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Prologue
Stop To See

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:A bit more on tribute poetry,

They say the world is better now, trips and schemes that turn the crowd
I just laugh out loud, cause its better that way

I seen my dreams go up in smoke
Watched and held hope

Never let faith slip not even one day


Truth in dreams
Nightmare screams

We passed this way before
Camera snaps

More circumstance

I run like before

It is okay to feel
Death is real

It happens every day

So cut and run
Life is fun

It takes the pain away

She sleeps in bed
Pillow covered head

I learn to smile that way

Trust and rust
We still play

In dreams we make

Around the room
Chasing doom

Kisses on her lips play

We still dance in romance

Hearts as young
As sun beam dumps

Crispy creams

And cloths cast array
Piles in yester day

There is one thing
We live out fun

Someday we will escape

As for now clouds and doubts
Just travel on their merry way

I have learned the game
Forgotten many names

But she says it is okay
I love her more each day

As the road fades in shades of sunset on the mend
I laugh as before see the old trapdoor coming down
It is the new and starts the cue of coming once again

Author Notes Thanks MSPotter, how is this measure up to....
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way......


Prologue
Lost in my mind

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:As life expectancy continues to increase so dementia and alzheimers


In the window of a old home
I stood lost in sorrow there
I was the reason 
they are living in despair

Inside by a fire burning bright 
I saw the love of my life my woman my wife
She was holding onto a picture frame
I heard her softly call my name

Lord why is it to be a fresh new day
Why must you take me a way 
I just cannot go in this state
Tears they lay on the last page

Death should bring anger and rage
not tears and lonely pain
Who made these rules of memory lost
Can they be changed

Damn I hate to see them cry 
What is the answer here
I know they should move on
Remember the good I've done

Just because I sit in that chair 
Out the window I stare
I see nothing not even air
Why do you keep me here

Let them put me in the ground
It would be better if I were not around
To remind of them of who I was
Help me help those I love


Prologue
Writers New addiction

By Walter L. Jones

Shall we mark addiction
Words upon a wall
Letters measured
At least ten feet tall

Reach out to a million seekers
Touch upon the souls
Spend my moments
Earning just enough
gold

Need to overdose pride
Need to get them stars
Need to write makes me alive
Need to hear voices remind me

Got myself a window to the corners of the world
Got myself a thrill at least a dozen cyber girls
Got myself a lover a million miles away
Got myself a song that I always play

In a room with shadows dancing on a wall
In a heart of lonely I still recall
In a passion left to dream
In a moment of truth

I still scream

Boss wonders what I do with all my time
Does not understand need to write and read between each line
Got me a poison left in solace clear
Holding on to something it is just not clear

Picked me a clover and a shamrock too
Added a banner and saw a bit of truth
Called me a pop up in rating fair and sweet
Left a blue ribbon hazing on her street

She is one of my many partners
in a crime so common now

We make love in the alley ways of electrons
In the back seats of stars (red ones)

Love is never very far
Only in the images seen
as the last of keys
hit the cyber screen

Author Notes Two is enough... but fun is just around the corner from truth


Prologue
Baby Boomer's Child

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:When I wrote this poem I was thinking about all the changes and expectations in life, how we pass from one to the next

Passion drips past her pain
Ghosts of lovers call her name
Body of gifts lay packages unopened
Doors closed to the view she whimpers
Love has come in self-exposed daydreams
Hearts of time leave here in anguish screaming
Last of sight is the world taking apiece of her to give

On Sunday lord in the open air
With my heart lost in care
Day filled to the full
Already planned loving soul

I hold my child
See her mother's
tears

In the past I have seen her face in hers
Of deceiving we all know the truth
We trod forth covering old earth

Golden dream world of expectations laid
Of faith left on an altar price is paid
Hope seeing past the morning sun

Only a place of truth in the birth of another one
To lay as open as we may on the places that we stayed
Our heads bowed low for all eh mistakes we have made

Caught all in the traps we call life
Of cupids thoughts we plod on
Arrows in comfort accepted and held

Stacked them neatly
In our
Beds

Larger than life I walk the river and pull the drowning sound
Take my daughter from the giver of wonder and beauty all around
Pass the wedge of knowledge never a circle place to be all escape
Marker of her age uses her talents well saves a broken body and mind from a new hell
Eyes filled with sorrow heart it is warm not cold we live our life stages that is how we manage to grow old

Author Notes A special thanks to mspotter27, for reminding me of the baby boomers.
Expectations are never quite what they seem, from early biblical days to now, cultures move grow and shrink back, what was once a good girl is now a naive person, what was once terror is now a learning experience, what was once daddy's girl is full fledged business woman ready to do what ever it takes to get ahead. Still in the end. All face mortality.


Prologue
Black Box

By Walter L. Jones

Kiss the book open and look

Caught a ride in pride
Never wanting soul
Expected to go
To another place

Face your past
Kiss your wife
weigh your life

Row your boat
Shore is cold

River filled with dead


Greatest story never told

***************************************************

Explanation in verse

So now don't you
look down
at the table

Pick only
what you are able
and move past
the reality of stoned

Every soldier is the hero
in the valley
where the dead
are left
to be alone

Cause and remourse
is in the hearse
of a story waiting
to be told

Markers in the evening sun
look now
at what you
have become

Pick up your marbles
go on home

It is a tribute
to what you write

To be left out
in the cold
at night

Scrape your ghost
up off the wall

Do not ever pay
for the last
to get away

Caus the cost
maybe
your soul

River is only as deep
as the place you keep
a romance from
growing old

And still in the will
of evermore
we kill

Every writer
from the beginning
to the end

Author Notes To play on thoughts in this poem, ancients believed the devil had a black box where he captured and kept souls, so they never could cross the river of death into heaven or hell, To kiss the book is of course the practice of many religions before opening the bible, In older times the black box was the resting place of eternity, the book was life, and in European cultures the hope chest of a old maid was her black box, another is from Greek mythology dealing with crossing the river of dead with out being married, no one to claim your soul, in that case a black book would have solved your problems, at least today... I do not usually do this but once in a while I guess it is ok to share my thoughts and intent.. Walt


Chapter 1
Grandpa's Chair (Thoughts On A Summers D

By Walter L. Jones

 

Grandpa's Chair (Thoughts On A Summers Day)

 

 

There is a hollow spot inside of me

 

A burning desire to quench the fire

 

Of a time that is yet to be
This rumbling sound flows on down

 

To the sport I claim is free

 

Yet when all is said and done, I have won

 

 


Clickity clack don't you look back

 

For the world is your oyster

 

Do you believe
Voids roam across the throne

 

Of the kings that would not see

 

Puddles in the sky clouds do cry

 


Is there a spot for me

 

Fill her up Joe

 

One more I'll have one more to go

 

 


It is children playing

 

Now where did they get off to

 

There is crackle in my bones

 

 


Something missing inside

 

I want it to hide

 

The foolish thing called pride

 

 


Still I am not quite whole

 

People looking in

 

Into my fish bowl

 

 


Years to late

 

See the gold upon the plate

 

I know you want to go

 

 


I hold you by the hand

 

You are not less a man

 

Each of us is allowed to cry

 

 


There is hollow inside

 

A piece of me died

 

I am not sure what it was

Author Notes As my mother's father and his before there is a tradition in our family to pass down our view of the world, from Grandpa's chair.


Chapter 3
Young Woman's dilemma

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:I wrote these lyrics for a friend of my son


The world is alive with happiness and grace
But I, the woman, don't live in satin and lace

Pick up your bottle, down the last drop
Two or three pills, you're off to shop
Down to the valley where all is right
Make the moves to a warm bed tonight

The world is alive with happiness and grace
But I, the woman, don't live in satin and lace

I'll sleep in the morning in some young man's bed
I'll take his ambition and leave him for dead
It is a glorious horse that I ride
All that it costs me is youth & pride

The world is alive with happiness and grace
But I, the woman, don't live in satin and lace

I stop at the window and watch rain
The baby kicks and brings on pain
Love is the window in which I live
Breath is the last thing I have to give

The world is alive with happiness and grace
And I the woman, no longer need satin and lace.


Chapter 4
Leaving

By Walter L. Jones

You try to tell me there is sunshine
In the valley I see rain
You try to tell me that I love you
I see only your pain

Why do you dream out loud, dear
Why can't you let me be
Why must your memory haunt me
Just how cruel can you be

Should have walked away sooner
Don't know why I stayed
Think it must of been the weather
Guess I've always loved the rain

Standing at the window asking why I go
I 've tried to tell you
Still you don't want to know

Tears don't become you
Love burns inside your mind
Like a self inflicting flame
Fueled by your foolish pride

Still something in me died
I can't seem to take the first step
No matter how hard I tried

Music rains down on me
Wish I could walk away
Something inside haunts me
I am going to stay


Chapter 5
Tainted Window

By Walter L. Jones

Burden of truth is the answers given to a questioning child

I have been a wander
as land I due lay
seeds of mourning
for those who pass
my way

What gift have you given back to He owner of the palace

In the silent window
feel my tears upon the grain
taste the bitter chemicals
as they fall with rain

From dry and try and blend again a new seed grows

Wonder of the ages
takes his case to God
answer is given as he's
laid beneath the sod

Trash and flash a dirty sky and flames make the world cry

Wailing dreamer
lost beneath try
crawls to heaven
rest must live the lie

Each a victim to his own mis-use Child the Earth it dies





Chapter 6
Funny Little Man

By Walter L. Jones


When life is tattered
doors open wide
see the funny man
still sitting in inside

Soldier makes the call
strong of conviction
his gun speaks
for us all

Funny man lies on the ground
kicked by all in the little town
his cat and dog
they drown in his well

When death is over
see sign upon the door
just a simple message
funny doesn't live no more

Soldier found hanging from a tree
note pinned to his shirt for
all the town folk to see
it takes more than a gun
to kill me

Funny little man



Chapter 7
Angel Of Age

By Walter L. Jones

A voice breaks the silence
Soft pounding echoes in my ears
It is the sound of my heart
Letting loose my secret fears

The shadows of a crying rage
Still find inside of me
Butterflies of youth
Screaming to be free

A sudden touch of velvet
Like an angel's kiss in flight
Precludes the calm
Making everything right

Today I hold a goddess
Lost in dreams of yesterday
With night my only witness
I let the moment slip away

Walk tall in virtue
Cry softly to the wind
Remembering days of glory
Sometimes no one wins


Chapter 8
Sound In The Wind

By Walter L. Jones

I hear the sound in the wind
It is the love lost to sin
Her arms hold him tight
While his wife cries this night

It leaves the soul run cold
The love that is bought and sold
A drink or two makes it all right
Neon sign burns to morning light

I hear the sound in the wind
It is where life begins
Only man never wins
When passion is the sin

The love is precious sent
Worth every dollar spent
Sound of beating hearts
That is how it starts

I hear the sound in the wind
Crying children born again
No answer to the claim
He or she who was the blame

Rough hands tend the task
Children afraid to ask
Daddy holds another?s flame
Mommys taking the midnight train

I hear the sound in the wind
It is the crying of little children


Chapter 9
Hallowed Path

By Walter L. Jones


When I see you
Feel everything again
Like the window of a daydream
Playing songs in the rain

Love is my partner
Shadows still remain
In the mist of morning
Softly she calls my name

If I hear you in the twilight
See your face upon the pane
Then I know you have been here
Playing songs in the rain

Hear my heart beating
Soft and sweet is the sound
Like rays of sunshine
Rainbows floating down

Arms wrapped tightly around you
old memories still remain
when I was your lover
playing songs in the rain

Angel?s kisses fall upon my lips
memories captured in living
world is silent and still
she her love to me is still giving

As the days pass to years
the beauty is the same
feeling you near beside me
playing songs in the rain


Chapter 10
No You Can't Play

By Walter L. Jones

When rain falls
on a child
a smile appears
in that moment
an adult sees a tear

The calling voice of age
does not let us be
in this a simple act
all our fears we see

Quickly, I hurry
down the hall
I heard my child call
but my child's
been dead nearly
twenty years
still that voice, I hear

Oh lord in silence of heaven above
could you please let me send love
let me answer the call of my child
I promise not to be long

I will not interrupt her
heavenly song
I just want
her to know
I am here
waiting for
that little smile
a bit of rain
and a tear

I would let her out in the snow
Lord, I just want to hold her tight
once more, I promise not to be long
a moment, not the night

Down the hall you
call my name
your voice, telling me,
about the rain
a smile and tear

Arms round my neck
kiss upon my cheek
peace in my heart
Finally, tear laden sleep


Chapter 11
Bad Deal

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:There is more than meets the eye if you look hard.

Stormy, stormy night,
wind and hail,
candlelight,
burns holes inside my soul.

Laughing in the wind,
what is the mood that
you are in,
taking all their gold.


Stormy, stormy night,
fishing for,
what I think is right.
Children bought and sold.


Bone chilling grin,
it's your fault,
they win,
eating only mold (cheese).


Stormy, stormy night,
wish I could forget
the fight;
cards are bad, I fold.


If you knew the tale,
would you share
in the sale?
How could you be so bold?


Stormy, stormy night,
the noose fits
way too tight;
cards are pat, I hold.

Within the time left,
I your sorrow,
will address.
God, I am cold.


Stormy, stormy night,
bills counted out the
numbers checked out right,
my last smoke is rolled.

Rope loosened this time.
Life goes on,
I am just fine.
Who knows I may even get old!


Chapter 12
Reality Show

By Walter L. Jones

Teardrops run down a dirty face

Years of fighting
Pain replaced

Food belly full

Life takes
Another toll

Dance across the stage

Hide anger
Control rage

Runny nose

Hand held out
Hold the pose

Camera click

Story told
This is sick

Nightmare on the little screen

Life better
Not seen

Sympathy life?s gain

One is saved
Thousands remain

One step taken

But not
For man

Teardrops run down a dirty face


Chapter 14
My valentine, My Wife

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:For My Wife

Today the soft glow of love fills me to the brim

Into the world of love it is only you I see dreaming

Silhouettes shine from starlight filling heavens above

Even the archangels sing about our elegant earthly love.

So loving the sound, melody of angelic song, I am lost in you

Love from my heart over flows to yours, returns twice as strong

A continuing motion in time and space wandering seeking your heart

It is the joining, two beings becoming as one, in a joyous bond

The glue of youth lost in time, bonds us to that of eternal age

Our children now grown have moved on; we set another page

In the glow of your silver radiance I see, all your love in me

One look, one touch, one smile, the thorn and the rose

In the garden grows strong our love, fertile is our soil

Hand in hand reaching for heavens stars


Chapter 15
Top Of The Stairs

By Walter L. Jones


Tiny footsteps on the stairs, hussling of wind and air, heard the music playing in my head. Saw a window story read, if you find you don't care, let the world be your stare.

Saw the music on the wall. Heard the widow down the hall; sings to her child a soft lullaby. Soldier boy why did he die? Saved his friend from a firing hell. Still I hear them in the wind.

Child sings a lonely song; her dolly sings along, tells the world of a life alone. Walks her dog to an empty home. No one calls on the phone, mommy works the late shift.

Door is locked inside out. Latch is thrown like hearts about, footsteps on a cold floor. Mothers voice comforts the soul; listening children from a story told. You can hear the wind in the trees.

Sad picture will not let me be; it is the voice of a raging sea, love it abounds in the child. See the picture in her room. Prays her daddy will be home soon, the smile is so real.

Sunday morning music sweet; outside of church in the street, footsteps three abreast. Sound of love fill the air; children playing everywhere, sunshine.


Chapter 16
Late Night Quest

By Walter L. Jones

Words of love linger in the evening
Soft as all the rain that falls down
Feel the pain of the sadness
Johnny took his guns to town

In the hours before the leaving
Mother held him close to her breast
No begging or pleading could
Keep her Johnny from his quest

Johnny's wife forced into servitude
Sheriff met Johnny at the door
Shotgun leveled right at him
Johnny lay upon the floor

Sheriff, blood splattered, leaves "asmiling"
A hand lifts a gun from the floor
Only sound, the one loud bark
Sheriff dead, falls by the door

Words of love linger in the evening
Soft as all the rain that falls down
Mary still holds the sheriff?s shotgun
Husband put into the ground


Chapter 17
Summer Kisses

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:This song is about the aging lover who continues to come back to old reliable, who just can't say no.

Words they float across the pages
Taking me to your soul
I think that love it ages
But your heart never grows old

Tasting your lips is most like heaven
Feeling your body close to mine
Slipping into forever
I will hold you, forever in my mind

Rivers of satin come between us
Should it be that life is just a line
I do not feel losses
I just love you one more time

In the happy moments
I feel your kisses on my cheek
In the time of passion
it is your heart I seek

Worldly items come before you
Diamonds and houses on a hill
But never dies the passion
That in your kisses I feel

Words they float across the pages
Like the day in morning sun
Take the window seat, dear
We got us a shotgun run

Tasting your lips of honey
Body hot, as day is long
When you?re in it for the money
Love is just another song

Rivers of satin calm you
Sweet is the scent of love
Caught forever in the moment
Cooing like the young dove

In the happy moments
Wanting nothing but warm sun
I will hold your soul forever
Kiss your lips only for fun

Worldly items hold no meaning
Life stops at your closed door
Passion is found in the clothes
Left Laying on your floor

Words they float across the pages
Your kisses fill my mind
But If you 're really going
Please stay gone this time


Chapter 18
Tripping over words

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:If all we do is live, we miss life. The poem is about meeting expectations of form and putting the correct word in the correct place with the correct sound, while the creativity of the words pass


Is it the day
or window play
words get in the way
of rain falling down

Out there on the lawn
see a doe and a fawn
life's opening dawn
natures morning song

Still children want to play
with all their might
they holding dreams tight
wish adults would go away

Be me still with words
like sunshine rainbows are heard
sunbeams guide the bird
to rest upon a cows turd

Finaly he is warm
free from storm
a new fly is born
feasting on corn

What a day
many games to play
kept tight dreams of yesterday
old piper finally payed

Read the story true
for all are just like you
a thought in morning dew
Good past from old to new

Where do the secrets lay
last to pray
granted peace today
served upon a silver tray

Time marches on and on

Author Notes Age and repetition often hide value of a work, to meet some language or communication skills, ie tripping over words.


Chapter 19
You Own My Heart III

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:A special thanks to Marillion, for getting me off center.

Until the door opened wide, showing me with silly pride.
I thought I'd seen the last of your hide.
Left you at the bus stop,
It has been more than a year ago

You taught me how to feel,
I was glad that you had gone.
Your lips of fire on mine belong in a song...
God it' s been such a long time, so easy for you to bend my mind.

Time was when I knew your name
.

Love burning hot in a different time frame.
Passion held control of my every thought. 
How can this be so overwhelming again?

Your arms are likened to a vise.
They caress as they entice never letting go.
Hours spent in your embrace time has been erased.
You said these were my lessons learned.

I cannot believe how easily you let me melt
As if you never really left me this shell.

At a touch of your hand and I am mister putty man.
No control and again I am a part of you.

Sharing all your thoughts
A part of you I wish I had forgot
Still you own every bit of my heart 
I could only belong to you.

One kiss leads me on to another world.
I hold on to the dream as passion unfurls.
Lips softly pass over every part of me and
Once again I am entirely gone.

Satisfied, you are done, trying a smile.
As you leave, I neither feel, nor grieve.
You bring out the very best I am.
Your puppet on a string
.


Chapter 20
The last fall

By Walter L. Jones

The shadow falls
In one I see all
It is the last call

I am going home

Questions on a rainy day
Silver birds at play
Words just get in the way

I thought I heard a phone

Dad and I play ball
Wonder of it all
I wish he could call

Sherry handed me a stone

Bible in hand
A golden wedding band
All just drops of sand

Vixen chases her bone

Precious few words to say
I miss her everyday
Since she went away

Paul drops his ice cream cone

Time is planned
I leave for another land
Hour glass with out sand

Johnny is home alone

Preacher takes the fall
Talks to God for one and all
I pray for the phone call

Warden pulls the switch


Chapter 21
Resting Place

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Every step into the unkown, leaves questions, every answer fit only some. Lonely is more that a word or state of mind.

Lonely people live inside
Broken pieces in a broken mind

No love in the morning
No pain at night
Only daydreams
To hold me tight

Lonely people filled with pride
Slowly dying see inside

No words are forming
No morning light
Only moon beams
Bring a deadly night

Lonely people crying inside
Broken pieces no place to hide

No more tears in the morning
No more train to ride
Only screaming demons
Trapped in my mind

Lonely people silly pride
Trapped feelings deep inside

I walk in shadows
I drink and fight
Straps restrain me
Until morning light

Lonely people trapped inside
Last of feeling finally died

Author Notes When you have lived long enough, even you will be lonely even in a croud.


Chapter 22
Death's Pathway

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Death a difficult subject but one that has followed man since the beginning of time.


When angels touch my forehead
I will be asked to leave
I will find you in the twilight
Hidden in the evergreen

Life it is forever
Knowing all my dreams
You are the angel
Keeping track of me

Worldly items lay before you
Crowns of thorns and gold
You cannot be bought
You will never grow old

Pages from a prayer book
I hold close to my heart
Silver nails pierce my soul
In time honored seas will part

Old skins reeds without folds
Lay next to broken tablets of stone
Words of tongues of fire a ghost
Lead me to you via this host



Chapter 23
Born of Wind And Fire

By Walter L. Jones

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Born of wind and fire
Somewhere the desire
To allow a tree to grow

In a fleeting thought

I feel the burning heat
See children crying in the street
Just what is that they know

A little love is bought

Can you tell me the wonder of it all
Trees lined to grow almost tall
Wheat someone needs to sow

Life memories sought

All the children grow old
Knowing to well the story told
Hunger comes where did it go

Some battles will be fought

Dreams they are what make us go
Unlike rivers from the melting snow
Pain finding the seam scars do show

Falling stars are never caught


Chapter 26
Limited Future Of The Fever

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:From past to present, adventure yields only a few rewards, still we look for the quick buck, often finding it costs body and soul to obtain, just survival!

Pictures gleam in faded light
Soft calls the ladies of the night

Painted dreams in candle light

Body tense from labor laid
Sleep creeps my mind evades

Scented memories take flight

Valley town from miner?s cave
Little gold to spend, rest to save

Purchase loved tonight

Dust and smoke of drinking bell
Lust and need a money hell

Body full what a sight

Muscle ache stretched to burn
Each a new lesson learned

Feel this morning bright

Sick of life in these hills
Tired of the wind and chill

Elements left still to fight

Two more years I will go
Leave behind the ice and snow

Pouch of gold makes it right


Chapter 28
Loves Regret

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Chasing the memory can cause pain and regret, still what once was shall be again.

Windows break, into rage, words are lost, to another page, life is a bitter wind, sounds of which are like sin, the taste of love never gives in,
at least not today.

When the rainbows, of another day, fall in place, across a golden sky, only the Gods, could ever ask why, mortals for love pray,
both night and day

To give of one, in heat of night, body warm, to the candlelight, softly peace is found, in the sound, of noises, of love all around,
I just don't feel that way.

Binding up, of the wound, is the playing, of her tune, hear the voice, of life, only the children cry,
when they can not play.

The day is gone, the months come slow, the memories, like the years, over life continue to grow,
the scene turns to gray.

Passion breaks, in rage, loss is the torn page, life moves, to the next, in line, death is now, only a matter left to time,
they all say.


Chapter 29
Adventure Fever

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Time and time again we look for the quick buck often only finding survival.

Pictures gleam in faded light
Soft calls the ladies of the night

Painted dreams in candle light


Body tense from labor laid
Sleep creeps my mind evades

Scented memories take flight


Valley town from miner?s cave
Little gold to spend, rest to save

Purchase loved tonight

Dust and smoke of drinking bell
Lust and need a money hell

Body full what a sight

Muscle ache stretched to burn
Each a new lesson learned

Feel this morning bright

Sick of life in these hills
Tired of the wind and chill

Elements left still to fight

Two more years I will go
Leave behind the ice and snow

Pouch of gold makes it right


Chapter 30
Old Fart

By Walter L. Jones

I heard a voice

turned my head
I thought that
you were dead

Your smile

lightened up heart
how, why, can't be
you old fart

I thought

this can't be
there must be
something wrong with

me

Then I saw
your laughing eyes
the good you have never dies

I blinked

Your image was gone
but in my mind
I hear your song

Life is just

a step away
you talked and laughed
with me today


Chapter 31
Escape

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:History of man is strange. Just where do we fit?

 

Water records the birth of another life
inside this well of knowledge love resides
step across another pyramid
see that the king has died

Wander of the world
do you find the snake
that is curled

Body laid upon the pyre
set to enjoy 
not escape the fire

Nomad of the land
takes the Shepard
lay him upon the sand

Dark is the might
feel the sin at night
bodies left in morning light

Child of God
spares life
holds the rod

Water fills the well
What is the price
What is the cell

Created man
 was not such
a big deal


Chapter 32
Only You

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Love is where and when you find it. Sometimes it is a bridge from real to need.

A thought crossed my mind
In an old part in time
I knew that I loved you

Clouds attempt to fill, my sky

As perfect as the day was
I knew you were from above
For this earth could not produce anything like you

Flowers in bloom, pedals fly

Sunshine lived in your eyes
The world had to begin with you
No question of what or when
No thought of quit or end

Does she love me, I sigh

I just was lost in you
Willows in the glen
Daisy for miles on end

I am so happy, I cry

Tears they come and go
And sadness each of us know
But the world was made for you

Night it ends, good bye

Images combine you are alive
Rain-washes the painting clean
a memory, a ghost, still at large
Mind lost, heart is in charge


Chapter 33
Lonely People

By Walter L. Jones

In the quiet of a lonely room
hear the sound of her life tune
sweetly it plays from the night
to the day

Count the rings upon the vine
see the message written by time
such a lovely song in the rhyme

Wonder upon the evening moon
watch the light brighten her gloom
fingers move across soft skin

Beauty melts the heart within
passion falls to love giving in
cradle rocks at a frantic pace

In the last of days all will see
glory of soul calls the body weak
head bowed down love was
all they seek

Find your words upon the page
no one ever questions age
love has no name in life

Each hand is held tight
comfort holds the song
each of us move along

I hear the voice a soul to keep
passion is now fast asleep
rest fills the heart and mind

Peace


Chapter 34
The Narrow Path

By Walter L. Jones

The narrow path I walk is covered in green
My ghost is standing still unseen
Take not my heart from the glen
All that I am will guard it till the end

Silently I see the world lay before me

The cannon blast is ringing the bell
Body is cold upon the merchant's shell
Five or more they scale the hanging vine
Boulders rumble down making them mine

Music plays, a march from olden days

Blood upon the water lives to see
A curse of words float down condemning me
I stand my ground flames shoot high
What is death at least one hundred cry

God?s heavy hand is laid upon my soul

Valley of the damned in smoke
Last of oak trees in the meadow choke
Smell of life a flickering flame
Nobody recalls which or who is to blame

In the wind at night people still speak my name

The narrow path is now a memory
Carcasses left scared in a cemetery
Strong and tall grows the oak tree
Steel cross is all that?s left of me


Chapter 36
Storms

By Walter L. Jones

When the call of death echoes
Each door closed tight
Fear engulfs us in the dreary night

Shadows of demons
Play games inside our minds
That is the feeling for each
Child at bed time

Hear the steps their crying
Each creek a monsters sound
Every curtain around our neck is bound

The pounding of our hearts
Leave fear a open door
Mom and dad are both at the store

Lightening striking cross the sky
Thunder so loud it makes the trees cry
Under the covers we hide
Sister is laughing I don't care about pride

Brother Bill enters a mountain of a man
What's going on in here
Wrap my arms around him shuttering in fear

No laughter just a gentle pat
A warm smile underneath a big brim hat
I am safe


Chapter 37
Separation

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:A perfect night gets lost to the reality of a not so perfect world.



 

Wind and snow fall soft and slow
My eyes are open wide
A loving touch, too much
I wish you did not have to go

Streets alive as plows cried
Such an eerie sound
Night leads to morning light
Most is true and tried

Kids and bears come down stairs
My heart leaps with pride
Angels of snow do you have to go
Your smile tells me that you lied


Snowman and broom kids break winter's gloom
Now, we have a snowball fight
Watch you drive away wish you could stay
To play with us in the snow

I pray this day
Each minute will last
Kiss and talk winter walk
Still you went away


Chapter 38
Wandering

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Each has been given something, sometimes we loose a piece or two.

I hear the sound of life 
Calling me in the night 
Will I ever see the light 
Tunnel vision love 

I talk to the dove 
Hearing a voice above 
Strange words fit like a glove 
Hold fast I am on a roll 

Child hand in mine we stroll 
Old dreams die slow 
I thought she?d be the last to go 
A cool wind touches me 

A grate is my home you see 
A dumpster meal but its free 
Was so rich how can this be 
Rain falls in my mind 

I hold onto a better time 
I thought you would be mine 
The hill was just too high to climb 
Pretty pictures I feel 

In my mind I kneel 
Drugs feelings steal 
This will be my last deal 
I still hear 

                                                  His tears wash my sin 


Chapter 39
A Troubled Life

By Walter L. Jones

In the valley of the sun,

  hangman waits for the things they say I've done.

 Down by the water edge,

I slit his throat and leave him for dead.

I am now an outlaw on the run.

Hiding in darkness and in sun.

 Each will cry for mercy,

as I take their life.

I will use a pistol and a rusty old knife.

y

Blacker than coal is what I have left.

Riding in the morning with my good friend death.

See the dust a flying. Flames straight from hell.

I 'll take you with me. Your soul I will sell.

 Faster than daylight is the hand on my gun. Most men swear.

I can beat the rising sun.

 In the quiet of a lifetime, I grow old; the devil comes to claim my soul.

Took a step, into the dust of the street, pride and my maker I plan to meet.

 A preacher with eyes, as cold as steel, comes to make my deal.

Lays three drops of water on my burning face; with a few words, my sins are erased.

 Laid my gun upon the alter, placed my knife there too, heard an angel say,

"God forgives you" .

 In the quiet of the morning, a rope pulls tight; I will be in heaven, this very night.


Chapter 40
Loves Taste

By Walter L. Jones

The taste of life

 is inside of me

 it sets my soul

 on fire

 

Inside a moment

I explode

 from all

 the desire

 

The joy

the love

 I feel

 is like

 a child' s

 first dream

 

At one moment

 I am so alive

 the next

I want to

 scream

 

Please don't stop,

don't let this

 feeling end

 

Lost between

 the two

 worlds

 of pleasure

burning everything

  within

 

The quiet

comes

 the passion

fades

only to

 start 

again and again


Chapter 41
Up Town Addiction

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Pleasure on demand

They send us down the road to a living hell
A shallow place where life is a block cell
Windows made from the shadows of dreams
Cornerstone of hell daemon?s that scheme

Wandering around in shadows of the night
Girls tempting souls out of the drug life
Which is it to be a quick love of sorts
Or 100 dollars of coke for your nose to snort

Place your bets upon the throne
What is will never be borne
The race is on the white horse
In the sands of a desert course

Five and ten will get you high
The aftermath will make you cry
Silver slivers in the vein
A running open sore of pain

Blood boils hot upon a body cold
50 pays for the coke body is old
lips are dry as the night from which she came
still the please is as great as summer rain

Searing heat tears apart what left of my brain
the doctors say he?s gone quite insane
Powders gone now for at least a year
But the memory still brings ranting fear

Demons come for me every single day
Memories inside my head send away
Hands still shake and tremors start
Fond is the memory but safe is the heart

Take the gift that is given very carefully
For the price is something you do not see
It might be the essence of all you ever hold
More than likely it will be your eternal soul


Chapter 42
What Is Hope

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Image of self is often the difference between success and failure

Slowly I find that all is well
It takes a piece of me to see
That the world is not a hell

The world is what I let it be
A combination of life blooming
My soul is truly free

The wonder of which I am
Is not dependent upon
Some other living man

Depression surrounds me
Cruel as it may seem
I can fix others bad dreams

Words I can add to page
In these thoughts I can erase
For a few moments a bit of hate

Man is man same at the core
We all fear the same open door
Death it haunts us every day

Pain and hunger turn our way
Heaven vs. a life in hell
We believe a story that they tell

Our children we want a better life
No man honors torture
No man seeks his daughter?s rape

Words of love flow from the pen
Be it in the flower
The river round the bend

Words of laughter slip from lips
Captured by a loving kiss
This I can give

This world is not hell
It is a blank page
We take, we give, and we laugh,

In and out of our cell

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Words I can add to page
In these thoughts I can erase
For a few moments a bit of hate

Words of love flow from the pen
Be it in the flower
The river round the bend

Words of laughter slip from lips
Captured by a loving kiss
This I can give

This world is not hell
It is a blank page
We take, we give, and we laugh.


Chapter 43
Last Straw

By Walter L. Jones

Children screaming down the hall
See the teardrops watch them fall
Pick up the pillow she starts to bawl

You?re the reason I am here

Burning a lifetime in sin
Children are crying again
Saw you walk out the door

You?re the reason I am here

Body sweet and music soft
An evening love in the loft
Got to stop this mad refrain

You?re the reason I am here

Baby sitter she is just a kid
Tries to keep her big belly hid
Momma?s got a new boyfriend

You?re the reason I am here

Job offer it comes through
I am finally going to leaving you
It's not you, It is this life I blame

Wrong, you?re the reason I am "outta" here


Chapter 44
Owner Of My Heart

By Walter L. Jones

Until the door opened
I saw the last of you
Left in the bus stop
Must have been a year or two

Teaching me how to feel
I thought you had gone
Your lips upon mine
Such a long time

When was it I knew your name
Was in a different time
I had a different mind
Whoa, overwhelming again

Your arms are like a vise
They caress and they entice
Hours spent kissing and holding you
You said these were lessons learned

I cannot believe how easily I melt
It is as if you never left
A touch of your hand, I am lost again
I lose all control

Sharing your thoughts
A part of you I lost
Still you own my heart
I belong to you

One kiss leads me on
I hold on to the dream
Lips softly caress me
I am once again too blind to see

Satisfied, you are done with me
As you leave, I neither feel, nor grieve
You bring out the best, I am
I will always be here waiting


Chapter 45
Temptation

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Every person can be chaught in this lie, protect your children.

When self worth and value die

When tears fill lonely eyes

When tripping is your reply

Bury the lie

 

With love and body fresh

I take your heart and eat

All parts of mind and flesh

Sell your body to the street

 

I love it when you and I meet

I come in many forms

Dark of night hidden doors

Knock twice only once more

 

Every ounce of dignity

Now belongs to me

I' ve had lots like you

Even enjoyed a few

 

Poet, doctor, autocrat

I wear many hats

Still when all is done

I' ve killed everyone

 

I' ll take your daughter

Love her well then

Seconds after the high

Send her to a living hell

 

 Your son I' ve had him too

I have been this close to you

Close the door stop the lie

Catch them before they try

 

Remember I am always there

In the closet down the stair

On the street selling wares

In the park, in the square

 

 

Do you care?


Chapter 46
A Late Night Walk

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:The wonder of living is change, and change opens many closed doors.

Three of us

went walking through

the shadows of my mind

Two were good friends

the third my life sign

 

Corridors are narrow

and the path a maze

two of us just stop

in awe of this place

 

My life sign

he just pushes on

for him there is no narrow

just the open rung

    Windows locked and shuttered

doors all closed tight

two us were willing

and still there is a fight

 

A kiss upon my forehead

a  squeeze of my hand

a smile even a child

could understand

?

My path is never set

I'll change my ways

 

Three of us

went walking

in the shadows

of my mind

 

only one returned

it was my life sign

 

My god, the bottle,

lay broken in the street

     my life had passed before me

and died at my feet

 

Today I stand-alone

no crutches, need I

 

For now 

I walk alone

in the shadow

of my mind

Author Notes I am having problems with editor words are supose to be in line.
Walt


Chapter 47
Mental test

By Walter L. Jones

Burning feeling in the night

Like the rhythm holds you right

Body swaying feelings playing with your mind

Little lady thinks you're fine

How is it this time

Voice says he is mine

Music of the rain

Would drive most insane

Lonely light bulb winging high

Rubber tire they going to try

To light eyes like a dead fly

Just a jolt enough to make you cry

Laying on the wet floor

As the questions leave the door

Head is spinning around

Rat a tat rings true

Savor comes for a few

Hospital bed

I know I am free

Well as free as I can be

Airport small town

Factory job it' s good

Doing everything I should

Cold beer going down

Last of day

not much left to say

Well at least I' m home

Author Notes This is a person captured and interrogated, now has returned home. The poem is about techniques used to keep sanity, and talks to a type of torture where an electrical charge is applied to a person standing on a wet floor tied to an electrical cord, person apply current is standing on a tire. Expanding this thought farther, each of us deals with problems of life in a similar manner, we simply hope they will go away. Seldom do they. Form is intentional it is intended to work as the mind would in this stress filled overload condition.


Chapter 48
Secret Lover

By Walter L. Jones

Wind burns my face and touches me
in the pale of moon light I see
the beauty of what should be
a world for just you and me

Like the rain falling on the roof
I feel the love running into me
your excited eyes I see
in the glory of who and what we are
whispering wishes on the same star

Hear the voices vie in the air
yours stands out showing you care
lord you have always been here
playing the strings within my heart

In the glory burning bright
I hold your precious image tight
you are my guiding light
yours is the smile from a far

Age brings back your face
like the clouds cottony erase
music upon a harp you play
captures me again today

When the rainbows come
in the mid day sun
that is when the colors run
like the music deep inside

Crystal rings as the angels
prepare your songs to sing
I can only hear your name
this is your picture frame

A single heart engraved
inside appears two names
passing quietly in the dark
eyes a glow I am sure now you know
you have always owned my soul

Author Notes This poem is about the death of love, person waited to long, to express his feelings.


Chapter 49
Challenge meet

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:What role do you play, if you rest

Sleep attacks my weary eyes
I find myself lost as in life
escaping the relentless silence
of today's stress induced fear

I demand the dream of good
I find my table fully laden overflowing
filled with all of the special
greed so very carefully laid out

It is not mere love and hope that
finds me on this special night
explosion of feeling present a challenge
hero you know that I must be

Yet, I can not enter the fly
nor through night become the sky
Walk through the scripted time
or play super anything

I simply provide comfort to a loss soul
I laugh till I cry with a lonely child
I pray on bended knee with a mother
receive the gift, of God, for guidance

Warmth escapes me and fills me
gentle sleep holds no quiet sound
my mind has been drained now emptied
I awake soul cleansed body refreshed

Challenge engaged and on the field of battle answered
nothing gained or lost, but the dream still lives


Chapter 50
Deliverance

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Just what is freedom and equality, I wonder?

 

We enter the world of believing.

We pray all will go well.

Then we drink a toast to evil,

Making for others a special hell.

 

Spring break we need a vacation.

 

We tell our brothers, we love them.

We pray that they will never know,

that deep inside we loathe them,

outside we can' t let it show.

 

Some get in with free tuition.

 

We say we are quite different.

We say we write what we see.

Can it be, we are blind?

Some don' t want to be free.

 

Freedom is an ideal living position.

 

Bought me a brand new car

paid with cash borrowed from dad

Not as nice as friends own

Just took everything that he had

 

Irish whiskey is a family tradition

Author Notes Both as a country and a people we profess freedom and equality, it is a world filled with competition and many different life styles. Even internal, we are measured not on ideal but success. Strange
a humanitarian, may slit your throat to get the next opening, the end justifies the means? Only in ammerica do sing about our ...


Chapter 51
A Soldier Lived But No One Cared

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:One-man returns from war, faces reality of a society that cares only enough to send it?s very best. We look but do not see the price paid by some.

When the world was new, it was filled with you, now it is old, I have no gold

Child like dreams, locked up in silly schemes, I cry in the night

I always knew, I was in love with you, look a silver metal on my chest

I crawled past the line, I found you in my mind, I thought you would know

Captain words, they go unheard, I am reading letters, returned from you

They said you left, no forwarding address, wish I could follow and find?.

Wind and rain, storms now are all the same, each step I take, causes pain

I am finally going home, all of life?s sins I must atone, way many deaths I own

Just where do I go now, I can't feel the ground, I see the horse and plow.

That was many years ago, my saddest day was when she went away

Where will I stay, flowers blooming on the field, I am the dog the stray

Shallow grave, on the side of the road, cover by newspapers and snow

Did anybody know, did anybody care, that I came home


Chapter 52
Rockying Chair Memories

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Day dreams can fill a life time

Someone stopped along the way

To mess my hair and catch to play

It was summer and I was in love

 She was an older girl with an earthly whirl

She thought that I was fun

Tag was her game man could she run

 Days slipped into nights

An awkward kiss by firelight

She smiled and said I was too young

 Yet as the days turned into months

She was the one to kiss and hold this much

When the days grew cold she had to go

 In the spring of 68

I crossed her path again

Her face was tired and old

 Vietnam had laid me low

A bottle was my home

She was not alone

 Held a child in her arms

The outcome of her charms

I walked her home

 She messed my hair

Talked about way back there

I was still in love

 Summer lasted into spring

I even bought her a ring

But I was too young

 Life?s hard blows

Had laid us both low

This time I had to go

 Now in the winter of my years

I still see her here

We  share more than beer

 She messes my hair

Tells me how she cares

As she rocks in her chair


Chapter 53
Momma Is Gone

By Walter L. Jones

Tears mark the spot. Where you left my heart.
It was not so long ago. I knew your name.

Yours and mine the same, the hurting never stops.
You walked away, buried you today. I don't know went wrong.

The kids all lay in bed. None accept you are dead.
What went wrong with you? Each room calls your name.

Why did you leave, in dark of day?
Clouds get in the way, still I see you here. I miss you!

Ground is cold and hard. I lay the roses down.
I walk slowly from your grave. Was life really that bad"


I will never give in to all the temptations.
You have left clues lying around.

Kids and I still pray. We made it through another day
I watch for suicide signs in Abby's eyes.

I tell her its ok to cry. She will anyway.
Well, all of us we are moving on.

I guess, from me this is so long.
All that's left for me to do,
is try to live with out you.

 


Chapter 54
Family Ties

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Families are made up of pieces, each piece adds value, when one is missing others must pick up the slack. Still the void is present. It does not mater what type of family all work the same.

In the hour before I sleep, I hold you close to me and it is just like yesterday. I feel your life inside of me. It is more than a memory and I just have to keep it alive. The kids I hold tight. The memories of you each night somehow make this world all right.

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark lonely nights.

The stories that you told, keep the fire burning bright; it is as if, you are standing by each of us. Your words echo here. A voice so load and clear. Your memory keeps our drive alive.

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark lonely nights.

A touch from the past, a please that will last into all of eternity. You are the spirit that keeps hope alive, the memory that survives all the pain that exists here. Rainbows in the sky covered by rose-colored eyes. We see you everywhere.

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark lonely nights.

Each says a prayer with words you taught us dear and the song of life goes on and on. I hear your voice in the wind and each child dreams of a day when you will be back home.
Your voice comforts and calms all our fears.

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark lonely nights.

Your foot upon the stair, I look but you are not there, just a wanting so strong inside of me. The feel is so real that the children think they see you standing there. How much longer will it be?

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark and lonely nights.

Your presence is everywhere; each of us understands our role in your plan and each will do the part. I keep always songs and words written in our hearts, our family lives on until your return.

You are our guiding light that leads the way through our dark and lonely nights.


Chapter 54
First Love

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:There are few things quite as lasting as a first love.

Walking down the back roads of a memory

I stop and find things that use to be

 

Like a lover in the child hood years

A warm friendly touch that took away my fears

 

The awkwardness of a first kiss, passion running wild

The happiness that can only be found when you are a child

 

The warm sunlight found in tall grass by river's edge

The warmth of summer love made in nature's bed

 

The joy of being there such a long time ago

Memories of youth now where did they go

 

Walking down the back road of a memory

I wonder if, she ever thinks of we


Chapter 55
It Was Raining In Atlanta

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Life holds many trials for all of us.

It was raining in Atlanta. I was waiting for a plane.
I heard a small voice to her mother she complained

I am just a love child neither loved nor blamed.
You and I are stuck here, waiting in the rain.

Who was my daddy? Was he kind and sweet?
Was he just another of your friends off the street.

I was sipping my coffee. She walked up to me.
I can tell you were listening. What is it you see?

Well there was only this girl. I'd say she was thirteen,
not another soul but me.

I said, "I see a young girl, not much  older than thirteen".
Shy little girl half smiled and said, "I am eighteen".

My mother's is in the coffin. She is coming on this plane.
I will ride with her home through the pouring rain.

It was raining in Atlanta I was waiting for a plane,
listening to young woman explain.

For years I searched for her. Grandma said there was no cure.
Her soul was as free as that of a tiny bird.

Sheriff called grandma said they had mamma locked up in cell.
Addicted to coke, living in a special hell

I was on my way to see her. There wasn't any cure,
for the sheriff found her, hanging in her cell.

It was raining in Atlanta. I was waiting for a plane,
holding a young girl, as her tears fell like rain.

When my world is done spinning.
I plan to take a special tour of the hells each of us endure.

I pray for pain of heart, I will find the cure.
Cause its raining in Atlanta, and I can still see her
.


Chapter 56
Last Visit

By Walter L. Jones

I stole a glance back at the moon
Meeting in the summer room
Bridge swaying to the human beat
Music to the rhythm of my heart
Danger floating in the air
Running fingers through the wavy hair
Swallowing up the sweat of forbidden
Dreams and the feel of passion known
Just not allowed to be seen
Warmth and love flowing like the scent of
Lilac in the wind passion so sweet
My body bends and folds with each new
Blast of wind or gentle breeze, mind spinning
I cannot tell up from down the beating of my heart
Drowns out every other sound
The world is mine to own
Soft is the tone of whispers in the night
Cares lost in latent light
Nature takes its toll
The bridge falls to the
valley below


Chapter 57
Midnight Bell

By Walter L. Jones

A card game in black of night, a year?s wages lost before daylight.
Crew smells a skunk, finds marked cards in the captain?s trunk.

Midnight bells ring on the bow, calling forth crew of the garbage scow.
Sea heaving back a life, blood still drips from the knife.

No tears, to fall here, tasks are done, now only fear.
Moon casts an evil bar; clouds now cover every star.

Death's music sings, shadows of life still ring.

A feast for the deep, a final sleep. Captain?s log ends, last message sends
Sea swells up, and gobbles him. Rest will go home to die in sin


Chapter 58
Words Of Wisdom

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:This is a poem I wrote 33 after I left Vietnam, it is actualy the second withthe same name, the first I wrote the day I returned. I may submit that one some day.

Words of wisdom wrote today
By a soldier far away
"I wonder what they say if I get home"
With the smell of death all around

From the sorrow in his pen
He states these words again
"I wonder if I will get home"
It's a dark and lonely night
And the smell of death bellows up from the ground


Like a torrent rage, fear swells inside
Words of honor and pride
Still he writes "I wonder if I will go home"
from the moon up in the sky it is Midnight
And smell of death strikes at his very soul

Somewhere in the dark a flash
Carrying an ounce of lead
Barely misses his head
Will this take him home?
But the smell of death was almost his own

"Medic's on their way"
That's what the sergeants say
And just maybe his buddy will go home
The smell of death lingers in the air

He holds the bandage tight
It takes all his might
To stop the blood from pouring out
He is sure his buddy going home
Now the smell of death is in his hair.


Voices screaming in the dark
Fear almost stops his heart
"I just want to go home"
And the smell of death is real after all

A medic holds his hand
They are asking him to stand
He cannot feel his legs
Home is so close
But the smell of death makes its final call

Words of wisdom almost done
And the battles still not won
For this soldier his body's going home
And the smell of death it lingers on


Words of wisdom wrote today
To a family faraway
Your son died bravely
We are sending him home
But the smell of death it is not
gone


Chapter 59
Time My last Frontier

By Walter L. Jones

When time measures its path
 in trips around the  sun
 
Then I know my days are done
 
Within the allotted time my life is run
Into the sea of life and sin
 
I have now found the peace that lives within
 
Sounds of day fall into the quiet night
My heart it shouts turn out the light

Still somewhere in the bliss I remember
Her first kiss and passion flows inside

Wonder of wonder of wonders is this pride

My soul and I are not ready to go
 Picking up my stick I walk another mile or two
 
Along the way I see the likes of you
 
A tempting site I must admit like roasting pig
Upon the spit, already for the main course
 
Across the land I see what brought this all on me
 
A life almost complete and yet I never left this one street
A narrow view of time that lives in side my mind

A few words spoke in confessional soul is forgiven


Chapter 60
Busted

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:The older you get, the more you forget what it was like to be young.

Always just a drink away is the shallowness of youth
Takes away man's truth; keeps him from screwing up another day

Chances spent in hell, equals the story that you might reveal
The blood, the fear, the last fight they do not allow you to tell

Who cares what is right; engines screaming down the drive
Miracle if any of them are still alive; whom is the drunk in the night

Who was it who said you'd be better off; well she took the pill
Still she is pregnant not ill; not born... all of you were just dead

My daughter, I held her tight against the fears of life
From her, I took the butcher knife; she is safe until morning light

What ever I see; I pray for youth,
To take, accept truth, In the mirror is me

I truly do understand, believe it or not
Once I was a man of only twenty three


Chapter 61
Begin

By Walter L. Jones

It was cold and the lamp had burned too low

Felt the warm of all of  her next to me

Softly I read the tale of man upon this earth

Each word flowed from my lips like an aged wine

Soft and sweet to be cherished for its body and taste

Images on the page full of color lit the room

Each phrase gave promise to the good life

That was here and the waste and pain of freedom

It was full and clear that death was no more than knowledge

Questions un-asked filled both our minds as I read the words

Slowly an understanding was developing there was only one rule

That rule was broken, curiosity, seeking more, good or evil

Sleep overcame us and she buried her head into my chest

I trimmed the lamp one last time, more to find and seek

Dawn brought the glory of sunlight through the cracks in the logs

Gently I stroked her until her eyes opened wide with excitement

The new day offered the joy growth and beauty to be observed

My toes swished in the grass filled with morning dew

The water of the spring brought back the joyful memory

Fresh snow melted into a wondrous nectar that awaken the body

We slid into the stream and let our bodies be engulfed in the purity

Refreshed the day passed easily as the precious seeds we laid to ground

Each row as straight as the line laid by a single ray of sun from east to west

Our feet absorbed the warm and energy from the fresh turned ground

As the sun set, she wrapped herself around me, like a human blanket

Bible in hand, I began to read, the next verse, as we lived the life

From beginning to end each line became our life of test and trial

Age and time blended on our journey with love and question

No answer left not understood for we were the start of life a new

Our children lived the same, as we simple, loved, striking out

Each, I gave a book copied by me, illustrated by her, loved by God


Chapter 62
Grown Up

By Walter L. Jones

I am walking in the shadows of a re-occurring memory

You know I don?t take kindly to what you have done to me

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

I see your face in every woman, I hear your voice

In the street, you?re the image of every girl that I meet

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

Got my arms around a lady just as sweet as wine,

In less than a heart beat all she is will be mine,

But your memory haunts me every time

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

Saw you standing on the corner with your smile so sweet

Selling everything you have on the same old street, still

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

I am walking in the shadows of a re-occurring memory

I don?t like what you are doing, doing to me

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

I see your face in every woman, hear your voice in the street

You are every person that see, that I meet

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

Got my arms around a lady as sweet as wine

She is willing heart and soul to be mine

I think I have beaten your memory this time

My heart is aching to be free, but you will not let me be me

 

Saw you standing on the corner with your smile so sweet

Laughed at you as my love and I walked passed you on the street,

My heart is really free; I finally let me be me


Chapter 63
Instructor's loss

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Open for interpretation

From my fingers flow a special kind of sound

The world speaks to me the talented clown

I teach the student words to regurgitate

Sending back grades that mark their fate

 

Wonders of wonders this class is

 

As slippery as the proverbial snake

I cause the pain then their money take

I hear each of them as their hearts pound

In my class to my every word their bound

 

Learning at an astounding rate

 

The day has come for each to make their round

I pick the strongest of the lot to see what has been found

A tear holds up inside my mind as the diagnosis is first rate

I have to chuckle as my wife asks me for a date

I paid for supper, just who was the teacher here.


Chapter 64
Dead Drunk

By Walter L. Jones

Walking in the shadow, stumbling through the door
Slipping past the rainbow viewed a burned shore
with my life the window I will stop a time or two
Looking for the future seeing only you the shrew

Shadows burning the hole inside my mind
Questions of yearning are lost in another time
Ah now I remember it was but yesterday
I went home but was not allowed to stay
 
Something about my image death is what it's called
Must be some mistake I am not playing a harp upon a cloud
Aimlessly I wandered through a body on the floor
just a drunken stumper. Someone closed the door
 
Walking in the shadow stumbling through the seam
Slipping on God's rainbow. Sliding down the dream
Bending and flowing with the air around me
My life is finished as I can well see

Just what is to be come of me.


Chapter 65
Girl Friend Lament

By Walter L. Jones

Sweetness is the calling card
of those who so hate pain 
it's kind of like the surpy stuff
and sometimes falls like rain

The bitterness of sister kiss
is often found inside this word
it is the same as common rain,
some say it comes from a bird

Now don't get me wrong
I would not place it there,
but tell me how does rain fall
from a sky that is bright and clear

A friend has said she'd rather be dead
than to be told these passing words
?kissing your lips is something like
that of kissing my sister?


Chapter 66
Last of the Midnight Cowboys

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Good guys and bad guys, can not tell by the color of their hats.

I was rider on the black road I did ride
Love and hate companions by my side
Devils they are screaming in the wind
Each carrying one of my many sins
Cannot let them catch me or I will die
Horses and cattle thundering across the sky

Caught a glimpse of her as I hurried through the town
Saw her long hair hanging down
Saved her from the lonely gallows tree
She would have hanged there but for me
Saw the sheriff boots swinging high
Neck stretched in the evening sky

Wears a black bonnet on his head
Judge took him for me now he is dead
The devils are on my flying heels
I know they will not gut out a deal
Mexico is almost home and I ride alone
Love and hate will fight it out
She heads North I head south

I was a rider in the daydreams I did ride
Beautiful woman lived and died by my side,
Yesterday's a memory, money and the badlands call to me
A hefty price I will pay, escaping death another day
The child dies in the sand, grows up to be man
Hope is dead and gone, this is not a cowboy song


Chapter 67
Problem Little Girl

By Walter L. Jones

Who are you to judge me
What gives you the right
To question everything I do
I did not ask to be born
You picked me
 I did not pick you

Slamming of the door
Heart tore from my soul
Pain at every turn I will
Not sleep this night

Gas up the car hit every bar
Looking for my angels light
Tears streaming down she is found
She is in the "worse part of town"

Sawed off loaded can't be seen
I wish this were a bad dream 
Push my way through the door
Three or four got her laid on the floor

No daddy the last words two will ever hear

In the quiet of the night
I hold my daughter tight
Tell her everything will be all right
Capt' says get the hell out of here.

My partner is outside says
Let us take a little ride
My daughter is on a plane
to Omaha.

My wife she cries and screams
Time for her to move her dreams
My family has to pack up and go
I am back out on the street

Author Notes Working in the covert world of drugs and flesh trading, has a heavy price on the family, in more ways than one.


Chapter 68
Mamma's Note

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Values are always just beneath the surface; however, sometimes they are very hard to see.

Teardrops fell on the note
Silver words were wrote
I can feel the pain in the pen

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

In the valley of the death
Saw the man come for me
Burning eyes did I see

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

Bottle still in my hand
Being handcuffed by the man
Pushing me to the ground

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

Concrete floor iron bars for a door
I know that momma loves me
I gotta note for the judge to see

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

Daily walk across this land
Burning words in the sand
I saw the writing on the wall

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

Teardrops fell on dad's note
As I read the words he wrote
I am going to her

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

Thought I arrived too late
She was buried and in the grave
Preacher smiled and said "your soul is saved"

Like a never ending ride all bottled up inside
Someday I will let her know

She can see and she knows
Water splashed over me
As my sins are set free

I finally know where I will go


Chapter 69
War History

By Walter L. Jones

Since the beginning of time, man has taken from man.
There is always a desire to have what the other guy has.

Since the beginning institutions, men justify taking what belongs
to other men.

Like gangs on our streets, countries band together for
protection and justification, for taking what belongs to others.

The wants of one out weighs the needs of others.
In this country, we use up the rest of the world resources.

We are the king of the hill; standing tall for the next person
to take a whack at.

My country right or wrong, my life style, be like me if you are
strong enough.

Take what you want, live the good life, set the bar,
whatever it takes.

Not just a few but everyone is entitled. You don't need to work for it, just take,
might makes right.

Words are written. "History" sets the stage. I defend my right to this life.
Fear forces me to take drastic steps.

War is the outcome of years creating a life that is not
supported by the work done.

You threaten my safety, you can hurt me, and I will hurt you first. My gang against your gang. Nobody wins, but I make you less of a threat to my way of life.

Death comes, the value of life, small cost for living comfortable; what are a few sons and daughters, I can always have more.

"& A mother cries,
A father dies,
A soldiers tries
Their life is hard

My life or yours
No compromise
Outcome is war& " 1

1 Death in the morning by Walter L Jones 1964


Chapter 70
Tears Of Hate

By Walter L. Jones

The bitterness of hate
Fill my soul and mind
It is a bit too late
As thousands lost life

The quiet of a fall day
Burned in memory
What happened to the
Proud the brave the free

Intimidated by a threat
From a burning sky
Thousands left dears ones
To light up a sick sky

Why have you not left
This world drop to it knees
Why haven't you destroyed
Those who are not free

God of Gods leader of the Jews
Who is it that should pray to you
Protector of Abraham's band
When and who infest your land

Infidels that's what they say
Each and everyone takes a way
The body of a living soul
Does your clan grow old

Ah the words of love
Sent by the dove
Still my heart is sad
Is the world really this bad

Calm my passion
Hear my plea
Let my heart be free
Of this hate


Chapter 71
Void

By Walter L. Jones

There is any emptiness
Inside of me
A feeling, I feel 
But cannot see

A nagging of where and when
Like something from here and then
Time lost in find
Maybe a condition of mind

I can?t say it is lonely
But it seems that way
Sometimes it goes but mostly it stays

Am I seeking lost youth
 maybe truth is the need
or maybe wisdom to plant a seed

the condition is tired
I think I will just sleep
Wondering, what will become of me 


Chapter 73
Gray Head Home

By Walter L. Jones

There is a place

where even money

Cannot hide

it is a shameful place

where old folks reside

 

Tied to beds

fed drugs like

dogs about to die

sad is the heart

 

Blue is their sky

soft the smell of rain

it falls against

their window pain

 

Children stop and stare

see them tied

to their wheel chair

so they don't fall out

 

We turn our heads

the other way

but someday

it will be our day

 

Tied to bed

sores so large

begging God

to make them dead

 

Still there is no word

no soft call

phones don't ring

down the hall

 

One nurse and two aides

to care for 40 or more

let one get lost in a store

just shoot them up

 

Let them be

no one the torture

shall ever see

just because they are old

 

With or with out gold

we will place them here

look at age with fear

on old folks day a visit

 

Then run as fast

as we can from there

no time to care

it is a lonely a fare

 

Close the window

turn out the light

maybe a visit

some other night

 

I rub her back

I wipe her brow

I walk with her

here and now

 

With stories she fills

my mind of a gentile time

when work and smile

was her way

 

I think I'll

visit again today


Chapter 74
Old Outlaws

By Walter L. Jones

From Santa fee to Alabam the bars are all the same

Beer is cold, broads are bold, each with a fife rent name

Slip a ten, a honey knows what in store

Strum a note, wrong words stroked, sail through the door

 

I am getting better, I guess it's cause I am old

The woman are friendlier now that I have some gold

I don' t sign tee shirts just breasts full and firm

Most are from girls with nothing left to learn

 

My Whiskey River will never run dry

Kris has got a tear left in his eye

Johnny dead and gone

Nine inch nails a deadly song

 

Motorcycles and fast cars

Horses drinking in the bars

Outlaws and renegades

Now, those were the good old days

Author Notes Light heart poem about people I liked to hear sing. The going up was worth the coming down, from the " rocking of the cradle to the rolling of the Hurst" Kris Kristopherson


Chapter 75
Dad, What Will You Leave

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Money and accolades are nice but with time they die. Well written words on the other hand may live forever.

Today we walk in fear of all the things we hold dear

Lost to sun and rain the onset of old age pain

Like shadows on the dawn we pray these will be gone

Still they linger in our mind it is close to being our time

Will we leave a word or two and brighten up just a few

Is it our lot to pass quietly or play the flowers of forget me not

I hear the death call it comes for us all but I will not leave

My words will glow in the hearts of many I know

My children will pass the tales of riding dinosaurs and whales


Chapter 76
Nothing Changes But Time

By Walter L. Jones

In the shadows of the evening with death all around
I see the sun set on the other side of town
Like burning embers in the last of camp fire light
The ghosts of yesterday dance through the

 night


The fighting over hundred years past
Sabers still ringing as another soldier breathes his last
And I today' s messenger lift up another soul
and gently carry him to his heavenly

 home


Chapter 77
Evil With In

By Walter L. Jones

Earth and wind rue the day, as I come out to play
in the silence of burning clay

You see my face hidden in the grain like sallowest of yester year
A mark a thought a special fear, the last scream before a tear

A swallowed scream, a constant dream, guilt and fear they all live hear
me in the things you say, I take a piece of you each day

The evil that escapes in every word and step you take
Let me die if you can but it is not part of my plan

I own you because of your pride. Oh foolish fool not a place to hide
The color true to life is as sharp as the tongue your knife

You cut everything so deep in the night you break their sleep,
with terror of revenge it will we be your end

On your grave it will say ?he planned the end this way?


Chapter 78
Sunday Visit

By Walter L. Jones

They talk of milk and honey
They talk of yesterday
They talk about the money
All of it gone today

I talk about daydreams
I talk about love
I talk about squirrels
On my roof above

They talk about girl friends
They talk about fast cars
They talk about lost morals
Wonder about life on mars

Grandkids hug me
Listen to my tales
Wondering if Grandpa
Could really ride on whales

Dinner is over now
Time for them to leave
Each of my people take
A piece from me

Past to the future
Love in all I see
History is the garden
From which grows
The family tree


Chapter 79
Wandering Soul

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Faith and love prevail

I have but a step to take

I know exactly where

I will be in morning light

I will see you there

 

A promise made long ago

From a tree standing tall

It was on hill overlooking

At least his mother and Joe

 

A tomb that' s hollowed out

A place to rest your head

A taste of hell a memory

Laid to rest in a garden

 

Still you are not dead

A hand placed upon

A woman' s love true

Tears as she cries for you

 

A comfort hand a voice

That' s soft and sweet

A reminder of a place

We will you seek

 

Death is but a moment

No time frame here

Life is in the living

I must now leave that hear

 

Brooks flow to rivers end

Rivers flow into the sea

Love comes from God

I give it to you from me


Chapter 80
Lost Lover

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:Loss of love is the greatest pain, it takes the breath

When mourning sun meets gentle rays of the jagged dawn

Window breaks in fright followed by love lost in the night

Room spins, shadows grow, turn gloom into a virgin light

Hope fails as does faith  from your pillow you are gone

 

The taste of a tormented love still lingers upon my breath

Nameless silent sound crackles in fleeting fear all around

Wanting desire the burning fire of my tears trickling down

The please has once again escaped the lingering like death


Chapter 81
Stand Out

By Walter L. Jones

From windows buried deep in the woods
I find you among the trees the least understood
all accounts you are the chosen one

Hair of gold eyes of blue glistening in the sun
Lips as red as any of the ruby wines
A body of the gods at least in another time

Still in the entire world many look like you
a nip here, a cut there, a little silicon
some body fluids, maybe even a little sin 

Then your voice melts butter and leaves honey wanting
Deep in the trees I see you a head above the rest
No question in my mind I ' d see the tree in the wood


Chapter 82
A Poet's Thought On A Rainy Day

By Walter L. Jones

When the day breaks into forms of routine. I move forward to change. It is change that allows growth and development. It is true that through repeating motion we often improve in time use spent and even in better performance of the task. In life however, getting better at something only means that I have taken another day from seeing the excitement of the new thing. I live to learn, to touch and feel all things. It is true that I must have a base to move forward; I just do not want it to be one that is stale. Love smiles on the poet, for adventure is at his heart. The educator lives to the routine repeat the theorem, satisfy the form, and make the verse sing the song of old. I change as I seek growth. Move forward with me, I like to have friends about me as I succeed in each new endeavor, what fun is glory if you have no one to share it with. Find the good in all of today, seek the hope of yesterday, and chase every rainbow in the sky....

Author Notes This is not the presentation I had hoped for, I just could not get the editor to co operate. I hope the message is still seen. Walt


Chapter 83
Paid In Full

By Walter L. Jones

For once there was a dreamer

Who dreamed the pretty dream

Lost all in reality we scheme

 

She belonged to another cold

Story filled with warmth

Body of age heart sold to gold

 

Book is finished lays in a bin

Love was bought and sold

History of love, they all live in sin


Chapter 84
Searching

By Walter L. Jones

Nothing is free, even salvation has a price
Silver letters on a plaque
blood - stained dreams
an't no lookin back

Salvage a nightmare
words written in que
an't nobody dream'n
were just look'n for you

Stand alone on the platform
tell your song to the crowd
just look'n for heaven
face to the ground

Heard my daddy say'n
don't nobody win
if your look'n for forgiven
then you must except the sin

Saw the pastor
look'n heaven bound
knew he was scream'n
hell and fire goin down

Children talk'n to gold
old man say'n it is time to go
water a float'n body soft
baptism of the reborn soul

Saw the silver letters
shining black on black
if your preach'n 'redemsion'
just an't no look'n back

Muddy water can lift a body high
you don't know who you are
if you never try
blood - stained dreams

Fire floating in the sky
floods left a rainbow
even God can cry

Man he has been here
left his mark upon ground
listen to the pain
even children will drown

Flesh is the day
Burning morn'n sun
all of us marching
to the sound of the gun

Cross planted on hill
just a few drops of blood
outcome of the kill
water tastes like wine


Chapter 85
Answered Prayer

By Walter L. Jones

Fear and pain abide in a place you sometimes hide .

Tears build up in your inside, only when you are alone .

 Walking down the street. Terrified by the people you meet,

afraid of strangers you greet. Know this, you are never alone .

 

When I see what is inside, I look at you with parental pride .

There is no reason for you to hide, when you think you are alone .

It is you, your soul, I wait to greet. You that I will meet;

later on, on our home street, when you think you are alone .

 

Walking with you in the night, it is you that I will hold tight ,

Comfort you with all my might. You will never ever be alone

Author Notes In my childhood, I was often alone, I remember, words from my mother and later from a priest, as I deployed for Vietnam. My mother, as long as you can remember all I have taught you, I am with you, from the priest, God never leaves us alone , His word lives in our souls. I visited my mother's grave and the words came back. I wrote this poem.


Chapter 86
Night Escapades

By Walter L. Jones

Nighttime is crying
A mirror of life
She is the angel
A woman, my wife

Soft as the dewdrops
That burn my throat down
Mellow as the brandy
I buy in town

Hot as my Saturday
Washing in the tub
Sweeter than magnolias
A special back rub

Nighttime is crying
I hold her tight
Tell her I love her
In the moonlight

Jukebox playing a tune
Tears dry in our bedroom
Last memory of nighttime
Sunlight floods the room


Chapter 87
A Voice In The Wilderness

By Walter L. Jones

A voice in the desert

So soft from home

I hear you calling

Why don?t you rime

 

Each night a blister

From the sun

I am like lighting in the ?run?

 

Keep the fire burning

I know the way

Through the darkness

 

Till the light meets the day

Lingering footsteps where

Are you now

 

Hear the freight train

Burn down the track

An?t no looking back

 

Soft as the child in the street

Warm as the kiss when you I meet

Body on fire in the night

 

I am  looking for you not a fight

Kiss the stars sing in the sun

I am your life on the run

 

Do like a singer out in the bar

Strum your fingers she is your guitar

Play the body inside your mind

 

I will walk with you all the way this time

Fingers are moving in the dreams

Right up to the Sunday stream

 

Keep the door closed

Close it tight drunks are the virtue

on Saturday night

 

Walk in the wind sing to the sun

I am your memory still on the run

Whoa what is it today

 

Child of love holds me tight

found in my lonely night

Just another drunk

 

Singer in the band

Lost in the bar again


Chapter 88
Young Fool

By Walter L. Jones

You ask me not to cry

tears are for fools

Slowly I die

I curl up in a ball

You tell me lies

I was but your tool

It revolves around my ..

I rant, I rave, I scream

You leave before I try

You think you are cool

Black become my skies

Love at last gone

You laugh as I cry

I am a young fool

Author Notes Inside the corporate world, roles change, but lust and greed are as always. Now it is the young man, being used.


Chapter 89
God's Plan

By Walter L. Jones

The time is drifting across the troubled land
I step out to touch the wind who understands
I cry at night in the makings of a man

Are you sure this is God's plan

When the troubles of the world scream out
In pains memory what is the reason for there
To be you and me and I wonder still

Are you sure this is God's plan

The tide of life burns deep in the hills
when I see starving children it give me the chills
the screaming from weapons and children doing army drill

Are you sure this is God's plan

A wakened from a weary sleep gun shots ring out
I look to see a woman getting kicked about
And the officer her tries to save, he is told by her, just go away

Are you sure this is God's plan

The sorrow of the people spread far and near
Many a teardrop is found in a glass of beer
Another baby is born out of wedlock

Are you sure this is God's plan

The fool that guides the pen along
Writes the story of man but it has not been that long
Since he first on hind legs did stand

Are you sure that this is God's plan

The bitterness of age plays song into the night
I stopped to listen pretending everything is all right
Still I think the killer of the tale ran

Are you sure that this is God's plan

Why would I ask you!

slow to move
likes to pretend
uses up his free will

Ah, you are God's plan


Chapter 90
Throw The Die

By Walter L. Jones

I throw the die

And watch the spots

Lie

Seven eleven

Win

Daddy is drunk

Again

New shoes were just a

Place

For government

waste

 

 

 

 

So blood it is

Eye for eye

Drip for drip

And try for tried

No passion

What did you expect

Ah this an’t over yet

 

 

A bed of thorns

Is what you see

Death and free

Not me

A fire

Warm

A

Trouble

Storms

 

 

A way you stained thing

Wrench of hail and winter things

No pause in birth request

Shallow graces lay

No knife

No page

Just vote

And

Run

a way away


Chapter 90
Door Step

By Walter L. Jones

From the door to the day

I walk the other way

Only knowing what they say

But not until I am gone

Slip pass the color see the black on white

Know who lives for each other is that right

Don? t tell me that I am can not be

For I will tell you what I do not see

I have been the shadow you are but the tree

Together we are neither just a single dream

The child in us sees the grass upon the ground

The finger on the trundle the key in the door

Hate is hell bound I just opened up the floor

Flames escaping heat coming fast, burning up my past

You a mirrored image wrapped in yesterday

I wonder who with your  soul will play


Chapter 90
When It Was New

By Walter L. Jones


We write of the days when love and words met in dreams
The stage was alive with a feeling never seen
A time long gone
Still in memory
I feel those days
A sweet warm
Sad but better time



They come to play among the dreams so far away
In the realm of yesterday I love the verse they say
Not a word is left to be understood

Pull the voice in clear
Ant scurries forth
Not a heavy load

All the boys stand and cheer
Ladies lay the rules
Last one to view
Eternal kiss
You miss

I heard the news today
Not a soul to view

Pull the chain stop the train
All accept a pouring rain
Sad actor is not a loss
Silent collects no moss stones roll a way
Ink left to fade
Notice posted on the wall
Gone last stage call

From a new music form
Voices escape
Drugs still reach
Girls and rape
Love and hate
Stage finds
People and
Romance
A second
Chance
Idol



Chapter 91
Love's Road

By Walter L. Jones

In the morning near the river
I reach for the son
Finding only the dreamer
In the pools of the sun
Take my shoulder
if you are willing
let your heart dream

For my love is like the river
And your heart is its' spring
When you wander through the shadows
Then I will call your name
It will be like the dreamer
In the valley of the rain
From this my teardrops come


The love that leaves the pain
Inside a memory that is where it belongs
From the first of springtime
For full summer long
take the beauty of the moment
share it quietly in the day
then lift my spirit 


watch the petals blow away
Walking softly through the clover
I will be by your side
Making love in the moonlight
Tasting every passion made
I will hold you in springtime
Till nature's bed is made


Summer calls me home now
Winter doors open wide
I have lived in your memory
All it cost was your young pride
Child of nature, yearning angel
In the night kiss of fire burns
Songs of love caressed
The young fern


Chapter 92
Another Day

By Walter L. Jones

Would you stop the wind
To listen to the rain
Would you hold the pen
To write the words again

Do you see the child upon a knee
Would you love God above me
Do you hold the gift with the sky
Would you squeeze a cloud allow the tear to dry

Heard a voice saw a dove
Which was the word that means love
So you see the wind in the tree
Is the sparrow trapped or is it free

I have stopped the wind
To listen to your heart
I held the pen
To the sea to part

I gave the child your soul to free
You still cry to be let be
I built a home in your mind
You cannot find

Salt and rain fill your life
Mind dull as a used knife
But I love you anyway
I give yet another day

To find me


Chapter 94
Walts' Day

By Walter L. Jones

When days are but journeys, the night is a welcome relief. Stepping inside my mind, there is a peace that comes after a day spent. The life I choose to live provides opportunities for both success and failure in my eyes, because in the end I am the only one that counts at least on this earth.

My children point to something different: name recognition. You carry our name, at least the boys and we have to live with what you do and do not do. By the way, could you lose a few pounds, take down the Christmas lights; maybe move a few of those cars off the street, you know, like the junk yard.

Too much to ask? I think so, I brought them into this world, I could take them out, it is the only way they would lose my feelings for others, my need to accomplish, to serve, to create, to write of what I see, I feel, I taste, I love, and I need for survival. I cannot remove them. Who would carry on my name; read my work, drive my junk, laugh at my jokes, thank me for being alive to ask which way is the bathroom.

So it is the day boils down to a few minutes. Pen or keyboard spewing words for someone to read, and embarrass my children.


Chapter 96
Why One Over One

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:A poor tribute to 'Blake'

If I offer a part of my heart, give you but a piece of my soul, will that feed your hunger?

No, I thought not for you must have everything, a jealous ?god? you are

Time for time, thought for thought, which door did I pick, the tiger chases the dream

In the maze I find more than mirrors, see doors that open both ways, strange it is

The words were not laid out upon the page, this time.  They burned into the flesh

Branded in a form that marks me in the eyes of all who will cross my path

Murder, first they say to walk upon your land.  I wish I?d known your preference

I would have raised the lamb


Chapter 97
Last Of Winter Freeze

By Walter L. Jones

Silence fills the air
a deadening sound that
is not there

Like snow on icicles
hidden light
a soft winter glow

Frozen in a pond
a grave of life
not death's slave

A child of beauty
bird of pray
lost this day

Rainbows fill my eyes
I want
but cannot cry

Nature is true
It takes life
yet comforts you


Chapter 99
Last Journey

By Walter L. Jones

Sorrow strikes a blow

I cry like the rest

My heart is no different

Sad is human and lives

Water from eyes

Turns to wine

In memories past

Well I remember

The burning pain

Streams down a cheek

Years of love lost

A companion gone

I now lean on words

I fill with songs

I smile at old

But I cry for loss

Give me a moment

Not to remember but love

Joy upon mind

We talk one last time


Chapter 100
Burned In Noonday Sun

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:A man comes again and again to get it right, how many times must I forgive my neighbor?

Death stood before me in the eyes of hunger and anger laid by fate
Dropped a feeling of hate into the working end of a weapon
Drilled the spirit of temptation and left them to be sorted by God
Deaf and dumb dying to fight the Devil winning tormented voices
Death seeks no one it finds them looking to be free of the hell created

Cry at the wall
Wail in the image
Scream at value life leaves in the child
hate breeds the sleeve of heart break

Father, brother, sister, daughter, leave them
Pick up your cross and follow me
across the desert sand
Face east and cry salt

Rivers never flow and oasis dries in mirage
Tibers drops to linger in the will left
Mountain moves to meet a voice
Sea rides sand waves

Death stood before me in the eyes of hunger and anger laid by fate
Dropped a feeling of hate into the working end of a weapon
Drilled the spirit of temptation and left them to be sorted by God
Deaf and dumb dying to fight the Devil winning tormented voices
Death seeks no one it finds them looking to be free of the hell created


Chapter 101
Stained Glass

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:In time we all visit places that offer a need. Look about and see the beauty hidden in changes taking place as day passes from start to end. Sun and moon offer different results. Each day plays a new melody as light and direction change creating fragments of change and shadow. Wonder is always in the eye of the beholder. You just need to look. Stained glass can take many forms, from rainbows to church windows, to water flowing in a brook dancing over rocks laid in perfect pattern.





Many stop to visit the sound
Here the coral as it cried

Organ fills air on high
Special vision filed safe

Beams of light dance
Color glass share image

Mind grabs in perfect form
See the artist a-live in view

Shadow takes space to warm
Years in color practices result

Angels and Saints come to life
Man takes his place and fits

Heaven on earth created by hand
Practice makes acceptable

A different plain as spirit sings
Combination expectation satisfies need

Church a safe place for thought and better
Puzzle not solved but accepted

I belong as different as I am I belong
environment creates peace

Drifting on a lake of thought and image
Beams of color grace me anew in the picture

I become one bended in light


Chapter 102
News Of Fall

By Walter L. Jones

Read and wind words fall in place like leaves
A crisp thought from the north brings forth fall seeds

In color glow minds dance upon an autumn scene
Drops of ink across a page in winter green stream

Lights of night purify a clear star filled sky
Trip into quill feather dips as promise or nature lie

Come hear my child and lay with me in school to learn
Watch the chasing of the earth with knowledge to burn

A bit of soft earth a couple of colored leaves
Each wandering soul in love is made of these

In dark of night and looming sun all is new
For winter brings forever in evergreen to view

Read and wind words fall in place like leaves
A crisp thought from the north brings forth fall seeds



Chapter 103
One Last Time (Blues)

By Walter L. Jones


Who are you to judge me free of sin throw your rock throw your rock

Mother dear what is the place we must lay one more time one more time
Kiss me goodbye in the wine one more time one more time
Take this cross and count the loss one more time one more time
Carry my load friend more time please one more time just one more time
No place to leave my remains this last time this last time


Each one is a gap are you mine are you mine
Take me down one more time one more time one more time
Lift me up as gift in the sun of a sign take my voice one more time
Hear me sleep in the deep of cry let me sigh one more time
In your body let me dwell let me dwell one more time one more time

She is the sound of love in coming down coming down one last time coming down
Life is in the sound of music being played as her soul and mine go down one last time one last time
Death becomes the vision left on the step on the step of time of time

Throw your rock throw your rock next to mine one more time one more time


Chapter 104
Travel In Man

By Walter L. Jones

I reach for the voice and take the load close your eyes
I will part the seas of your life for-ever

It was quiet in the valley as we mounted the hill
There was fifty yards between us they started the kill

Bless in wisdom seen as I take the dove and leave love
in brittle forms snakes mine a sign of new times

Daft and ugly was the voice of time and a cycle rode before them
to clear the mind of a memory and a God and in time all would be part of the sod

Don't dare to please the breeze of greed in spreading seed
we will leave there in the flesh of burning air a care lost

Sky filled with fire as the hail began to fall and in the mist of the hell I heard a call
gather up purpose leaving the angels win and in the end he will for-give this sin

cradle rocks in the hot rocks of blatant views of the shrews sadly left crying
I find the reality dripping in pure blood vintage left buried alive

Dripping from the sweat of the day as the bodies lay before me I kneel to pray
only vestige of time leaves my lips and the burden of grief commits pride

Cast revels the thrill of dire straits taken to the level of side and broken legs
face the rituals of man only the rich of the poor fool can still stand facing east bowing

Trouble lives in a river of red and the coffins of the living mix with the dead
will and wanton days are left in the aftermath of trampled yesterdays screaming

Scales measure the battle and the wine left in freakishness dread breaking bread
fishes filled the baskets and the crumbs feed the fishes as result of time honored belief

Come my children lets leave this place find the land of milk and honey eternal grace
Take the last of this dream and lay in fertile land of the bone of the jackass scheming

staff is broken as the water pours forth from the rock I am punished not seeing Cannon
only fire on hill as four forties open with quad fifties resolving all issues of truth

Fire power is the position and location of strategic place erased by man climbing a hill
all of the power in the world does not forget the angel falling and the will of his kill


Chapter 105
See You

By Walter L. Jones

Sun stops a top a hill in Malibu
never a talk or about life
just a vision a boy with a knife
call be in the afternoon
love is the pit in my stomach
trying to save another stoned fool

Disk and place as the silver in his spoon
Take one for the company sixteen stitches
I was just thinking of you son I was just thinking of you
read your letter and tears fall
so proud of your faith damn you stand tall
mother laughs at me see the tears
I send you the money to cover new cost

Pick up my pieces and move on down the road
Christ had a big cross but I still carry my load
Pain of living is the answer to all that I see
I hope son your as proud of me as I of you
Peeled another kid from the street
not many more last of the beat
gonna retire soon to that place
mind is gonna go clean
values erased

Watched a star drop from the sky
Heard the new birth of a child cry
cradle rocks in the sound
love still lives just a bit down
come home when you can son
I sure miss you
Fixed your room
almost looks new

Silver drips in the color of gold
I, your old picture hold
we are the reason
to be you are as much hero
as I can ever be
saved the story
thought you
might want to read
apple never falls too far from the tree

Sitting on a park bench
just thinking of you
not much is of value
a broken down feeling
wish I could be with you
old bones creak as
I walk the street
smile as young I meet
see your soul
in every face on the street

Thunder breaks my train of thought
look at the candy bar I just bought
smiling face thanks me
candy bars and stars
will never set us free
plate will always be full
remember son I am waiting
I walk with you where ever you go

Yard is cluttered and old
took that marker for sparkle
had it bronzed in gold
spread the ashes of vixon
mixed brown cried real tears
as the memories of pets settle down

Felt a hand on shoulder did not have to turn around
Left the house never made a sound
Every bit of me is still trapped inside
See you soon son in my mind










Chapter 110
Once Upon A Country

By Walter L. Jones

From prison dank to cathedral tall
each him and her came to tame or be tamed
in vision of better and sweet rebirth
found here self need nothing more
blood stained land freedom true
new as far as the eye can see
seed planted and grew
with just one view
self sufficient equaled free

Want and wonder more established by a few
from claim and vision descendents sent
to cap and build support for the old
still free souls rained over the decrepit and old
Europe scolds the visionary school
Is about to teach upstart a thing or two
casting lots many just move forward in the view
and earth became a battle ground
nothing new

Still in hero grace many just continued to live
for there was nothing needed
land was rich, gave good return
plenty of gifts for all
souls religious freedom did keep
a wonderment to all
space was great just moved a bit west
more of a man's mettle than a test
so sweet the feel of good history takes
and one becomes the other in the human race

Live and let be voice so often heard
a cry in the wilderness just ignored
in final state a history brought back into fold
a cry for help please save the world from war
idealolgy called the free man and from his self turned
in all of history nothing more did he learn
Use and abuse all the resources of the land
took what he wanted because with power he can

Live and want are now all met but he must take from others
in his need to grow he shows the way to keep from hunger
teaches truths of want and need being met
now his religion and life style are sent
his armies take the ideals and send
no fences left up nothing left to mend
power speaks and death comes
so perfect the rule
but I remember a garden where once there was only two


Chapter 111
A Poet's Question

By Walter L. Jones

Author Note:From the depth of me I lay before you words, read if you can

It was cold and I found myself lost in the reality of being
So wonderful it is to be alive and apart of dreams walking
Sweet dreams and prayers lead me to deep resting sleep.


A poet stops and tastes life
See dreams like no other
Touches a child to the soul

Rips a part the heart of every story told

Walks into the valley of death
Climbs the mountain of life
Challenges the wisdom takes the fools gold

Breaks down the squeals of hell in verse stole


Takes the words and fits the puzzle
Cries from the soul
Touches the face of God

Baby screams he holds

Loves in perfection
Stops for the play with a child
Sees age and appreciates

Hands of life he takes and in anger he folds

Talks too many in one voice
Walks the line between truth and fiction
Leaves his heart and image on the page

Sees angels dance in the snow as other hearts turn cold

Stops for roses and butterflies
Hears angels singing in the wind
Leaves rustling in the night

Picks up his cross and carries it for his words will not be sold

Storms taking pieces of forever
Clouds that form just for him
picture books and rainbows

Puts his heart and soul on the line for those that come in his footsteps
Special the day after rest given and observed
Wonder with the sun, warm to the depth of for ever
A poet maybe, I write my heart and soul

Author Notes For some all that is, never was, for the bottom is lost to the eye and mind closed only to narrow view created by others. No face do they own or soul do they claim. Only trees long since dead in the garden of past. Vision is blocked by the black darkness. Knowledge does not grow it withers and prepares to die. Creativity is a vile and questioned thought. Page goes from black to blacker and the white is but a memory of used to be. Kiss of death is better than, What?... From, Walts book of quotes...copy write 1965


Chapter 113
Special Mother

By Walter L. Jones

she reached for the glass
a dress in wonder stare
dance the pride
for all the family
there

fast and slow the bone rattle well
for in the last
what wonder
their story tell

age makes the mind
a fleeting stage
pride and find
escape the final page

marvel and wonder
as dance tells its tale
a memory left in mind and heart
across the floor she would sail

no grave for this child of God
her bones rattle still
in a house of doctor
where they learn their skill

Ground absorbs our every need
like angels in a sky
pulling every weed
some a coffin
will never need

in our minds she dances every day
smiles abound
across the floor
nary makes a sound

she reached for the glass
a dress in wonder stare
dance the pride
for all the family
there

Author Notes My wife's mother loved to dance and did so into 50's, all the modern dances, upon her death she requested her body be donated, so her bones could rattle still, angie captured her so well, my wife cried for the first time, since her mothers death some 15 years go


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