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"From out of the Grayness"


Chapter 1
What 's grayness really mean

By His Grayness

consider "reality". Our ability to "perceive" is a marvelous differentiator that allows our unique individual perceptions to be blended into various forms of collective perception, emotion, and overall "utility" in all forms of our individual and collective cultures, religions, arts, and sciences. Love is the ultimate form of perception as it is our connector to our creator and through the energy of "gratitude" Poetry is a profoundly powerful gynmasium of the mind that demands courageous exploration in to "gray" areas of perception, of "gray" areas of all forms of the arcane sciences and religions, and human species itself. The brain is the "gray" mass that houses the the vehicles of thought that carry us on these journeys, seeking the pure light that I believe is the homestead of God and that is that which keeps the "grayness" of possibility out of the pure,desperate, black and deadly wasteland of darkness wherein the true demons of humanity live in hunger of the light...of love. My hope is that my "grayness" will lead others into that light of positive creative ambition and endeavor to the intended goodwill and precious GRATITUDE that results thereThe founding imperative of this work proposes that the actual purpose of human life as intended by GOD is "Creative Endeavor". (I would imagine that it would actually be positive, good, and meaningful works that would benefit mankind) The underpinning logic of this is that GOD is the ultimate and original creator of what we know today to be our total universe of life in all forms. The fundamental mechanisims of human creativity are engineered into each new human within their DNA (author's belief) and as such we are separated by other forms of life as being sentient or consciously aware of whatever we may from. Through the last few years approaching this work, I have been working with a brain actually a bit more than gray and much more black as I have been suffering with Alzheimer's disease and the acknowledgements from my doctors that my death therefrom would be forthcoming for certain. I have joyfully proven now years thereafter that it is indeed possible to come out of the Grayness, as well as the Blackness of Alzheimer's as I am today, the first person to ever have survived the certain death, thereof, as my Alzheimer's disease is gone and I am now and hopefully for the rest of my life, working from out of the Grayness and also very hopefully will be able to guide my pen to deliver rich and meaningful perspectives that will meaningfully help others find a richer and more joyful life filled with continuous GRATITUDE!. Vance Seagle. 8,26 2018
Let me begin with the assumption that anyone reading this would by nature seek to find new enlightenments that would bring them Joy!
First, I sincerely believe that no human can achieve the richness of joy in life without being well acquainted with "GRATITUDE"! as it is positively the richest state of mind a human can achieve! Sure, we all find difficulties, challenges, threats, and downright horrific events and circumstances in our lives that immediately demand our attention and often ugly or uncommonly nasty actions to defeat them. If they are not so threatening that we can ignore them, we can shrug them off and be grateful that they are dismissed but typically, we are engineered to be !

prompt in responding to any kind of threat, and the blood pressure is immediately spiked, eyes expanded, blood pressure rushed and some level of anger exercised. Sure, if someone pulls a knife on you, it's not likely that you are going to be celebrating your good luck unless you might be holding a loaded pistol in hand in your other pocket! In that, this actually happened to me on a dark street in New Orleans many years ago, I can testify to the fact that watching that thug run like hell when I stuck it in his face, actually did spike a serious thanks to heaven, a magnificent glass of expensive wine in the nearby bar and a rapid visit to their rest room! I also remember some very serious prayers that night actually giving thanks that I was glad to have scared him off rather than taking his life and having that hang in my memory for the rest of my life. Of course, I'm sure he also got a heck of a good lesson on the power of GRATITUDE once he got well out of range that night

Author Notes I hope the creativity in this book will leaad you out of your grayness in many ways and into an ever brighter light each new day in your life.


Chapter 1
A Good Day Coming Through

By His Grayness

A Good Day Coming Through

When all the snows have fallen
In the Aprils of your life
When every love has gone the other way

Just turn your face up to the sky
And force a little smile
And keep the faith in living one more day

There may not be a single star
To light your evening sky
And you may feel that all you ever knew

Were lonely roads and empty dreams
And while I'm sure that's how it seems
Surely there's a good day coming through

Life's not meant for folks to live
In sorrow and despair
And life's not meant for dying when you're young
Everyday's a new beginning, a brand new melody
A song to sing that never has been sung

Surely all those clouds could make a pillow for your head
And a soothing wind could make you feel brand new
And the ground could drink your tears
And grow a flower from your fears
So surely there's a good day coming through.

Author Notes Hopefully a brighter day for someone out there in the dark!


Chapter 1
Calling All Poets

By His Grayness

Calling all Poets: By: His Grayness & Gert Sherwood

Calling all poets...
Come and dance ...
Bring your finest robes of thought
In brightest colors of passion and love
Spin your word spirits in lessons of joy
Tales of courtships and torrid romance

Close your eyes now
In silent praise
Swaying with the rhythm idea
Tap your toes in sweet anticipation
As the words flow like music from above
Your ink moves to paper in magical ways

Wrapping your gift
In ribbons of pride
Hoping you'll bring emotions to life
Reaching out to hungry hearts and souls
Not knowing, always praying your words
Will bring healing to what's hurting inside

You are all special
In God's love plan
Teaching and learning how to help and heal
Straining to share your many lessons of life
Expecting nothing, but praying your soul-songs
Will bring joy and spirit to everyone you can.

Let us weave together our creative thoughts
as we play our own melody
each thought is a tuneful key,
so we all can play in harmony
one great symphony.

Thank you all poets!...dance on! dance on!

Author Notes Poets are an important blessed fountain of soul songs and unconditional love. The world needs LOVE and love needs Poets


Chapter 2
Sky-die-caught-ahh-me

By His Grayness

Sky-die-caught-ahhh-me!!! By: His Grayness

She threw down the gauntlet- the challenge of thought.
A ripper of a considerator ...this poet's been caught!
What if, what if, we often contemplate?
Can we turn into the blind word storm and still navigate?
What we've seen forever we expect tomorrow will bring
But what if a war of Mother Nature changed everything?

She put forth the question about night and day
And suggested they might sometime refuse to play
Then what if that happened how might it all go down?
Would the sky go all black, or all white, or just brown?

So now we approach the question of power
As dark as the devil brings the nights bewitching hour
Light is asleep resting for tomorrow's majestic work
Dark is planning to take over sending the world berserk

When the moon referees the changing of the guard
And instructs the dark night to get out of his yard
So the daylight may come refreshing life everywhere
Dark says I'm stronger than light and staying right here

Then light makes its move to brighten the day
But the dirty dark night still won't go away
The moon blows its whistle to call a time out
Light still waits with hope for the weak moon's clout

But night won't move and now evil's at play
To ravage the earth while light's held at bay
Now people are lost and can't find their way home
All nature is smothered under darkness's dome

All circuits are busy and power's gone dead
Nobody knows to get up or just stay in bed
The taverns are bustling but run out of beer
Crime is exploding and the whole worlds in fear

The moon called in angels that came in a flock
They put out such light that the dark went into shock
It flew fast for cover in the deep space universe
While light's song of gratitude smothered the dark's curse
Scientists marveled greatly at this amazing event
And to this day are pondering where the darkness went
An angel went to visit them and here is what it taught
Light simply "IS" and Darkness simply is "NOT"
Author's note: Darkness is an absence....of Light so without the concept of light, darkness would not exist!
What's really cool is when they work together and create the balance of "GRAYNESS"
Special thanks for the inspiration of Melissa Bickel for this challenge!

Author Notes Melissa Bickel brought this concept to question and so I honor her with a bit of fun and hopefully joy in reverence.


Chapter 3
The Thought Shop

By His Grayness

OUT OF THE GRAYNESS: by His Grayness


The thought shop ...Chapter one: A mind dump of reflection on many random things

¢ Leaves of scorn shall not better serve the tree of wisdom than the rivers of consciousness...Which eventually, they shall pollute.

¢ Those who will not abide the change of seasons must suffer not understanding natures' reasons and the mother of this discipline shall speak much louder to those who will not listen.

¢ Time is the official referee in the game of life with way too many faulty whistles and bad calls.

¢ Hope without a plan is as meaningless as a race between a snake and a hog on a frozen lake.

¢ The dishonest butcher's heavy thumb upon his scale may one day be all that's left for him to eat.

¢ A farmer with no seed but still a fine shotgun may soon learn to eat crow.

¢ He who gives prayers of gratitude shall not find a more loving and gentle attitude.

¢ The hungry wolf of hope howls from high atop the ridges of commitment.
¢
Faith lives only upon the diet of affirmation, prayers, and the certainty of expectation.

¢ Pride misplaced yields the same crop as winter-planted seeds.

¢ A heart focused only upon beating shall never know the winning of love.

¢ A May-bee without any honey may still prosper in June.

¢ Caution! Anger may seek refuge within hearts of true compassion as

expiring embers may still embrace a wishful wind.

¢ Consciousness must be first in line to know thy self and last to ignore it.

¢ Silence is an attic haunted by whispering ghosts with tiny flashlights of inspiration.

¢ A person who seeks to create shall never meet boredom or lack of purpose in life.

¢ Poetry brings rhymes and signs in good and bad times from those with pen, spirit, and heart, who seek to opine.

¢ A poet with a thought is as restless as a bat at midnight yet one seeks light and one seeks the absence thereof.

¢ Doom is a vault filled with heavy bars, for some they are hatred and for some they are gold.

¢ Majesty may be sometimes anointed but it shall only truly exist in a soul born to its destiny.

Author Notes Sorry for the clumsy editing but I hope you have fun with the thoughts: His Grayness...Vance


Chapter 4
American Biopsy

By His Grayness

Here aloft, on passion's thrones,
The king of obfuscation moans
The clowns of hope and joy won't dance
To hold the servant's hearts in trance
While words of hard reality prevailed
Now the truth is out his promise failed

The food is gone, the fires died
The thirst does rage, the ponds have dried
The liars sang, to hopeful hoards
The king endorsed with twisted words
While naked streets give way to crimes
The drug lords service growing lines

The masses weep as death commands
Where hope once ruled on promised lands
But why should fallen hopes prevail
Where once there was a golden trail
That carried dreams and wishes songs
From pasts of woes where death belongs

The wearied beasts and wagons broke
Now mark the trail where maybe spoke
Then sagebrush came to bury all
And hide the graves where hope did fall
Now dust remains to call again
Where pioneers fresh hopes begin

If faith and courage honored still
The righteous soul shall have it's will
America might live again
And overcome its leader's sin

Author Notes America's health is failing


Chapter 4
Touching You

By His Grayness

Touching You......
So you read this
And I feel every feeling you have from afar
I feel it because I love you and you don't even know me
Your spirit is an energy missile... a mental hypernova
That radiates out from your heart and soul all at once'
Whenever you think and feel, it escapes into the ether
That connects us.
You are a creator and one who knows that and is grateful thereof
Such power deserves celebration and my celebration is pure love
You are a lover with courage
Willing to risk your thoughts and words to touch and teach and share
The passion that drives you to connect and I want your connection
For you are special among humans....you are proud of love
You have no shame and you are on fire with the courage of your thoughts
Willing to share your perspectives
Hanging your word gifts on the tender-unguarded clothesline of life
Free for any sunrays or raindrops of consciousness to touch and feel
The slumber dreams and the dances that live within them
And the free joy of you touching them again and sharing the love
They will hold forever!

Author Notes My love for the poets of this world and their free gifts


Chapter 5
Bloods Rain

By His Grayness

Blood Rains By: Vance Seagle

Once in silent steps

There came the devil's blade plunged deep.

The shock of it, as blood spilled forth

Was sharp as fear's own scythe could reap.

***

It cut through skin, sinew and bone,

Beyond the heart, deep to the soul.

Gripping the very essence of death

I felt all love could not make whole

***

As never ceases to amaze,

In the midst of trials they come.

I still can see their torches high,

God's warriors marched sung forth by drums.

***

Now as the battle dims and fades

The dryness of solitude clings.

Still embers fall, not yet found cold

And their echoed shouts still heard to ring

***

We shall not leave, the love, the pain

Forever soaked by fear's blood rains

Author Notes God's powers are the only soldiers against Satan's created fears


Chapter 6
Darkness Screams by: His Grayness

By His Grayness

Darkness screams "Satan"
Be then sound asleep with God
It will not matter

Author Notes 5--7-5 HAIKU


Chapter 7
Carpathias Dream: by: His Grayness

By His Grayness

Carpathias Dream By His Grayness

In this storm of Life
Every protein in my mass
Churns at the axle of desire
And I reach and I want
Until it stokes my soul's fire
Fouls my charts in blinding storm
Then at once I am lost-adrift
Alone with all my life's sails torn
Companion of my own destiny
Willing now even to kneel, and cry
Reality comes at last to comfort me
Like Daddy's hand to say his goodbye
Upon my Childhead as I yield to the sea
Hurry please, please do come quick
Carpathian Ship
The sea of me
Is already upon my lip

Author Notes Losing our way in life calls for the closest ship!


Chapter 8
Fear tried to whisper to me

By His Grayness

Fear tried to whisper to me: by HIS GRAYNESS

There is sound, a bit of it reverberating; it's there but not quite ready to be identified. It wants me to know it is there and to be curious and seeking. I'm compelled to approach it and to know its origin. So quietly, with focus and concentration, I move toward it, as it urges me to yield to its energy. All my senses demand to be involved before I commit. I began to fear it but I want to know its origin, to touch it, to understand its form and purpose. Now it is a whisper, softly breathing, exhaling my name. It promises me wisdom, it asks me to chant easy, love, love, love, love, close your eyes, no fear, only love, see the light beginning in the darkness behind your closed eyes, watch it grow , be quiet, notice the hum in your ears, they balance in humming and they vibrate the light?you can see it grow with rugged edges a tiny white sun, pure, glowing silver and white, small sparks escaping, the white intensifying, now be quiet and listen for my whispers are soft that you might concentrate and focus on my voice?.shhhh?.shhhh?..I am GOD, the only GOD, I am the all and the everything that constitutes light, and my currency is pure and endless light and my purpose and my passion is the joy and continuity of creativity and love. All that must be known and understood about yourself and your purpose is simple yet sacred and fully vested in your soul, your, flesh, your mind, your spirit, and your capacity to nurture and apply love in all that you do.
Know that fear is an imaginary enemy that lives in the shadows of doubt and errant placement of your mind. Love is the only garden where the seeds of your creativity can find life and prosperity through embracing my light and denying the darkness of fear. Fear manifests all forms of blindness and celebrates the loss of light and the incubation of the soul?s fetus hibernating in the dark caves of life?s decay.
There is no life in fear, there is no creativity in fear, there is no love in fear, and there is only the soul?s death in fear. There is a name for the place where the torture of fear is manifested and it is known as hell. Once the mind which rules the choices of the soul has embraced the merchant of fear, the lies and promises of peace and satisfaction through hatred, revenge, and spite, shall for that time forward yield not but pain and suffering of all forms upon the lost and wayward soul and mind that chose it.
Be joyful in your gift of creativity and know it is your mission and purpose to support the everlasting plan of GOD; the ultimate and original creator of all there is to be known and still unknown by mankind. Fear was killed!

Author Notes I've read so much on FS About fear and I pondered it last night before going to sleep...these words came to me slowly and quietly but most of all with eager compassion. Vance


Chapter 9
Where Angels Dance

By His Grayness

WHERE ANGELS DANCE: By His Grayness

When the magic of music grips our spirit
The energy of dance must be celebrated
For vibrations in all living things
Are God-given
In rhythms of nature that all may hear
Even in heaven joy embraces thunder
Lightning crashes cymbals of energy
And the wind whistles joyful refrains
While the Angels dance and sing
In grateful ceremonies of GOD'S blissful songs

Author Notes We live in a world of constant vibrations. Let's dance to GOD'S blissful songs!


Chapter 10
Fantasy

By His Grayness

Fantasy: By: His Grayness

Dear fantasy I do love you so
But you never pay the bills
In fact you're quite the opposite
You always want the frills

I love you for you carry me
To places in my mind
Where secret thoughts and treasures
My logic would not find

You never care what time it is
For time is not your friend
You need to have control of me
Till your passion finds its end

Your world is made of maybes
Hard reason has no rank
You say such painful energies
Belong in a "think tank"

But fantasy is freedom
To create a place surreal
Like a garden of orange apples
That you never have to peel


Or growing mashed potatoes
That never needs any soil
Just put your eyes in water
And bring them to a boil

You could never be a conductor
On a train or sweet ballet
For you haven't any disciplines
And all things to you are gray

So that is why I love you so
As black and white won't do
For gray creates my fantasies
And poems make them true

Author Notes Just a bit of fantasy about fantasy


Chapter 11
The theatre of reality

By His Grayness

The Theatre of Reality. By: HIS GRAYNESS
When the warm, soft curtains of Hope
Drop silently at last in the dark theatre of reality
The silence of truth screams its last goodbye to love
And loneliness commands all consciousness
All the lights of creativity are now dark
All the seats of inspiration now are empty
And you are now alone in the wilderness of silence
To go now to the stage of wishes and sing to the
Audience of nothingness

Author Notes Life is like a theatre sometimes lonely and dark


Chapter 12
Salvation Army Teddy Bear

By His Grayness

I've got a Salvation Army Teddy Bear
I'm wearin second hand ribbons in my hair
I got a mommie that loves me
And a daddy gone somewhere
He sent this Salvation Army Teddy Bear

Each day the kids in school say
Why's your dress all tattered
And they think the things they have
Are all that matters

But the thing I have
About which I most care
Is my Salvation Army Teddy Bear

Yesterday mom got a letter
And dad said things are goin well
And he won't be comin home till spring
Far as he can tell

How's my baby, did she get my gift
Ya know it just don't seem fair
To send an angel...a Salvation Army Teddy Bear

Now I have to wait all winter just to see him
And it hurts to know the lonely places that he's been
But when he gets home I'll hug him
And We'll dry out all my tears
From my Salvation Army Teddy Bear

Author Notes Published, recorded, released on VADA STAR RECORDS


Chapter 13
A few minutes left in forever

By His Grayness

A FEW MINUTES LEFT IN FOREVER by: HIS GRAYNESs

I promised God that I would love you forever'
To hold you and guide you and leave you never
This gift of God blessed and born that very day
Drew the most meaningful words I'd ever say
Every moment since then I've kept my word
God's constant reminders I've always heard
I'm grateful for both you and for God
I've kept my word and He's spared the rod
But as I lay here now being told my life's done
I remember my promise to you my dearest one
Know my soul leaves one life while another's' begun
And in that life my promise shall always extend
So know my love for you shall never, ever end
Love and its promise is a kite on God's own tether
So there are more than a few minutes left in our forever


Author Notes I had a dream that I was told I would die momentarily


Chapter 14
Faith through Gratitude

By His Grayness

To believe is such a complex mechanism
Even though it is the only path to heaven
For faith itself is not just an emotion
But an energy to match tides of the ocean
Some say there is a magic in believing
Yet not some form of card trick in deceiving
For faith is real and cannot be pretended
It's commitment to a love that can't be ended
As eagles drop from mountains high each day
They can for faith in wind and wings they pray
As salmon trust their lives to rivers fury
Their faith in natures mission leaves no worry
Yet we must know that life is just one season
We've each been blessed to understand GOD'S reason
That we should know true faith opposes sorrow
And we should trust it as today believes tomorrow
That love is GOD'S sanctuary of gratitude
And faith is manifested through that attitude
If you expect that you will draw fresh breath
And sleep tonight will not claim your death
Then please have faith that God is with you now
And any help you need, He shall allow
Give thanks and let it be your constant love
And faith shall rain upon you from above



Author Notes I believe faith is most easily grasped through a mind set upon true gratitude


Chapter 15
Hatred

By His Grayness

HATRED: by His Grayness:

Oh dark hatred
Why doeth thee convene
Thy court with such violent bias
Upon the white cloth of our love?
What misery confounds thee?
With such venom of fear?
That strikes your heart with angst
How doest thou amass such energy
To gather clouds of angry will
That spit the sour rains of vengeance
Upon our blossoms of hope and love
What minds birth the demons of your pride?
To carry you upon blood soaked chariots
Through muddy fields of pain and sorrow
Know thee now your power may be bold
But you live in a house of mirrors
And your energy comes back upon you
To fuel the death of your very origin
To exhaust the fire of your own being
To shame you for the heart of your purpose
To mark you as a sinner without salvation
For thee cometh neither from God nor it's light
But from the rotten bowels of dead spirits
Creating excrement to fertilize the devil's own garden
Be gone, you scum upon the windows of salvation
And leave us to know only joy and mirrors of love
And never ending lives of GRATITUDE for missing you!

Author Notes On this day of God's love I seek to deny hatred's energies for all who are troubled with past and present problems brought on by hatred by or about other humans. This is a time of love not available to those who hate.


Chapter 16
Destiny

By His Grayness

DESTINY: by His Grayness
Oh destiny
Wherefore art thou
Oh hope when shall thee awaken me
Oh love my most cherished dream
When shall you carry me
Beyond fields of dusty sorrows
Oh God my most cherished Host
Turn the ripples of my regrets
Into rivers of hope
And rusty days of fear into shining faith
Deny the beasts of shame their breath
Let the wings of joy flutter wildly today
Upon the steady winds of your presence
Make your sky the glowing smile of pure love
That all may know their destiny is home with you

Author Notes A question of destiny and hope


Chapter 17
Star Chasing by: His Grayness

By His Grayness

Dear Gert:
How honest and sincere, the question you pose
Thou it may be just as clear as the end of our nose.
The life paths we take must be subject to question
Like the food we select and it's future digestion.
We're dazzled by skilled writers who can add perfect photos,
And music so painful or perfect concertos.
But alas should we question the motive of writers
To be simply star chasers or gifted mind exciters.
Like you, I'm not here for a simple joy ride.
But to hope my insights will bring some minds alive.
So it's painful seeing sport in this honored space.
Where some trade their souls to win stars as a race.
Yet some come for love and discovery of wisdom.
To lay our their hearts and to capture a vision.
I'm here out of love and to give what I may.
To improve someone' life for forever or a day.
Like you it's the passion of spilling our heart.
In hopes that our friendships shall not drift apart.
If only one single star or even a tiny few,
Comes graciously in from a reader
as a meaningful review
It should be taken to your heart in gratitude
Not in the sadness of a poor star chaser's attitude

Author Notes In Honor of Gert Sherwood's great leadership and guidance in the passion and perfection of the art of poetry and its mission for all who read it


Chapter 18
To Honor the Writers

By His Grayness

TO HONOR THE WRITERS

Today, tomorrow, or yesterday
The question sometimes shocks
As I sit here truly mesmerized
In a room full of ticking clocks

They say everything is relative
But with time I sometimes guess
As age becomes a reality
Days and years become a mess

Only memory serves to calibrate
Only hope can bring new life
Only love will still invigorate
The will to stand more strife

There may be missions out there
That God still has in mind
To bring some hope to someone else
And leave some gifts behind

To speak, to write, to celebrate
Important lessons from our days
Might just become the answer
To a prayer someone desperate prays

So the honor of the writer's mind
May not always find celebration
But the gift it's given to someone else
Might become new hope's invitation

So here's to you all writers young and old
No matter if poetry, lyrics, or prose
Your thoughts and writings will outlive you
And even may change where another soul goes

Author Notes The energy of your thought may change the world


Chapter 19
A Teacher's Prayer

By His Grayness

A Teacher's Prayer: By His Grayness

Oh, my dear GOD, the living GOD,
I know you are here in my life
Before me now even in the light
Of this computer screen
Willing to guide me in my prayers
Already understanding where my
Fingers will touch the keys of my questions
I know you have given me free will
And the responsibilities for the outcomes
Of my choices and actions and even
My thoughts
I know those choices may take me where
I don't really want to be in lack of my wisdom
But I know you have a reason for free will
And understand I will make many wrong choices
And perhaps this is your intent for my learning
Yet God, as I age in my deep pool of experiences
It becomes so much harder to swim chasing tiny waves
Of hopes, dreams, wishes, and mostly fears of being able
To keep my life afloat with the energy of purpose left only
With the buoyancy of loving to create and to teach
And yet bearing the question of my right to teach in contrast
To the quality of my understanding and my passions to give
Others a detour around my life's jagged pathways and a grander
Tour of life's geography than I might guide them through; guide me now:
As a poet, a son, a father, a brother, a lover, a creator and your servant: AMEN

Author Notes Poets all seek to be teachers in one way or another


Chapter 20
The Face that always loves you

By His Grayness

The face that always loves you  By: His Grayness
 
When sorry rains its endless tears
And sails your soul to seas of fears
When darkness bids your spirit come
To march behind the devil’s drum
 
When sleep won’t flush  your spirits drain
And morning only brings more pain
The mirror waits to start your day
To tell you what your heart should say
 
The image there not less than true
Reflects who God is talking to
“I made you in My image own
And promised you’d not be alone”
 
“I’m here as always I shall be
To share my gifts of life with thee
I willed your mind and soul to choose
And that’s a task you can’t excuse”
 
“I created light to present My reflection
To chase the dark for your protection
So join me now in gratitude
That you may choose your attitude”
 
“Love’s the single path to happiness
While fear and sorrow only bring distress
Look again in your mirror and see my face
And know I planned to meet in this place”
 
“And our meeting would come at this very time
When you needed to know that you will be fine
So keep a small mirror wherever you go
And know the face that always loves you will show”

 

Author Notes There is always a face to love you ... if you choose it


Chapter 21
Clicks and Beeps

By His Grayness

Ours is now a world of clicks and beeps
Heads bowed and texting to the iGOD
Gray haired teacher old soul now weeps
Beloved students twitter past without a nod

Connected by fingers tapping on plastics
With passion for compassion from the iNET
Sporting their skills of Apple gymnastics
Spewing mundane notes before they forget

Shuffling into swarms of giggles and groans
Unaware of life and the state they are in
Praising the power of iPODS and Phones
Thinking this is where enlightenment begins

Distance matters not we're connected as one
Touching is for keyboards and makes a mouse fly
Hugging is forbidden, hot flat screens are no fun
If the internet goes down we're all gonna cry

There's no need for passion, emotions can't print
There's no need for praying we google our fears
As long as we're online we're making a mint
Even with Photoshop we've learned to erase tears

We've got our degrees and good paying gigs
They promised us stock if we put out good tech
They gave us good hardware and comfortable digs
But I don't really care, Hey Boss where's my check?











Author Notes We are losing our love to technology


Chapter 22
Your life's lullaby

By His Grayness

Your life's lullaby by His Grayness

Too soon to sing
Too late to cry
When life shall write
Your lullaby

The song of life
We write alone
In silent verses
Seldom known

To give our hearts
In racing will
Expecting they
Shall never still

We fall in love
To stand in grace
And live the truths
We can't erase

We smile and cry
Where feelings urge
In pools of self
Where we submerge

The mirror waits
To wish you well
But for some souls
Becomes their hell

While time the wind
That never ends
Maintains the rule
That never bends

Today has gone
Tomorrow may not
Deliver what you
Think it ought

But then again
You are still here
Tomorrow offers
Love or Fear

The choice you make
To smile or cry
Becomes the lyrics
Of your life's lullaby

Author Notes We all write at least one lullaby in our life whether we like it or not


Chapter 23
God's McDonald's

By His Grayness

God's McDonald's

Golden arches replaced by giant rainbows
Enormous parking lot with crowds of onlookers
But no drive through
You've got to park and come in
One at a time for the absolute best service
An amazingly small operation
One counter only, one customer at a time
A giant black LED menu screen. Nothing on it!
Finally your turn...you step up to the counter
Tall white bearded, white robed guy comes out to greet you
"Blessings...what can I get for you today?"
"Well, you answer, somewhat confused, there's
Nothing on the menu screen...what do you have?"

"Everything, absolutely anything you could ever imagine!"
"What would you like to have?"
"Well there's nothing on the screen so I don't really know"
"Why, you ask...is there nothing on the screen?"
"Ah, you see that screen is actually a mind reading screen and
It's saying you are not imagining anything you want"
'Well what are other people ordering today, maybe I'll have that?"
"Well actually, nobody today has known what they want yet"

"Let me explain how this works...you see, I'm God and everything
In the universe that exists now or might exist in your imagination is
Available on the menu and best of all...it's all FREE...But First,
It has to be imaged in your mind and coupled with the total belief
That I will come out and put it on the counter for you at no charge!
Then...bam...there it is ready for you to pick it up and go home"

"Wow, what if I said I wanted a new sports car?"
"Ok, what make, what model, what color, what's the license plate?"
"Can you see it in your mind enough to put it on the screen?"
"I'm trying but not really"
"Go home and think about it, why you want it, what will it mean in
Your life? How will it help you or anyone else? "Believe it and it will
Be here when you come back to pick it up"

"Has anyone ever done that right away, right here?"
"God said..."well frankly we've moved a lot of burgers and hot dogs
But no Porches or Mercedes yet today....believing seems to be a real
Problem for humans"
" Amazing but what almost always pops up on the screen is what people
DON'T WANT and unfortunately, that's what they get because that's how
The program of life works!"

Author Notes Metaphor of how Prayers and thoughts, and fears work


Chapter 24
Weekend Dream

By His Grayness

Weekend Dream: by: His Grayness

He's coming over tonight and we're going out
We're doing the whole town and we're gonna shout
Hey people we're not standing round
We plan on really getting down
Cause life is just a runaway train
A trip on a jet airplane

Weekend's begun at last and we're gonna have a blast
We're gonna jam forty eight hours into a seven day plan
Thinking all week about the workaday freak
We call the boss and other names we cannot speak
Let all the cleaning wait, we're gonna celebrate
The fact we made it through another week

Nobody's gonna mind if we get a bit behind
For we have the time to spare and we're gonna go somewhere
How about some tennis or just a trip to the zoo
We'll fly to Lake Tahoe or old Las Vegas will do
Who cares how much it costs when we plan on getting lost
We've got to make our weekend dream come true: OOPS!!

Wake up John, mow the lawn, we slept in
The day's half gone
What a dream I had last night:
I was out swinging with the celebrity set
We went to Las Vegas and I cleaned up at roulette

Now I wake and see I'm back to our reality
Darn I've got to cook and clean
A thought worse than it's ever been
You should have seen me in my diamonds and furs
Did you know a Jaguar at one-twenty just purrs

When are we gonna get rich
I have an insatiable itch...
an image that I need to keep
Move over John I'm going back to sleep

Author Notes Sometimes that dream is just too good to let go!


Chapter 25
Minds GPS

By His Grayness

MIND GPS

Oh how we struggle with what to do
Each thought, each vision, each wish
Becomes a temporary fairy tale
That we think we want to come true

Life seems so complex and uncertain
It's as ponderous as a magic show
Trying to avoid tricks and distractions
Wondering what's behind the curtain

Would it not be a truly great invention?
If there was a GPS for the mind
To tell us when to laugh, when to cry
And make adjustments for bad intentions

Perhaps such a thing today, truly does exist
But so simple we don't always trust it
For there's no flashing lights or wires
And no keyboard, gizmos, or knobs to twist

I think it would still remain entirely digital
Only two states of condition would apply
Somewhat like our human emotions
When to laugh or cry seems so conditional

Perhaps God would be willing to program it
With the GPS name "God's Plain & Simple"
There are only two states of mind to be in
Love and Fear would define where all minds fit

So you think you're driving down happy street
Delighted with life and full of pure gratitude
But the GPS says "welcome to LOVE Boulevard
This is where hearts and souls chance to meet

Then some fool cuts you off without thinking
You swerve down the alley to miss a crash
While the GPS starts screaming "FEAR" alley
As you thought a "Mad" light should be blinking

So the GPS will show you only two states of mind
Which are simply FEAR and LOVE, not emotions
As they all fit only in one or the other of above
For they are truly the only two choices you will find

In LOVE you are creative, with GOD, and joy abounds
But when in FEAR, you have chosen to turn away
You will find darkness, anger, pain and suffering
And your GPS making loud and ugly warning sounds

Author Notes What if there was a GPS for your mind???


Chapter 26
God's Song

By His Grayness

God's Song: by: His Grayness


Hear Me now
That I might sing
In grateful verse
And reverie
For the heart I touch
Must swell with joy
Lest silence harm My bond with thee

Bless My voice with mellow tones
To light your soul with harmony
Accept My love on wings of hope
Trust My gifts and sing with Me
Though you can't see My loving smile
My eyes of joy reflecting you
Nor touch My skin to know I'm here

And realize the things I Do
Nevertheless I'm always here
And promise that I'll never go
I am the God that made your life
And now I sing that you should know
I'm always here I'll never leave

Just talk to Me and you'll believe
I'll whisper answers that you need
I'll guide you where you need to be
That sacred place within My watch
When you decide to be with Me
I'll give you love each moment here
When you come quietly along
You'll always find great peace and joy
When you have listened to My song


Don't ask for Me to change the world
Or other people in your life
For only you can make the changes
That will lift you out of strife
I will help you with these changes
We can sit and talk all day

But you need to hear My music
And I need to hear you pray
I'm always here, I'm always here
And this is where I'll stay
You are the one who makes the choice
To always go away

Believe it as you HEAR ME NOW
I'm always here for you
Close your eyes and hush your mind
That's all you have to do!

Author Notes Hear me now and know I am always here...God's promise


Chapter 27
Vallange

By His Grayness

Val: you are my challenge, my hill, my courage, my will. My mind in a bubble carrying thoughts, hoping to cling together in clots, bursting in splendor, blasting off lights shocking the demons that rape IN the nights, of minds gone sideways slipping downhill, grasping at wont's and praying for wills.! We die in our minds first falling on our swords, running away from life, not towards!
We care when we can but most slip and slide- another day gone we managed to hide! Betray our gifts of reason and love. Cram dirty fingers in our soul's sanitary glove. Spit word of faux wisdom in the face of reality hoping applause from deep in some alley. While love in our pockets slip fast through torn holes where once held gold coins that bonded our souls. When night comes to visit we know sleep must come but we snuggle the TV computer and rum. Any diversion from facing our mind we write off to the privilege of need to unwind. So the villains of life ride herd on the world while the flag of integrity is never unfurled and hope lives in rain clouds and smiles live in sin and we wish we could die and start over again. But we are what we are and need to resolve the salt of our spirit must never dissolve. The beat of our hearts must thump like a drum, the will of our minds must never go numb. The challenge of life is known sooner or later. We were put here by an almighty creator. And so we are too blessed with this passion to follow God's lead and think in this fashion. What there before us we see as right now, we have the power to change and we'll be shown how. Create, Create, Think and be strong, smile and be grateful and your life shall be long!

Author Notes Epexegesis of a message to Val ... the brilliant review master of Fanstory...EVERY GOOD WISH


Chapter 28
Bolt My Will

By His Grayness

Bolt My Will
 
Phases of plastics
Bubble Gum
Super Glue
And Will
Power
Always Brand New
Righteous Intentions
Heart Thumping
Dead Set on Life
Head Set on Right
Work Set on Day
Passion Set on Night
Touches Set on Truth
Smiles Set on Certainty
Prayers Set on Promises
Money always Emergency
Life Comes and Goes
Day at a Time
Crying about Yesterday
Never Ending Crime
Wishing Words
Could Cause Changes
Wishing Love
Was Easy as Water
Wishing Sleep
Was Remedy
Changing Wishes
Into Will
Takes Chrome Steel Bolts
Holding Imagination
With Lock Washers
Bound Tightly on Love
And
Prayers

Author Notes Our daily struggles with our own will and determinations


Chapter 29
Blue Pencil Dream

By His Grayness

Blue Pencil Dream
I took a ride on a blue pencil line
It went to places I knew I’d never find
Places where every emotion blew my mind
Corners were round and all the holes were square
Birds were not flying they just were standing everywhere
Everything was perfectly synchronized except the diamond square
Dancing in circles where the moon comes in and the stars never ever go
Dragging a long chain of soft rubber bands pulling a mountain moving so slow
Cameras all flashing to catch something nobody should ever imagine or ever know
It was a dream where dreams had no right to be for nothing so crazy ever came to me
But then I awoke with this blueprint on my bed outlining all the images the dark could see
Without any light and only the dreamers imagination that somehow blindly came out from me
Automatic writing I think it‘s sometimes called, where imagination is an urgency that can’t be stalled
Well it messed up my bed and the sheets were all blue line tattooed just then alas Mother Nature called
Upon my return the shock had not really subsided but in reality I finally decided, my mind had just been mauled

 

Author Notes A staircase style rhyme pattern ...experiment


Chapter 30
Dreamwriter

By His Grayness

THE DREAMWRITER
Hush, hush now mind meadow
Soften thy breath of wind words
Let thy quill be still
And soon shall come
The wings of thought birds

Floating upon today's emotions
Dimming down the light of reality
So the Dreamwriter may soon arrive
Upon the R.E.M. stage of sleep
With its genius of informality

Another you may come to life
To dance and sing upon that stage
So you may be a famous rock star
A celebrated race car driver
Or supermodel on the cover page

You might find that love you lost
Or lose the love you think you found
You could fly like superman
High above where eagles dare
Or run yourself right in the ground

The Dreamwriter has no limitations
But seeks to teach a lesson so true
What's in our mind is what we become
And the proof is in your dreams each night
Because the real Dreamwriter is always YOU!

Author Notes Do dreams control your life or you control your dreams


Chapter 31
Ego and Heart

By His Grayness

Ego and Heart by: His Grayness

Ego and Heart
Went out for a walk
One bright and sunny day
Down the street to the public park
Where the local children play

Upon the steps of a house
Heart called a real damn shame
Slumped a fat ragged woman
With a beer and a cigarette
Watching a street stickball game

Ego simply grunted
And turned his face away
It's her damn fault he snapped
She made all the choices in life
That's how she wound up that way

Bull crap said Heart
Life's not always that easy
You can build a fine sailboat
Set your sails for a great journey
But God tells wind to be still or breezy

Ego folded his arms
In stubborn dark dismay
What's the point of life you say?
If no matter what choices you make
It's always going to be only God's way

Good point said Heart
Glad we got together today
God gave us free will indeed to choose
To find good or bad or to win or lose
And the way we discover what is God's way

Is to open our heart, put our ego away, close
Our eyes and honestly pray.

Author Notes Free will and God's will is a challenging question


Chapter 32
The First Light

By His Grayness

THE FIRST LIGHT: by: HIS GRAYNESS

There was an entity
Call it what you will
That first turned on the light
Of life in you and me
That had the majesty of purpose
That perhaps is still not clear to
Each within their spiritual focus
But would it not seem so simple to grant
Supreme will, authority and gratitude to
This unnamed entity for this mission
Perhaps unknown but committed to you
The journey of life, needs a loving compass
Take peace in all the checkpoints it gives us
Live and learn where and what they point to
For that everlasting light is the living God in You

Author Notes In what form do you physically see and know God is there!


Chapter 33
Bengazi America Encore

By His Grayness

Bengazi American Encore


Last night on the corner

Of Nice and Easy

A shadow stained evil

On the Apricot Moon

...

A vagabond dog

Washed a rusted old lampost

While the boy with the sax

Oozed a soggy blues tune

...

The whore in the park

Traded lies with the hobo

The cop in the diner

Made love to his brew

...

In the sticky wet bushes

By the war hero statue

A ghost with a knife

Found a jogger to screw

...

So the ma's and the pa's

And the yuppies and brats

Pulled their curtains and shades

And silk bathrobes up tight

...

Snuggled their TV's and iPODS's and cognac

And hoped that their hopes

Would hold out

Through the night

...

But it rose from the lake

From the sewers to the air

Life came too late

And death came too soon

Last night on the corner

Of Nice and Easy

A shadow stained evil

On the Apricot Moon



Chapter 34
The Better Side of Me

By His Grayness

The Better Side of Me
Country lyric
By: His Grayness 1987

I ain't no sweet and gentle soul
When the beer is in control
When the hurtin's turn'in
All the pegs in me

I aint no lover
When I'm sorry
Tired and fulla worry
I'm not exactly
Being all that
I can be

But in my life
I got a woman
Fulla Love
And Understanding
With a face that stops
My screamin Tendency

She's a lover
Come to guide me
A friend to stand
Beside me
Bless her heart
She only ever sees
The better side of me

CHORUS:
That side of me
That I don't see
I never thought
They'd call me
More than just carefree

I broke some hearts
I will agree
But that don't' really show
The better side of me

I love to dance
I dance in love
I chase those ladies
That fit me like a glove

I never stop
Once I get started
Sometimes I leave
Them broken hearted

Some day I'll die
Then I'll be free
Once and for all
The world will see

I've finally found
The better side of me

Author Notes to Val Fitchie..it works a lot better with a guitar!


Chapter 35
Be Damned and Die

By His Grayness

Be damned and die ....

This dark and evil spec of thought
Fallen rude and foul upon the naked flesh
Of my bright and hopeful curiosity

Where the angel of truth and wisdom
Was called to sit and teach
At the bloody chopping block
Of my soul's dark animosity

I called for grace and purity of light
That follows wisdom and foils fear
And now you stir the stinging swarm
Of Memory's lies to blind my sight
And deafen truth before my ear

The night stretches long and willful
Hoping now to manufacture my dreams
But I shall not more abide its wishes
For my prayers will not a moment more wait
The light has brightly and clearly arrived
Guiding me straightaway to Heaven's Gate


Chapter 36
Soul Drops

By His Grayness

Soul Drops: By His Grayness

Damn gray sky
Spitting gloomy slobber of
Cloud pee right in my eye
And then all over - who the hell is me
Oh yeah me! That half rusted
Fire hydrant of meaningless humanity

Soaking it up in this old gray scribbled hair
Too dirty to help and too old to care
Who made this rain and what's the real reason
And I don't believe a minute it's about some season
Maybe something really big is getting past me
I think I'll grab some shelter under that big oak tree

What's this old metal plate screwed into the bark?
It reads: "The Tree of Knowledge" glowing in the dark!
Ok Mr. Smart tree so full of great wisdom and charity
Why not tell me simply...what's the matter with me?
A voice began whispering quite soft in my ear
Strange though it shocked me it brought me no fear

That rain is to cleanse many aspects of living
You'd be a fool to ignore the many blessings it's giving
Notice first the tiny lights that are held there inside
They're the souls of many life forms that rose when they died
They've come back to nourish other life left behind
They're gratitude's contrast to the victim's dark mind
They're lifeblood for all we know that's alive
Without their sweet gifts you'd not long survive
Rather than pity yourself with a poor victim's attitude
Drink these precious soul drops with the deepest of gratitude!
Try to embrace every gift of each season
And know for your own soul that God has a reason!!

Author Notes Even in the rain..Gratitude is worthy of deep; and constant consideration!!


Chapter 37
Let them eat Crows

By His Grayness

They have stooped so low as to stand proudly unwed
High upon the cliff of financial fornication, shining
Their razor sharp dullness of praise as their own
Precise generalizations scream through the crowded
Empty canyons of truth in the dark hell of deception below
They sit bethroned upon their barstools of responsibility
And political integrity ... firmly tethered
To their cordless mouse guiding the brilliantly invisible cursor
Of meaning and critical purpose
Through the icy cold flame of truth,
As they plan their own escape from the jagged cotton rocks below
By leaping into the massive blanket of quietly screaming crows
They have gathered below to ravage the ripe-rotted cornfields
Of America's small businesses and hard-working souls
With their first and final proclamation of destiny to all of the brilliant
Idiot voters who gave them grace and power: They silently yell!!
'LET THEM EAT CROWS"

Author Notes Our new language of political whoppersquak.. crow-speak


Chapter 38
The Bigot Spigot

By His Grayness

The Bigot Spigot by HIS GRAYNESS

Clicking, Shifting, Blasts of
Light and noise,
Ready! Poise!
Lights, camera, action
Spit now into the stained basins
Of their graffiti minds
Another insignificant drip
Of non-think from
The rusted faucet lips of the media
Drooling, bloviating wiggle words
True and secure as a coward's promise
Deadly Phrases that we wear like old shoes
To adore and call
Our own . . . Sound-bites
Talk fights, late nights, gay rights
Skin Tights
Creating heroes for our kids
Dancing blindly with our egos
Stocking stuffers in our Speedo's
Blow dried, pie eyed
Slam dunk, street punk
Big tits, smart ass wits, nothing fits
Slump shoulder, gettin' older
New file, sick style, pedophile, sneaky smile
They gotta tell us something morose
To keep the money coming from Mr. Soros
They want to keep us dumber and number
So they can keep shining Mr. O'bummer
Even if they keep us blind as a bat
Our noses should still smell a dead rat

To stop the water torture we hear each night
We can turn the faucet till its shut up tight
Don't buy their sponsors or the crap they spew
Use your brain always to tell you what's true

Author Notes our corrupt media is disgusting and I'm just saying so


Chapter 39
Intentions and Truth's

By His Grayness

Intentions and Truths

By: His Grayness:

The Prince of Intentions
Judged me and set me free
I always believed in the honor
Of well -meaning so my bank
Of conscience was full of interest

But the Angel of Consequence
Turned the sky of my life
Into mirrors of reality and truth
And the disappointments thereof

Only in loving without conditions
Can there be blessings in life

For The God of Everlasting
Joy and Enlightenment
Serves only the heart of Truth
Commitment and Fulfillment

What is now the spirit of me
Has become reality
For what I have done
With my mind
With my hands
With my words
With my will
With my love
The measure of my faith
And what I must do to inspire
The Gratitude of Life

Author Notes Just a thought


Chapter 40
Dream Prayer

By His Grayness

DREAM PRAYER; by HIS GRAYNESS
Oh Dark night
How doest thou hide the light
Where comes thy power in this hour
To slowly and painfully drag the curtain
Of reality dark to close the sun's embrace
To change the echo of bright smiles
From love to lost expectation upon each face
To hush the bright sounds of life in trade for question
What and where might energy now come to drive introspection?
Is there true good in you somewhere that calls for celebration?
Or is this nature's own digestion that simply gurgles and spits
In sustaining its own perpetuation?
Why do dreams wait for your arrival and spatter stories so bland?
Or so grand that takes us away from reality to hopes, fears, and ideas
So bizarre that we reach for them to find the meaning of what they are.
Oh Dark night thy power is truly daunting wherein we have no control
No voice, no plan, no vote, no song or no prayer, just floating in the dark
In a journey to nowhere singing songs and living dreams we cannot share
Oh Dark night I pray that you will marry my spirit and love me in your spirit
Let me use this time to create what is good and find no reason to ever fear it
Let my works in dreams call for good and bless me in the mission only God could
Let me rest and empower my mind and soul to do what is right for my heart and soul.
AMEN

Author Notes A bit of mixed free verse and rhyme


Chapter 41
Infinity

By His Grayness

Infinity: The destination where nothing matters but light, inspiration, faith, and calm sleep with stunning consciousness and explosive gratitude upon awakening. I went there, thrashing, spinning, kicking, screaming, fighting my commitment to die or to understand in the end….why am I and why am I here?, Swimming daily in a muddy pool of intellectual indigestion, committed to the promise of a prayer to find my way to the brilliantly glowing gate of super consciousness shaking hands with GOD and taking my seat in the classroom of eternity. Ah yes, pleading for my pen and determined to write it all down in every language known and dissolving it all smoothly and gently, with pure love into the awesome radiant ink of infinity.

Author Notes A free verse mind dump that just came out of nowhere with amazing urgency


Chapter 42
The Graveyard of Hope

By His Grayness

THE GRAVEYARD OF HOPE:
Beyond the gate,
The people waited
For the Masters of Words and Technologies
To save them from their sorrows
Their deeds would be done, each day, yet only the voice
Of the Blessed Being could be met with either tears or fears
Then from the grave, the spirit screamed.... "And who of you have come to cry?'
"And who of you with my own gifts of your sciences have come to scorn me?"
"And to all of you now I must ask, "of you...who, with courage, has FAITH to understand?"
My life was given by my Father as your Angel of Mercy, to wash your sins from reality
And cleanse your souls from seasons of pain into seasons of great joy, love and gratitude
And the words of God then thundered across the universe calling all living souls to the place of love
And some did come and some others lost their way to a life of FAITH
And the gate still stands open and welcomes all souls to enter
And kiss the hand of God.... AMEN!

Author Notes Today, much of our world believes more in machines/computers, and gadgets than the history and reasons for our faith in GOD ALMIGHTY. They stand beyond the graveyard of hope, where even the grass therein is living proof of our GOD of nature and the universe.


Chapter 43
Country Star

By His Grayness

TWINKLE TWINKLE YOU BIG ASS STAR
I CAN SEE YOU THROUGH THE WINDSHIELD
OF MY DIRTY DAMN OLD CAR
GOOD THING YOU'RE OUT THERE NOW
AND I AINT JUST JOKING
CAUSE IT'S GETTING' PRETTY DARK
AND MY HEADLIGHTS BOTH ARE BROKEN
OLD YELLER'S IN THE BACK SEAT SNORIN' UP A STORM
AN MOMMA'S WRAPPED AROUND HIM JUSTA KEEP HERSELF WARM
THEY SAY YOU DEAL IN WISHES SO I THOUGHT I'D FLING A FEW
CAUSE MY WALLETS RUN TO EMPTY AND THERE'S A BIG HOLE IN MY DAGGON SHOE
THE GAS TANK'S ABOUT EMPTY NOW AND HOME'S A FAR PIECE YET TA GO
I CAN HEAR THE WOLVES ALREADY OUT FOR THEIR GRUB TONIGHT
AND THEY SAY IT'S SUPPOSTA SNOW
SO I'M THROWING OUT A WISH TO YOU THAT SOMEONE HITS THIS CAR
THEN THE INSURANCE MAN WILL BRING A CHECK AND I CAN HIT THE BAR
WE'LL DRINK A TOAST TO YOU, OLD MISTER BRIGHT AND SHINY, SMUG
THEN TAKE A TAXI HOME AND STUFF SOME GREENBACKS NEATH THE RUG
WHEN THE NEW CAR COMES AND THE RENT'S BIN PAID
MOMMA'S NICE AND WARM AND WE BOTH GOT GOOD AN LAID
WE'LL WALK OLD YELLER DOWN TO THE BUTCHER SHOP
AND BUY HIM THE SCRAPS TILL HE'S BUSTED' HIS CHOPS
THEN I'LL TAKE SWEET MAMA TO THAT BENCH THERE IN THE PARK
WHERE WE BOTH WILL WAIT TILL YOU COME ROUND AND CHASE AWAY THE DARK
WE WILL SING FOR YOU LIKE ANGELS DO WITH THANKS FOR ALL YOUR LIGHT AND GLORY
THEN WELL WRITE ALL ABOUT THIS GOOD LUCK WE HAD AND POST IT ON FANSTORY
THEN BUDDY YOU'RE A GONNA SEE SOME REEEEEEL BIG STARS!!!! WATCHOUT NOW!!

Author Notes I HOPE YOU HAVE A MUCH FUN AS I DID WITH THIS NUTTY VISION


Chapter 44
Jesu'brother

By His Grayness

The forgotten brother:"
I am James, son of Joseph
The first Bishop of Jerusalem:
And nobody cares
I have died in a tiny small box
Hardly the size of a simple ream of paper
And worse; nobody alive in this world cares.
Your world only knows of my life after many years
My brother and I "Jesus; have run into the wild world
I was bitten by a poisonous snake and my brother Jesus
Breathed only upon my wound and I was immediately healed"
Few know of this but I remember the pain and the release thereof
His life is chronicled in many ways but few mentions of me were made.
My bones were placed in a tomb within the old city of Jerusalem where my
Tomb inscrscribed only as: "James, the son of Joseph and the brother of Jesus"
The small village where I was buried cared not of me, in the light of my brother Jesus
But my brother Jesus cared for my death and where I might go in my everlasting life
They killed my brother upon the cross and thereafter he arose alive and came upon me
I too became alive in the reality that my brother was truly the unquestionable son of GOD ALMIGHTY
My Ossuary was put upon display in Toronto and then demanded to be released unto its origins in Israel
My life became a story of fraud and forgery of historical records because of my inscriptions upon my cask which claimed the coating on my casket which prove only that micro-organisms have confused the authentic truth of the Ossuary and now it is proof and known that Christ was my brother and that I Joseph was the true Brother of Christ and did testify to his life and his works as the true Son of God!!
I came upon the challenge of promoting CHRISTIANITY to the world of non-believers and reached out to my brother Joseph who helped me speak to the mass of Jewish people. Then came forward, massive hordes of people and the threat of the people who stoned me to death and my murder which left little history of meaning except for the daily prayer in the cathedral that acts for my passion in the name of CHRIST. And now that my name is lost in the history of Jewish roots as James who was the transitional figure that I truly was..I rest my case for Jesus Almighty and the True son of God forever and ever.

Author Notes This is the true story of Jesus 'brother Joseph who cared for the will and truth of God's son and our savior. Please know that those close to Jesus have risks and so do you, but as Joseph, you also shall be saved in your faith.! Be well mu loved ones in Christ alone!
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Chapter 45
Where Did They Go?

By His Grayness

WHERE DID THEY GO?

Oh where did they go, that Mother and Father that loved you so?
Did they just blow with the wind like sand in the storm?
Or are they somewhere alive in a spirit safe and warm?
Sometimes, isn't afterlife truly hard to believe?
But do you think their loving Spirits would truly ever leave?
Not likely I'd say for love is forever, and isn't that why you pray?
Isn't that really the energy that keeps you living from day to day?
Can their lessons and love ever leave you alone in despair?
Or can you sincerely reach down deep and know they still care?
Do you think spirits die?, or perhaps live forever?
Maybe the most difficult word ever learned in our life was "never"?
I think spirits really do live forever but perhaps I'm not the world's most clever?
But shouldn't a poet reach always deep into their heart?
To offer gifts of hope and love in every word written, before they depart?

Author Notes The perspective if spirits I believe is important for all poets to consider


Chapter 46
I was a Leaf

By His Grayness

I WAS A LEAF: An epiphany by: 'His Grayness"
I was a leaf
Proud green and significant
Well connected as well...I might say
And with a premium view from high places
I held down an end-of- limb position on a big limb, right on top
Morning sun, midday shade, afternoon breezes, sunrise mist....nothin' but the best
I did grow BIG you know, the broad leaf of persuasion of course
Strong genes made for shade
We came from good stock
Strong roots and fiber
We knew how to stand our ground damn near forever
Good bark and Girth...really important stuff for BIG leaf
Then there were the birds...and the bugs... of course
All part of life
And we gave them their needs
They flew off and they crawled off...a lot of them even fell off .... of course
Entertaining but meaningless to be sure...except for the bouncing down below
That always brought some good laughs
We leaves did laugh at them often, but it's really not nice...not a pretty sight!!
But even leafs have gotta have some fun sometimes
When the birds got them first, it was really a circus
But I was never much for bloodshed....on my own skin anyway!!
Oh..... but leaf life was sometimes not a total joy!
Then I remember when it happened one day..... Back when I was just hanging out on a little twig
The big D word...made its way into my life and I learned I was born "Deciduous" which in people talk means....I "WAS A LEAF!!!
The story was in September.... Things would start getting rough..... Sap would be heading south now and I might start to lose my grip on things...Hell, by October, I could be out of a job.
They say the wind can take us big guys a long way from home and we might not get to see the new springtime sprouts from so far away.
I was afraid to dry up and fall off.....
To be drowned in the mud with no vision left in my life. To be brittle and broken with no connections and no significance left in my being.
Then it happened! AUTUMN: Dark skies, cold wind, the dead silence when the birds and the bugs left us, and then ...It was almost like they knew it would be bad and they just didn't want to be there when it happened!
The sap exits the top first and we heavyweights need more grip then...holding against the brisk dry wind. The thought of any shade goes away soon and they are replaced with thoughts of flying with no lessons, no instructors and inevitable hard landings somewhere strange and far away.
By now you are probably wondering if leaves can have real fear. Well for me, not really, till I bounced off my first rock. Moreover...why would a leaf know fear....after all what's to become of us. Must seem reasonable enough to someone smart enough to read this.... I needed my life to have a purpose quick!
You see, I borrowed a soul...for just a little while from a human that could write this all down for me. He was praying under MY TREE and the vibrations of his voice made sense to me! I was aglow, like becoming the energy of an atom and catching his spirit. His seasons were changing, His past was upon him, and He was heavy with fear.
I only knew two sensations; Vibrations that made me expand and reach for sun and low thunder that made me shrink: He was confusing me ...first with a mourning kind of self-pity, followed by an energetic plea, almost coming to bright hope and self-understanding. I shifted and twisted against the vibrations.
I knew my place you see? (being A Big Leaf of course),. But still... only a leaf...not a huge carbon machine with such power and energy as him....But somehow, I knew this was all happening for a reason and I meant to find a way to understand it. So I squeezed myself....all that I was and turned myself into INK and fell upon him:
Ink cuts the river of unserved passion, through the mountains of contemplation and determination to carry the nutrients of creation and persuade millions of possibilities to join in celebration of creation.
My will creates storms of determination so it's lightening and fury can melt the rocks of fear into valleys of ambitions and turn the Grace of God Aglow. I was just a leaf but ALSO a living power of God and I was powerful enough to connect him...and all was well.....so I threw in a little side prayer for myself and asked God to help him write this all down.....just for you!!! ......Come visit me anytime!! I AM A JUST LEAF.....But GOD'S LEAF INDEED !!!

Author Notes God's energy is all around us and Knowing that brings Hope and Gratitude which both open the mind to creativity. I'm so grateful for the boundless energy that all writers on Fanstory are willing to share!


Chapter 47
A Fable of old dogs and old Poets

By His Grayness

A FABLE OF OLD DOGS AND OLD POETS:
A somewhat unattractive young lady cried each day in the mirror, for she felt she would never find love. One day, her dog barked, at the image of a tired old man shuffling down the road by her home. She let the ruffled old dog loose, and he ran to the man and jumped up before him, to stop his journey. The young lady went to the old man and asked where he was going, and he replied that he was old and homeless and seeking a place to lie down to die. The young lady felt sorry for the old man, and asked him to come in to her home for a meal and some rest. The old man was a poet, and when reaching her home, asked for a paper and pen, which the young lady provided to him. He soon wrote her many poems, expressing his love and gratitude for her kindness. His words were so powerful and moving, that the young lady felt such deep love, and could not stop crying in gratitude. Each day he wrote her another poem of love and gratitude, and soon she began to appreciate herself, and began smiling in her mirror. Sadly, the old man finally died, then soon after, his lifelong companion, the old dog died also, but the old man left the young woman a book of poems so full of love and gratitude for his existence, that her life turned to joy and appreciation for her experience. She eventually found a lover, and lived happily ever after. The moral of this story is: The love and perspective of Old Dogs and Old Poets can change tears of sorrow to tears of joy!

Author Notes This author believes that love proceeds from gratitude and that is known by old men as well as old dogs


Chapter 48
No Cheap Thanks

By His Grayness



It is so good that we so often drop this simple word or words when something nice happens or someone does something kind for us. But in thinking about how important these very simple words are, it seems that we may not often reach deeply and truly into our hearts and souls just for a moment and cherish the powerful shot of energy and refreshment that these thoughts can offer to us. Also we might miss the chance to fully exchange that sincere and honest gift of acknowledgement to another who has given us even a simple moment of their life for just a tiny gift of help.
I thought about this subject in the shower this morning and realized that for so many years I have championed the idea that the most bulletproof state of mind a human may have is purely GRATITUDE and that I would focus my poetry and my music and energies on bringing people to higher levels of happiness by embracing 'GRATITUDE' and living in the awareness to this simple mindset. Then it struck me that even yesterday my thanks to a close friend for an important and valuable favor given to me was just rewarded with a simple handshake and nod of the head. I'm ashamed to have failed the courage of a simple hug or embrace to express the true and honest appreciation I feel today as I reflect on what he did for me and how it helped in so many ways.
So today, I pledged to use this experience as a hopefully meaningful little example that might bring others to stop and think about how absolutely GREAT you feel when you truly close your eyes at least just for a moment and give honest thanks for what good has just happened in your life!
My Blessings and goodwill to all of my friends out there in FANSTORY and sincere THANKS to all of you for reading my work and sharing yours with me.
Kindest regards, HIS GRAYNESS

Author Notes Just some sincere thoughts in free verse


Chapter 49
Through this valley

By His Grayness

Through this valley
Dark and cold
Where there seems not
A hope to hold
As winds howl harsh
And death seems near
Lord tell me how
To starve this fear
My knees are raw
From ice and stone
My hands are worn
From prayers alone
If I should perish
Here this night
I pray dear God
To find your light
As Heavens promise
Is now all that exists?
Touch me God
With one last warm kiss.

Author Notes The last time I'll ski the mountains alone!


Chapter 50
Panagloria

By His Grayness

Not more than tiny fingers of light are called to form the chords of God's music and light dancing upon the harp of destiny and the celebration of life. Would now the thundering hoofs of reality pounding the dry hard floor of reality, bring clouds of consciousness to the horseman of life? Can the wings of silence lift the heavy storm clouds of fear from the grip of desperation and worry that spits boredom's ignorance into the face of Mother Nature? Do you know why anything blue may not be sad? as the ocean sings to the sky and the sky cries in gratitude, its glorious tears kiss beauty and grace into the flowers and trees, and their fragrances feed the butterflies,and the fresh winds carry their majestic blue back across as the ceiling of life brings a billion smiles across the horizons and love is born. The smiles abide and God's greatest gift of gratitude sweeps across uncounted hearts and, life itself is created.

Author Notes We often take for granted what Gifts God has Given us for free!


Chapter 51
Seasons of Shame

By His Grayness

Seasons of Shame
Despite most gifts of wisdom
History and prayers have given us
It seems that we have wrapped them in sin
Then simply chucked them under the bus
These days so blessed with lessons so wise
Seem mindless and now only seeking disguise
Our elected leaders who promised us their best
Only seek retaliation for what's not giving them rest
It's no longer what's good for America that's upon their greedy mind
But how they can keep their crooked schemes that Trump plans to unwind
Damn now what's right for America is not their committed will
But how to defame the new cleanup guy and knock him off the hill
The press wants all the bucks that lies and accusations will stir sales
The television news wants to build their revenues by spouting lying tales
America, once proud of standing for the good of all
Is losing its integrity that should never be allowed to fall
The power of greed is seeming ever stronger than integrity
And if we, the people don't do something rather immediately
There shall soon be no more this land of liberty!

Author Notes I'm so sick and tired of the media bias, lies, and trash from the downhearted, disgusting lying leftists simply trying to block anything positive for America as a matter of pure spite and hatred for losing their fat-cat political postures.


Chapter 52
In any hour

By His Grayness

IN ANY HOUR
As Father Time sweeps away
The ashes of the fires of youth
And the cold chills of life's
Newly realized dimensions,
Sends the aging heart
To the lands of darkness,
Fear, and uncertainty...
God whispers softly:
"Come near and be warmed
And rested in my love"
Then the richness of your faith
Shall carry you in joy and your
Gratitude shall deny any fears,
As the power of your joy
shall bring your only tears

Author Notes True faith with deliver the true riches of life~


Chapter 53
Love and Lust

By His Grayness

Lust and love:
Lust is fast, love is slow
Lust is rough, love is soft
Lust is selfish, love is a gift
Lust squirms, love slides
Lust snickers, love giggles
Lust roars, love whispers
Lust winks, love smiles
Lust tricks, love treats
Lust pretends, love certifies
Lust grabs, love touches
Lust shimmies, love glides
Lust threatens, love assures
Lust is bitter, love is sweet
Lust rots fast, love stays ripe
Lust leaves sweat, love leaves flowers
Lust leaves shame
Love leaves gratitude

Author Notes Something always worthy of consideration when love or lust is the question


Chapter 54
Pinball life

By His Grayness

Pinball life
As a youngster growing up in an amusement park
Each day held two powerful challenges
First, to find enough lost coins under the boardwalk
To finance my next challenge at the Pinball machines
In the Penny Arcade. Here's how life went then:
Five ball Bally's
And Williams machines
Tested my daily togetherness
During boyhood years
When my eyes and heart searched for structure.
Mirrors were too untidy, vague, and shallow
Uncreatively Truthful, so something more meaningful
Simply had to speak!
What greater mind could exist than behind the Pinball machines?
The ultimate, electromechanical Metaphor of Life!
The Coin...The Hope
The Launch...The Birth
The Bumpers...The Luck
The Flippers...The Skill
The Targets....The Goals
The Lights ......The Passion
The Fingers.....The Commitment
The Score........The Joy
The fifth ball... The Fear
The reset........The Life
My God!..... What's happening?
There's no reset on this machine!
Let's go home and write some poetry!
Starting right here:
THE MAN I MIGHT HAVE BEEN:
Across my mind from yesterday
He sometimes comes to me
The little boy I used to be
And yet he smiles so wistfully
Once he has come within
I wonder if he hopes to see
The man I might have been
Snow Water Lake, my life with you
Shall never be less than blessed
As I reflect on where I was and now
Where I am, my time with you was best
The lake and park and cottage friends
Shall live within my soul while getting old
As natures plan has taken sure it 'toll
So now I write with gratitude
And joy beyond compare to know my grave
Is all arranged and I shall meet you there.

Author Notes From beginning of challenges on the pinball machines, then to the blessings of Poetry.


Chapter 55
One Night Stand

By His Grayness

They call this a one night stand
Here in my cigarette ashes I stand
Oh lord, aint this just a castle of sand
I watch everyone go by
Somewhat blurred by the tears in my eyes
I said "play misty", the band said they'd try
Step right up, give your order
Get a drink in your hand
You're up for grabs on the shelf on this one night stand
Some are stumbling, some are dancing, some are simply
Standing still, "swayin' like the leaves on November trees
I don't want to join them, I know I will, The lonely gentleman
Said "Please" He blew out the candle and said....That same old line
I've come to dread: "your place or mine, I'll pick up some wine"
"Say I'm glad that I met you, tonight will be grand....
He doesn't know what it's like to be a fool on a one night stand!

Author Notes This is lyric from a song I wrote and published in the seventies. It did very well and I thought I would share it for this lyric contest.


Chapter 56
Dark night prayer

By His Grayness

DREAM PRAYER; by HIS GRAYNESS
Oh Dark night
How doest thou hide the light
Where comes thy power in this hour
To slowly and painfully drag the curtain
Of reality dark to close the sun's embrace
To change the echo of bright smiles
From love to lost expectation upon each face
To hush the bright sounds of life in trade for question
What and where might energy come, now to drive introspection?
Is there true good in you somewhere that calls for celebration?
Or is this nature's own digestion that simply gurgles and spits
In sustaining its own perpetuation?
Why do dreams wait for your arrival and spatter stories so bland?
Or so grand that it takes us away from reality to hopes, fears, and ideas
So bizarre that we reach for them to find the meaning of what they are.
Oh Dark night thy power is truly daunting wherein we have no control
No voice, no plan, no vote, no song or no prayer, just floating in the dark
In a journey to nowhere singing songs and living dreams we cannot share
Oh Dark night I pray that you will marry my spirit and love me in your spirit
Let me use this time to create what is good and find no reason to ever fear it
Let my works in dreams call for good and bless me in the mission only God could
Let me rest and empower my mind and soul to do what is right for my heart and soul.
AMEN

Author Notes Oh how we are at the mercy of our dreams!


Chapter 57
What Makes you-you

By His Grayness

What makes you-you should be no mystery
I guess a lot like those that also made me-me
We took the sky and moon and all the clouds for granted
We shared the joy of all the roses Mother planted
We ate the food she cooked and smiled with joy and laughter
Expecting it would always be there ever after
Until the day of growing into realization
That our lives should not be lived in expectation
The gifts each day would come from our responsibility
And their values born from strengths of our ability
Not from the warm and gentle hands of mom and dad
But from the skill and working energies we had
And through the years we'd learn that love was life's true measure
The energy of spirits bound together
Along the way we've taken love as expectations
For our families passed it down through generations
But as the seasons changed and life became more challenging
We notices values would not stand as we expected things
That new technologies and gadgets changed the power of our touch
That moved from hearts and eyes and lips and souls and such
That where a kiss and hug would transfer love and gratitude
They've been replaced by keys and lights and beeps of attitude
The human touch was once the precious glue that held us all together
Has turned to plastic, wire, video, terrorism, ugly news and nasty weather
Our politicians who once loved our life and lands and precious freedoms
Now only search for fame and glory, and dark monies as their reasons
What made you-you and made me-me was once a proud community
But now has come at last to be a shameful technicality!

Author Notes How we are being changed by todays technologies


Chapter 58
Cottage

By His Grayness

When the snows of friendship
Cover the cottage of your life
you may sleep always,
Warmly, in
Your featherbed
Of love

Author Notes Memories of simple days in a small "snowy" community
With good and caring friends nearby
Remind me of the gratitude I wish to share with you


Chapter 59
The Hum

By His Grayness

First, there is the Hum
Announcing the pregnancy
Preparing the midwife of words
For the birth

The genders of thought and passion
Alas have mated
The Conception is done

Now as an unexpected
Midnight mailman
Or the urgent crying of a child

The impatient tapping
Of the Conductor's Baton
Demands response to the call
For word music

The hum lays the meter
The heart pumps
Fresh mind juice
The fingers twitch

The delivery begins
Muscles of intention
Urge out waves of vision
Love cells paint with words

Ink blood oozes
Etchings of curious
Considerations upon
The soft thought sheet
Rising to life
Crying at the pain
Of the newly injected soul

The scribbled gift
Is gently laid
Into the hands
Of humanity

With pride
And hope
Fear and Will
And always

From the poet
Fair or ugly
Some form
Of Love

Author Notes Oh, how the birth of thought captures the poet!


Chapter 60
Love's Sweet Light

By His Grayness

When love is light it has true power
It illuminates the spirit and the soul
In every waking hour
It folds the fingers of gratitude
Into hands of thankful prayer
In every waking hour
No matter when or where
It scurries to warm smiles and tender touch
Singing promises of everlasting bond
Regardless of what trials and challenges
Of life may lie beyond
No sweeter gift of God is known
To all of our worlds humanity
Than the light of love that shines our path
To joy's eternity

Author Notes Light brings the sweetness of love through God's blessings


Chapter 61
The Rains Shall Come

By His Grayness

The rains shall come

And the warm tears of God
Shall cleanse the leaves of grass,
The leaves and limbs of trees

Gardens shall flourish in glory
Rivers and streams shall flow
And service HIS earth with ease

It shall quench the thirst of all
Who cherish and respect it's gifts
Cooling and refreshing the winds
As it washes over mountains and cliffs

Yet sometimes it may stay much too long
And its glory may be turned into shame
As flooding takes lives and wrecks cities
Making it's purposes seem harmful and wrong

But, make no mistake, by knowing God gave it purpose
Of which not all may be understood by mankind
So, as lightning and thunder send us running for cover
We must give thanks for how all God's wonders serve us

Author Notes All of God's gifts of nature have a positive purpose for mankind though sometimes hard to understand


Chapter 62
My most prized posession

By His Grayness

The touch of her hair is softer
Than my fingers in warm butter
Her tiny black eyes send more
Grip than a pipe wrench
The tilt of her beautiful little head
Has more voice than a church choir
The wiggle of her tiny tail is more
Joyful than a morning butterfly
The pitter patter of her tiny paws
Offer more delight than my piano keys
When she licks my face in kissy thanks
To say I LOVE YOU
I grasp the full understanding of pure
GRATITUDE: For she is indeed my own
Guardian Angel and INDEED: My most
Prized Possession!

This amazing 5lb creature (a Teacup Yorkie) is the most cherished and amazing possession I have, or have ever had. She takes me for walks each day and on each stroll, records the entire doggie DNA from over 3,500 stones, 15,000 bush and tree leaves, 5,00 sidewalk segments, and 11 local fire hydrants. She determinedly delivers her own DNA signatures for other neighborhood creatures to contemplate in reasonably accessible locations within the territory, in mutual respect.

Her name is Bitsy and she has been featured before on Fanstory as "The Ultimate G-Spot" and lays patiently at my side each day as I read, write, and contemplate the dimensions of my Gratitude for which she is so deeply responsible. Bitsy considers me to be her personal responsibility and all manners of my daily (and nightly) disciplines are under her watchful and unforgivable supervision. These include such things as: (but not limited to) escorting her to the courtyard for certain biological necessities, Assuring that her food dish and water bowl are full at the appropriate feeding times and also at such emergencies when spinning about the kitchen are indicative of a TREAT-SHORTAGE-EMERGENCY.

At night, sleep and rest can only be properly assured if the pillows are in proper position to allow her to rest on them and still gain access to me, the free human heater which she deeply appreciates. When any type of unusual noise is picked up by her ever-tilted lovely ears, she lets me know with a respectful but alarming growl, that it's time to become responsible and get moving to evaluate the possible risk event.

Morning is always a lovely ballet event with copious spinning and hopping around the patio door to advise there is a private event required on the opposite side of the door, which must be opened within less than 30 seconds flat! Then, she monitors my shower activity from the soft rug under my sink to assure that I'm not wasting time that should be dedicated to her services.

When riding in the car, her head is always pointed at me to assure that my driving is being done with appropriate concentration and skills and when her right paw reaches the console, it signals a time for rest and relaxation is necessary at the nearest park. Special plastic bags and treats are unpacked for the event and all is well unless there are any other puppies in the area that require proper introductions, sniffing and approvals. Once completed, I'm permitted to resume my drive to wherever, until the console is once again met with the soft but impatient paw.

Evening takes us to the park to visit all the friends and neighbor puppies that require sniffing certifications to be approved before play begins. After two hours of running for treats and of course, the obligatory "deposits" to the park fertilization fund, we move on home to a boring, but understandable cleanup,and off to say our evening prayers of deep GRATITUDE for this beautiful Angel, (working under the disguise of a soft, tiny, beautiful little teacup Yorkie!)


Author Notes There is a binary connection between LOVE and GRATITUDE, as their energies indeed do co-mingle in so many ways. The pure, unconditional love of my puppy "Bitsy" is not unlike that of most all dogs that can offer us such a wonderfully "sustainable" state of GRATITUDE in our lives....if we just pay attention to their "so precious" value of love!


Chapter 63
My Nightwheres

By His Grayness

My Nightwhere's
Another day of life comes to a weary conclusion
The warm and lonely bed calls for my arrival
Silently and softly, I slide into the vehicle of silence
I slowly squeeze my eyes tightly shut
To cautiously start the engine of discovery
The lights begin to flash and sparkle freely
Now the anticipation begins, and I dare not wince
As we lift off in trust from now, to the unknown
In faith hope and the total acceptance of God's will
My compass is free, untouched, and unwatched
My eyes are closed in the new light of anticipation for
Wisdom, and prayer for the enchantment of emptiness
And Gratitude for the boundless visitation of maybe.
I whisper: "Dear God let me have rich words to share
And to heal my world by inspiring others to songs of joy,
To words and works of love, inspiration and, constant
Acts and embracement's of sincere, Gratitude...........
For God's everlasting, ever-present, magnificent gifts".

Author Notes The vast wonderland of our dreams may tell us a lot about who and what we really are!


Chapter 64
The Twists and Turns of Life

By His Grayness

The twists and the turns
The thorns and limbs
The rocks and ice
The snows and rains
The storms and winds
Shall not be erased
From the days of your life

The instruments of nature
Within the gardens of GOD
Are not there to stir you fears
But rather to teach you love

For nothing by God Almighty
Is meant to harm you, but rather
To serve you, teach you and protect you
From the wrath of evils that shall face you
From the depths of darkness
Where you may unwisely choose to go
By forsaking the richness of GOD'S light

To know joy and prosperity in life
Is to be the creator you are meant to be
While existing in a state of GRATITUDE

For all of the gifts and blessings God provides
Know that joy and richness shall not come
From anger, jealousy, spite and prejudice
While only hatred comes forth from such deeds

Bring your heart and mind each night and day
Plump and rich with sincere GRATITUDE, in prayer
And GOD will fill your mind with the richness of
Truth and understanding of what is meant for you
To create and nurture in your life upon this earth.

Author Notes God's purposes for us are worthy of sincere consideration
As we are not here by accident!


Chapter 65
Soft

By His Grayness


Not the feather of a newborn chick
Not the foam of a warm ocean's sweat
Nor the melting ice cream of a summer party
The tiny wisp of your baby's first breath
Upon your trembling lips
Nor the consoling touch of your mother's finger
To wipe the tears of your very first childhood fear
No, no, not to experience the utopia of "soft" shall come
Until the tender hands of GOD Almighty slides fingers
Of love slowly down your quivering cheeks and kisses
Your forehead, then breathes "I love you" shall you know
The true dimension of "soft".
And I pray here and now,
That for you.... one day it shall be!

Author Notes A wish and prayer for all who seek the blessings of God's Love


Chapter 66
Passion's Field

By His Grayness

Now, here I sit alone, cross legged, lost upon the steaming rocks of Passion's field.
My eyes reach out to seek a place where I might, but a calm and soothing sonnet yield
And yet the wafting steam of desire brings only fixed attention to this tangled mind now sealed

Then a storm cloud races fast upon brisk winds of change as concentration now gathers near
As chilling gifts of GRATITUDE bring cool rain upon these rocks that I had just begun to fear
Yet now it cleanses deep, my heart and eager mind and shines, alas my mission bright and clear

Reflect with all the strength of will my heart and mind may generate, to offer what I believe is true
And pray these lines of deeply pondered thought may bring a light of joy and comfort deeply within you
For Love exists in GRATITUDE and therein shall yield a bond with GOD that's so very sadly found by few


Chapter 67
Love is a fountain

By His Grayness

Love is the ultimate, cool fresh fountain of Gratitude
Let not its springs ere'
Be tainted
Nor its works become rusted
By sloth, neglect,
Or a will or well that shall not be trusted
Nor even a dark and weary painful attitude

Author Notes True love delivers constant GRATITUDE
as fresh fountains deliver rich, sparkling refreshment
Both deserve pristine service and maintenance!


Chapter 68
'Dogs and Angels

By His Grayness

Cheyenne


"Watch out! You nearly broad-sided that car!" My father yelled at me. "Can't you do anything right?"

Those words hurt worse than blows. I turned my head toward the elderly man in the seat beside me, daring me to challenge him. A lump rose in my throat as I averted my eyes. I wasn't prepared for another battle.

"I saw the car, Dad . Please don't yell at me when I'm driving."

My voice was measured and steady, sounding far calmer than I really felt.

Dad glared at me, then turned away and settled back. At home, I left Dad in front of the television and went outside to collect my thoughts. Dark, heavy clouds hung in the air, with a promise of rain. The rumble of distant thunder seemed to echo my inner turmoil. What could I do about him?

Dad had been a lumberjack in Washington and Oregon . He had enjoyed being outdoors and had reveled in pitting his strength against the forces of nature. He had entered grueling lumberjack competitions and had placed often. The shelves in his house were filled with trophies that attested to his prowess.

The years marched on relentlessly. The first time he couldn't lift a heavy log, he joked about it; but later that same day I saw him outside alone, straining to lift it. He became irritable whenever anyone teased him about his advancing age, or when he couldn't do something he had done as a younger man.

Four days after his sixty-seventh birthday, he had a heart attack. An ambulance sped him to the hospital while a paramedic administered CPR to keep blood and oxygen flowing.

At the hospital, Dad was rushed into an operating room. He was lucky; he survived. But something inside Dad died. His zest for life was gone. He obstinately refused to follow doctor's orders. Suggestions and offers of help were turned aside with sarcasm and insults. The number of visitors thinned, then finally stopped altogether. Dad was left alone.

My husband, Dick, and I asked Dad to come live with us on our small farm. We hoped the fresh air and rustic atmosphere would help him adjust.

Within a week after he moved in, I regretted the invitation. It seemed nothing was satisfactory. He criticized everything I did. I became frustrated and moody. Soon I was taking my pent-up anger out on Dick. We began to bicker and argue.

Alarmed, Dick sought out our pastor and explained the situation. The clergyman set up weekly counseling appointments for us. At the close of each session he prayed, asking God to soothe Dad's troubled mind.

But the months wore on and God was silent. Something had to be done and it was up to me to do it.

The next day I sat down with the phone book and methodically called each of the mental health clinics listed in the Yellow Pages. I explained my problem to each of the sympathetic voices that answered in vain.

Just when I was giving up hope, one of the voices suddenly exclaimed, "I just read something that might help you! Let me go get the article."

I listened as she read. The article described a remarkable study done at a nursing home. All of the patients were under treatment for chronic depression. Yet their attitudes had improved dramatically when they were given responsibility for a dog.

I drove to the animal shelter that afternoon. After I filled out a
questionnaire, a uniformed officer led me to the kennels. The odor of disinfectant stung my nostrils as I moved down the row of pens. Each contained five to seven dogs. Long-haired dogs, curly-haired dogs, black dogs, spotted dogs all jumped up, trying to reach me. I studied each one, but rejected one after the other for various reasons: too big, too small, too much hair. As I neared the last pen, a dog in the shadows of the far corner struggled to his feet, walked to the front of the run and sat down. It was a pointer, one of the dog world's aristocrats. But this was a caricature of the breed.
Years had etched his face and muzzle with shades of gray. His hip bones jutted out in lopsided triangles. But it was his eyes that caught and held my attention. Calm and clear, they beheld me unwaveringly.

I pointed to the dog. "Can you tell me about him?" The officer looked, then shook his head in puzzlement. "He's a funny one. He appeared out of nowhere and sat in front of the gate. We brought him in, figuring someone would be right down to claim him. That was two weeks ago and we've heard nothing. His time is up tomorrow." He gestured helplessly.

As the words sank in, I turned to the man in horror. "You mean you're going to kill him."

"Ma'am," he said gently, "that's our policy. We don't have room for every unclaimed dog."

I looked at the pointer again. The calm brown eyes awaited my
decision. "I'll take him," I said. I drove home with the dog on the
front seat beside me. When I reached the house, I honked the horn twice. I was helping my prize out of the car when Dad shuffled onto the front porch. "Ta-da! Look what I got for you, Dad!", I said excitedly.

Dad looked, then wrinkled his face in disgust. "If I had wanted a dog I would have gotten one. And I would have picked out a better specimen than that bag of bones. Keep it! I don't want it." Dad waved his arm scornfully and turned back toward the house.

Anger rose inside me. It squeezed my throat muscles together and pounded into my temples. "You'd better get used to him, Dad. He's staying!"

Dad ignored me. "Did you hear me, Dad?" I screamed. At those words Dad whirled angrily, his hands clenched at his sides, his eyes narrowed and blazing with hate. We stood glaring at each other like duelists, when suddenly the pointer pulled free from my grasp. He wobbled toward my dad and sat down in front of him. Then slowly, carefully, he raised his paw.

Dad's lower jaw trembled as he stared at the uplifted paw, confusion replaced the anger in his eyes. The pointer waited patiently. Then Dad was on his knees, hugging the animal.

It was the beginning of a warm and intimate friendship. Dad named the pointer Cheyenne . Together, he and Cheyenne explored the community. They spent long hours walking down dusty lanes. They spent reflective moments on the banks of streams, angling for tasty trout. They even started to attend Sunday services together, Dad sitting in a pew and Cheyenne lying quietly at his feet.

Dad and Cheyenne were inseparable throughout the next three years. Dad's bitterness faded, and he and Cheyenne made many friends. Then late one night I was startled to feel Cheyenne 's cold nose burrowing through our bed covers. He had never before come into our bedroom at night. I woke Dick, put on my robe and ran into my father's room. Dad lay in his bed, his face serene. But his spirit had left quietly sometime during the night.

Two days later, my shock and grief deepened when I discovered Cheyenne lying dead beside Dad's bed. I wrapped his still form in the rag rug he had slept on. As Dick and I buried him near a favorite fishing hole, I silently thanked the dog for the help he had given me in restoring Dad's peace of mind.

The morning of Dad's funeral dawned overcast and dreary. This day looks like the way I feel, I thought, as I walked down the aisle to the pews reserved for family. I was surprised to see the many friends Dad and Cheyenne had made, filling the church. The pastor began his eulogy. It was a tribute to both Dad and the dog who had changed his life.

And then the pastor turned to Hebrews 13:2. "Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers, for by this, some have entertained angels without knowing it."

"I've often thanked God for sending that angel," he said.

For me, the past dropped into place, completing a puzzle I had not seen before: the sympathetic voice that had read just the right article, Cheyenne's unexpected appearance at the animal shelter, his calm acceptance and complete devotion to my father and the proximity of their deaths. And suddenly I understood. I knew God had answered my prayers after all.

Life is too short for drama or petty things, so laugh hard, love truly and forgive quickly. Live While You Are Alive. Forgive now those who made you cry. You might not get a second time.

And if you don't send this to at least 4 people ---nobody cares.. but do share this with someone. Lost time can never be found.

God answers our prayers in His time........not ours..




Author Notes I did not write this story, it was sent to me by someone that knows I love dogs. It is the most 'touching" story I've ever read and I HAD to share it with my FS friends to offer an example of the true POWER of the pen! I take not credit for this nor expect any stars but I do hope each reader will pass this along as gift for other writers to consider. True passion DRIVES good writing and this is pure proof! Blessings and thanks to all who read this! HIS GRAYNESS


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