approximate Word Count: 291.

Author Notes

*Sin: **Triumph: "My surviving a steak knife twice to the Heart... "Then to neck thrice... "Then a whole bottle of Depakote." ***Life: "Life from Death?" "And, to learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S. W. with... "The Gift of Life." Philadelphia Pennsylvania Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS- " "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and my Son Jason's donated Heart... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. "Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003." (April Fool's Day) "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing as well as talented artist 'Cleo 85,' and her incredible picture... "Forces of Nature."

Chapter 75
Started But Never Finished?

By Ricky1024

"Started But Never Finished?"
Written on June 23rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky
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"The Crystal Blue Atlantic"
Written on April 18th, 2012
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"The Mighty Wave moves with the Wind!"
"The Day is ending without...
................................................
Note: "I recently found this in one of my over 600 Notebooks of writings."
"This is but one of Hundreds that I started, got distracted,, and never finished until...
...
"Hey Wave?"
"Yes Wind?"
"When do you think that 'Ricky' will finish us?"
Asks Wind.
"Well, I hope soon because I'm getting a headache again listening to you complain and blow it in my ear!"
...
"And, the answer again is...
"Darn it!"
"States Wave.
He did it again!"
...
"The Summer of 2013'
Hey Wave?"
"Yes Wind?"
"How is the weather going to be this Summer?"
Asks Wind.
"Why do you need to know, Wind?"
"Well I'm just so small that I wish there would be enough of me to push a boat?"
"Well, I heard from King Neptune and his brother Triton that Ricky gets so involved in thought, that he just forgets us!"
"And, it could be years until he realizes and finishes us!"
States Wave.
...
The Summer of 2014...
"Payback?"
Warns Wind!
"A MASSIVE HURRICANE named Sandy...
(That's my Cousin)
"Is going to devastate the Eastern Seaboard from Delaware all the way up to Cape Hatteras!"
"Why Wind?"
"Wonders Wave.
"It's Heavenly Father's way of deciding to teach them from Jersey a well need and real lesson!"
"To stop polluting...
"His Mighty Atlantic!"
...
Note:
"Hurricane Sandy devastated my area in South Jersey near Long Beach Island, Beach Haven West, and Manahawkin!"
...
The Summer of 2015...
"Hey Wave?"
"Yes Wind?"
"I heard that it is going to be a Hot as well as Torrid Summer!"
"And, 'Old Man Soul' can verify that!"
"Wow!"
States Wind.
"Well, Wind, I hope it doesn't affect me!"
"Cause, I got a belly ache!"
Complains Wave.
...
The Fall of 2017...
"Wave?"
"Yes, Wind?"
"What's the matter now?"
"Wonders Wave?"
"Well, Wave to tell you the truth...
"The Summer that just passed was marvelous!"
"And, there was enough wind from Heavenly Father for me to push a small and real sailboat!"
Brags Wind.
...
"That's because you're not yet but a Gust!"
"When you become a 'Full-Blown Wind,' thats when you'll be pushing dozens of them at a time!"
States Wave.
...
The Summer 2018...
"June 22nd, 2018 2:01PM EST.
"The Crystal Blue Atlantic"
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"The Mighty Wave moves With the Wind!"
"Ending The Day...
"Without a sin!"
The End!
Approximate Word Count: 446.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing as well as talented artist... 'Ashley Vaught1983,' and her incredible picture... "Atlantic Rising"

Chapter 76
Killing Me Softly

By Ricky1024

"Killing Me Softly"
(With His Song)
Written on June 23rd, 2018
By Richard Edward Smrkovsky and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
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"Each and every...
"Single Day...
"I awake...
"I think of Thee...
"Each and every...
"Single Day...
"I sleep...
"I think of Thee...
...
"I think of Thee...
"When it is raining or when it is clear?"
"It doesn't much matter what time of year?"
"Be whatever...
"Be what may...
"I think of my lost Son...
"As I pray...
**<><><>**<><><>**<><><>**
"Killing Me Softly"
(A Song by Jay)
Chorus Number One
(On the drums)
"A Newborn Child is born...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum Pum...
"And, He laus this spng for you..
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"He wants so much to be... "Loved by you...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"And, no matter what he may do...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"I'll give My Life for you...

Melody (Repeats in Variation)
"Someday I'll die for you...
"And, when that day finally comes true..
"That Newborn Child comes through!"
"A Rum Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum... Chorus Number Two
"Jesus said to me...
"Jay don't you cry!"
"You're a man now!"
"But now You must die!"
...
"Your Mom, Dad, and sisters are waiting...
"For You?"
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum... "Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
...
"They so much want You to stay...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"But with Gentle Hands and Arms...
"God took you away...
"A Rum Pum Pum Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
Melody (Repeats in Variation)
"He'll play His song for you!"
"He'll be there for you too!"
"And, he'll never stop helping you!"
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...

Chorus Number Three
"A Newborn Child was born...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"He went to Heaven where He now belongs...
"A Rum, Pum, Pum, Pum...
"And, He will gave His Heart and Lungs to *You!"
"And, He gave is Liver too!"
"His pair of kidneys for you!"
"A Rum, Pom, Pom, Pom...
"A Rum, Pom, Pom, Pom...
"Pom, Pom, Pom...
"A Newborn Child is born...

Approximate Word Count:375

Author Notes

*You: "Jason's Heart and Lungs saved Chaz!" "Jason's Liver saved a young man from Philly for Eight Years!: "And, Jason's pair of Kid"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist as well as talented artist and writer... 'Dr. Ricky 1024.' "And, his incredible and amazing picture... "Jason at Eighteen"

Chapter 77
Reflections in A Poet's Mind

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Reflections in A Poet's Mind"
Written on January 1st, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Moments now tick by like "Reflections in A Poet's Mind."
"I see 'Birth.'
'I see 'Death!'
"I see 'Life' at a 'Whim's Lost and Last Fatal *Breath!'
"And, I see Miracles, Blessings, Love Eternal...
"There for You and me...
...
"I grasp at the Latch of My Coffin's Lid and fumble to my knees...
"Then, I ponder...
"Is that All That's left to Be?'
"For Me?"
...
"No more Son?"
"No more Wife?'
"Why Dear Lord?"
{When I asked}
"Did You not take My **Life?'
...
"The moments now Tick faster...
"I see them now turn into 'Alabaster.'
"My Past Memories are now dissipating in that 'Dreaded Pool of Regrets?'
...
"Shift-Shaping Demons" laugh in my face?"
"It's Hell below and the Angels try the best that They can?"
"It's a Mom mental Task as I reach again for the Latch but the Coffin's Lid is Closed?"
...
"Dear Lord,
"I want to know?"
"I want to Die?"
"More and more my attempts just leave me in...
'A Pit of Cry?'
"No Good reason to 'My Why?'
...
"So, I ponder why, I Can't Yonder Die?'
"I realize now...
"That it's You Lord God that saved me?'
"For a Reason?'
"And, are so kind that...
"That theses are all just...
"Reflections in A Poet's Mind?"

Author Notes

*Breath: "On December 28th, 2003 and only a few short months after Our Son Jason's Death... "My wife Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky stopped her medications causing Two Heart Attacks and her eventual death at only age Forty Nine." **Life: ]"On December 1st, 2006 I tried several times and several ways... {All at Once} "And, Failed miserably?" "The only damage was about a Hundred Stitches and I hit the Heart Valve?" "Why I didn't bleed to death?" "Special; thanks goes out first top Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art review, this amazing and talented Artist... 'GaliaG,' and her picture... "Colorful Reflections"

Chapter 78
Slivers of Ice! (ChapterNumberTwo)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of sexual content.

"Slivers of Ice!"
Written on June 30th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Chapter Number One
(The Beginning of the End!)

Cast of Characters:
Dr.Ricky 1024
Megan
Katey
The Grim Reaper of Death
Old Man (The Gate Keeper)
Bartender Stone
Teacher
Satan
Heavenly Father
Jesus Christ
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"Icy Chills acknowledge my presence now. "
"And, my time has come."
"I must move forward?"
"Reflections of my past Life...
"No more Son...
"And, no more Wife...
"It plagues me...
"Persuades me...
"My Captured Spirit is slowly passed away?"
...
"Oh Lord!"
"Sp much for another...
'Sunny Day?'
"Is there something wrong with me?"
"Is this it or is there more?"
"It's over now and my Life is now Complete?"
"System Overload...
"Next stop?"
"The Twilight Zone I now seek!"
...
"Ah...
"Yes!:
"For just one more moment with *Rod!"
"There was a man who knew how to do his job!"
"I can still hear His message...
"So, next time try the 'Smooth Sensation of 'Lucky Strike!"
"As he demonstrated his ware!"
"But, he was really saying...
"Smoke, Lucky Strike as I did?"
"And, you will, die soon like I will!"
"But Rod!"
"I'm already there!"
...
"Oh!"
"I can see my Destruction and Destination!"
"Oh look!"
"It's..
'The Grim Reaper of Death!'
"And, like Rod...
"He will take away...
"Your very, last, Breath!"
...
"Wanna ride?"
He Asks.
Well, I'm not sure?"
I Reply.
"A question?"
"Who are you and why am I here?"
"The odor is Noxious!"
I Complain.
...
"I'm your travel guide!"
"We are going on a 'Caribbean cruise!"
He States.
"In this?"
I Ask.
...
"I guarantee you will like it where we are going."
He States.
"Here, take these 'Two, Gold, Coins and put them over your eyes."
He Instructs.
"After about an 'Eternity,' we arrive?"
...
"Hey kid!"
"Wake the Fuck up!"
Yells Grim.
"Are we here yet?"
I Ask.
Last stop HADES!"
He Answers.
...
Note:
"The view here is HADES is Stupendous!"
"But, so much noise and sufferings!"
...
"As I approach...
'The Gates of Hell,.'
"An, 'Old Man' greets me?"
...
"He calls himself...
'The Gate Keeper.'
"So, I tell him my name and he replies...
"Welcome to Hades Mother Fucker!"
"You messed up!"
"We heard about you!"
"The Priest with the Least!"
He Laughs.
...
"You tried to kill yourself in 2003."
"Lost the Son and Wife, huh?"
"Right?"
"I answer unexpectedly to this Creep!"
...
"Gate Keeper?"
"I thought...
'The Suicide Thing' was changed?"
I Ask.
"Changed from 'Heaven to Hell?"
I Wonder.
...
"A Fucking Myth!"
"It will always and forever be this way stupid!"
"At least I earned my 'Ticket here the right way!"
He States.
"And, what would that be?"
I Ask.
"Murder and Rape!"
Replies.
"And, this is my 'Penance' to greet Ass Holes like you!"
...
"You see, we need more Dead Ass Holes like you!"
"Satan is busy and needs 2 'Suicide Victims!"
"We have only been getting 'Heroin Overdoses,' lately."
He States.
...
"Did the, 'Reaper give you the 'Gold Coins?'
"Yes, two."
I Reply.
"I need one to let you pass."
"You can keep the other but don't waste it."
"It may save your 'Lousy Ass' someday."
...
"I pass through and further on down the path, the more noxious and louder it gets?"
"The Screaming is horrid!"
"Am I dreaming?"
I Wonder.
End of Chapter Number One.
...
Chapter Number Two
"Hell Hath No Fury Like A Woman!"
Written on July 1st, 2018
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"After what seemed weeks, I finally arrived at my destination."
"And, along the way, I met some many, as well as, 'Interesting Characters?'
...
"Hey Adolf!"
"How you doing?"
I Wondered.
"Not good!"
"Can you get these..
'Jew Mother Fuckers' off me?"
"Can't help you with that Adolf!'
"What goes around, gets around!"
"Then I saw 'Attila the Hun?'
"His head on a post that read...
"This way!"
"Follow My Head to Purģatory!"
"There were also, a couple of
Serial Killers?"
"Jeffery Dalmer and Ted Bundy!"
"They were entertaining 'Demon Cannibals!'
...
"I even saw 'Bin?'
"Bin Ladin!"
"He was praying to Mohamad as all the 9~11
Victims! Would take turns torturing him!"
"And then I saw She?"
...
"She calls herself...
'Honey Baby?'
"I can't believe the Demons in Hell!"
"This Red Head was HOTT!"
...
"She Asked me if I still had a 'Gold Coin?'
"I Replied...
"Yup!"
"She said...
"Lets go!"
"How could I not?"
"The Best Damned Sex that I ever had!"
"And boy, was glad but theres this 'Strange Rash'on my 'Happy Area?'
"Wonder if they have any CVS's in Hell?"
...
"Then, I saw it!"
"HELL!"
"And, it was Massive!"
"Ingeniously built!"
"All iut if 'Human Bones and Skulls?"
"I saw other strange things too!"
"Surrounding the structure was an Iron Gate but larger then the previous one!"
"And, the gates were moaning?"
"I swear they were saying...
"Go Away!"
...
'After entering Hell, I noticed that it was kinda warm?"
"Not too Hot?"
"That's when some beggar asked me for a 'Gold Coin!'
"I said that I had spent it in 'An Angel.'
"He Replies.
"That was no Angel!"
"That was Satan testing you!"
"Did nd you learn in 'Bible School ad a kid that Satan takes on many Disguises!"
"I threw up!"
End of Chapter Number Two!
Chapter Number Three...
"A Day at Club Med?"
A Little later.
24.

Author Notes

"Spec!ial thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Artr Review, and this amazing as well as talented artist.... 'MKFlood,' and his incredible picture... "Twilight Zone at Crossroads"

Chapter 79
Wounded Target

By Ricky1024

"Wounded Target"
Written on July 14th, 2018
By Dr. Ricky 1024
"Yes, at Best, I was in distress."
"No S.O.S for My quest just, at best, a Prayer."
...
"Yes, Pray for Me, on this Day, for Me, so I can see...
"See the Light."
"And, It won't be much longer, got to be stronger, linger Longer here below."
"For soon you will see, the Best of Me, There's so much more to Me."
...
"There's this Hand, Understand, that reaches down, down for Me.?"
"And, with that Hand, Understand, It grasps a hold of Me?"
"And, I rise...
"I rise through the many, blue, blue clouds that I look and now see?"
"And I rise...
"Even higher, Then you."
"Ever higher than he?"
"As far above, As Above can be!"
"And, there's a reason, Reason why?"
"Yes, a reason why, Why I *Died?"

Author Notes

*Died: "Death does not always end it all, my friend?" "The Last Hurrah?" "To learn more about... "Organ-Tissues Donations." Simply call my, dear, friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. "With "The Gift of Life." "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, at '1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the very Bottom of My Broken Heart as well as, my Son Jason's donated Heart... "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father, and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented as well as gifted Artist/Writer... 'cleo85.' "And, her incredible Picture... "Avalon"

Chapter 80
Sleeping with the Enemy?'

By Ricky1024

"Sleeping with the Enemy?"
{The Eye, A Window to the Soul}
Written on July 20th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Ricky, are you home?"
"Yes Soul, What'z a Crackling?"
"Oysters?"
"Ha, Ha, Ha!"
"Listen Ricky, I understand that you have been sleeping with 'The *Enemy?'
"Yes Soul, what about it?"
I Ask.
"Well, we are connected."
"Yes?"
"Well, we are connected, you and I?"
"Yes?"
"Well...
"Damn it Janet!"
"Are you living on another...
'Mother Fucking Planet?'
States Soul.
"Don't Sleep with the Enemy!"
"She's Nasty."
...
"Yes, but she said that she can help me."
"Help me to die!!!"
...
"No, No, No, Ricky!"
"Didn't I tell you to never talk to strangers?"
Yes.
"But them why?"
"Why are you even thinking that way?"
Soul Asks.
"Well, you know Soul, my Son...
"Then, my Wife...
"Yes, but...
...
"Enemy?"
"Are you there?"
'Yes States Ricky."
"Is it time, Ricky?"
"Yes."
"I'm ready Soul...
"As...
'A Plate of Fine Spaghetti.'
...

"So, here's the Deal Ricky."
"I will pretend to be you to confuse...
'The Enemy.'
"if this works, two things may happen?"
"First, 'The Enemy' may or may not leave you alone?"
"And, Second...
"You will live to see...
"Another Fucking Day!'
"The next night...
...
"Ricky?'
"Are you there, Ricky...
"My Love?'
"Yes, 'Enemy.'
"Now just stick it in!"
"In me Enemy?'
I Question.
"Yes, You Sick Piece of SH...
...
"And, I know you want me!"
"Better than Ice 'Cream and Chocolate Cake!"
"Better than a 'Sunny Day!'
"And, Better then FUCKING SEX!!!'
...
"You make it seem so wonderful 'Enemy' but each and every time I try...
"It Fucking Hurts So Bad?'"
" I don't care Ricky!"
"You want to continue to live like this?"
No, Enemy.
"You want to see your Wife and Son Jason, again?"
"Don't you Ricky?"
Yes.
"Then...
"OUCH!!!"
To Be Continued when I Wake up?"
Approximate Word Count: 323.

Author Notes

*Enemy: Butcher Knife. "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented Artist, 'Little Boogie 007' and their picture, "The Eye, a Window to the Soul"

Chapter 81
The Message is Clear?

By Ricky1024

"The Message is Clear?"
{My Time is Near}
Written on July 21st, 2018
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"My Message to you is when it tis Time...
When it is Due...
"When it is time and when it is you...
...
"You see Fanstorian Reviewers my message is that...
"LIFE...
"Life tis more precious than the 'Rarest of Gems.'
"No more Second Chances and no more Amens!"
"Follow Me...
"Deep, Deeper, Deepest...
...
"Yes, my Time here is now Near...
"And, that Time to me, is now clear."
"Death has now Welcomed Me?"
...
"The Year was March 31st, 2003 and I was only a child of Eighteen?"
"Could tie My Shoes and paid My Dues but He...
"Wanted but a Little More from...
*Me?"
...
"It's funny how one moment and things seem seemingly normal?'
"Then on the Other Hand?"
"It becomes, more or less,
"Less then Grand?"
"Yes!"
"Take my Mellowed Hands and come with me on a
Journey?"
Approximate and Estimated Word Count: 1,000.
End of Chapter Number One.
Chapter Number Two:
"My Journey?"
Later today.
24.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as Talented Artist... 'SilverWoulfCreations,' and their incredible Picture... "Message In A Bottle"

Chapter 82
With a Heavy Heart 2003

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"With a Heavy Heart 2003"
{The Letters}
Written on July 11th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jason
***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***
Cast of Characters:
Myself {Richard} and My Wife Carolyn
My Family members
Nichole Megan and Kyle Erin Harbach
{Step-Daughters}
Corrine Alexis and Dana Alyse Smrkovsky
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
"The Gift of Life"
Heavenly Father
The Grim Reaper
Dr. Williams
Nurse Maxwell
And Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"Within the Abundance of the Human Heart comes a Blessing"
{Theology 37.92}
"Doctor?"
Yes Nurse?
"It's Bad, Real Bad!!"
"Yes, I know...
"Can you please ask the family to leave the room, Maxwell."
"Of Course Doctor Williams.
...
Note:"Jason was having his skull tapped to relieve pressure."
"The procedure needed where they Tap the Skull of the person Suffering,
will not be effective in this case."
"Seventeen, hours, later...
...
"Got another one."
"Poor kid, kinda feel sorry for Him."
States The Grim Reaper of Death.
...
"THe Soul rises...
"Rises...
"Rises...
"Through 'Seven Layers of Brightly Colored Clouds."
"Through 'The Veil of Forgetfulness.
My Son?"
"My Son?"
"You have finally arrived back home here in Heaven."
"States Heavenly Father."
...
"Yes Lara?'
I Replied.
'We want to...
"We want to Dona...
"Donate, Lara.
"We decided to do the right thing."
"And, maybe some good can come out of this?"
"Dad?"
Yes Corey?
"Not Jason's Eyes.
Three, Weeks, Later...

****

"Look Carolyn, we just received a later from "The Gift of Life" in Philadelphia."
"And, it's from a man there named 'Chaz.'
...
The Letter:
"Dear Donor Family,
"I just want to take a moment to write this and thanks you for, 'Life.'
"And, without this 'Gift and Blessing.'
"I probably would not be here."
"I can't imagine your sufferings as I too have a son and a daughter."
Sincerely,
Chaz."
About three Weeks later...
...
"Look Dear?"
"Another letter from 'The Gift of Life!'
"This time it is from a man named 'Bill."
The Letter:
"Hi, my name is Bill and i just want you to know that Jason's Gift is doing well in me and saved my life."
"I was so bad my wife started the procedure of divorce as not to watch me suffer anymore."
{Another Story}
"Thanks Richard and Carol for the beautiful Poem and picture of Jason and God bless You all."
Bill...
"Yes, we received that second letter from Bill out West and so thankful, like Chaz."
***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>**<><><>***
"With a Heavy Heart"
Written on July 11th, 2018
"With a 'Heavy Heart,' I write these words now, to You."
"My life may be over but your memories of me will last a lifetime."
"I may not be with you right now but I'm not far....
"Not far as a Star...
...
"I think of you each and every day and wonder how you are?"
"I pray that someday we can again be together...
"We can be somehow, someday, and someway...
"I before i sleep, I remember when...
"We were all together...
"Way back *Then."
...
"And, 'With A Heavy Heart' I write these words for you."
"And, know this, that I am okay and in a better place now."
"My pain is over and i must move on."
"Dad?"
"Please don't cry for Me or try to hurt Yourself again, for you are only hurting Me."
"And yes, mom is with Me now even though she took her own life Eight months after my Death."
...
"Yes, Dad...
"Please don't cry for me anymore for the sadness only gets in the way."
"And, live your Lives as i would and always remember this...
...
"With a 'Heavy Heart and Silent Thoughts'
"And memories that will always and forever exist...
"I send You All My Love From Heaven...
"Sealed With a Kiss."
Jason...
Approximate Word Count: 579.
Written at S.O.C.H. Hackensack-Meridian Hospital."
"In 'The Beach Plum Restaurant.'
"In Manahawkin, New Jersey.
Approximate Word Count:649.

Author Notes

*Then: "Jason was killed in a car accident on March 31st, 2003 only 17 hours after a total loss of Blood-Oxygen His Brain." "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' 'Simply call my, dear, friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life." 'OPhiladelphia, Pennsylvania at... "!-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, thanks from the bottom of my BRoken Heart and my only Son... "Jason's Donated Heart... ***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>*** Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky December 6th, 1952~ November 26th, 2003. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003 "Major Organs donated on April 1st, 2003" [April Fools Day.} ***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><><>***<><>*** "Special thanks goes out first as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as Talented Artist... 'SCHLATZLING' and his incredible picture... "The Letter H"

Chapter 83
Blades of Grass 2018

By Ricky1024

"Blades of Grass 2018"
Written on July 25th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"Dawn breaks to a new Day."
"Springtime Sings with delight."
"All the flowers open their buds after a long Spring night."
...
"Dew breaks as the Many is awakens...
"Sunlight glistening off every drop, as 'Dew' becomes few...
"A Wipperwill call?"
"Awakens all to Springtime."
...
"A Silent awakening?"
"Rest forsaken?"
"But there is Bloom in the air!"
"Scented flowers everywhere!"
...
"Baby Robin's heads...
"Raising up...
"Mommy?"
"Are you there?"
...
"Yes reviewer, a Time to care and a Time to share as 'Warm Spring Breezes' touch...
"Oh, how we need this so much!"
...
"SunKisses morn as Spring rains are near?"
"Tulips and Daffodils frolic in the breeze as Dandelions multiply with just one sneeze!"
...
"The many Rivers and Streams are full to the brim with last Winters...
"Melting, Icy, Grin!"
"Just in time for the Fish to have a swim!"
...
"Yes!"
"This is 'Springtime' at it's best!"
"And finally?"
"As if forgotten from the Past?"
"The Leaves of Grass."

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first' as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and Talented Artist, 'Barb Baker,' and her incredible Picture... "Summer Grass with My Shades On"

Chapter 84
Just One and Only One Red Rose

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Just One and Only One Red Rose"
Written on July 27th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{A Dedication to Carol}
<><>****<><><>**C. Fan Story 2018**<><><>****<><>
"Along the Side of the Raging River...
"Beside the Rocky Crest...
"Within the Cold, Cold, of 'Wintern's Regrets.'
"A Single, Red, Rose, Plant...
"Rests...
...
"She's got One, Single, Bloom...
"Only A daughter and no *Son...
"Restricted and left to Her **Doom...
"Along the Cold, Cold, River's Side...
"All broken up ***Inside...
"Stem Blackened in Mask...
"She waits...
"Her Fate...
...
"And, it won't be Long Now...
"As She Prepares with her...
"Very, Last, Vow...
...
"Dear Lord,
"I give to Thee All of Me...
"I'm her to meet You...
"My Maker...
"To late to Regret all that I've met...
"All My Pains and Miseries...
...
"Yes, She suffered so...
"Nobody on this Earth could possibly know...
"This Pain...
"This Immense Pain that will never let Me Go?"
"But...
...
"Along the Side of the Raging River...
"Besides the Rocky Crest...
"Within the Cold, Cold, of 'Wintern's Regret...
"Stem Blackened in Mask...
"No more...
"Too, too, much suffering...
"Her task...
...
"From all of Her pain of the Past...
"Caught in a Deadly Grasp...
"With in The Mist of the now Springtime Dew...
"A Single, Red, Rose will Arise...
"A Single, Red, Rose...
"Will Renew...
Approximate Word Count:223.

Author Notes

*Son:"Our Son Jason whom passed away March 31st, 2003 from as a result of a Horrible Car accident on march 31st, 2003." **Doom: "Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky committed 'Self-Medicated Suicide on November 6th, 2003." ***Inside: "Jason is an 'Organ-Tissue Donor." "And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations... "Simply contact my, dear, friend, Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... 'The Gift of Life!' "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1. <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art, Review, this Amazing as well as, Talented Artist, 'GaliaG.' "And Her Incredible Picture... "With Red Roses 2"

Chapter 85
Picture This What If?

By Ricky1024

"Picture This What If?"
Written on July 28th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"Picture This?"
"The Sky of Azure Blue is now an assortment of many, beautiful, colors as you drive by and look up into the Sky!"
"Picture This?"
"Everywhere you go, people ask you...
"How are You?"
"And, how do you do?"
"Picture This?"
"The Winter { Which you Love}
"And, the Summer {Which you Love too}
"Are each and every day!"
"Picture This?"
"You never get old and stay at the age of Eighteen."
"The Rest of your life!"
"Picture This?"
"You never die!"
"Picture This?"
"You can have your choice of a New Car each and every Birthday!"
"Picture This?"
"If you choose to age, you can have a New Grand Child from your Four Daughters...
"Each and Every year!"
"Picture This?"
"As you walk on by, Ice Cream Cones of all your Favorite Flavors now grow on trees and are completely FREE!"
"Picture This?"
"You never need to work{Like a Jerk!}
"And, you get a Free Vacation anywhere you want to go once a Day!"
"Picture This?"
"Your old and crappy, Timex is now a New and Wonderful...
'$35,000 Dollar Rolex!'
"Picture This?"
"And, your fake and 'Cracker Box Jewelry,' are now Real Gold and Gems!"
Amen!
"And Lastly....
"Picture THIS?"
"The person that you Loved...
"the person That you Loved and Missed...
"The Person that You Loved and Missed that Died?"
"So very, long, ago...
"Will now be by your Side...
"Each and Every *Day...

****

"What If?"
"There was no Heroin or there, Illegal Drugs?"
"What If?"
"There was No War and Nothing but Peace?"
"What If?"
"There would be no need for Shelters for Man or Beast?"
(To say the Least?)
"What If?"
"There was no Famine, Thirst, Pain, Suffering, and Eternal Misery?"
"And, What If all these things were gone...
"And, all these things would happen today, instead of never...
"Come What May?"

Approximate Word Count:329.

Author Notes

* Day: "The day... "March 31st, 2003." "The day... "My only son Jason was pronounced... "Brain Dead... ""And, to learn more about... 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my, dear, friend, Lara S. Moretti." "The L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life!" "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my and my Son Jason's Donated Heart... "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this Talented Artist... 'Sierra Treasures,' and their incredible picture... "The Window of the Soul"

Chapter 86
ObSSioN

By Ricky1024

"OBSSIoN"
Written on July 29th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"Your my 'OBSSIoN' for my Love for You now is heading in a more new and Exciting direction!"
...
"Nina, you must realize that each and everytime I look into your beautiful eyes...
"I'm suddenly hypnotized!"
"And. I get lost, lost and my Blood Pressure begins to rise!"

****

"Your 'My Obsession,' for Love like this must have a 'Heavenly Connection!"
"Nina...
"I Live for You!"
"I Need only You!"
"And. I give to You...
"All .y Love...
...
"Nina, My Love Your my 'Obsession' for each and every Night I sleep...
"I think of You and Only You...
"My Love to Keep!"
...
"Marrie me and make me happy again?"
"Take a walk with me and hold my hand?"
"For a Love like this Nina, you need to understand."
"For you and Only you can be...
"My Obsession!"
Approximate Word Count: 157.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this Amazing as well as Talented Artist... 'Roseanne Lillard,' and her Incredible Picture... "Giannina"

Chapter 87
Rock of Ages

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Rock of Ages"
{The Best of Me!}
Written on July 31st, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
{At The Hard Rock 'Legends' Atlantic City, New Jersey}.
**<><><>***<><>C. Fan Story 2018<><>***<><><>**
"Once Upon A Time, Lost in the Depths of My Mind,
"A Star was Born?"
"But, no Ordinary Star?"
...
"And, Once and Only Once Upon a Time in Complete and Beautiful Rhyme...
"I had it all and, lost it all...
...
"I lost my Ability to be?"
"I lost the Ability to be Me?"
"And, I lost the Ability to Life."
"To live Life as I used to."
"To live my Life as a Father."
To live mu Life as Husband.'
"And, to live...
"My Life and be Me...
"The way it was supposed to BE."
"And finally?"
...
"First lost the *Son."
"And, then the Only **Wife."
...
"Now over fifteen, years, later?"
"That person died along time ago?'
"And, as I live and breathe...
"You will soo realize...
"THE BEST OF ME!"
Approximate Word Count: 177.

Author Notes

*Son: "My only Son Jason passed away on March 31st 2003 after being in a horrible car accident." **Wife: "My wife Carolyn Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky passed away after purposely stopping all her necessary medications only Eight months after the Death of our only Son Jason." "And, if you or anyone you know are contemplating, 'Suicide' call 9-11." **Son: "To Be or Not to Be?" "That is the Question?" "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my, dear, friend, Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... "The Gift of Life!" "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at... "1-800-DONORS-1." "And, thanks from the bottom of my and my Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Art Review, this Amazing as well as talented Artist... 'cleo85,' and her incredible picture... "The Face"

Chapter 88
Realizing the Benefits of Me?

By Ricky1024

"Realizing the Benefits of Me?"
Written on April 1st, 2003
By Jason in Heaven
Sorry Mom, Sorry Dad.
Sorry My Sisters...
Cory, Dana, Nikki, and Kyle.
But there is something I think you to should know.
...
Firstly, I want to express...
(At best this Quest).
That I no longer exist in My fractured body.
And, since there is no sense crying over...
'Spilled and Soured Milk.'
The necessary and needed changes have been cast.
You see, for Me, it was My...
'Fate and My Destiny.'
...
Dad, Cory, Dana, Mom, Nikki, and Kyle...
Please don't be mad."
I think Mom and Dad that you'll understand that this was the way for me."
And yes!"
The pureness of price runs cheap and deep because of that stupid kid Brian Cole."
And, what he did to Me in *2003."
...
And, because of he...
There's really not much more here for **Me."
As I'm trying to realize the benefits in Me."
But it's hard...
So very hard...
You see?
...
Yes, I messed up and I did as he did.
I'm so, so, sorry Nikki and Kyle.
And, You are not just My step sisters.
You are My sisters.
And, Nikki.
You probably are extremely upset and Kyle?
Even though there were some rocky times...
Sometimes the past is now last and the future is best but for you?
"It's now your time and time will tell."
"You will have more children in the immediate future."
"I never will."
"And Nikki?"
"Unfortunately for you?"
"You never wil�?�¨l have a child but you'll finally...
(One day)
"If you ask...
"The Lord and pray.
You will get your wish someday.
But for you Corey.
No way too.
Your life is so complicated and intense right now!
And,, once you finish four more years at Rutgers.
You will be extremely successful.
...
And Dana.
We were so close only ten months apart!
And one, fine and Blessed Day.
You will have a Son...
A beautiful Son!
My gift from above because remember way back in 2003?
When I told you?
When you were told to ride in the car with you sister Kyle?
ot with Me the driver Brian Cole.:
Yes, not to ride with us.
Because for Me?
Because it would soon be...
'Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust.'
...
Yes, I knew My Fate and My Destiny.
Just as Christ had died on the Cross for the sins of Future Mankind...
I too would die in that 'Death Car' by a Mentally-Ill Maniac!
Dead set on Suicide!
...
But as a result?
I give life to four, lucky, people.
And, I had a feeling that it would come.
...
Be happy Dad and stop crying.
Mom is here now with Me and she's happier now above then below.:
And Yes, I knew I would come back to My Heavenly Father cuz He told me so.
I knew it at a very, extremely, young age.
As I now must turn the page."
That this was the way it was going to be.
My Future and My Destiny.
...
Yes, I was only eighteen years old but I found My purpose in my dream."
For, I died not once but twice."
As I offered to this World." 'My Gift of Life!'
Approximate Word Count: 558.

Author Notes

*2003: **Me: "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply call my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with... 'The Gift of Life!' "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at, '1-800-DONORS-1.' "And, thanks from the bottom of my heart and my only Son Jason's Donated Heart." "Special Thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ followed by Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this talented as well as incredible artist and writer' Ricky 1024 and my picture... "Jay and Sasha"

Chapter 89
Candle of Me

By Ricky1024

"Candle of Me"
Written on August 13th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Like a Ship without a Wind...
An Audience without Entertainers...
A Waxed Wick with no Flame?
Come with me as I now share my Name...
...
I am just me...
Nothing that special....
But, can you see?
Me...
...
Maybe...
You need more?
Okay...
"I'll try...
...
In 2000 and Three...
After the death of Two members of my Family...
Depression of Grief...
Unsatisfying moan...
Unending cry...
In 2000 and Three...
I died...
...
The World (for me)
Yes!
Died with Me?
I forgot I had FOUR DAUGHTERS!
Instead?
Four painful years until any form of relief...
For this LatterDay Saint Priest.
....
Like a Sinner with no Sin...
A Doctor with no Cure?
A Jockey with no Horse to Race?
Life for me has lost...
That Sweetness of Grace...
...

A Clock with no Hands....
A Car with no Fuel...
A Pen which ran out of Ink...
An Einstein whom no longer can Think?
...
Life wants more of Me but Lord God...
Can You no See?
I lost my only Son and Wife in 2000 and Three...
Approximate Word Count: 203.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ,,FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing writer as well as talented artist... 'Dr. Ricky 1024,' and his incredible picture... "Candle of Me"

Chapter 90
Cat-A-Fied!

By Ricky1024

"Cat-A-Fied!"
Written on August 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
"Katharine Onyx?"
Yes Mommy?
"When you grow you are gonna have BABIES!"
Okay Mommy.
One Year Later...
...
"John?"
Yes Kate.
"It's that wild cat again at the porch door!"
"Well, what do you want me to do about it Kate?
Asks John.
"John the poor things hungry?"
"It won't stop crying!"
...
Two weeks later, Kate posted on 'Craig's List,' "Free Cat."
That's where I come in.
I recently lost a cat and my cat Garfield was lonely.
So, Me and my friend Brett went to Abseian, in New Jersey.

Chapter 91
Separation of Character

By Ricky1024

"Separation of Character"
Written on August 23rd, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
*******<><>******<><>******
Life, ever fleeting like a Flower that lost it's only Bloom.
Life, discrete and fallow...
Moment of Time...
Clock that no longer winds?
...
Life, temporary pocket of Skin...
Forgiveness of past Life...
Left over Sins?
Life over Death?
Just one last Breath?
...
Life, so, so, Sad?
Horrid of Toll...
Searching for my Soul?
...
Life, That was not?
Just a Micro Second...
'Of, One Last *Shot?'

Author Notes

*Shot: "Like... 'A Shot in the Dark.' "And, It was all over... "March 31st 2003.. "Just Seventeen Hours later... (With no blood oxygen) "Blood-oxygen Level." "Left in His Ruined Brain... "He was pronounced on March 31st, 2003." "And, only hours later... "On April 1st 2003." (April Fool's Day) "That very next evening... "April Fool's Day." "The Joke was on... "The Grim Reaper of Death!" ... "For even in Death... "There is Life!" "For my Son Jason donated life." ... "And, to learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Laua S. Moretti the L.S.W. with... 'The Gift of Life.' "Philadelphia, Pennsylvania." "At 1-800-DONORS-1." ... "And, thanks from the bottom of my broken Heart and My Only Son Jason's donated Heart..." "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, FanArt Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer, 'cleo85' and her incredible picture... "The Biblical Plaque"

Chapter 92
My Blue Horizon 2018(A)

By Ricky1024

"My Blue Horizon 2018" (A)
Written on August 26th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024
*****************************
Pristine Blue Waters sparkling in the Mid-noon Sun's Light.
Palms sway in the Southern Breeze...
As coconut Trees bask in the glory for all to see.
...
Silvery shells sparkle in foamy surf's delight...
Soon the Sun will set...
As they anticipate the Night.
...
Dusk announces the end of another...
'Sunshine Day.'
As, 'Moon's Glow,' knows...
...
This is the Night!
When Light rests and Darkness becomes like 'Scarlet Slivers,' slowly creeping, with each and every crest of a passing wave.
...
Stars now signal and cluster...
As some streak in anticipation!
Excitement caresses the Midnight Sky as the breeze of the Palms seize...
(As if in rest)
And, no more coconuts fall at the shoreline's crest.
...
Then...
The Sounds!
The Sounds of the Night come alive in communicational delight!
...
From the tiny croak of the Caribbean frog to the silent flicker of the Firefly...
This beauty and color have no compare!
...
Silver, scaled, fish surface on search of Prey, as Moon watches all in that spectacular Glow over Island's Bay!
...
For this is Paradise!
With it's 'Sugar-Sanded Beaches' and laden Waterfalls.
With Cicadas that romance their presence...
"And, when God's work this night is finally done...
"Welcome, again to my...
"Blue Horizon!"
"My Blue Horizon II (B)
Written on August 27rh, 2018
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Within the Dared and Never Shared...
'Shared Sacred Sands
And, 'Immortal Shores.'
Lies a Special Place of Holy Grace.
And, it is here and ready...
Ready to show...
If you would like to go?
...
Welcome to 'My Blue Horizon!
The Sky's color is Azure and the waters?
Turquoise and Powdered Blue!
...
Welcome back to 'My Blue Horizon!'
As my Coconut Trees drop their many Gifts upon the crest of the many Waves and wash ashore...
(When you need more!)
Balmy Weathered Palms provide all the necessary shade and breeze, while the many sounds of the Sea, calm and caress.
Now, this is Living...
Living at your very best!
...
Sunrises are spectacular, each and every waking morn, as Sunsets glow on the Bay in Ambered Oranges, Deep Hued Reds, and Banana Yellows.
(Lucky Fellow!)
...
Pristine Waters cascade d oen below, from the Many Wateredfalls...
So, dive right in!
(Isn't it a Sin?)
And yes, you are blessed but be sure first...
That you Undress!
...
Yes!
This is 'My Blue Horizon!'
With untouched and unblemished Shores!
No need to say anything more!
As No Human Hand tis here.
...
Moon's Glow greets you on the crest of the many, foamy, Waves!
As 'Sugared Sanded Beaches.'
Display a collection of the Sea...
No comparison...
(From You to Me!)
...
Count the Sparkling Stars at Night and connect...
This is surely Heaven, Heaven's Best!
...
Awaken to the many Gifts from the Sea!
From Conch to Shrimp, to Lobster of Tail...
The Sea hold no Mysteries here for you and for Me!
...
Yes!
Nourish and Flourish!
(There's more than enough to share!)
And, after a Long Day at the Ocean and Bay?
Rinse off your Oiled and Aged Skin...
But How?
Just, jump right in!
Isn't it a Sin!Son!
...
Welcome to 'My Blue Horizon' by the shores of Heaven Above!
And, when you depart from 'Your Mortal Skin.'
Remember...
Just jump right in!
Approximate Word Count: 574.

Author Notes

"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing as well as talented artist and writer, 'cleo85,'' and her incredible picture... "Coconut Sunrise"

Chapter 93
'Blu (A)

By Ricky1024

"BLU" (A)
(Blessed Lord U Are)
Written on August 31st, 2018
By Doctor Ricky1024
Blessed Lord You Are for You created me.
From nothing more or less than the Eye could ever see...
...
Blessed Thou that you are!
From the Stars to the Moon...
To the Sun and Earth...
Up above!
You did this and yes You are!
...
But the best that You ever did for me?
You gave me two daughters and one Son!
And, Lord You know what?
What is the very best?
You did for me?
You let me survive...
From all of my *Miseries.

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"Just Pray?" (B)
Written on September 2nd, 2018
"Lord God, I came to You but where were You this day?"
"Yes, I came to You but why did You...
"Turn me away?"
...
"I knocked on that door...
"Did You not listen or hear?"
"Did You Lord, not care?"
"But no answer?"
"I am lost and in pain!"
"I swear!"
...
"Yes, I knocked on that Church's door and even rang the bell?"
"Help me Lord God!"
"Before I go to Hell!"
...
"My Son, Oh My Son!"
"I went to that door but you were impatient and went away?"
"Yes, I waited for you and did not send you away!"
...
"But Lord God!"
"Can You hear me now?"
"I speak out by word of mouth!"
"Has Thee left of me and gone South?"
...
"My Son, Oh My Lost and Lonely Son!"
"Just look where you've gone?
And, look what You've Done?"
"My Son, My Son, My only Sickened of Son!"
"Yes!"
"I was at that Door and Church and listened to You that sad, sad, day."
"But you forgot...
"You forgot the best way?"
"That sad oh so, sad, sad, of day?*
"To Just Pray?'â?°â??�±â??�?â?¬�¥
Approximate Word Count: 300.

Author Notes

*Miseries:"Pain, Grief, Depression." What you feel when all is lost." "And, to learn more about ' Organ-Tissue Donations.' "Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. More to the L.S.W. with... "The Gift ofLife!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. "And, thanks from the bottom of my Broken Heart and my only Son Jason's donated Heart." "Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing and talented Artist... 'Diannatilley', and her incredible picture... "Evening Blues"

Chapter 94
The Negative Effect

By Ricky1024

"The Negative Effect"
Written on September 4th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky1024
++++****+++++++++*****,+++++++++****++++
(Justification according to 'The Seven Laws of Juditification' and 'The Seven Deadly Sins.')
Sin Number One: "Addiction"
Sin Number Two: "Tobacco"
Sin Number Three: "Oil Industry"
Sin Number Four: "Banking"
Sin Number Five: "Telecommunications"
Sin Number Six: Monopolization"
Sin Number Seven: "Lack of Religion"
Since this was last but deserves to be first...
Sin Number Seven: "The Lack of Religion."
"Lack of Religion."
"The Lack of Religion" runs the gambit here in the United States.
According to an article in a pamphlet by The Jehovah Witness's, The United States is losing Eighteen Percent of worshipers a year.
Sin Number One: "Addiction"
In the World today, it seems we or we know someone with this malady.
From Alcoholism to Heroin.
To be continued later today.
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Chapter 94
The Negative Effect in Today's Worl

By Ricky1024

"The Negative Effect in Today's World"
Written on September 4th, 2018
By Doctor Ricky1024
++++****+++++++++*****,+++++++++****++++
(Justification according to 'The Seven Laws of Juditification' and 'The Seven Deadly Sins.')
Sin Number One: "Addiction"
Sin Number Two: "Tobacco"
Sin Number Three: "Oil Industry"
Sin Number Four: "Banking"
Sin Number Five: "Telecommunications"
Sin Number Six: Monopolization"
Sin Number Seven: "Lack of Religion"
Since this was last but deserves to be first...
Sin Number Seven: "The Lack of Religion."
"Lack of Religion."
"The Lack of Religion" runs the gambit here in the United States.
According to an article in a pamphlet by The Jehovah Witness's, The United States is losing Eighteen Percent of worshipers a year.
Sin Number One: "Addiction"
In the World today, it seems we or we know someone with this malady.
From Alcoholism to Heroin.
To be continued later today.
24.

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